Who am I?52Please respect copyright.PENANAyazB2GIwid
This question trills through my mind every second of the day.52Please respect copyright.PENANAZOhQw1pKtY
For 23 years of my life, I used to be a follower—a good child to my sensitive family.
I was a husband to my mother and a son to my father—except for the duty of being a daughter to my mother.
I had forgotten my dreams. It felt like sacrificing myself just for my family.52Please respect copyright.PENANA4RfsQg6iZU
But I couldn’t continue down that path, so I decided to choose myself for the first time and try to do something for me.
I came to Germany from a faraway country to study and find myself.52Please respect copyright.PENANAmlYWG04zVM
It’s been a year here in this beautiful city,52Please respect copyright.PENANAOYKvUGyfCJ
but I feel like I’m stuck.52Please respect copyright.PENANAjYA18q8N8X
I don’t know what I want.52Please respect copyright.PENANArnRW6IvIJS
I’m lost and filled with anger toward everything.
I used to sacrifice my dreams, but now—though I no longer want that—I’m still drowning in it...52Please respect copyright.PENANAvxwkvh6SmT
I want to have a dream.52Please respect copyright.PENANARKNMn1so96
Have a goal.52Please respect copyright.PENANAFiAB3ivQLj
Try to achieve it...52Please respect copyright.PENANAIxFuZJnLGN
But I can’t.
When I open my eyes, I don’t know what I want.52Please respect copyright.PENANA7ESegJhpWR
I know I want to want something—but what?
In the silence of night, in the darkness,52Please respect copyright.PENANAlRejAdgo4t
I’m alone, trying to dream,52Please respect copyright.PENANAa8MaTJr9jy
but my mind can’t seem to dream...
But I’m here,52Please respect copyright.PENANAp8QOtcN82F
after a long journey,52Please respect copyright.PENANAhJygtX6LzA
that I’ll write in tiny, minuscule parts...52Please respect copyright.PENANA1uDMc2Zv3P