日子還是這樣在過，學校裡的夥伴不時耳提面命「大考將近，獎學金不能拱手讓人」的事，我知道他是逼著我轉移注意力，也就順著他的意，認真上班、認真上課、認真睡覺，好像我換了個叫「課本」的男友，天天與它相伴，沒見著它的時間，都在夢鄉。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0EkV0AYJ5
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但，無論怎麼讓自己逃開，總有那幾個瞬間，會被回憶淹沒，尤其是，酸楚的回憶。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8DG3oC4nN3
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我把自己關在家幾個禮拜，直到被朋友挖出門。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡark8Kw8WYq
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坐上朋友的車，也不是很在乎要去哪裡，明明身邊有人，但全世界好像剩下自己。
也許這些，都是失去愛情的症狀。
可笑的是我連自己是否曾經「擁有」愛情都不確定。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoR07UbMuh2
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朋友載我到熟悉的山上，我以為他是要去山頂的土地公廟拜拜。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNHyYRZwOdf
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「妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWXzvL57QBt
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBIYvLp8fab
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他不知道我為什麼開始爬山，我又怎麼能怪他呢？756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVj1Qg7UT2u
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意照找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwvTjcbBs0
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「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCmkqmuELZs
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「我哪知道。」756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaivgF17yTh
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「……說的也是。」756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTkPQQPbxo
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我才發現自己的愚蠢。
那是我和張先生一同爬山時，我很常說的話。
他總是像個「山的萬事通」，有問必答，即使在我看來那些山都長得一個模樣，他仍能數家珍般地，念出它們的名。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXl8Wmgb1G7
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黑兔子找我去唱歌，在包廂裡和另一個女生朋友故意想弄哭我，不停點悲傷的歌來唱，一開始我只是笑，笑她們無聊。
直到某首歌的歌詞刺進我的心裡，痛了那麼一下，我哭了，就停不下來。
兩個女生見我掉淚，居然也跟著哭了，還哭得比我悽慘。最後我還得幫她們擦眼淚。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LFk9rkYKm
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我很努力要自己不去怨懟、不去記恨，但總對自己被欺騙一事糾結，同時也怪自己不夠聰明、不夠謹慎。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhy2rVywHD6
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無法灑脫。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoWJpdZ1HKr
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我還是持續的爬山，但不明白自己是因為什麼而爬。
我害怕自己是為了不忘記他，所以更不敢面對這個問題。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5FGMuJIs3P
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直到某次，母親找我一同去爬山。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35RDDyV62F
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那是一座有著神話故事點綴的郊山，山上的涼亭裡還用木板刻著傳說。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡALhZpbL6wR
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「這是我和妳爸爸第一次約會的地方。」756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5tSSDqrTNF
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母親突然提起父親，自他們離異後，母親甚少和我聊父親的事。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqsAW0jE9pc
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「我喜歡運動，妳爸爸不愛。我喜歡在舞池跳舞，他只想坐在沙發聊天。妳爸爸體能好，明明是蛙人，運動神經好，私底下卻懶惰得要命。」756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPbyRn9yhKM
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「但這是我們第一次約會的地方。」756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uCNiU2t73
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我不知道母親為什麼突然說這些。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrg1SS9PwF
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「妳和那個來過家裡的先生，應該沒有再聯絡了吧？」756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzk9NlX7yl
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「沒有了。」我立刻回答。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2HrNuaU3J
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「妳一開始喜歡上爬山，是因為他嗎？」756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQHzirhgwp
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「嗯。」756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3T1xiBFpQ1
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「那他留給妳的影響，就夠了。」756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE4uqcjyQwy
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我還不明白。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡskD5CmasYl
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「妳本來就喜歡小動物、小昆蟲，剛剛一路上來妳都在跟我介紹那些蜘蛛蝸牛，山區就是讓妳更親近牠們的地方，妳這段路爬上來有想到那個男人嗎？」756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0a4CVyVBtj
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「……沒有。」756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqj3bOWCIZG
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「那妳還介意是誰啟發妳喜歡爬山嗎？」756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyPMqVGa6Bl
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我盯著她，努力消化她的話語。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn0YB74gXXZ
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「不管事情是怎麼開始的，只要最後有好的地方值得妳保留就好了。」756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyZdamHJGq
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「妳沒必要忘記。」756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDvU7txBEXx
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我的眼淚差一點就奪眶而出。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PX3ByBWh6
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後來。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqxefD4lSvw
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學期順利結束，我依然拿到系上的獎學金。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qw2Q2cxxT
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真正了解我的家人朋友，都沒有怪我隱瞞他們，我以為會面對很多責怪，卻意外收到過多的心疼。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvLdyYVDrg
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我去爬了更多的山，也因為山結交了更多新朋友，也間接因為爬山認識了現在的男朋友。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFud0pKg9Nk
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在之後我曾和幾個好友在居酒屋裡，酒酣耳熱之際說完了整個故事，朋友們聽到我查證的過程，開玩笑的說「妳怎麼不去徵信社上班啊！」756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtqdn6WtcYB
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而我真的在因緣際會下踏入了徵信業。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQrJGWozbe
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看到了更多更多事例，才知道感情的故事，真的都是一個套路，所以我們總覺得「這首歌在寫我」，「這個故事在說我」…因為我們的感情路，好好壞壞，都差不多會是那個樣子。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFQMGr4tDf
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我沒有繼續怨恨他，但也沒有原諒他，我只是原諒自己。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3VWrcJM0qm
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在寫這篇之前，我偷偷地搜尋了他的名字，發現他們有了個可愛的女兒。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNvorCRggyK
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「希望你專心愛她們。」我發自內心的想。756Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwxxtOmbyW
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