但現實是這樣又如何?1042Please respect copyright.PENANAKrIWU1w7J3
1042Please respect copyright.PENANA9LWl3MaMZz
沒法理解,沒法接受。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAYQkaAaIZdj
1042Please respect copyright.PENANA5KIw6FlApc
童桐變了,已經不再是我小時候認識的那個她。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAOgWzSOZbDT
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAtxMf867IHU
但現實對我來說,過於…難以理解。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAmS9wrti7ma
1042Please respect copyright.PENANASsRkaK54uX
她甚至連一個苦衷也不編,一個謊也不撒。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAR0kUAIP811
1042Please respect copyright.PENANA30V0glFbpW
要該高興嗎,還是要哭?我曾經視她如宗教一樣的存在,現在卻。1042Please respect copyright.PENANACfTCFpD5QI
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAcxNbcBB19W
現在卻。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAenT2nk1isv
1042Please respect copyright.PENANA0r0yDXoG2M
感覺最近情緒上的衝擊,我已沒法作出正確的反應,腦海被攪成一團糊糨。我掩著臉搖著頭,恍如因射箭而滿是厚繭的雙手,能為我提供一個避風港。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAqYDxrAhHt4
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAq26Juwp7oh
因為我的避風巷已經毀了。1042Please respect copyright.PENANA9E8x30crMS
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAZvuVFTUYqm
因為我的童年…1042Please respect copyright.PENANA6DqXEeJoic
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAsk39I7v4j7
…真真正正的,結束了。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAgPy6dlvWBO
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAqgMp5Awquo
「呀遊,我地都有唔想俾任何人見到既一面…我相信你都有。」童桐說,「但即使係咁…我都會接受,呀遊,因為由所有面向組成既…先係完整既你。」1042Please respect copyright.PENANAYf66yguWp1
1042Please respect copyright.PENANArgRBap2BzF
甚麼是好人,甚麼是壞人?1042Please respect copyright.PENANAQKZMjoS1wV
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAXf9bhkevEr
壞人在自己的故事中,也是一個英雄。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAGtXfXNGPFD
1042Please respect copyright.PENANA323fpRAlQH
捐錢幫助窮人的慈善家,也有人視之為資本主義中的剝削者。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAXyWZgrZbI4
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAFw2phK64cH
不用說到這樣宏大,我媽也不是沒被人說過HR死全家,我爸把釣到的魚放上網和人分享也被動保主義者說血腥屠夫。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAoBnaCOSsqL
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAipuKFJgEuh
但對我來說,二人都是父母,是家人。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAmyQ3P3mXbE
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAaTzgNvqBke
不同人對於不同人來說,可以同時是好人,同時亦是壞人。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAyyIHh7cPaf
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAgTdC1epzep
…但當距離親近如我和童桐這樣,所有面向便互相嵌鑲成一個完整的存在,並非一個單獨面向。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAJu2Ge5GRdC
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAonzsni1Ah8
愛慕她的好。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAy36qv86oOv
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAQ4vNrndbdR
便要接受她的壞。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAkmJgWw3XJr
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAEw9wMa0vOT
我竟然天真的曾經以為童桐只有好的那一面,如甚麼完美的聖女。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAnUGgJZ9P4o
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAlDvmP2UHyB
現在殘酷而赤裸裸的事實放在眼前,至於接受與否便是我們的課題了。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAaV6ydZ9VeH
1042Please respect copyright.PENANACjdL2RIQSs
即使我和童桐身上都穿著衣服,但卻比起過往十多年來任何時候還要更加赤裸,更加坦誠相見。1042Please respect copyright.PENANA496gQGYkGU
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAmNtY6Srtw5
「你肯定?」我冷冷地說。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAfHmkacfz1i
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAGCuohETNq8
她還不知道我幹了甚麼。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAHQ9b1CcJA9
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAL5h6oo94GA
她還不知道我曾經打算幹甚麼。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAGHpI5ONQG8
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAM8PSPzE53L
「…嗯。」她說,「我,我又有咩資格話你?無論你做過咩都好…」1042Please respect copyright.PENANAAh1bag0c0D
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAWhfueO5hKH
童桐雙眼發光,好像在淹水中捉到了救生圈一樣。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAZfC21I2b9Q
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAVdp6yDVHo0
「所以你覺得如果我都有一個黑暗面,一個黑化版既呀遊,我就同你一樣自私,同你一樣有唔見得光既一面,所以我地就平起平座,我就應該接受你,然後可以如以前一樣?」1042Please respect copyright.PENANA5TZIfeWBpP
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAc6qZty4DO6
「…唔係咁…」卻被我看穿了。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAWbJN3CQEQi
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAm7Hu4tJBxT
「定係我咁講正合你意,咁樣你內心會舒服D,因為自甘墜落既人唔止你一個?」1042Please respect copyright.PENANAeF8ayJp9zZ
1042Please respect copyright.PENANATGzMqn7tOp
「唔係咁,唔係咁唔係咁,呀遊,唔好咁講,求下你…」童桐哭著說。1042Please respect copyright.PENANADp5Pk4MFeq
1042Please respect copyright.PENANALGzAG4hh8K
「…童桐,我地永遠都唔可能好似以前一樣。」1042Please respect copyright.PENANAWQMEBCZRc1
1042Please respect copyright.PENANA0kDjf8dQ5E
然後,我推開了她。1042Please respect copyright.PENANANMiIXIQJ9Y
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAbIO0hj1X4P
史無前例地,我推開了正準近我,打算向我撒嬌的童桐。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAUUd9sTIrTN
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAxlHaKmuaop
「……」她露出寂寞的眼神。1042Please respect copyright.PENANA447rj2I4KA
1042Please respect copyright.PENANA7OxSZwIhbE
「你講得岩,我都有另一面,我都有做過D唔想俾你知既事。」我低頭說,「但…我好亂,我唔知,我唔知點樣面對你,同你一樣。」1042Please respect copyright.PENANAcm5t0RaOB6
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAZF80YEIKOh
「邊個會無?我鐘意你,即使你有咩秘密都好我都一定會…」童桐說。1042Please respect copyright.PENANA03pUrAjr3V
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAuE3xgCzC6V
「我係你就唔會咁講。」我苦笑。1042Please respect copyright.PENANALQHqhAHwbI
1042Please respect copyright.PENANABpp4bRl2NJ
「係…?」1042Please respect copyright.PENANAYBtgut2wAe
1042Please respect copyright.PENANA9oMjXPPiNx
「我個時都咁講過,我話無論你做過咩,有咩秘密我都會接受到…然後我個心就碎左。」我輕撫自己的胸口。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAb8url0PYQB
1042Please respect copyright.PENANA1POGq3Sv8t
愈是鐘愛於幻象,現實就更加殘酷。1042Please respect copyright.PENANA0YO60MPjY0
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAhDLBO8MngB
夢中愈是甘甜,現實便愈見苦澀。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAwwYVyPbkKy
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAsQDy2dnVeN
「我唔信,呀遊你唔同我,你係個好人…」1042Please respect copyright.PENANAFYOALUzdrx
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAkVYaijHznk
「我先唔係。」1042Please respect copyright.PENANAH1y4cdAeab
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAEAmcnQQEIl
我早就不是甚麼好人。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAfrOxfXo1jG
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAudN8jloIdu
從明明連人家名字還沒記住便去追求人家,胡亂表白開始,到之後的事。1042Please respect copyright.PENANA9vZ8ZENW6t
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAv0KykM53kP
我才不是「除了射箭甚麼也不會」的人。1042Please respect copyright.PENANA727AIPMIsL
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAX5VhSKo8sJ
「咁你講出黎。」她說,「我寧願你親口講,都唔想某日自己發現。」1042Please respect copyright.PENANAar19xDCTwD
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAdaPNuWcyq2
「……」1042Please respect copyright.PENANAWlGsjtv4AK
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAdNwMNDWaLG
是我害得植嵐晨自殺。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAG0XpwnV3vW
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAFN0RPzl09d
那天我差點按下了清理瀏覽記錄而間接害死他。1042Please respect copyright.PENANA0eWuAYLSdA
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAYB9srWHdhz
為了勝利我打算吃禁藥。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAAGovl1vwjJ
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAya2N2M5Kzd
我和妍妍有了肉體關係,但沒打算負責任。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAScViRMJn1o
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAX2wN3vl7Ha
當天第一次妍妍出現在水上樂園是,其實是PTGF。1042Please respect copyright.PENANALrbJp1A34I
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAl08TxlA3Ib
中學時那連串的表白行為,其中一些我可是明知有男朋友也照去馬。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAGoKiREJLLf
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAYQdbZHa2Vo
……那年我打算過自殺,甚至已經完成了氦氣袋的試作型。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAEG5IaED2Vo
1042Please respect copyright.PENANACJ6vyk6CUI
「呀遊,我地大家今晚都互相坦白喇…然後睇下點樣互相接受到對方,好唔好?我唔想無左你呢個青梅竹馬,無論做唔做到情侶都好。」童桐說。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAPxw426KHlY
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAvwxiinf98i
「我諗…今晚我地都攰。」我說,「我求其煮個公仔麵就返過去。」1042Please respect copyright.PENANAl677F6qZ5j
1042Please respect copyright.PENANApCoMJYeGcD
「呀遊…」1042Please respect copyright.PENANAUTQ5ATvHij
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAQG3l0nXgpD
「我會講。」我說,「只係…唔係今晚,我要,童桐,對唔住,我…做唔到…我好攰,我好撚亂呀,你明唔明呀。」1042Please respect copyright.PENANApAeoiieaKP
1042Please respect copyright.PENANA3xuXd5yTS8
我試圖以過去的眼光看待她。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAYkYgsMEeBU
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAeDVHxxiMA2
做不到。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAnFNL65rWcS
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAnAmYV06q7g
我試圖向她坦白自己做過的一切。1042Please respect copyright.PENANA2er3ZTNk6H
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAad4GyvNEKa
做不到。1042Please respect copyright.PENANA6UI8wEVBk4
1042Please respect copyright.PENANApRxgP1XT6l
既然我知道了她的真面目後這樣激動,這樣看待她,反過來…其實也一樣吧。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAzmCBlnZjox
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAfRRRxEeQFM
只是現在是我在暗,她在明,她才這樣向我告解一樣。1042Please respect copyright.PENANApCB3AQVEyq
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAh5jIOdSqbE
下午離開Beta那兒之前,他幫我設定了一個倒數計時,現在距離核彈爆炸只剩下167小時。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAHcWmx7gGdP
1042Please respect copyright.PENANA2V7PkCpO40
我沒有高童桐一等,更別說是道德高地。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAiMvsGjPYN4
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAgp05gzzgi6
所以我也沒法狠狠罵她一頓,然後說要帶她回正途,連這樣子我也做不到,這才是現在一切膠著,一切如陷五里霧中的原因。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAohDKzGFQka
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAXiL7kkJaKB
既,沒法坦白。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAUr6cY2WCWZ
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAq2mCpf6zrT
又,沒法斥責。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAawNgRXfx93
1042Please respect copyright.PENANATA2RHMNt8m
既,沒法接受。1042Please respect copyright.PENANA46xiE7Jmmo
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAnalhe3zoc3
也,沒法忘記。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAnB8iAswYNj
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAOSc4EhciT7
而且…也沒法理解。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAjFHwtVey5o
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAkQA68mNREX
明明妍妍叫我不用在意她,去處理和童桐之間的事,結果卻變成了這樣子。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAngYJOfxyAx
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAjkpEDb85Qm
反倒有點對不起她了呢,我這爛人。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAjqPqKOF4dh
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAmHDoYucagP
我轉身胡亂地擦去眼淚,以免自己在童桐面前出醜。但這時背上傳來陣陣的溫暖,陣陣的柔軟,童桐從後抱住我,把頭靠到我背脊上,用耳朵貼住我的肌肉聆聽著我的心跳。1042Please respect copyright.PENANApf2AEJ4XZW
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAzv30sIbc2z
「只要你係我身邊,你要嬲我幾耐都無所謂。」1042Please respect copyright.PENANAxIZGkBk7PT
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAWmcgx8B3mr
「……」1042Please respect copyright.PENANAXYYzS20R2q
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAJc3bSbV5kv
「因為我地都應承過大家,嬲幾耐都好,最後都會搵返對方,唔準絕交,唔準永遠唔彩對方落去架嘛。」1042Please respect copyright.PENANAEK4CQALDs6
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAU1XX6DmSsj
她能聽到我的脈動,反之亦然。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAlZ3QnuxKT6
1042Please respect copyright.PENANADvQLpcgrLl
我雖然沒法直接聽到,但我感受著童桐的每一下呼吸,每一下心跳,胸膛的每一起伏。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAagUJ2jC6FQ
1042Please respect copyright.PENANA1oBIC0VX68
「只要你無事就好,我個晚真係好驚。」童桐說。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAYTmCudHSC7
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAFG9LoNN6eM
「嗯,我都睇到係你救左我。」1042Please respect copyright.PENANADvEHhow8iY
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAvLm8VfqaKr
「但即係係咁…即使你會討厭我,即使你個下已經知道左我係Dora,我唔知點面對你…我都唔想你有事。」1042Please respect copyright.PENANApdpKFPSg0Y
1042Please respect copyright.PENANASvJuLrnS1I
曾經她只求唯有我別討厭她。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAxXpwS5WhG1
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAx0A7FHShMF
曾經她即使全世界討厭她也不怕,因為有我在她身邊。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAFndm46mjc4
1042Please respect copyright.PENANA6OhaBDKJT4
…現在即使連我也討厭她,她也只想我安全健康。1042Please respect copyright.PENANA2B2gSW01NQ
1042Please respect copyright.PENANA8QRtnWCbtu
你叫我怎樣對你生氣,童桐。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAiBre6VSKT4
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAJY9djuWfjf
「我…好多謝你,童桐。」我說,的確是她救了我。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAFeTAcsfZi4
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAQbsimj4QBw
「…到你覺得可以講既時候,就同我講。」童桐說,「我地只要互相坦白,然後互相再接受,互相理解對方,一定可以捱過呢一關。」1042Please respect copyright.PENANAjp0RHgb9o7
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAJnK4bv7Zpk
咦?1042Please respect copyright.PENANAMNsoD0Umfh
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAobVSa3lNTm
腦中如一道清泉流過…我覺得這就是我和童桐最大的差異之處。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAIpty1aqy05
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAXqCAqivcY5
「接受與否」,是我的想法。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAsXNuEjO210
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAD1mzZWBBze
「如何接受」,是童桐的想法。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAhdz8P0GzDR
1042Please respect copyright.PENANARQu63FTysu
那天晚上我和童桐沒有得出任何答案,甚至說沒有任何進展。1042Please respect copyright.PENANA6t5RkYRODg
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAJ0cgRcitIY
她甚至沒有提出我希望中的苦衷,使我可以諒解的苦衷,只能得出「性格使然」的絕望答案。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAdxiLzkdHrd
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAyHWUKZ7nT6
老實說,場面比我想像中平靜,至少我們沒有向對方咆哮或痛哭。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAhIOgN1Ankc
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAx4dBpeBLhr
但是…無力感漸漸佔據了空氣,佔據了心底,連情緒該發洩向何處也沒有著力點。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAV8d56d91Xu
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAkJB0Ng50zY
我寧願和她痛痛快快吵一架,也不想這樣子…1042Please respect copyright.PENANAwRWNVURZrT
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAXwNoG0Zc90
…我真的不想。1042Please respect copyright.PENANA9CiQPgvoYl
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAmNp7PMm636
至於和她坦白的話,我覺得不是時候,所以也沒有說出口。我需要時間去沉澱,去思考,去好好盤算接下來的做法。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAFBZwwyqkus
1042Please respect copyright.PENANA5BsGcZiX4c
活了在幻象中廿多年的我,被狠狠地摔到現實中。1042Please respect copyright.PENANA8D1bIoX3ob
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAbDcH8M60m3
現在我要學習在現實中活下去。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAEmWUJijcEv
1042Please respect copyright.PENANAGggT3tVDM1
第二天早上,距離核彈發射還有153小時。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAu2npVSV63A
1042Please respect copyright.PENANANFcP3cLBaZ
童桐的窗簾現在到了早上醒來…也再沒有打開了。1042Please respect copyright.PENANAJsLM5pXypq
1042Please respect copyright.PENANApqfxBxEGbB
那兒,只有一片茫然和我心中懷念。
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【實體書有售】《青梅竹馬真係最難追》
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