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一八八三年十月五日 夜 寫於廚房82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQms6a0fYPb
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今日天氣難得好，我推阿卡曼先生去院子裡坐了一會兒。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPLmMe8IeL
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院子不大，梧桐的葉子開始落了，地上積著一層，踩上去是軟的。陽光薄，照在身上沒有什麼暖意，但比屋子裡亮。阿卡曼先生坐在輪椅裡，沒有說話，只是看著院子。我在他旁邊站著，也沒有說話。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqE9K0eOclW
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過了一會兒，門口來了一個少年，衣服破舊，帽子壓得很低，遮住大半張臉。他站在鐵柵欄外面，看著我們，說：行行好。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXTDNNwaob
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阿卡曼先生沒有看他，對我說：給他一點錢。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3pXFGjtZLp
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我去摸錢袋，那少年隔著柵欄伸進手來，我把幾個銅板放在手心，正要遞過去，他突然伸手，想抓住我的手腕。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYBS7na6Ror
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我把手縮回來，他沒有抓住，但抓住了吊在我手腕上的錢袋。那少年遠比我預想的有力氣，錢袋的帶子繃緊，扯了兩下裂開了，銅板嘩啦一聲灑在地上，柵欄內外都是。他撿了幾個，轉身便跑。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLYjq6gUgi4
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我抬腳要去追，阿卡曼先生說：回來。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvvDjAPyST
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我停下來。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6pcX9w7Roa
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他的聲音沒有什麼特別的，不是命令，也不是懇求，更不著急。只是兩個字。我回頭看了他一眼，他臉色很差，比平時更差，像是一塊石頭壓在臉上，非常沉。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRk19mAbtMf
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我走回去，站在他旁邊。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWRaNYEa3Lk
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院子裡沒有聲音了，只有風動樹葉。散落的銅板還在地上，我沒有去撿。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7s0a2pu4Cj
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那少年跑遠了，消失在遠處的田野裡。他和我差不多高，跑得很快。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡydkgEvaYNr
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阿卡曼先生看著他消失的方向，許久沒有說話。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4hsFx2axr
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然後他說：損失了多少，我補給妳。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfOmusz3OSw
我說：好。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEIpMLkfLs
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他沒有再說別的，我也沒有。我在他旁邊站著，看著院子裡那些落葉，想著父親的右腿。父親的右腿在我七歲那年傷了，從此左邊的腳替右邊做兩倍的事，走起路來一跛一跛，卻從不讓人扶，誰去扶他就推開誰。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9o3wCu2xlC
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當晚送飯去書房，我知道不該問，但仍問了醫生一件事。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDHIsvgR7V
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我說：先生，請問神經問題是什麼意思？82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQPfRmoaPD
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他放下筆，看了我一眼。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQZR7bJ7NFP
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我猜他為難了，那個答案一定很長，他用不尋常的方式問問題，不代表有不尋常的耐心回答問題。何況，就算他回答了，我也不見得聽得懂。在托洛斯特女子學院待了七年，便能理解醫學博士所研究的艱深知識嗎？82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm451YqOpH0
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但他想了一下之後，說：人的身體裡有一套傳遞訊號的線路，從腦子一路延伸到四肢末端，告訴肌肉什麼時候動、怎麼動。這套線路若是在某處受了傷，訊號傳不過去，那一截以下的肌肉就收不到指令，也就動不了。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWkKMsIOX8
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我意外我沒有一個字聽不懂，說：像電報線斷了？82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2AyPCyxmpI
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他說：正是這個意思。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFv2VsB0We
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我說：那斷了的線能不能接回去？82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN2CQt5AFLU
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他說：要看斷在哪裡，斷得多深。有些損傷會慢慢修復，有些不會。他停了一下，說：阿卡曼先生的情況，我認為還會繼續好轉。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCwTqJLbbcj
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我說：謝謝先生。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKlaaSBdh7q
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他嘴角微微一扯，或許是個苦笑，說：妳比他容易說服。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwaWHeKPJxa
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反而這話我不懂了，問：誰能令你感到無法說服？82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnAV6rayKWX
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他說：目前人類對神經的電生理特性了解有限。神經受損的情況下，肌肉和骨骼都已恢復如初，肢體卻仍動彈不得。見此情景，總有人會懷疑那是意志力不足的緣故，甚至為難自己。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡho1KGUh5Gh
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我說：那影響康復嗎？82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3AaKJ81fz
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他說：那是精神狀態對生理的影響，又是一大課題了。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7XJPAr1CXc
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我感覺再要求他回答下去就越界了，道謝後便退出去了，把門帶上。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFR4bwsg4Gb
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神經間通訊和電有關？我第一次知道。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41q8YjCxIH
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一八八三年十月五日 深夜補記夢境82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfeojuJe7d8
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今夜夢見托洛斯特女子學院。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMtR21MF7Jt
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不是整個學院，只是一扇窗，和窗外的光。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbf4NyrXKDX
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我記得那扇窗在哪裡，在宿舍走廊的盡頭，朝東，冬天的早晨走過去，陽光正好從那個角度照進來，照在走廊的石板地上，一長條，很亮，像是有人把那塊地板專門擦過了。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qdVoKwQAM
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我第一次見到那道光是剛入學不久，九歲，還不清楚自己身在何處，也不清楚自己為什麼在那裡。那天早上我從宿舍出來，走廊裡冷，我低著頭走，然後腳踩進那道光裡。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvC7NaexaT
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我在夢裡也低著頭。腳踩進光裡的時候，我停下來了，然後我抬起頭，看見窗外的天。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh8wWYrbrja
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夢就到這裡。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBCjDDjgI8f
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醒來天還沒亮，我在黑暗裡躺著，想那道光。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSgMorguKks
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我想，若是沒有那筆學費，我不會在那條走廊裡。或許我今天是那個搶錢的少年，潛伏在街角的陰影中，帽子壓得很低，遮住半張臉。或許更糟，我知道會是什麼樣子，就在不久之前我還是那樣的，只是還沒跌到谷底。當時我也沒停過日記，只是我懷疑，這一生，真會有理由去翻看當時的記錄？82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtegOfHUUC
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我欠某個人一道光。我不知道是誰。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQNDOXaMK5K
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我把日記翻頁，記下這個夢，然後把燈芯搖低。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVTL9YDUKfF
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一八八三年十月六日 午後寫於廚房82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhshYwo3ymY
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今天發生了許多事，我在午餐後抽空記下。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxZO5WN2End
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今晨醒得比平時早。天還沒亮，廚房裡的光線是那種將亮未亮的灰。我點了蠟燭，把爐子捅開，添了柴，讓它慢慢燒起來。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡET7F4uA8o0
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然後我看見了灶台的那些東西，晨光照在上面，令我想起昨天深夜的夢。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzr6nbFOSZ3
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它在砧板上，散落，又用某種規律排列著。或許是因為那種安放方式太不尋常，堪稱富有美感，我一時竟沒看出那是食材。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIfBmXJYVI
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我也從沒想過有一天，食材會這般被認真對待，上一家有位法國大廚，總是像國王一樣發號施令，像他指揮著千軍萬馬，但我不認為他有這本事。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7DNf2VDkyp
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我想，這就像是醫生用手術刀分割的，旋即明白『像』是多餘。那就是史密斯醫生的手筆。昨夜屋子中只有三人，阿卡曼先生行動不便，便只能是他。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcHfewJ74h8
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然而，我昨天沒去市場採購，他白天也沒有出門。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKs1bhlj5nb
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我在那裡站了一會兒。爐火在身後，背脊卻傳來一陣寒意。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBNnmck5Zr
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我把窗子關緊。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5lLVX4uPnE
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爐子在燒，水還沒開。貝爾托特和萊納八點才會到。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6eg3Joby2v
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我找出一塊放在櫥櫃深處，平時不用的砧板，認真洗乾淨，擦乾，開始準備早餐。切麵包，取馬鈴薯，把昨日剩下的冷肉拿出來切片。爐上的水開了，沖了茶。馬鈴薯削皮，切塊，放進鍋裡加水煮。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaMVcSwztzG
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我把阿卡曼先生的早餐先裝好，端上樓去。他醒著，已經坐在床沿。我把托盤放在床頭櫃上，說：阿卡曼先生，早餐。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGKVm6PfcM
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他看了我一眼，說：醫生吃了嗎？82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZkmWL9iYFP
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我說：還沒見到，稍後送上去。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrggnx4sD1
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他問我昨夜有沒有聽到什麼動靜？我說沒有，他點了點頭。我退出去。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkyFkHQbQhC
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上樓的時候我敲了醫生的臥室門，沒有人應。經過實驗室的時候，我看見門虛掩著。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQT3mEFZ6G
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我推開門。 82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡABJrhT4jXm
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室內一片狼藉，紙頁散落，試管和燒瓶碎得到處都是。他一動不動趴在地板上，側躺著，臉朝著門的方向，眼睛閉著，頭髮凌亂。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNydcwNWnG3
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我在門口站住了，然後往前一步，在他旁邊蹲下來。他的手是涼的，但沒有冰。我把手指按在他頸側，有脈搏，還在跳。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCJfadYwFWZ
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然後我站起來，下樓。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQVYmbTwt2s
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阿卡曼先生見我去而復返，不解地皺起眉頭。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCVFhBkioi
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我說：醫生倒在地上了。還有呼吸。是否該去請醫生？還是去德克家？82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlZ2uD2pkKl
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他說：去奈爾·德克那裡。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk5Colcjqt5
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我說：好。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYs1MeHziS
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他們是最近的鄰居。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfi16uOZMxV
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我轉身往門口走，聽見身後有重物落地的聲音。回頭一看，阿卡曼先生已從床上摔落。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvEkhyvy5KP
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我心想這下德克先生得把兩個男人弄上床了，若他閃到老腰，這屋裡便有82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgcK2ac79kY
三個人需要幫助，是不是等貝爾托特和萊納來比較好？82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95WztTy6MP
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然而阿卡曼先生扶著床沿，慢慢撐起身體。他的腿在抖，抖得很厲害，但他站了起來，帶倒床邊的椅子。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNM26qi5yzO
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他扶著床，試著往前邁一步。左腳使不上力，拖在地上，右腳勉強撐著。我熟悉那種情況，父親就是這樣，左邊癱了，右邊還有力氣。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YvNEWEz8Y
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我環顧四周，把窗邊那把長柄的撥火棍遞給他。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYPxk2tlW7a
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阿卡曼先生看了我一眼，接過它。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHBfGntfUlo
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他艱難地開始走，我發現我不知他坐在輪椅上多久了，這雙腿上一次自己走路是什麼時候，我從沒問過。跟在他後面，隔著兩三步。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SIEjb253n
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他上樓很慢。我看著他，怕他摔下來，也怕他摔下來的時候連我一起帶下去。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBhkLMAwa7
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小時候在雷貝利歐，父親教過我怎麼摔倒。他說摔的時候要讓身體變圓，不要用手撐。他走著走著會突然推我一下，讓我摔，說要練到不知道什麼時候會摔也能摔對。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZBOadYrmLm
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我很久沒有用過這技巧了，希望今天也不會用到。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPyhGqRRkEr
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他上完樓梯之後沒有回頭，直接往實驗室走。我跟上去。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexHPCWkztz
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醫生還在地上，姿勢和我離開的時候一樣。他蹲下去檢查。按脈搏，翻眼皮，動作很輕。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl58wWHsBcF
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檢查完之後他抬起頭看時鐘。七點半。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2zagNSetK5
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他的臉色變了一下。我猜他在計算時間——若是真情況緊急，從他下床到實驗室的艱苦旅程，已經浪費很多時間了。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡviiwWQ4NBc
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他撐著地板站起來，不想要我扶，但已蹲在地上的情況下不得不然。我協助他在一旁坐好後，他說：等萊納和貝爾托特來。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3faqGdWFn
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我說：不去請奈爾先生？82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBE6dCU8nwK
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他說：不要，他話太多。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5dENgoIYK
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我們就在實驗室等著。時鐘在走，窗外有鳥叫。沒有人說話。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtugDz1F7zl
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貝爾托特和萊納八點十分左右到的時候，我和阿卡曼先生還在實驗室裡。我聽到聲音，去把他們帶上樓，他們注意到阿卡曼先生能走了，但這也不是驚嚇的時候，二人合力把史密斯醫生扶回臥室。我們跟在後面，阿卡曼先生舉步維艱。我得看著他，免得摔倒。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7vu0la3i6S
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把醫生放到床上之後，貝爾托特說：我去請醫生。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpgaXyumsHN
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他剛轉身，史密斯醫生動了一下。他睜開眼睛，看著貝爾托特的方向，非常費力地說：不要。聲音幾乎聽不見。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtxpKIqcwrT
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阿卡曼先生問他為何不請醫生，像是有些惱怒。醫生用命令般的口吻又說了一次：不要請醫生！那句話彷彿用盡他僅剩的力氣，他的眼睛閉上，再次昏了過去。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAhFUpYKLM
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阿卡曼先生站在床尾，我們看著他。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7L5td2EGt9
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不要請了。他宣布。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIImZuRHFX
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貝爾托特要和我一起下樓清理實驗室。水槽的水下不去，塞住了。他弄了一會兒，莫可奈何，說：得拆水管。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡds5q9tAOnX
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他去叫萊納下來，之後自己留在樓上照顧二人。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfhPVrNKebH
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萊納拆開水管，裡面堵著一團糊狀的東西，灰褐色，泡脹了，有酸臭氣。他把那東西清出來，丟在桶子中。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqtQPCIhF92
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他一遍遍洗手，反覆上肥皂沖水。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7W7UxLUu59
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他吩咐般對我說：倒那桶東西時要小心，不要沾到。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0xmXGjEBgR
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他甩了甩手上的水，又說：我懷疑醫生得了傳染病。若我們三個倒下了，可沒人照顧。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCAXtJhXT9S
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之後我回到廚房，砧板上的東西還在那裡。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ7lYPePAUA
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我在那裡站了一會兒。萊納說傳染病，我不知道他說得對不對。醫生還沒有醒，就算醒了，現在去問他砧板上這些要如何處理，也不是時候。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzkS7nz3Ys4
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我去櫃子裡取了鹽，撒上去。鹽粒落在那些切面上，慢慢地滲進去。我找了一塊白布蓋上，仍想著鹽——小時候在雷貝利歐，有人死了，人們會在他眼睛上撒鹽。說是防腐，其實是怕那雙眼睛在夜裡睜開。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qhdIXbcQG
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我把廚房收拾了，把石炭酸皂削了些進熱水裡，把鍋碗和桌面用皂液再擦過，地板也刷了，最後用清水過一遍，那股石炭酸的氣味在廚房裡散開來。假如真是傳染病，目前也只能如此。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr2jB3orYjD
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做完這些後，我去樓上看了一眼，醫生還昏著，呼吸平穩了一點，貝爾托特坐在床邊守著。午餐做了簡便的三明治，阿卡曼先生已經回到自己房間，我敲門送了午飯進去時，他沒有說什麼，吃了。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3NRNEe10ii
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下午要貝爾托特把地毯全拿去外面曬，就算是陰天，至少也接觸到新鮮空氣。之後我如法炮製，把走道和客廳地板也過一遍石炭酸皂液。地板又冷又硬，我跪在上面雙膝生疼。貝爾托特見到了，便來幫我，我們忙到了四點半，一樓還沒弄完。貝爾托特站起來時腳在抖，倒像阿卡曼先生。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNwIACkr6Lh
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之後是晩餐，我猜醫生是不會起來吃，但不可能少他的份。桶裡養著貝爾托特今早從港口帶來的兩條魚，我用了一條，做了兩份魚湯，和好入口的軟卷一起送上去。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡudVAjDNl0W
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阿卡曼先生拄著撥火棍在自己房間踱來踱去，他要我出去，我也沒辦法阻止他，只能由他去了。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1HOePTkHTX
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之後仍是我和地板的戰爭，它彷彿永無止境。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwNwX3kQW4I
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一八八三年十月六日 夜寫於閣樓82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQp801waxz
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入夜後，我將屋內每件事都再確認了一遍，回到閣樓，點了油燈，把日記攤開，揉著膝蓋，回想一天發生的事，看有什麼該補上。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCFqw0opH5
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夜深人靜，我聽見聲音。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIojt6cHzX
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是腳步聲，很輕，從二樓傳來的，之後是下樓梯的聲音。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmamZrmQUJs
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我把筆停下。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1AQnazoo8c
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腳步聲停了，然後是門的聲音，輕輕的，像是一個不想吵醒人的人開門聲。我感覺那是廚房的門。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDDX6uHNMqz
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或許是要水？我回想醫生房間是否備妥飲水。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkZGTVyh7pS
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然後我想到砧板上的東西，白布和鹽。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAOwsbCyeS
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我沒有動，只是記了下來，然後燈芯搖低，熄了火，回到床上。82Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4M999ZY35l
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