Who am I?94Please respect copyright.PENANAzUTmVoXQ06
This question trills through my mind every second of the day.94Please respect copyright.PENANASwmrJQfOkV
For 23 years of my life, I used to be a follower—a good child to my sensitive family.
I was a husband to my mother and a son to my father—except for the duty of being a daughter to my mother.
I had forgotten my dreams. It felt like sacrificing myself just for my family.94Please respect copyright.PENANA4iqYNgak5n
But I couldn’t continue down that path, so I decided to choose myself for the first time and try to do something for me.94Please respect copyright.PENANAfoQYMzee0q
I came to Germany from a faraway country to study and find myself.94Please respect copyright.PENANA6wYqE0jrk5
It’s been a year here in this beautiful city,94Please respect copyright.PENANANdUfxjeAtR
but I feel like I’m stuck.94Please respect copyright.PENANAVoXYfgdHiS
I don’t know what I want.94Please respect copyright.PENANARiFkw5usPf
I’m lost and filled with anger toward everything.
I used to sacrifice my dreams, but now—though I no longer want that—I’m still drowning in it...94Please respect copyright.PENANARhpQl6Qtzd
I want to have a dream.94Please respect copyright.PENANAvhdRBIsTyx
Have a goal.94Please respect copyright.PENANAJfjeWo6w1c
Try to achieve it...94Please respect copyright.PENANAhqo7gsjioF
But I can’t.
When I open my eyes, I don’t know what I want.94Please respect copyright.PENANAsREOQikqX3
I know I want to want something—but what?
In the silence of night, in the darkness,94Please respect copyright.PENANAzRkPV1Npbh
I’m alone, trying to dream,94Please respect copyright.PENANAgzgk2xED6O
but my mind can’t seem to dream...
But I’m here,94Please respect copyright.PENANABahBekBcLG
after a long journey,94Please respect copyright.PENANAvNFf2Vdk44
that I’ll write in tiny, minuscule parts...94Please respect copyright.PENANAdTCwQREIHY