November faded.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9aOJguqaRw
December froze.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwduHMxSZeV
January drifted by in silence.
Three months passed, and with every day, I kept asking myself the same questions.
What happened?78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpaLLFiMQj4
Why the sudden change?78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2Fp1S2AoW
What about everything we planned for — the little things, the big things, the quiet promises, the late-night talks, the classes?
Had it all meant nothing?
While I kept overthinking and pretending to be okay, the third semester slipped by.
And the fourth began.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTTRmhHhGtQ
At the end of January.
Still no response from her.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS1cUac9lRq
No message.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6ESpHVQic
No eye contact.
I told myself — maybe she’s just thinking about her future.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubhbRdMev4
Maybe it’s a phase.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnctG7LLOGh
Maybe she’ll return when she's ready.
That’s when I got selected into Owl Coder. along with some other second years.
One of the most prestigious training programs our college had.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7V94Gvfhw
It was meant for the third years.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PCizwMtbV
But I got in — in my second year.
It should’ve felt like a crown.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54aX0p6pHb
But all I felt was the hollow absence of someone to place it on my head.
She wasn’t there to hear the news.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy0qPmfiPoS
To congratulate me.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8haU9ukzuZ
To tease me.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSk9XBLAJj
To be proud.
And that silence made the success… feel like ash.
The Owl Coder program was intense.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyeTZrExiG
It started at 5 PM and ended at midnight — with just a dinner break in between.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCFRJ9YXNX
We were expected to stay in the hostel throughout.
No sunlight.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjEli8bw6Wa
No sleep.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Mp7S9ZeeN
No time.
I was running on caffeine, coping with cold metal bunk beds and the constant hum of exhausted ambition.
So during the day’s technical hub sessions…78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGOFwTK8GEk
I slept.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoH5dHLUbm
An excuse disguised as exhaustion.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1KA7X1Yxj
A mask for what I couldn’t confess — that I just didn’t have it in me anymore.
This semester's subjects were Operating Systems and DBMS.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNSRAzQjKwf
Three days a week in Thub, threee days in regular classes.
There went my attendance…78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYiHffAS6j4
Flying out the window like a bird that no longer cared to return.
Inside Owl Coder, I got to know how selections happened.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7n9X5uKvrb
How people were noticed.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcC07XNpwQ
How chances bloomed and vanished in a blink.
All I wanted to do was explain it all to her.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnhk3QH0lw
To help her — even if I could no longer be near her.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTe5408b08y
Even if I was just a background character now.
I texted her.
Asked if she could meet in the library — just for a moment.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ49BrRgfzBs
I waited.
She replied:
“I’ll be late. I have class.”
That was it.
A sentence.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8vPs1Qaag8
A dagger.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwG8uNTEDkF
A quiet way of saying, You’re not important enough to wait for.
And yet I still hoped.
Then one evening, everything cracked.
I was walking toward the hostel.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtlfYLMvreC
From the buses, through the mango gardens — one of the quietest, most serene places in our campus.
I saw her.
Sitting under the trees.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnzFv26eM0I
With Ren.
Talking.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuEiOH1vQHX
Smiling.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHV4QXsplEF
Laughing.
I couldn’t stop.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPQwpGRVXRG
I couldn’t go back.
I ran past them — like a ghost of someone who once mattered.
My heart screamed:
“Why… can you talk to him, but not to me?”78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB6Iv2R0Ego
“What did I do… that made me forgettable?”78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡReauw0w1wK
Or its just maybe me, who is overthinking.
The following days blurred.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtjlZsi5UE2
I wasn’t myself.
A haunted version of who I once was —78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfn813ASzcr
Lost in old texts, lost in memories.
I texted her again.
This time, everything I had.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQTFmxhhCxF
Every unspoken word.
She replied.
It was reassuring.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26FPB8VcIW
Warm, maybe.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NGTihQTPh
But it felt forced — like something written more out of duty than care.
And that’s when it happened.
She became a stranger.
The third name I gave her.
She said:
“I have a lot going on. I don’t want to get involved. I care for you…”
Then why did I feel like I only existed in her joy?
Was I meant to only be her comfort, her tutor, her support —78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPdTDTfwKgm
and when the storms came, someone to lock away?
Was I disposable when I hurt, but valuable when she smiled?
Then the final blow.
I heard she wouldn’t be continuing in Technical Hub anymore.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tY2kauND2
That she was stepping away from the journey we once shared.
My chest sank.
It was true.
She was walking a road I would never again walk beside her.
Still… I wrote to her.
One heartfelt message.
Encouraging her.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PxiiaIYrA
Reminding her of how much potential she had.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmvSu54CjvI
That the world still waited for her — even if I no longer did.
She replied:
“That made my day…”
And maybe that was enough.
Maybe, sometimes, we don't get closure.78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDEvRtHcJF
We just get moments like this —78Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ1aISHqqBT
A soft echo that reminds us it was real… once.
Even if now, all that remains is a ghost, a third name, and a message.
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