但現實是這樣又如何?1129Please respect copyright.PENANA7X5b5jwkZL
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAwEL5S9yjuc
沒法理解,沒法接受。1129Please respect copyright.PENANA1kexDIfJnF
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAxaCWnrZ3vY
童桐變了,已經不再是我小時候認識的那個她。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAKyXHVy80oo
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAJwTS0vPePQ
但現實對我來說,過於…難以理解。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAWWAhQm3gCX
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAXfMhme5Id7
她甚至連一個苦衷也不編,一個謊也不撒。1129Please respect copyright.PENANApVI7aRD0VD
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAv0PmSyph8A
要該高興嗎,還是要哭?我曾經視她如宗教一樣的存在,現在卻。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAjcHhbsYeSo
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現在卻。1129Please respect copyright.PENANA6qtIKCPxIU
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感覺最近情緒上的衝擊,我已沒法作出正確的反應,腦海被攪成一團糊糨。我掩著臉搖著頭,恍如因射箭而滿是厚繭的雙手,能為我提供一個避風港。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAXtIHW402fb
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAepLx4tFin0
因為我的避風巷已經毀了。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAn5t1fPqwda
1129Please respect copyright.PENANArdP69lZllD
因為我的童年…1129Please respect copyright.PENANA1GeNSYP3D7
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAKilFEzTjyr
…真真正正的,結束了。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAWLj4lGF13T
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAB1O1UYVt8H
「呀遊,我地都有唔想俾任何人見到既一面…我相信你都有。」童桐說,「但即使係咁…我都會接受,呀遊,因為由所有面向組成既…先係完整既你。」1129Please respect copyright.PENANAoCe6P5sUUu
1129Please respect copyright.PENANASgsRfSDLYZ
甚麼是好人,甚麼是壞人?1129Please respect copyright.PENANAX3OT0xsa5m
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAIawhBUQ891
壞人在自己的故事中,也是一個英雄。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAhek0dsgCJA
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAnRMlMV7kAl
捐錢幫助窮人的慈善家,也有人視之為資本主義中的剝削者。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAd1Ur17hwdY
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAJ6HxQnM9Dv
不用說到這樣宏大,我媽也不是沒被人說過HR死全家,我爸把釣到的魚放上網和人分享也被動保主義者說血腥屠夫。1129Please respect copyright.PENANA2Bdv90pEMm
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAMi38QBjYfk
但對我來說,二人都是父母,是家人。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAn8UFuS6KjV
1129Please respect copyright.PENANA6mjXdE5WF7
不同人對於不同人來說,可以同時是好人,同時亦是壞人。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAIw6FfejAJT
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAfcxudrZFfA
…但當距離親近如我和童桐這樣,所有面向便互相嵌鑲成一個完整的存在,並非一個單獨面向。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAqFbuzt3UUR
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAXpsHo8oLPk
愛慕她的好。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAlhZID7HQTe
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAkK3zxUntzw
便要接受她的壞。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAhoN6qu6j5p
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAXheg6OqdGc
我竟然天真的曾經以為童桐只有好的那一面,如甚麼完美的聖女。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAu6sltkp1ys
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAmlAHyB24yY
現在殘酷而赤裸裸的事實放在眼前,至於接受與否便是我們的課題了。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAm0VpwP4RL6
1129Please respect copyright.PENANApWVXlPfrRY
即使我和童桐身上都穿著衣服,但卻比起過往十多年來任何時候還要更加赤裸,更加坦誠相見。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAHITC3rUSKr
1129Please respect copyright.PENANApQj2NAu6lE
「你肯定?」我冷冷地說。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAmedk4TJ9SV
1129Please respect copyright.PENANA3yQB4Y9rP0
她還不知道我幹了甚麼。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAG4cKACC4rs
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAFPL2ZTVD4u
她還不知道我曾經打算幹甚麼。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAwO3XP9cQl3
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAeiMgCI5MLW
「…嗯。」她說,「我,我又有咩資格話你?無論你做過咩都好…」1129Please respect copyright.PENANALTbaLBB2Nj
1129Please respect copyright.PENANApNzDGcphqX
童桐雙眼發光,好像在淹水中捉到了救生圈一樣。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAgTHhQ1OSdu
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAR6Xj8VUEOL
「所以你覺得如果我都有一個黑暗面,一個黑化版既呀遊,我就同你一樣自私,同你一樣有唔見得光既一面,所以我地就平起平座,我就應該接受你,然後可以如以前一樣?」1129Please respect copyright.PENANAFNffUZs9LG
1129Please respect copyright.PENANA0jdIiZXG4O
「…唔係咁…」卻被我看穿了。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAEiNEu7EHqi
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「定係我咁講正合你意,咁樣你內心會舒服D,因為自甘墜落既人唔止你一個?」1129Please respect copyright.PENANAGd68d8J1O7
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAbtnc5QUebV
「唔係咁,唔係咁唔係咁,呀遊,唔好咁講,求下你…」童桐哭著說。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAhaWNUph5g0
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAT1Zl1kts3G
「…童桐,我地永遠都唔可能好似以前一樣。」1129Please respect copyright.PENANADocqtaifYu
1129Please respect copyright.PENANACHceMPuPrL
然後,我推開了她。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAVFicYIPC6L
1129Please respect copyright.PENANABjpNQBjAqs
史無前例地,我推開了正準近我,打算向我撒嬌的童桐。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAzylebsWAxn
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAsRiylupBwS
「……」她露出寂寞的眼神。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAPFlB3y8lpx
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAkDBCNkodmi
「你講得岩,我都有另一面,我都有做過D唔想俾你知既事。」我低頭說,「但…我好亂,我唔知,我唔知點樣面對你,同你一樣。」1129Please respect copyright.PENANAIpLq3vqYOO
1129Please respect copyright.PENANASoN5bSNPfW
「邊個會無?我鐘意你,即使你有咩秘密都好我都一定會…」童桐說。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAhNzbzK7cBt
1129Please respect copyright.PENANASqoGDNXyul
「我係你就唔會咁講。」我苦笑。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAmJQ2q2AhVr
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAAqn60Ji9G9
「係…?」1129Please respect copyright.PENANApSNYgbvQVM
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAXZFkeJfaOz
「我個時都咁講過,我話無論你做過咩,有咩秘密我都會接受到…然後我個心就碎左。」我輕撫自己的胸口。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAY7wrx9O1Lg
1129Please respect copyright.PENANANsTJkDtOei
愈是鐘愛於幻象,現實就更加殘酷。1129Please respect copyright.PENANA01O0EEwZ5B
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAC0L1VorSNF
夢中愈是甘甜,現實便愈見苦澀。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAfoimBpB4iC
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAMk0ZU8SKr6
「我唔信,呀遊你唔同我,你係個好人…」1129Please respect copyright.PENANAXhATCU80WP
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAQC2nSco40D
「我先唔係。」1129Please respect copyright.PENANAy77tLOuOWs
1129Please respect copyright.PENANA2eKDU11QNE
我早就不是甚麼好人。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAWuZEsuvpmQ
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAD9r2tiFgBc
從明明連人家名字還沒記住便去追求人家,胡亂表白開始,到之後的事。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAbJwuV8yTUn
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAiXlXc9tBNM
我才不是「除了射箭甚麼也不會」的人。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAXdaLZ7OFPZ
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAwAOjdlg0bh
「咁你講出黎。」她說,「我寧願你親口講,都唔想某日自己發現。」1129Please respect copyright.PENANAHl1OWC1RXV
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAYb8R17Zqbj
「……」1129Please respect copyright.PENANAmX1QkAqohk
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAFq6LxG5J9n
是我害得植嵐晨自殺。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAheV36UFYfv
1129Please respect copyright.PENANALoT4nCY6hh
那天我差點按下了清理瀏覽記錄而間接害死他。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAnSJYEsWcIh
1129Please respect copyright.PENANA7DZgKQ5uIm
為了勝利我打算吃禁藥。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAi7bD7vdHnY
1129Please respect copyright.PENANA6eXt5ydzIf
我和妍妍有了肉體關係,但沒打算負責任。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAJA9ENG4f4X
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAFgiX1QKH3q
當天第一次妍妍出現在水上樂園是,其實是PTGF。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAOQgwAIQ9Ik
1129Please respect copyright.PENANA3j6I9HRic8
中學時那連串的表白行為,其中一些我可是明知有男朋友也照去馬。1129Please respect copyright.PENANA6tLoe702fM
1129Please respect copyright.PENANA0Gg2Oc4EWv
……那年我打算過自殺,甚至已經完成了氦氣袋的試作型。1129Please respect copyright.PENANA5xDILQJYUt
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAmhQWHTzRia
「呀遊,我地大家今晚都互相坦白喇…然後睇下點樣互相接受到對方,好唔好?我唔想無左你呢個青梅竹馬,無論做唔做到情侶都好。」童桐說。1129Please respect copyright.PENANA2FLB18Usu2
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAeIuzMnJ62d
「我諗…今晚我地都攰。」我說,「我求其煮個公仔麵就返過去。」1129Please respect copyright.PENANArSJEqAaDho
1129Please respect copyright.PENANADCKd38m9RE
「呀遊…」1129Please respect copyright.PENANACLpohWXb5M
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAujdtcBJTjr
「我會講。」我說,「只係…唔係今晚,我要,童桐,對唔住,我…做唔到…我好攰,我好撚亂呀,你明唔明呀。」1129Please respect copyright.PENANAicRnhh0evm
1129Please respect copyright.PENANARwP0koFBg5
我試圖以過去的眼光看待她。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAGxcyEoO9y9
1129Please respect copyright.PENANArYpis2hOaD
做不到。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAfCYleMgwSw
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAeDjosDcWVb
我試圖向她坦白自己做過的一切。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAXyhe4qy3Sx
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAFzfs3LxObH
做不到。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAbPQz4NiKO8
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAtq8mvcp6Un
既然我知道了她的真面目後這樣激動,這樣看待她,反過來…其實也一樣吧。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAvum8dZN1pC
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAs0X9P6x9aW
只是現在是我在暗,她在明,她才這樣向我告解一樣。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAnUo6DjvHHz
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAUrUiTBUnAG
下午離開Beta那兒之前,他幫我設定了一個倒數計時,現在距離核彈爆炸只剩下167小時。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAf0XYP3p0Qn
1129Please respect copyright.PENANA1rIIcKhu2z
我沒有高童桐一等,更別說是道德高地。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAawrucA4TQW
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAQXSR5qUjlX
所以我也沒法狠狠罵她一頓,然後說要帶她回正途,連這樣子我也做不到,這才是現在一切膠著,一切如陷五里霧中的原因。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAHTpmY80EY6
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既,沒法坦白。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAsy25xyi2Nj
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又,沒法斥責。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAjX23q5gXLH
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAjYHm2kx57R
既,沒法接受。1129Please respect copyright.PENANA58y7GtdxW4
1129Please respect copyright.PENANA50aLqdERJk
也,沒法忘記。1129Please respect copyright.PENANA4VlPplWpR8
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而且…也沒法理解。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAQ48PKo4zjK
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAipwxBizFIO
明明妍妍叫我不用在意她,去處理和童桐之間的事,結果卻變成了這樣子。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAmlj678q146
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAYhze8mD9s1
反倒有點對不起她了呢,我這爛人。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAIJlw5jJkL0
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAy4hpDro7ki
我轉身胡亂地擦去眼淚,以免自己在童桐面前出醜。但這時背上傳來陣陣的溫暖,陣陣的柔軟,童桐從後抱住我,把頭靠到我背脊上,用耳朵貼住我的肌肉聆聽著我的心跳。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAdpRzREcFek
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAX8Y5sRhkKN
「只要你係我身邊,你要嬲我幾耐都無所謂。」1129Please respect copyright.PENANAJRcGyBgomb
1129Please respect copyright.PENANA6hcnzYaLGk
「……」1129Please respect copyright.PENANAEsinurlUcg
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「因為我地都應承過大家,嬲幾耐都好,最後都會搵返對方,唔準絕交,唔準永遠唔彩對方落去架嘛。」1129Please respect copyright.PENANAzSqP2bAvvw
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAFoOoCqXmPz
她能聽到我的脈動,反之亦然。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAVnIk3faGla
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAj0lv4KBrbk
我雖然沒法直接聽到,但我感受著童桐的每一下呼吸,每一下心跳,胸膛的每一起伏。1129Please respect copyright.PENANANJNBVJ78Or
1129Please respect copyright.PENANA7xVT9hSEXR
「只要你無事就好,我個晚真係好驚。」童桐說。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAySx1T1bUdQ
1129Please respect copyright.PENANASqQxjALykm
「嗯,我都睇到係你救左我。」1129Please respect copyright.PENANAt6g2pnnUzU
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAOaEknZcmyy
「但即係係咁…即使你會討厭我,即使你個下已經知道左我係Dora,我唔知點面對你…我都唔想你有事。」1129Please respect copyright.PENANAgX0i0SOfjG
1129Please respect copyright.PENANADau9fJzQmP
曾經她只求唯有我別討厭她。1129Please respect copyright.PENANARVpf3dYOOD
1129Please respect copyright.PENANApkjgnhI0SP
曾經她即使全世界討厭她也不怕,因為有我在她身邊。1129Please respect copyright.PENANA74Gll6RBEG
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAmW5FDizvee
…現在即使連我也討厭她,她也只想我安全健康。1129Please respect copyright.PENANASWjMif03eN
1129Please respect copyright.PENANA8jcp0Jtypq
你叫我怎樣對你生氣,童桐。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAEps0t1NkJB
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAUA16LsCap1
「我…好多謝你,童桐。」我說,的確是她救了我。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAFZvsUHcd82
1129Please respect copyright.PENANA2FSE8NcVmb
「…到你覺得可以講既時候,就同我講。」童桐說,「我地只要互相坦白,然後互相再接受,互相理解對方,一定可以捱過呢一關。」1129Please respect copyright.PENANA85zr5Pi5DI
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咦?1129Please respect copyright.PENANAjgV5uHmlYg
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAKzEd2UXBDO
腦中如一道清泉流過…我覺得這就是我和童桐最大的差異之處。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAVqcGRW2mFN
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAmnIjioEl1P
「接受與否」,是我的想法。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAHWwGRmK1RY
1129Please respect copyright.PENANACc2hKlGvdR
「如何接受」,是童桐的想法。1129Please respect copyright.PENANANFIMmX7NB7
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAzEu1ZYeeg4
那天晚上我和童桐沒有得出任何答案,甚至說沒有任何進展。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAZseLfLmBOI
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAmKGOJATlaU
她甚至沒有提出我希望中的苦衷,使我可以諒解的苦衷,只能得出「性格使然」的絕望答案。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAOZORMB8nav
1129Please respect copyright.PENANA0FRoLCZTZA
老實說,場面比我想像中平靜,至少我們沒有向對方咆哮或痛哭。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAOm2r1zOfZu
1129Please respect copyright.PENANABUq8TMUB7V
但是…無力感漸漸佔據了空氣,佔據了心底,連情緒該發洩向何處也沒有著力點。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAJLKud9GAvf
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAQX8xKwsRV0
我寧願和她痛痛快快吵一架,也不想這樣子…1129Please respect copyright.PENANADnWax0Mfpt
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAlHVzRMpFqQ
…我真的不想。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAlw0k6Twf7N
1129Please respect copyright.PENANA6oHIBClpqg
至於和她坦白的話,我覺得不是時候,所以也沒有說出口。我需要時間去沉澱,去思考,去好好盤算接下來的做法。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAT2tkBAhwSF
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAi9Jydmf2KB
活了在幻象中廿多年的我,被狠狠地摔到現實中。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAF1xDmELs3s
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAWORNW3zocz
現在我要學習在現實中活下去。1129Please respect copyright.PENANAeJcWOxuMH5
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAW7dCwLR6OJ
第二天早上,距離核彈發射還有153小時。1129Please respect copyright.PENANADVGkkunzJr
1129Please respect copyright.PENANAL1quZv6nLm
童桐的窗簾現在到了早上醒來…也再沒有打開了。1129Please respect copyright.PENANA4CuRSah9DX
1129Please respect copyright.PENANA090fXNeLiy
那兒,只有一片茫然和我心中懷念。
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【實體書有售】《青梅竹馬真係最難追》
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