本想睡前看書，可是翻了五頁就看不下去。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt8lTcIT0Lt
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在書店試讀時明明還可以，也熟悉世界觀，可為何內容卻很難入腦，是寫得不好嗎？不知道，我不是專業書評人，98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrWZOJuuU9R
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或許，狀態真的太差。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUOC4ErwZs
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我秉持順其自然的原則，不強迫自己看，於是換另外一本，它排版不錯，段落寬，而且還是喜歡的橫向。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBva4ughpXG
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對，我很討厭直式排版。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn1dN0Rjqcn
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這本書的內容嘛，寫得算淺白，語句也流暢，但我依舊不太能專注，內容就像流水一樣，從雙眼流入腦袋，可過一會兒卻從另一端流出，吸收到的卻寥寥無幾。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8EbQD5Ess
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難道，我真的不適合看知識類書籍？還是太累？不知道，也無從知曉，最後選擇直接睡覺。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYvbdYSK2Wp
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睡前，為了讓翌日早晨知道天亮，我把窗簾掀起，只留一層窗紗，讓外面的微光滲入房間。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVqLqvTMBWa
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蓋上被子後，昏暗的氛圍也讓我開始昏沉，我閉上雙眼平躺，本以為夠疲憊就可以很快入睡……98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmcsGPKunVA
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結果，那大概一小時的閉眼功夫卻成了閉目養神，眼皮不再沉重，意識反而更清醒。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡimoLqNGHIZ
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腦海也逐一浮現各種曾經的失誤，尤其是人際關係上的。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOojHnahrv
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每結束一段，下個失誤片段便會出現，不斷地……不斷地，就像幻燈片一樣，而且還越來越清晰，宛如身歷其境。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAjqEUFMQu
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每個看似微不足道的小失誤，都足以讓自己一直辛苦建立的形象徹底崩塌，就像個精心打扮的怪物，稍有差池，便原形畢露。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1XEnKndLP
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曾經人們對我的各種否定聲音，都在腦海不斷回播，我就像個罪犯，在被押上警車前遭千夫所指。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfGQSD5UWRP
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這時候腦海出現另一把聲音安慰我：人不可能完美。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCV3j1N7LJ4
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我知道，也盡力了，可是這種結果……我真的很不想要！98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jpZjZJohm
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「啊啊啊啊……」來自內心深處的哀號已經快把我腦袋貫穿。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7IO16oLNmJ
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夠了，現在開始我不要再覺得自己是個受害者了！98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGMwzRT1pc
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這樣就不會被貼受害者情結標籤了是不是？！98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgWnVbg15qt
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因為我他媽就是加害者，我在加害自己，我現在所有的痛苦，所有的報應，都是我加害自己的！98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLNx2g3mGyj
98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3g0byyIbwd
我沒有被誰針對，沒有人對我惡意，從來沒有，人人都想幫助我的，是我不願意而已，是我這個惡毒的加害者一直加害自己。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz9FRbIYp69
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放心，報應還在持續，這個可怕的惡魔在未來就會被自己的黑暗所吞噬，放心，到時候我這個加害者就會成為英雄，他媽的英雄！98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgvQvVJRjHp
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內耗該結束了，回到當下吧！98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcCz0xG69pi
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於是我強迫自己不再胡思亂想，可是一直輾轉，也嘗試強迫自己全身不動，想像自己是冰櫃中的遺體，是海灘的石頭，依舊被周公依拒於門外，彷彿不配進入夢鄉。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUkvCe5YdTT
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忽然，全身開始躁動，甚至感覺有股亂流在胸腔堵塞，想吐出也無法，吞下也不行。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexu2RhIqY2
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我真的快受不了……98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnBfIKCSWq7
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好折磨……不如殺了我算……98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYi0NKgvsfH
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我試圖放鬆全身，右手按著胸口，嘗試深呼吸，可忍不了十妙，就快要不行了。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsH3ieMq4be
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甚至已經開始頭暈。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj22rhy01jw
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我真受夠了！幹！98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1GhIoO2VCf
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我一怒之下，踹開被子，像喪屍般一邊喘息。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrZ8G5nouEW
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若非怕投訴，踹被子時候真想同時大吼。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0JjVIjHCX
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我轉身單手撐起全身，艱難爬起。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IG7Jvx34E
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我上半身已無力挺拔，只能像個駝背老人一樣，扶著牆面，拖著沉重的軀殼往那透微弱白光的紗窗走去。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzqsqw8E5xG
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我拉開窗紗，這黯淡又普通的臺北夜景出現在眼前，因高度不足，未能望向遠方鬧市，所以沒有燈紅酒綠的高樓大廈，也沒有高聳的101，只有一排又一排灰色水泥牆低層公寓，每戶的標配都是鐵窗花、鐵皮屋頂、水管，還有象徵歲月的剝落牆皮。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pPhnkylbV
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雖然是常見街景，卻讓我知道這明顯是臺北。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8KbkeiUBja
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街道無人，可街燈依舊亮著，馬路無車，紅綠燈還運作。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtaHJHMGOxD
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不知為何，這畫面很可笑，但這明明是理所當然，因為沒人知道，街上何時會再次出現路人，可城市依舊為了那微小的機率消耗大量電力。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6QSu2ahaTv
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我本想出去，可又懶得換衣服，也不知去哪兒？98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOca3TmjUQH
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而且，出去容易一身汗，有人說，夏夜微涼，可如今全球暖化，加上我是個怕熱的人，啊不對，可以洗澡。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡflAmuuyY7R
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可是夏天蚊子很多……98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGw9wNcI4Q1
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算了，不管，我還真沒體驗過，當作冒險也可以，順便去買點吃的。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QulMU4NgC
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有了明確目的後，我果斷換上衣服，拿好房卡，踏出房門。98Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiw8hvsC1M5
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