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    The next day, Jessy doesn't show up to school all day, nor the next day. I'm worried to death for him. Also at the end of class, I will question Amy in order to obtain his address. She gives a little smile which immediately makes me think that she is going to rush to find Chad and tell him but, honestly, I don't care. At this moment, I don't care about my reputation, all that matters is this boy who has already indelibly marked my life and for whom I worry so much. I have to struggle for a little while and make up a crazy story, but in the end, I leave the school with the coordinates in my pocket. Immediately, I went to his house. He lives in an old two story house which has retained its incredible charm, despite the renovation work it has undergone. The paint, a light yellow, was redone recently. It’s just the kind of well kept house my dad likes. This thought makes me smile. A covered terrace, where a bench and two armchairs have been installed, shelters the entrance to the house. I climb the three steps and ring the bell. I don't have to wait long before the door opens for Jessy.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BCnRvgEJV
    — I’m not in the mood to worry, he told me point blank.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSi5s6r89qI
    He looks tired, preoccupied. Despite his obvious bad mood, I'm happy to see him. These last two days without seeing him seemed like an eternity. His mother comes up behind him. I can only glimpse it briefly.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡafFkAwQv9h
    — It’s for me, mom, he tells her.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF7QveZJ58t
    Understanding that he doesn't want to talk to me in front of her, I decide to play on it and, leaning towards him, I whisper to him : 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh3mRvpfd1e
    — I'll stay until we've talked, and it's too bad if your mother asks me what I want.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojFtMBzzPz
     His green eyes stare at me, trying to see if I'm bluffing or not, finally, he gives in.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWiuL6ID6S
    — Very well, I’m coming.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqNhieUuJ3b
     He grabs a denim jacket before following me down the street.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHUOQ4uekd7
    We walk aimlessly, following the roads that pass before us in complete silence. I don't know how to start the discussion, I'm afraid of offending him, or of upsetting him if I question him too much.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvePAMgwreu
    — So ? You wanted to talk to me, go ahead ! He says in a bad mood, as we arrive near an abandoned factory.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBcWzNOYUAZ
    Intimidated, as always by his presence at my side, I take it upon myself to get started : 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZimZPu8HAa
    — You haven't come to school for the last two days...458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Yfmk58SzE
    — Oh yes, you noticed, well done ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWpTpfslabX
    — Don’t be sarcastic, please. But you let me down for the presentation ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡht0bi1q8ay
    — Oh, and you probably want an apology ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dol8Mo8zS
    — No, I don't care about this duty.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDUxumWYygQ
    I use a calm tone so as not to annoy him further.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKhsj2ATIPx
    — Why did you come to see me ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ivnWkExI4
    He stops walking.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJL82CImu0
    — I was worried about you.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjaE312r2ay
    — Well then ! Instead, admit that you want details so you can tell your friends everything afterwards ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwjpkh3IQay
    — I don't plan to tell anyone about it.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCY3PJYuPDC
    He examines me for a long moment, seeming to search deep in my eyes if he can trust me.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0kng5eFmU7
    — How long have you been HIV positive ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhaYILPcfYA
    — It's been about a year now.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡznoL7DsMY7
    — And how did you catch it ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RztIoe0V5
    — One evening at a friend’s party, I met a girl…458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIqsdTcTaY3
    — And you slept together ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpLkEpI3Gr
    — No, we watched cartoons ! He said, really angry.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQGLwoJ3iHA
    — She didn’t tell you she was HIV positive ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH7h45e89cf
    — She didn't know at the time... A doctor called my mother a few weeks later, Haley had taken a test which came back positive. She had informed the doctor that I was one of her partners. I had to go get tested myself and that’s how I learned that she infected me.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ70ObZaXQ2j
    — Just for one night you spent together.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZV4hBOaH6x
    I whisper this sentence as if to myself.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHdscxoEdc
    — Not one night, just a short moment and a lack of condom and this is the result. A word of advice Meg : When you decide to do it with Chad, don't forget the condom otherwise you'll end up like me, a walking corpse ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSNZw8ZOVO
    — Jessy, stop saying that ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJk8owoyA3B
    — For what ? It's the truth ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsVrUcfLS6g
    — No, you are in good health, it doesn't even look like you have this virus so you have to be optimistic.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTtU78px6b
    — As if that could cure me ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9x8Qjic1s
    — Yes, it can help you hold on until the doctors find a cure.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxSC9ehdWrf
    I spoke more firmly than I wanted. Jessy looks at me, surprised.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWgMRnVx4i
    — You're right, you have to be positive and enjoy life, right ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk40oX8ccYG
    Suddenly his gaze changes, it becomes darker. He approaches me and takes me by the waist, holding me tightly against his body. I pull away from him immediately, not out of fear of illness, but as I would with any boy who did it this way.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxw459WLa6A
    — Hey, weird ! You don't want to kiss me anymore ! This surprises me greatly ! Go find your fantastic and healthy boyfriend and leave me alone ! he shouts as he walks away.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlaDqtYWFNk
    — Jessy, you’re wrong, that’s not it ! Come back ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Sblb11zqP
    My words are lost in the silence.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7Z60P0ntLz
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    The next morning before classes, which start later today, and where Jessy will certainly still be conspicuous by his absence, I am sitting in a corner of the snack bar. It’s a café where all the young people from high school like to meet for a drink, listen to music and chat. The room is quite large, with its light green imitation leather benches, its silver metal tables and its fifties decoration all in pink and blue. I found Chad there, who is having fun around a pinball machine with his friends a little further away, while I read Jessy's book. In fact, this is the third time I've devoured it since he lent it to me. The story of this man who fights alone against everyone to obtain his freedom after having been condemned in advance by public opinion now takes on a whole new meaning for me. Between these lines, it is Jessy’s life that I see. I can't stop thinking about him, and it drives me crazy. I'm dating Chad, I like Chad. So why do I only think about Jessy's lips on mine ? Why am I so worried about him ? How come I miss him so much ? I have already gone several days without seeing Chad, when he went on vacation with his parents, without ever feeling this emptiness in the pit of my heart. Yet I am in love with him.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9kK10aee3o
    Do I like Chad ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKJ6RsnmZh
    Ah, I'm going to go crazy if this continues ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrgb0kjKVh
    I raise my head and look at him, he looks at me and gives me a smile that I have trouble responding to, before he turns his attention back to his friends.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgHSdkbVWSo
    Why don't I feel anything when I look at it ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxVlhoRZBoz
    Putting my thoughts aside, I carefully dive back into my reading when Amy approaches me. That day, more than ever, I had no desire to talk to him. As I expected, she reported my comments to Chad and, as always, I had to justify myself. Luckily we have this talk to give, it gave me the perfect excuse.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx38gaa3NZk
    Amy lifts the cover of my book and whispers : 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4b5MzH98q
    — Put down that book ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyFApodHQx
    — It’s a great book ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfHwd1cQ20y
    — I will never understand how you could want to read outside of class, there are so many things458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCx1TpWMnSZ
    much more exciting to do…458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGoGDXXaOGy
    — Excuse me…458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwkAdFPSqs
    I get up quickly after seeing Jessy passing in the street.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxJnlHnmQe9
    Hurriedly, I leave the café.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk521KBK4P4
    — Jessy ! Wait for me ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9oYmklk0K
    As usual, he hears me, but continues on his way.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGBduLdFL7
    — I have your book ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQdZV78R5Cg
    This time, I manage to catch his attention, he stops on the sidewalk.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNYWyExWr1
    — What do you want from me ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWrQOSoIyEp
    — I just wanted to give that back to you.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsFTpAXdO5L
    I hand him his paperback, staring at him, my heart rate increasing.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoLn8aPmPRd
    — And then, I wanted us to talk.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6FE4O2ocu9
    — I think we said everything. You should go back to your boyfriend.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKGq9kuAKWZ
    — I don’t want to talk with Chad, but with you.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOole1rkkt2
    — Thank you, that’s a pleasure, says a familiar voice behind me, making me jump.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiEmHGBoIzf
    I quickly turn around to see my boyfriend.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP4ICWxcrvp
    — It's not what you think. But I need to talk to Jessy.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡolVowDJ3l5
    — We have nothing to say to each other, he repeats.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQT2gu96iOx
    — Glad to hear you say that ! Stop hovering over my girlfriend ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Ot5f9bKEc
    — Hey, I’m here, Chad ! You don't have to speak on my behalf and even less tell me who I can talk to or not ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9qLeh7qBO
    — There, I agree with you, replies Jessy.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBxWuLJ4vRL
    — We didn't ask you anything ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXVo9IY7oa6
    — Leave him alone ! It’s me who wants to talk to him ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7nE5x3dlh
    — Are we having a threesome now ? Chad angrily grabs my arm.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ564ylKfxnC
    He squeezes it tightly and takes me with him towards the snack bar.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfpaFC5Y2W
    — Let me go, I demand, trying to get out of his grip. You're ridiculous ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ19ecXxszpn
     Chad tightens his grip further.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDCJuzNxX7G
    — I just want to talk to you.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPIsTyh7UCV
    — So let go of me, you’re hurting me ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdl3OeA7A8
    — Let her go ! Jessy demands, interposing.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyh6Z9Ynqo
    — Don't get involved ! My boyfriend shouts, finally releasing my sore arm before pushing Jessy along the wall of the establishment.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡunyK4e4S2z
    — Don’t hit me, Jessy warned.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4WsjhcQwa
    — Ah, Monsieur gives more orders, says Chad angrily, putting his fist in the young man's stomach.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPypxEeaIra
    In shock, Jessy doubles over, dropping his book.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡutqyioFOJ3
    — Chad, stop ! I scream in the middle of the street.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwokervb0i
    Jessy, still hunched over, rushes at Chad and knocks him to the ground. He finds himself straddling him, trying to keep him on the ground while asking him to calm down. But you don't know Chad very well to think that he's going to let himself be controlled so easily. Soon they are rolling on the sidewalk, almost falling onto the road. Chad finds himself on top of Jessy and punches him in the stomach again. Then he stands up, waiting for Jessy to get up. When he gets back to his feet, he spreads his hands in a sign of appeasement, but Chad rushes at him again and hits him in the cheek.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnWdNh8Amz
    — Chad ! Leave him ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn2Joi4Tdzn
    Jessy picks up his book and walks away, but Chad comes at him again and hits him in the back. Jessy falls to his knees as Chad walks around to face him and grabs him by the collar of his T-shirt.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMYSlR1m8k
    No matter how much I beg him, Chad doesn't listen to me. I am about to betray my promise when, fortunately, two police officers intervene to separate them, surrounding them.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSN42oh4fTM
    Jessy immediately regains his calm while Chad continues to struggle in order to continue the fight.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSN1srBN6Hc
    — What is happening here ? Asks the officer holding Jessy.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡveu3X3RDWx
    — This guy is hitting on my girlfriend, Chad shouts, still annoyed.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjPFb85P8Hx
    — Anything ! I shout angrily. Jessy is a friend and there’s no way you’re going to forbid me from talking to him ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBarxamAspI
    My boyfriend stares at me in astonishment while I think I see recognition in Jessy's eyes. This has the gift of calming Chad who lets his arms fall while blowing.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5sj5ulIfB5
    — Can we let go of you ? Asks the second police officer.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWY1UwSNxP
    Both boys nodded weakly.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMy8Y7xfPIG
    — It’s not over yet, Chad says, staring at Jessy, before heading back to the snack bar.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyCBKOOA9d1
    — It'll be OK ? Asks the other agent. He hurt you, do you want to go to the hospital ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkokToZNuks
    Jessy's complexion suddenly turned pale.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKbE2JKko2O
    — No, it’s okay.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIa4aEgp0x
    — I’ll take care of him, I intervene, moving closer to him.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgWG5ksWIf
    With a knowing look, the two police officers walk away.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pRDEvTM9b
    — Thank you, Jessy sighs.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa1mUjpcKkf
    — You seemed panicked at the idea of going to the hospital.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn72rk7y64Z
    — Yeah, I'm not a big fan of it. I've already just left my doctor's office, I'm not going to spend the rest of my day on a stretcher.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaWqpjv4HX5
    I pick up his book and give it back to him.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkQhTm3LDlb
    — Do you want to talk now ? I ask.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lux7rEttU
    Jessy purses his lips.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡip3nu38Pmr
    — You never give up ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG50dOBxvqg
    — It depends on the subject but when it’s something important to me, no, I never give up.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDgZAy0ZZqJ
     Jessy seems touched by my words, he lowers his head and nods, pursing his lips.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu9cEyfGRxq
    Without even asking him if he plans to go to class this morning, we head towards his house.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrKDffNjY8y
    — Did you like the book ? He finally asked after a long silence.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9DXMQbimkP
    — I devoured it ! I'll have to buy a copy.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4nOaIdHK3L
     His smile is radiant when he tells me : 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrtFlaVf3pk
     — I'm glad you liked it. You're the first person I've told about this.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYY4WZDwxH
    I take advantage of this confidence to try to learn more.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7tZpgCkx6y
    — You told me you went to the doctor, are you okay ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQexaCWX8h
    — My doctor told me that apart from being HIV positive, I am in great shape. She will do regular blood tests to monitor how the virus is progressing and has also encouraged me to join a support group of people who have the same problem as me, he tells me as he stops walking.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyiCp98B56u
     I meditate on his words for a few seconds, I know how important the subject is and I definitely don't want to focus on it.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAsr0RRAdS
    — I think you should try going to one of these meetings. After all, what are you risking ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmfGUVmRlNj
    He raises his face to the sky and observes a cloud which moves slowly, pushed by a light wind.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpQD9XoGng9
    — Maybe you're right.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS3NTahbxx0
    Satisfied with his answer, I leave him in front of his house. As I head back home, I'm torn between the pleasure of being closer to Jessy and the anger that overcomes me when I think of Chad. I know this situation has gone on for too long.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCMkMGlVGcC
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    I had barely crossed the threshold of my house when my mother told me that Chad was waiting for me in the garden.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1QVUKDIJfl
    — Neither of you have been to class and Chad looks upset, she said. What's going on, Megan ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtEMCJrKoeO
    — I'm sorry, mom. I should have warned you. Chad and Jessy fought before we went to high school. Chad crossed the line, Jessy is hurt, and believe me, he really didn't need this.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeblKnOXmfY
    My mother examines me carefully. I'm not going to lie, along the way I thought about how events unfolded and the more I think about it, the more my anger grows.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTbMkGS5anO
    — And this fight happened because of how you feel about Jessy ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXkT3T7Xpcn
    I agree, nodding my head.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGPPMAB82w
    — Now, do you know what you are doing ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdB2reqd2Hm
    — Yes, even if it is painful, I can no longer hide my face.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSA2OHaK1NG
    My mother gives a little knowing smile.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0ThzoH2MX
    — GOOD. I don't like it when you skip school, but this time, I'm giving up. You will go to class this afternoon. In the meantime, go and sort this situation out. Good luck.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡarnIFqqgiL
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     Chad is pacing around the yard when I open the back door of the house to join him.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvpOSqXjW80
    — Finally you're here ! Were you with him ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRJbf4EPsAo
     The tone of his voice is icy. If he thinks I'm going to let him talk to me like that, he's sorely mistaken.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡliF22W5L20
    — Remind me, when did we get married ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdUEhcLnKrQ
    — Pardon ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgH1bVG2CGH
    — No, because the reason you're acting like an incredible asshole is because we've been married for years and you think I'm your property, right ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3zbRY7q1g1
    Chad puts his hand to his forehead and bursts out into mirthless laughter.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjcBSCYR09R
    — I should have known you were going to take his side. Damn, Meg, you don't realize this guy is manipulating you to separate us ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPv3Crjg8P
    If until now I had managed to keep calm, his words made me lose all control.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaLVJtyxCOY
    — But you are completely delusional ! I'm not your thing, I'm free to do what I want ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwatKvUmIvo
    — Like sleeping with him ! ? He writes to himself, clenching his fists.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpKFHn4zbv7
    — I'm not going out with him ! I scream. And I'm not going out with you anymore ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWSeGPxDNFp
    In shock, he takes two steps back.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yKQimUlxt
    — What ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLJfxA8q02Q
    — You understood me very well. It's over Chad.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo7ELgFD3Bi
    — He succeeded then ? He wanted to separate us and you become his accomplice.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfnUZTaojxF
    This time it’s me who’s in shock. Where did he get such an idea ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH6GMtPZtED
    — No, but do you hear yourself ? I'm talking to you about us, not Jessy. He never even suggested that I break up with you, even after you hit him earlier.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡri7BrurSqq
    — You're not going to make me believe that it's enough for you to realize that you don't love me anymore.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXlivb9Juj
    — Since we have been together, I have asked myself a lot of questions, I admit, going to sit down on a chair in the garden furniture. We have nothing in common. I know that I annoy you when I talk to you about literature and you annoy me when I try to share a moment with you and you are so captivated by a match on TV that you don't care.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeKpkUnpEc
    Chad opens his mouth to respond but remains silent.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6NAR6MOOlL
    — You know I’m right, I insist calmly. You and I have known each other since we were kids, we have always been friends and I think we should have stayed that way.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6pPMqP0oN
    He takes a deep breath as his eyes water.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8fPwUP16V
    — So you don’t love me anymore ? he whispers.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3gPzFPbwVE
    — Yes I love you but, contrary to what I thought, I realized that I am not in love with you. I love you as a friend, not as the man of my life.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk7paoWBF5C
    — And did you realize how you felt, before or after falling in love with Jessy ? He get angry again. It’s not over Meg ! I'm sure this guy is hiding something and trust me I'll find out what it is ! You will come back to me Meg ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC6cq3LGr90
    — Chad ! Chad ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6GTHBjdD8
    But it's too late, he's already slammed the door behind him.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ836gEtkwMt
    I feel relieved to finally have been able to put into words what had bothered me since the beginning of our story, but I am also worried at the thought of Chad discovering Jessy's secret. I hope his threats are out of anger and that after he calms down he will realize their stupidity.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIb9h8nM3R
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    In the afternoon, I head back to school and smile as soon as I see Jessy arriving in the main hallway.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDyfdOkaqu
    — You’ve decided to come back, I comment.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6PJmpG170
    — Yeah, I don’t want Chad to think he’s got the upper hand on me, he replies as we walk down the hall towards our class.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0KxL1e4a40
    — Good choice. But I need to talk to you.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9tYQFHQ050
    Without waiting, I pull him by his jacket away from the crowd of students and lead him into a corner near the boys' bathroom. I don't want anyone to hear our exchange.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvBglhvWkyU
    — What is happening ? He asks me, frowning.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOm9Hnn14pn
    — Chad was at my house when I got home.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdi1dK9ex8a
    — Okay, he says slowly.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFpuJ0OED5
    — I broke up with him, I admit abruptly.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd8SK5RNoCv
    His already piercing gaze locks on mine and never lets go. I wish I could drown in it but I only have a short time before the bell rings.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdN6ZS30kXn
    — He is very angry with you. He thinks you made me dump him.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVoKaefkL8Z
    — I have never done that ! He writes to himself, shocked.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXHf4PNRSOV
    — I know that perfectly, but I think he's looking for someone to blame for our breakup, when there's no one to blame. We're not meant for each other, that's all. Anyway, he told me you're hiding something and he's going to find out what it is. So be careful, okay ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm64w3Myxi6
    — Yeah.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhhMNsixf3X
    He leans against the wall behind him and whispers, with tears in his eyes : 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5fQRPY44w
     — I don't want it to start again like in my old school, I couldn't stand it.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFtaZqfthk
    Seeing him abandon his armor in favor of sincerity upsets me beyond words. In these moments of fragility, I meet the real Jessy, not the one who takes a cold attitude to send me away but the sensitive boy who has suffered too much.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1jZmaux2sT
    — That won’t happen, I reassure him. You are not alone here, I am your friend, I will always be here no matter what happens.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡndKfNGuuSK
    — Thanks Meg. I thought about what you told me earlier, about the support group for HIV— positive people. I called my doctor to ask for the contact details of the center.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMUX5T32O4
    — Great, I smile. It will help you to talk with people who have the same virus as you, you will certainly be able to help each other.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMLWfaGx3DT
    — I don’t really believe it, but I’m going to try to go to a meeting, he said, resuming a distant attitude. So maybe you'll let go of me a little ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiHtGbh8PBP
    The bell which announces the resumption of classes interrupts our discussion.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvGBlZ79Fd8
    — Here, I said, handing him my notes. That way you'll be up to date on math.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblbHRpO8HQ
    — Thanks Megan. Sometimes it’s good to have you in my life ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKC92z0u3L6
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    The last bell announcing the end of the day has barely sounded before a rumor invades the establishment. I'm putting my things in my locker when I hear whispers about Jessy. I turn to him who is standing a little further away in front of his locker. He lowers his head, shoulders hunched and lips pursed.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4VNLxKeYEm
    Around us, the students murmur among themselves, stunned. At the time, AIDS was still a little— known disease; we were only in the early stages of medical research. There are lots of rumors about how and why this disease spreads, but the truth is that people still know very little about it. The only things we know for sure are that AIDS is scary and deadly. All eyes are fixed on Jessy, those who pass behind him move aside to make sure not to touch him.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQySNESa9do
    A student I vaguely know passes in front of me, I intercept him to ask him what this new rumor is.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUFWTuzyKvR
    — You are not aware ? Jessy Sutter, the new student, he has AIDS and what's more, he's homosexual ! He announces to me proudly. Above all, don't go near him, you never know.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZsjLOWdy88
    I don't have time to send him away, he's already moved away.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzcg3vm9WnP
    I look at Jessy again. He raises his head, fixes me with a burning look of anger before leaving the school as quickly as possible.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡakQP4VLM42
    I do not understand anything. How can everyone know ? One thing is certain, given Jessy's fury, he thinks I betrayed him.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5EoEgYsLQ5
    I rush after him but when I get outside, he has already disappeared.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbVBbZfDgz
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    After looking for Jessy all over town for what seemed like hours, imagining him alone, depressed, I gathered up my courage and went to his house. The door opens to reveal his mother.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeS9iB3uMjH
    — Hello, she greets me kindly.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLZoRwnsHb
    From the first glance, I feel that she is an understanding woman. Her long blond hair and green eyes identical to those of her son reflect the gentleness that I also detect in Jessy.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Ex04dtazv
    — Good morning. Is Jessy there ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnR5qKgZnLv
    — No. You're Megan, right ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLIhubM6KEr
    I nod in agreement.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2atYCEsHU3
    — Jessy told me about you.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSidNnqBR4M
    — I've been looking for him everywhere since school ended, hasn't he come back ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4L8y6nJxUC
    — No, I have not seen it. He must be walking somewhere now that everyone knows Jessy is infected.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFUDpGTXDj
    I look at her, surprised that she was able to guess, she continues : 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTHyu0ov31
    — I received a call from the school. Apparently, parents of students learned of the rumor and immediately reported it to the school administration. I am called this evening to talk about my son's state of health and to see if he can continue his education in this establishment.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTd9gNkgqqj
    — My God, this is nonsense ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlEwY2joSY4
    — Unfortunately that's what happens when people know Jessy has AIDS. Everywhere he goes, he is rejected. This has happened before in Allentown, and it's happening again here. Everyone is afraid of being contaminated by simple contact, even my husband can't stand living under the same roof as him.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTLwW3074c
    Mrs. Sutter shakes her head as if her thoughts could evaporate with that gesture.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKddsrXGgyj
    — It is so unfair. I need to talk to him. Contrary to what he thinks, I did not betray him. I don't know how his secret was revealed. You don't know where he might be ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrxiabL6Oqw
    — He sometimes leaves alone for hours.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5HKYkg1rv1
    — You are never afraid that he…458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWQpeIty7v
    Mrs. Sutter looks at me as if to say, “Would that be worse than what awaits him ?”458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6b9UjbSoJM
    I thank her and go home, totally dejected. Not only do all students now have to know about Jessy's condition, but even the administration is threatening not to keep him.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBdaNKsoBQP
    When I walk through the door of my house, night begins to fall. I hear my parents talking.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡavwTppbQJx
    — Meg, it’s you ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRpaV1bsQAj
    — Yes Dad.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmF7M5ZqDm7
    — Can you come ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0RLo00VFNz
    I walk down the hallway and into the kitchen, where my parents are sitting around the table.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLZS237Knh
    — Nina told us what is being said around town about Jessy. Is it true ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ65xpydm9BN
    I nod silently.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVwYaKqpuXz
    — How long have you known that ? Ask my mother.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡamClJZG9T9
    — Since the other evening, when he stayed to eat. He admitted it to me when I took him home.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ71Y7tf1mm3
    — You could have told us about it ! My father points out.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeHViflVt4O
    — I told him I wouldn't tell anyone. I didn't want to break my word...458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyY1JE48VUT
    — Then how…458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz5BTbICSUo
    — You can believe me mom, I keep asking myself that question. I only see one answer : Chad. This afternoon, he was very upset with Jessy and promised to find his secret. However, I don't know how he found out about it.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8W1UoaKBCE
    — Is it true that Chad fought with Jessy because you wanted to talk to him ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2o5Y1ycKkD
    I nod.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGKKNHxwQIM
    — Chad wanted to force me into the snack bar, Jessy intervened to defend me.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX9iisT7QCo
    My response makes my father clench his fists and he says : 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡITzquil4Wz
     — He loses nothing by knowing what I think of his way of fighting like that and the rest.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTNV0ZbhiUc
    — Are you aware that Mrs. Sutter has been summoned to high school ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXB21DejpaP
    In front of my parents' questioning looks, I tell them the words of Jessy's mother.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3kjkjXwWT
    My mother makes a few phone calls and tells us : 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxaCASIqxL
    — The parents’ council is meeting this evening with the administration. Officially, they can't fire Jessy because he's sick, but they can send a report to the academy who will judge what to do in such a circumstance.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmwmgBBmh7Z
    Seeing my dismayed face, my father said to me : 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV4RUqLc5wt
    — Don’t worry, darling. We will go to this meeting and we will support Ms. Sutter. It will be fine.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyAT50ezuh
    Less convinced than my father, I go into the garden and sit on the swing. Alone with my thoughts, I realize that I have suddenly aged. Before I met Jessy, I was a carefree kid with few worries, but now I see life differently. And to think that it’s only been ten days since Chad’s party. I wanted to become an adult, I'm served ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCi6AguL7Fo
    Jessie, where are you ? I sigh, mulling over the latest events. I don't hear Nina open the back door.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡddwTdb57wH
    — I was wondering where you were, she says, making me jump. The parents are out, Chad is there. He wants to see you.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ4ICMmIi3b
    I sigh again. After what happened this afternoon, I still don't want to talk to him. But he doesn't wait to hear my opinion before following my sister who, feeling the storm brewing in the sky as much as with my ex-boyfriend, slips away.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDp7sJsCFZg
    — I came to apologize for my behavior this morning. If I had known Jessy was gay, I wouldn't have been jealous of you talking to him.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOEuY31EaBY
    I huff, exasperated. Chad looks at me, I see the incomprehension on his face.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVkgI7WxHD
    — He is not homosexual. It was a girl who infected him ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWQArlgcaN
    — Sorry, but how could I have known ? You don't tell me anything anymore ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwBIAEqprTD
    — Sorry, but when someone tells me a secret, I do my best to keep it. Were you the one who revealed Jessy's illness to everyone ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwccIkL3W9Z
    His false innocent appearance betrays him even before he confesses. I think I see a little boy having done something stupid with his hands in his pants pockets, squirming for words. Even when we were children, he behaved this way. His attitude makes my anger explode.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzureR9hQBl
    — It's about time you grew up, Chad ! You are so immature at times ! Do you realize that now everyone knows about their state of health ? That he might be kicked out of school ? That you're ruining his life ? But no, you don’t care as long as you make him pay for my breakup ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIpdyGw1ga
    Annoyed, he lowers his head. This attitude annoys me even more.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD12VNxaUN0
    — I know, I screwed up. But if you had told me everything...458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8M02oAJVE
    I give him a murderous look. He's old enough to know how to behave.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsfeEFd298Q
    — Don’t ever ask me why I broke up with you again ! If you want to have an answer, look at yourself in the mirror... That is, if you can ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡagT3Xhe9CW
    — You don't even realize that since he arrived in town, you have completely ignored me ! Chad gets angry in turn.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKzFHnYlzF
    — It’s nothing to do with it ! I'm the guilty one, the one who understood that we are too different. Jessy had nothing to do with our relationship ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVQJct5zIA
    — I know, he whispers. I heard him say it this afternoon.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9owV6qjxkM
    My eyes must be as round as saucers because Chad continues : 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVK37TXtbS
    — I was behind the bathroom door when you were talking. I heard your conversation, that’s how I knew.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBf7MscqkkS
    — Oh my God ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhapdMEyAu
    With tears in my eyes, I place my hands over my mouth.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpklpufRgU
    — I’m sorry Meg. I didn't want things to go this far.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZXREoXCgTv
    — And you rushed to repeat it to the whole school ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa2e38Jd5bF
    — I only told a few friends but it spread quickly. I really blame myself.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYrb0sPhK19
    My eyes filled with tears, I whisper : 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JDJJTjlP9
    — You can.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeIUd87NvGH
    — You’ll never want me again after this, will you ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo8alSvdQB9
    I shake my head.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Joh8yCZWn
    — You disappointed me a lot, Chad. You are still my friend but I no longer trust you. I'm sorry.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFOuFBA31Mi
    — You don’t have to be, it’s my fault. I went way too far. The role of the jealous boyfriend doesn't work for me, he smiles sadly. Do you want us to remain friends ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAxQLiLSqy
    I nod in agreement. I know that after digesting these events, I will forgive him. I can't not have him in my life, he's been part of it for too long.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhayHH74Bj7
    Chad is about to enter the house again when, turning around, he says to me : 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxCqMcihlB
    — By the way, if you're looking for Jessy, it seems he hangs out near the bridge over the highway.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQc3PaQo0g
    As soon as Chad leaves, I put on my black parka and head in the direction he told me. Night has now fallen, the air is heavy, the storm threatens to break out at any moment. I hurry the three kilometers, running half the way. I arrive on the bridge, out of breath, but happy to see Jessy there. It is a narrow bridge, reserved for pedestrians, it allows us to reach a corner of the forest which encircles the city. Jessy paces along the steel guardrail, watching the cars and trucks speeding by on the dual carriageway just below. His face is half lit by the streetlights placed all along the highway. He turns to me as I approach.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR6o4le9OOa
    — What are you doing here ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmsHFAsocE
    His tone is dry.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2FRR8ZVua
    — I've been looking for you for hours.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4XeWh621qA
    — Well, you found me. You see, I'm still alive, you can go back now.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnWdf19RHn
    — I'm sorry for what happened. I discussed it with Chad, he was the one who spread the rumor.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOErMD3D7JU
    — So you came so that I could forgive him ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6srf0Ew5Jh
    I look at him, incredulous; However, I have to admit that he is not entirely wrong. I wish we could all be friends, but I know that is a utopian vision of our friendship. However, even if she is often embarrassing for his interlocutors, I like Jessy's frankness.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSSrdR1rQaV
    — I came because I'm afraid for you. It's late, come home with me.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY0w4wZw97T
    Jessy looks at me with a disillusioned look but doesn't answer. He starts walking along the railing again, moving away from me. He seems hypnotized by the vehicles passing beneath our feet.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiX1aEwPLCi
    — Ever since I’ve known you, you’ve spent your time moving away. Why are you running away from everyone ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN67xQg779h
    I shout to cover the sound of a heavy truck passing below.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCaaJadzlze
    Suddenly a lightning bolt tears through the sky. Jessy turns around angrily.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw093G9uf2j
    — I'm not running away from anyone ! It's the others who never want me ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoAtb1UiL3t
    He sits on the railing which is only a few centimeters wide, passes his legs over the air, wraps them around the metal bars. A new flash of lightning illuminates the sky. Despite the heaviness of the night, I tremble and move closer to him to hold him by the back of his jacket.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZHOU5T8YZ
    — Jessy, please. Come back ! You're scaring me ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZeDzTMbxZs
    — I'm a danger to others, Meg ! I'm just on reprieve from this crap ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ66IvAXazt9
    The tone of his voice is no longer charged with anger, but full of despair. It squeezes my heart.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFzMj1yZdj
    — No ! You are not a risk to anyone ! And you are still here, alive and well ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡryEBDFtLk5
    Thunder suddenly cracks, startling me. I move closer to him and tighten my grip.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHAQWEDENB9
    — Do you want to know what brought me here ? He says to me, letting go of the railing with his hands.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7428oxkAv7
    He opens his arms wide, closes his eyes and falls forward, screaming in rage. Despite my efforts to hold him, his leather jacket slips through my fingers and I let go.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zDUsaIPos
    — Jessy, no ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSydYzrCDeu
    I scream as loud as I can as I see him fall into the void.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLbmmwqnskK
    I put my hands to my mouth while closing my eyes, not daring to open them because I am so sure that he has thrown himself under the wheels of the vehicles passing underneath. And then I suddenly realize that I care about him much more than I wanted to admit to myself until now. Yes, he's HIV positive, angry at the whole world and he spends a lot of time telling me off and yet, without knowing why yet, I can't help but think about him every minute. Suddenly, I hear him scream again at the same time as thunder cracks near us. I slowly open my eyes to see him hanging by his legs above the void. With a quick movement, he manages to stand up, then sit down again on the railing before coming back to my side. I admire his flexibility as I breathe with relief. He rushes straight towards me angrily.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQJoWiV1Gmm
    — I'm going to die, Meg, my life expectancy is so low that it's not worth living ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡip5wzntOcH
    His voice is thick with anger and despair.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWjXx0vyUu3
    — No, I said, crying. You're not sick and you may never be sick, but you have to keep breathing, keep fighting this shit ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkJw2QusXG
    — To do what ? What awaits me in this cursed life ? Everyone will start turning their backs on me again, whispering in my way, being afraid of me.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtTDIXccSS
    Do you think that’s what it’s like to live ? 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgBwCon7Tdl
    He points to the highway.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxKX0ACVXl0
    — AIDS has already made me fall into a void, vehicles have already crushed me. And none of your prayers or hopes can save me ! he shouts.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr10iLLjQI9
    My tears increase in the face of my helplessness. Jessy is going to die, it's just a matter of time and, in this second, I am fully aware of it.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvxugpXE0eQ
    — This virus is circulating inside me and nothing anyone says or does to me will make it go away ! I will have to live the little time I have left carrying this burden alone ! I can't, I can't take this anymore. Reliving what I experienced in Allentown is beyond my strength ! 458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAMmWi2mku
    He lowers his arms, weariness written on each of his features. Cries that he has had to repress many times flood his face. I go to snuggle up against him, immediately his arms embrace me.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGhaGOcgBmr
    — I’m here, you’re no longer alone. I'm here Jessy, I repeat to him several times, hoping that my words penetrate his bruised heart.458Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhkGI7cGWuB
    Above us the storm calms down as the rain unleashes, mixing our tears with those of the sky.8964 copyright protection454ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8u9YI2QNJw 維尼

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