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     For long minutes, I stroke Jessy's wet hair, trying to soothe his pain, his fears. When he straightens his face, he seems ashamed to have cried in my arms. Delicately, I wipe away his last tears, surprised that he lets me do it, and smile at him to reassure him.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1GcMmZ8qC
    We set off on our way back in torrential rain, yet we walk peacefully, savoring the fact of being together. I don't care if it rains as long as I'm with him.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKvgD41vq0b
    — Anyway, we're already soaked, I answer Jessy when he asks me if I want to run to get to his house faster. It'll be OK ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJcJlk6LSX
    — Yeah, I think so.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1VEgJl6oaK
    — Jessy, please promise me you’ll never let yourself fall into the void like that again. I got the fright of my life.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPD60zBwEz
    Hands in his pockets, he shrugs his shoulders and breathes deeply before telling me : 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZugq2a91jf
    — Promise. Why do you care about me so much ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpldAQ3ryBn
    His question makes my heart beat faster. I'm not ready to tell him the feelings he inspires in me. I have to analyze them first and try to find out what he feels. So even though I feel my cheeks turning pink, I answer him evasively.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFt3WWq1edZ
    — Why not ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zDMdd5AA8
    — When people learn about AIDS, they turn their backs on me. This is why my mother and I came to live here. Even my father-in-law couldn't stand me living under his roof anymore.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡytxhJ9icRr
    — There are morons everywhere, I whisper. Jessy, I like you. I'm not going to start ignoring you because you have a health problem.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqvaKSh1AJ
    — Thank you, he murmurs, pursing his lips. I'm sorry for everything I said to you. I didn't mean to be so rude.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tXfnGdfOe
    His unexpected apology really makes me happy. When Jessy stops telling me off, I see in him the boy I had guessed at first glance : A good guy to whom difficult things happen. I think that's why he always tries to show an angry face, he has suffered so much that he doesn't want people to perceive his fragility.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQOA926hlsx
    — It's forgotten. By the way, I met your mother. She seems very nice.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJSBKDtIMxn
    Despite our slow walk, we already arrive in front of his house.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWDDNBLsnHC
    — She is. Do you want me to take you home ? I can borrow his car.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg6kpZ2jQQR
    — No, it is going to be fine. I don't want to get the seats soggy, I smile. See you tomorrow ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQoe7TytXZt
    I am happy to see him nod with a big smile. And as I walk away, I realize I've never been closer to him than I am tonight.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmE1HlGJ5l
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    It's almost 11 p.m. when I get home, completely soaked. My parents are waiting for me, impatient and worried.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4hFwBzcj39
    — Finally, here you are, my father roared. Look at you, you're good at wringing ! 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTAVaAqklFo
    — Were you with Jessy ? My mother asks in her usual soft voice.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVv4Ig8feHB
    I nod, shivering from the cold.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfI8ifwyv5
    — We spoke with Mrs. Sutter at the meeting. She told us that her son had been missing for hours and that she had no idea where he might be. She was very worried about him, my father told me.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSAE88AkzLv
    — He went back home. How did the meeting go ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIrtyFhUPp
    — Start by drying off, we'll tell you later.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqTs59Ex7MG
    I head into the bathroom where I warm up quickly and quickly put on my pajamas, as well as a warm dressing gown, as I can't wait to see how the evening unfolds. I find my parents in the living room, where everyone, in an armchair, drinks coffee while waiting for me.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDx0I99Fnx
    — So how did it go ? I said, sitting across from them on the couch.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpDTjTTaKht
    — Difficult to say, my father grimaces. The principal had asked a doctor to come and answer the parents' questions. It calmed some when he assured their children were not at risk of breathing the same air as Jessy or touching him. But other parents are obtuse and want him to be expelled at all costs. They are simply scared to death, to the point of not understanding that AIDS is not caught like that.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXrSrGMbQj
    — Mrs. Sutter spoke, saying how much she loves her son and that there is no risk in sharing his life since she has been doing it for a year without problem, my mother added. She is a very dignified and courageous woman. She told us you came to see her.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXMxer1jRB3
    — Indeed, I was looking for Jessy.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4HqhHOQSmI
    — Nina told us that you went looking for him after Chad’s visit. Did you find it ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ38VcMLulJa
    — Yes, and as far as you know, it’s over between Chad and me.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GJSmO1mXp
    Contrary to what I thought, my father doesn't seem surprised. My mother must have already told him about it. However, I don't like the look they exchange before my mother asks me : 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfwf18FOBCI
    — Because of Jessy ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89jp0p4qu2
    — Yes and no. Jessy and I are friends. But let’s say that meeting him allowed me to open my eyes to Chad and his little world. I realized that, contrary to what I believed, I am not in love with him. I like him a lot but in a friendly way.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkcFJ273C4Z
    Once again my parents exchange this strange look which seems to mean that they are not at the end of their trouble with me.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw1n6EFE1nn
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    The next morning, when I arrived near the school, I saw Jessy waiting outside on the sidewalk.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzWEAAWn5w
    — Hi, how are you ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvL2lhWSINo
    He puts a hand to his heart.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBwuYW2rEci
    — Oh, you scared me ! 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOZ6FkEJozA
    I burst out laughing.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtNso3vwKj
    — That’s for the scare you gave me last night ! 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ5fsNKUEHg
    — It’s fair game, he smiled.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGq8iTCzhM
    He stares at the large white building without taking a step towards it. Since I stayed in his arms the day before for several minutes, he no longer intimidates me as much, and this impression of knowing him for a long time has strengthened. I saw his fragility behind his anger, I saw his despair, but also his strength.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWhEtElABUZ
    — Are you planning to come to class today ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIGiqiIvvBX
    — I don't know. After what happened yesterday...and then this meeting.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzaoIgYynm
    He huffs and then purses his lips, visibly uncomfortable.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7cT3O47OYp
    — Did your mother tell you ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMKt07sOZ1
    — Yes, apparently the parents can't do anything against me, but there is always the possibility that they will contact the academy and file a complaint to have me fired. In fact, I wonder if it wouldn't be better if I gave up... 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡthiIyjoSVq
    — No way ! 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31PIg5xglp
    Jessy looks at me, surprised.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETHYYcj5AM
    — We'll go together and everything will go well, you'll see.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4LZF3PL7T
    — There are looks that are sometimes hard to bear, he admits to me.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNOfXne12Om
    However, I notice that he accompanies me towards high school.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8JmEdSPy0a
    — I believe that, unfortunately, you can never please everyone, so give a chance to know you to those who want it and forget the morons.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtXCvpsuVBq
    We enter the main hallway, students turn to look at us as I continue talking so that he focuses more on my voice than on the eyes focused on him.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrCVolEOix
    — With time, there will be those who will realize who you really are and they will come to you, as for those who continue to criticize you, act as if they don't exist. They're the idiots, not you.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHT6DrTvvpD
    I meet the gaze of a tall guy, named Tyler, who grimaces when he hears me.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCC1aNNaGV6
    — Yes, complete idiots, I said again in a louder voice.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLa2BTAskJJ
    Jessy gives me a grateful smile.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzgnnuGwHN
    — Oh, it’s getting bad, he murmurs.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXLyHjI6BJy
    I follow his gaze and see Chad striding towards us. He stands in front of Jessy and, after a few seconds of hesitation, offers his hand.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡumbISxN7db
    — I'm sorry for yesterday. For the fight…and everything else. I should never have listened to your conversation and above all I should never have repeated his secret. I'm really sorry.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62vVaBYNUl
     Jessy hesitates for a few seconds then squeezes his hand, nodding.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunmV5oEW7Z
    — Thanks.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7NP1YWYzue
    His eyes move from Jessy to me, he doesn't seem to know how to behave around me anymore.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoZbCVNLEgL
    Around us, several students observe the scene. Chad is the most popular boy in school and I suspect that after this reconciling handshake, the attitude of some people will change.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdHgrOZ4lXh
    He taps Jessy on the shoulder and says — See you later and walks away.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN0sUXQeNFn
    — It’s weird that Chad came to apologize. Did you ask him to do it ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzpQU4f00CI
    — No, he did it alone, but you know, he’s like that. He is impulsive, but quickly regrets his outbursts... I feel, more than I see, Jessy looking at me in profile.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5ciOT7krT
    — What ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3WIn2Jego
    I turn my head towards him.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJjituqbsvp
    — Why did you break up ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYRSBCyW9S
    — We are too different.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ41AnH14nnd
    I shrug my shoulders as if it were obvious.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBWkJc1qwt0
    — And are you okay ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0b4nm6thZ
    I see in his eyes that he really cares about me, it warms my heart.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgi3xh4UTg
    — Alright.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYjJrFIi5Y6
    A small smile appears at the corners of his lips.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFEysR76Qmr
    — I know you don't like Chad very much, but erase that little smug look. (I smile in turn as the bell rings for the start of classes.) We're going to be late, come on.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6ceRThRFZ
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    In the days that followed, things calmed down at the school. I can't say that Jessy goes unnoticed, but he is seen less as an outcast, which is already a small victory. At school, I was always the model student, collecting good grades. The super serious girl who has the teachers on her side. When I dated Chad, who is the most popular guy, I became popular and other girls tended to take their cues from me. So, even if there are a few who look away and whisper as she passes, most of the students are starting to accept Jessy. Since the evening on the bridge, we have spent a lot of time together. I prefer to be with him rather than with my pseudo friends : Pearl and especially Amy, who has turned her back on me since Chad and I separated.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpiVumCqhcE
    Jessy has become my best friend. I can talk to him about everything without being afraid that he will judge me; however, he always gives me his honest opinion.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHrzEb2NG0W
    Jessy lived surrounded by family and friends before learning of his HIV status, but he told me that when those close to him learned of his illness, everyone turned their backs on him and, overnight, he found himself abandoned. Only his mother remained near him. By moving to Millisky where Mrs. Sutter found a job as a secretary in a bank, she hoped that her son would finally be able to return to a normal life.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR54ZZkewe7
    The more I get to know him and the less I want this solitary life for him, it's like a kind of mission that I have set for myself. I may not be able to save him, but I can make him smile again. Also, I force him to accompany me to the cinema, to the theater, to fast food. Jessy complains, protests, sometimes drags his feet, but in the end, I always make him give in.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡks7B6Gy3Ba
    — You've lived locked up enough like that ! » is my key phrase to convince him.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU0SGcemhJ0
    He then rolls his eyes, huffing in exasperation while his cross— shaped earring swings to the rhythm of his breathing. Finally, he looks at me with a little smile which alone symbolizes my victory.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkWrPOJadKx
    I am myself with him. We have a lot of tastes in common, we laugh at the same jokes, we talk about everything and nothing without ever getting tired of it. And when I'm not with him, he haunts my mind. He is the first person I think of in the morning when I wake up and the last in the evening before I go to sleep. In a few weeks, it has invaded my life and I hope more than anything that it continues as long as possible.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY2DEBTFAEq
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    — Hello Mrs. Sutter, are you well ? I say happily as I enter the living room, accompanied by Jessy.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgs7FNPhn8
    Over the past few weeks, I've been spending so much time at the Sutters' that it feels like my second home. I really like Jessy's mother. Just by his look, we perceive his kindness and his strength. I am always welcome at their home and even though Jessy can come to my house whenever he wants, I understand that he is more comfortable in his environment.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLR4lMDpbP
    — Good Meg and you ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ64DMMAgKcm
    — I’m fine.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuATha9QMuc
    Elise gets up while Jessy goes to turn on the television.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVgZiNIt6uq
    — What movie are you going to watch ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtYRLSFxUEU
    — Ghost ! With a big smile, I show the video tape I brought, asking him : Are you staying to watch it with us ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYIypoBdM5
    — Unfortunately, I can't. I have not finished completing a loan application for a client. I’m going to go lock myself in my room with this file, she sighs.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6a2elUD6Jb
    — Good luck, Mrs Sutter. 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7sX77CQEW
    She takes a few steps away before turning back to me.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVSfXUAlaEx
    — Meg, for the hundredth time, call me Elise.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ8iOuHIyqo
    — I'll try, I promise.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgIP4lKX01y
    His mother leaves the room, leaving us alone.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsZkTtjk7H
    — Pop corn ? Jessy asks me. I only have salty, I don't like sweet.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdtjkmLsctp
    — That suits me very well.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVPrQb8KNsO
    Once the popcorn is in a large bowl, we sit on the sofa in front of the television. Almost two hours later, I overcame my fear that he would send me away for daring to lean my head on Jessy's shoulder. To my great relief, he just smiled as he continued to watch the film. Now that it is ending, I can no longer contain my emotion and shed many tears.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EinesP6oy
    — Don’t make fun, I said, seeing him laugh discreetly.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbgmHv8Mv9n
    I stand up and stretch before wiping my eyes.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRsn4gAUrR2
    — Patrick Swayze is too sexy, I comment.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8t1YYE0wNf
    — Demi Moore is not to be outdone, he sighs, lowering his head.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtTTgHNMJnD
    He suddenly seems sad, which worries me.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡinsB0IxAm4
    — Isn't that okay ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5n2joLXYoI
    — Yes, it’s just that… Do you believe that the afterlife exists ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhRY6k44bX8
    Still sitting on the couch, I turn to him.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvqkTwVOYcW
    — I think yes. However, I don't know if it's like in this movie.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1725Skm87K
    He adopts the same position as me, we find ourselves face to face.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbMXUJg5wr
    — If that’s the case, I’ll make sure to let you know when I get there.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYbjmZfz3AU
    I wasn't expecting this response which took me completely by surprise. New uncontrollable tears flood my face. Reality suddenly reminds me. When I am with Jessy, I forget his illness because he is him, the boy I love with all my heart even if he knows nothing about my feelings. But there, faced with the virus, I find myself facing its imminent death. It’s a horrible thing that I try not to think about, as if that could prevent it from happening. I know this is stupid and despite all my efforts, AIDS still remains in the back of my mind. But hearing Jessy talk about his departure is upsetting. I would love to tell him that I am in love with him and that he has no right to leave me, ever. However, this is one of the subjects that I cannot discuss with him as I am sure that he would send me away again. He needs support, so I'm content to be his friend, secretly hoping that one day he'll realize that I mean more to him.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDOFSYl8fsL
    — What do you have ? He is surprised.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WYzxlSkLe
    — I don't want you to die Jessy ! 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi2UnMcpfs5
    I burst into tears as I threw myself on his neck. Immediately, he hugs me back.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyI3ti863y
    — Don’t cry, he whispers in my ear. I don't like seeing you sad.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOfOrlgU9Ts
    His heart beating wildly against my chest reminds me that he is still very much alive and that as long as that is the case, we must not lose hope.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsK4sNPYFW
    Staring at him, I detach myself from him.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQx8XZ1i1a
    — You're going to fight to stay alive, aren't you ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCXHC0uDWP
    He strokes a lock of my hair that falls to the side of his face while observing me attentively. He seems to weigh the weight of his words.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3OoVWtrV4
    Finally, he nods in agreement.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjwRuH0ip0
    — I have confidence in the future and in medicine. They will find a cure, it’s just a matter of time, I resume with confidence.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlVNIvtstg
    — Meg, we've already talked about this. You can't save me.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDTl9Uu3nkK
    He lowers his head but I have time to see his eyes fill with tears.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWemjchD7Rl
    — I know... For the moment, but I can keep hope, I smile, wiping away the last tears that linger on my cheeks.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ42kJIeIdqj
    Mrs. Sutter enters the room at this moment, breaking our moment of complicity.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyy7TXH3586
    — Megan, are you crying ? She worries, looking at us in turn. And you too ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVnbrxchAv
    Jessy and I exchange a look before bursting out laughing under the surprised gaze of Elise.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYEA3vT01pK
    — I’m going to go home, I announce, leaving the sofa.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0owBagMhj9
    — I'll take you back.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6EuqrBZc0
    — No, it is going to be fine. I need to get some fresh air.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbgkxtVmqK
    Above all, I need to expel from my body this disorder that I am trying to control, and also to silence my fears about its future. Kindly, he will get me my coat. After putting it on, I turn to him and take him in my arms. For a few more seconds, I want to feel him against me.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKFOoOYXak
    — Do me a favor, hold on to life, I whisper in his ear.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXc8nibTsB
    Emu, he acquiesced.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQR8VOLSjhE
    When I leave the warmth of his arms, I see Elise watching us from the kitchen, she wears a little knowing smile, which makes me understand that she knows perfectly well how I feel about her son.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJhULjSCWEt
    — Good night, see you tomorrow ! I throw before going out.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLY0t0MU3w
    I take a few steps while staring at the dark sky, inside I promise myself to do everything to save Jessy's life.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2kpCXToeIh
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    Since Jessy stubbornly refuses to tell me about his virus, during the days that follow, I go around bookstores looking for medical journals. At that time, when AIDS was terrifying the population, I had hoped to learn more, unfortunately the articles were still rare and the possible treatments even more so. Everyone repeats the instructions to follow in order not to be contaminated but none of them informs me about the solutions to overcome this cursed disease.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDFOHHfjm1
    — What is all this ? My mother asks me when I return home, my arms full of magazines and books.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQ43YBfGRs
    — I'm finding out about AIDS, I admit, placing my load on the kitchen table.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv65yuh2UxT
    — Meg, I know you care about Jessy but... Don't waste your life for him.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBJXBFeyrm
    My mother's words felt like a stab to the heart.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohrgwT29Hf
    — That's not what I meant, she continues, realizing my fear.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JeA7s3Vod
    Hand on her forehead, she shakes her head as I grab my books again, determined to put an end to this discussion.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OVcexke8i
    — Megan, you are 16 years old, you have your whole life ahead of you.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZ8Rc3KS1y
    — And not Jessy, right ? ! I get angry.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYkbLYglC0Q
    My mother looks down.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXz2rov9v2
    — That's not what I said. I just think you're too young to have all these worries. You should be able to enjoy your teenage years completely carefree.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrlgzKdu2vU
    — I would have liked it too, Mom, believe me I would have preferred that Jessy wasn’t sick. But he is and if I can help him in any way I will be there for him. I realize there's not much I can do, however, maybe one of these books will talk about a treatment and I can tell Jessy about it.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJeezFLxcqy
    My mother nods weakly.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDw5Kq2ONPH
    — I just ask you to be careful. Don't get too involved.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC1uOTiKcdy
    — It's already too late for that, I emphasize. If it was Dad who was sick, wouldn't you do what you could to help him ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApqQJvmm69
    I turn on my heel, ready to leave the room when my mother asks me : 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEBhtJ5uYm1
    — You love him, don’t you ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgFJZuBOHkF
    I don't answer. I lock my gaze on my mother's, trying to make her understand all the feelings that are inside me.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtrCF97oYEr
    — Please don’t tell Jessy about these books, I ask her before going out.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEa4ywysvN
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    — Good evening, Megan, Mrs. Sutter calls me from the kitchen when I arrive at their house.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3x3KKzb9S
    — Good evening.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kXTyrwDJs
    — Jessy hasn’t come home yet.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLw9H7CJkHh
    I look up at his mother with worried eyes. It's 8 p.m., classes ended several hours ago.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5kHSIslCGs
    — Don’t worry, she reassures me. You know that his doctor advised him to go to the AIDS center, there was a meeting this evening. He had no desire to go, but I think it will do him good to talk to people who are going through the same thing as him.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOJqKVEtW7V
    — Did he leave there complaining ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuA5ANxVfda
    — You know him well enough to know that he complains a lot, she said, smiling.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMzOso5hSHE
    — When he is with me, he is rather...520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDqLm6Fkdem
    Hearing the front door open, I don't finish my sentence.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR1vY4rTX0K
    — Yes, but you are special to him, Elise whispers to me.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlp2s1ry07
    I remain speechless, wondering what she means by that.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDkxFI26zwr
    — Sorry to be late.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFEurkBz9M
    Jessy's face is tense, he seems upset. The evening could be long if he remains in this state of mind.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2l7OsGPBGE
    — How was it ? His mother immediately questions him.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuVcH0JvMa
    Jessy glances at me quickly before responding coldly : 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHcSjOE2oQ
    — I don't want to talk about it.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhzgXZVlk7
    Mrs. Sutter looks at us in turn before announcing that she is going to watch television in her room so that we can watch the screen in the living room. Jessy walks around the bar and goes to help herself to some fruit juice.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6u9yWF5MK3
    — You want some ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfvEYlE3Vb
    His tone is less cold, but still full of anger that he tries to contain.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHzaDBuEYum
    — Yes, thanks.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIoMl2SXNX
     He purses his lips before asking me : 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDEzfgncOuf
    — What movie did you bring this evening ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMUQGhYC9Ds
    The week before, I had brought the filmGhost which caused us both to end up in tears. This time, I chose to take a lighter one, but still with my favorite actor. Proudly, I take the video tape out of my backpack and show it to him.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTpDvgG4UyS
    — Dirty Dancing ! 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrYM9mZjB88
    He rolls his eyes, but I sense that he is holding back a smile.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFA3AnCwNO
    — You and your Patrick Swayze ! I know you think he's the most handsome guy in the world, but your obsession with him is starting to turn into an obsession.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs8geEclDYQ
     I pretend to look shocked, which makes him laugh.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKeMK58nX6z
    — It’s true that he’s hot, but in my ranking of the most handsome guys, he only occupies second place.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMankaoiMgP
    — Oh, my God, he whispers with a hint of despair. Which other actor are you planning to pester me with when you're done making me watch all his films ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJdJvmIR8uN
    Jessy sighs, making a face. His good mood has returned, which makes me happy. I don't want to ask him about the meeting; If he wants to talk to me about it, he will do it alone. I just want to take his mind off things and see him smile. I get up to turn on the VCR while he puts away the bottle of orange juice.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWqTyfMaeBe
    — No others, I promise. For me, the hottest guy isn't an actor.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3Opmm5jkN
    — Ah good ? Who is it ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgVohjuHsMw
    He comes to join me on the sofa, frowning.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgmrS2LBcl3
    — He’s someone I see every day.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr9wFcDc77P
    The movie starts and I shut up. Out of the corner of my eye, I see my friend racking his brain to figure out who I'm talking about.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOobrllTu4q
    — Your father ? he asks after a few minutes.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaRdedCpq4
    Without taking my eyes off the screen, I shake my head and smile. It amuses me to see him searching.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65dKvIHPUr
    — Someone from high school ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU4rOfi5u1O
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    — Chad ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgU5fXuUqjs
    A hint of anger and disbelief filters into his voice.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXjrdCJykw9
    — No. Jessy, do you want to watch the movie or tell me all the names of the guys at school ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo2nVyBoztl
    — Sorry, but no matter how hard I look, I can’t see who…520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxYQs9KpoX4
    — It's you.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzM5Zxf3EW0
    I didn't mean to tell him, it just came out, and now I feel myself blushing as I keep my eyes glued to the television. The words have barely passed my lips before Jessy chokes on swallowing and starts coughing. He gets up to go drink some water.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIzaYhr7KVU
    — Well, that makes you feel, I said mockingly, pausing the movie.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf0VmpGAA6y
    — You got me, he says from the kitchen.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjKiODlDh0T
    I turn around on the couch to look at him.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyK8DNVfgK4
    — It’s the truth, Jessy, I’m not making you walk.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡONrVUX1mas
    He comes back to sit next to me on the sofa. His cheeks are red as he places a kiss on my forehead.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKDv9NV5sie
    — It’s nice of you to try to cheer me up. I love you.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHlVz4QYwEJ
    That's not what I'm trying to do, I really mean it, yet my heart immediately races : he adores me. 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEXbeZRVq8X
    — Is it true ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz2RJCGLEke
    — Of course. You're my best friend, Meg.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmt5Kk87uV4
    Oh… Friend ? My heart calms down quickly.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oStFYvBna
    — Aren’t you in good spirits ? Is it because of the meeting ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUaCV8AawD
    Your mother told me about it, I add in front of his frown.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL952mlelL0
    — Yeah… it was depressing. Hearing all these patients talk about their fears… it brought me back to my own.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwyI6WmhPpO
    — Did you speak with them ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0fbGT3DC6
    — No, I listened to them. It’s strange to arrive in this center where I don’t know anyone and where they invite me to confide.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡilKt981NVS
    — If you want, next time, can I accompany you ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJgwKx43MBV
    I suggest, but I already know the answer.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ357iIgbkeq
    — Non ! 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm2BuRMdRhO
    His tone is harsher than I thought. However, he softens very quickly.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZPwlEnZ6v
    — That’s nice, but no. I don't want you to come into this part of my life.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmB1rpChvNS
    — For what ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5AIPD5MvJ3
    Anger reappears in his eyes, he lowers his head.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiM4WjXHbsh
    — Because you are too important to me for me to drag you into this world of illness with me.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaIhNS3RnQc
    — Jessy… 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhnfCHJo4a3
    — No, Meg. I'm willing to give in when you force my hand to leave this house, but when it comes to AIDS, I won't change my mind, he said firmly, turning his gaze back to the television.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUb2dPoJoVM
    — OK as you want.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmTpzgdce4
    I sigh as he resumes playing the movie. After a few minutes of silence, he glances at me and whispers : 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IZnrdClp7
    — Are you mad at me ? 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtG8QokSvp
    I can't help but smile and lean my head on his shoulder like I've gotten used to doing when we watch movies together.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSptIxk6hUw
    — No, it’s your choice.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ0LCPjzG22
    He places another kiss on my forehead. I whisper to him without taking my eyes off Patrick Swayze : 520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz8aZWNRLoM
    — Me too, I like you.520Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHoquaZvNRK
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