Who am I?82Please respect copyright.PENANA8EIceIrg6U
This question trills through my mind every second of the day.82Please respect copyright.PENANABrsIevTaxw
For 23 years of my life, I used to be a follower—a good child to my sensitive family.
I was a husband to my mother and a son to my father—except for the duty of being a daughter to my mother.
I had forgotten my dreams. It felt like sacrificing myself just for my family.82Please respect copyright.PENANAzdIUSsHnHc
But I couldn’t continue down that path, so I decided to choose myself for the first time and try to do something for me.82Please respect copyright.PENANAMBnHFl3ikJ
I came to Germany from a faraway country to study and find myself.82Please respect copyright.PENANAf1sEm4j7vC
It’s been a year here in this beautiful city,82Please respect copyright.PENANAbZ6VifecSi
but I feel like I’m stuck.82Please respect copyright.PENANA27eM0NkdBq
I don’t know what I want.82Please respect copyright.PENANALBfWqgDtTB
I’m lost and filled with anger toward everything.
I used to sacrifice my dreams, but now—though I no longer want that—I’m still drowning in it...82Please respect copyright.PENANAwC3HkkB7la
I want to have a dream.82Please respect copyright.PENANAW3CKlxuvee
Have a goal.82Please respect copyright.PENANAm4FpKobXzn
Try to achieve it...82Please respect copyright.PENANAJJbxwoolg7
But I can’t.
When I open my eyes, I don’t know what I want.82Please respect copyright.PENANALUSEFGzMfX
I know I want to want something—but what?
In the silence of night, in the darkness,82Please respect copyright.PENANAUyaOCkBPbo
I’m alone, trying to dream,82Please respect copyright.PENANALRx9QI4U4k
but my mind can’t seem to dream...
But I’m here,82Please respect copyright.PENANAF8Tkm2PkND
after a long journey,82Please respect copyright.PENANAn78V80tnuI
that I’ll write in tiny, minuscule parts...82Please respect copyright.PENANAfaWjYCn75j