本想睡前看書,可是翻了五頁就看不下去。59Please respect copyright.PENANAl4P3xt0hHW
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在書店試讀時明明還可以,也熟悉世界觀,可為何內容卻很難入腦,是寫得不好嗎?不知道,我不是專業書評人,59Please respect copyright.PENANASOHzVezXYs
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或許,狀態真的太差。59Please respect copyright.PENANAiWHCGt8bw9
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我秉持順其自然的原則,不強迫自己看,於是換另外一本,它排版不錯,段落寬,而且還是喜歡的橫向。59Please respect copyright.PENANAWaneD34orL
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對,我很討厭直式排版。59Please respect copyright.PENANAAu9NnZ1h7v
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這本書的內容嘛,寫得算淺白,語句也流暢,但我依舊不太能專注,內容就像流水一樣,從雙眼流入腦袋,可過一會兒卻從另一端流出,吸收到的卻寥寥無幾。59Please respect copyright.PENANAHCTMPioPoj
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難道,我真的不適合看知識類書籍?還是太累?不知道,也無從知曉,最後選擇直接睡覺。59Please respect copyright.PENANAQAFWgP40ke
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睡前,為了讓翌日早晨知道天亮,我把窗簾掀起,只留一層窗紗,讓外面的微光滲入房間。59Please respect copyright.PENANAkzM7V13oTh
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蓋上被子後,昏暗的氛圍也讓我開始昏沉,我閉上雙眼平躺,本以為夠疲憊就可以很快入睡……59Please respect copyright.PENANAFaMGWtCQkD
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結果,那大概一小時的閉眼功夫卻成了閉目養神,眼皮不再沉重,意識反而更清醒。59Please respect copyright.PENANApeFPvSzZ4V
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腦海也逐一浮現各種曾經的失誤,尤其是人際關係上的。59Please respect copyright.PENANANEfIe2pwnL
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每結束一段,下個失誤片段便會出現,不斷地……不斷地,就像幻燈片一樣,而且還越來越清晰,宛如身歷其境。59Please respect copyright.PENANA2r5ctqETPZ
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每個看似微不足道的小失誤,都足以讓自己一直辛苦建立的形象徹底崩塌,就像個精心打扮的怪物,稍有差池,便原形畢露。59Please respect copyright.PENANAkCFQUhbJRF
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曾經人們對我的各種否定聲音,都在腦海不斷回播,我就像個罪犯,在被押上警車前遭千夫所指。59Please respect copyright.PENANAgAZ5isgKOp
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這時候腦海出現另一把聲音安慰我:人不可能完美。59Please respect copyright.PENANAkYQDqmwMpa
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我知道,也盡力了,可是這種結果……我真的很不想要!59Please respect copyright.PENANAPqrHU0JP4x
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「啊啊啊啊……」來自內心深處的哀號已經快把我腦袋貫穿。59Please respect copyright.PENANAyHEWPujaOG
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夠了,現在開始我不要再覺得自己是個受害者了!59Please respect copyright.PENANArv4JoM3xWU
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這樣就不會被貼受害者情結標籤了是不是?!59Please respect copyright.PENANAQIXUDQMB1H
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因為我他媽就是加害者,我在加害自己,我現在所有的痛苦,所有的報應,都是我加害自己的!59Please respect copyright.PENANAYMX1dtitj6
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我沒有被誰針對,沒有人對我惡意,從來沒有,人人都想幫助我的,是我不願意而已,是我這個惡毒的加害者一直加害自己。59Please respect copyright.PENANA4YOoJH51WD
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放心,報應還在持續,這個可怕的惡魔在未來就會被自己的黑暗所吞噬,放心,到時候我這個加害者就會成為英雄,他媽的英雄!59Please respect copyright.PENANANm4WVJtNNo
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內耗該結束了,回到當下吧!59Please respect copyright.PENANAALhYDAL5T2
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於是我強迫自己不再胡思亂想,可是一直輾轉,也嘗試強迫自己全身不動,想像自己是冰櫃中的遺體,是海灘的石頭,依舊被周公依拒於門外,彷彿不配進入夢鄉。59Please respect copyright.PENANAeJs8qUZYT1
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忽然,全身開始躁動,甚至感覺有股亂流在胸腔堵塞,想吐出也無法,吞下也不行。59Please respect copyright.PENANAe6JuZM5Hjo
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我真的快受不了……59Please respect copyright.PENANArIpVeMSDxH
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好折磨……不如殺了我算……59Please respect copyright.PENANAIDlzWCbKv8
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我試圖放鬆全身,右手按著胸口,嘗試深呼吸,可忍不了十妙,就快要不行了。59Please respect copyright.PENANASdS6mBSbfe
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甚至已經開始頭暈。59Please respect copyright.PENANA76CsTJjl0Q
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我真受夠了!幹!59Please respect copyright.PENANAqlQmaLeHuA
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我一怒之下,踹開被子,像喪屍般一邊喘息。59Please respect copyright.PENANAIUTEiNgTIv
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若非怕投訴,踹被子時候真想同時大吼。59Please respect copyright.PENANAzzrdxAkbTW
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我轉身單手撐起全身,艱難爬起。59Please respect copyright.PENANAoAhDz6c3Lf
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我上半身已無力挺拔,只能像個駝背老人一樣,扶著牆面,拖著沉重的軀殼往那透微弱白光的紗窗走去。59Please respect copyright.PENANAbGkf7RsRCz
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我拉開窗紗,這黯淡又普通的臺北夜景出現在眼前,因高度不足,未能望向遠方鬧市,所以沒有燈紅酒綠的高樓大廈,也沒有高聳的101,只有一排又一排灰色水泥牆低層公寓,每戶的標配都是鐵窗花、鐵皮屋頂、水管,還有象徵歲月的剝落牆皮。59Please respect copyright.PENANAHfojNQSBFl
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雖然是常見街景,卻讓我知道這明顯是臺北。59Please respect copyright.PENANAQ90aoaq15e
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街道無人,可街燈依舊亮著,馬路無車,紅綠燈還運作。59Please respect copyright.PENANAWfcDB0Hejn
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不知為何,這畫面很可笑,但這明明是理所當然,因為沒人知道,街上何時會再次出現路人,可城市依舊為了那微小的機率消耗大量電力。59Please respect copyright.PENANAOKi5w94pjW
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我本想出去,可又懶得換衣服,也不知去哪兒?59Please respect copyright.PENANANK0z3X8mTa
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而且,出去容易一身汗,有人說,夏夜微涼,可如今全球暖化,加上我是個怕熱的人,啊不對,可以洗澡。59Please respect copyright.PENANAM8ATzAVN6v
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可是夏天蚊子很多……59Please respect copyright.PENANAxM5iFjNGhk
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算了,不管,我還真沒體驗過,當作冒險也可以,順便去買點吃的。59Please respect copyright.PENANAchLTjNDKhc
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有了明確目的後,我果斷換上衣服,拿好房卡,踏出房門。59Please respect copyright.PENANAmH7LNeB6WJ
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北城異鄉客
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墨隱藏鋒
ISSUE #22
第二十二章:失眠
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