Who am I?171Please respect copyright.PENANAOfZTLGZQ5i
This question trills through my mind every second of the day.171Please respect copyright.PENANAJMuf184ZVe
For 23 years of my life, I used to be a follower—a good child to my sensitive family.
I was a husband to my mother and a son to my father—except for the duty of being a daughter to my mother.
I had forgotten my dreams. It felt like sacrificing myself just for my family.171Please respect copyright.PENANAvNdRAn0tmm
But I couldn’t continue down that path, so I decided to choose myself for the first time and try to do something for me.
I came to Germany from a faraway country to study and find myself.171Please respect copyright.PENANAytO1uCwAVh
It’s been a year here in this beautiful city,171Please respect copyright.PENANAOWuRm5wATJ
but I feel like I’m stuck.171Please respect copyright.PENANAzT5V5oKT0A
I don’t know what I want.171Please respect copyright.PENANAzem8rmxU52
I’m lost and filled with anger toward everything.
I used to sacrifice my dreams, but now—though I no longer want that—I’m still drowning in it...171Please respect copyright.PENANAKhaJhPhXac
I want to have a dream.171Please respect copyright.PENANAczQHNAgjO3
Have a goal.171Please respect copyright.PENANArVSm5NM8iW
Try to achieve it...171Please respect copyright.PENANALGA4yjhMj7
But I can’t.
When I open my eyes, I don’t know what I want.171Please respect copyright.PENANAUQthn5Q8n7
I know I want to want something—but what?
In the silence of night, in the darkness,171Please respect copyright.PENANALmpBvhG2JK
I’m alone, trying to dream,171Please respect copyright.PENANAF1We67jLaL
but my mind can’t seem to dream...
But I’m here,171Please respect copyright.PENANAjJjb345ddk
after a long journey,171Please respect copyright.PENANAvgEXEviHLF
that I’ll write in tiny, minuscule parts...171Please respect copyright.PENANANzRzLc65Gt