November faded.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiCqTfbYCJ
December froze.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaDEgbnwW4i
January drifted by in silence.
Three months passed, and with every day, I kept asking myself the same questions.
What happened?49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbzhkwY5Bu4
Why the sudden change?49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMhG8Skecc8
What about everything we planned for — the little things, the big things, the quiet promises, the late-night talks, the classes?
Had it all meant nothing?
While I kept overthinking and pretending to be okay, the third semester slipped by.
And the fourth began.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZmz6AWG0zg
At the end of January.
Still no response from her.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx6zRsmxJoL
No message.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa3K5BcXn63
No eye contact.
I told myself — maybe she’s just thinking about her future.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJxpwvIrgkm
Maybe it’s a phase.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy67UQI4aO6
Maybe she’ll return when she's ready.
That’s when I got selected into Owl Coder. along with some other second years.
One of the most prestigious training programs our college had.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7iNUuNjFw
It was meant for the third years.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVluTcnaIEo
But I got in — in my second year.
It should’ve felt like a crown.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uVLJau6Hg
But all I felt was the hollow absence of someone to place it on my head.
She wasn’t there to hear the news.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmddmVEiqn
To congratulate me.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYS9jCALT5V
To tease me.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLVVcxRXnx4
To be proud.
And that silence made the success… feel like ash.
The Owl Coder program was intense.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWQW0S4Tna5
It started at 5 PM and ended at midnight — with just a dinner break in between.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgVaPHlEWY
We were expected to stay in the hostel throughout.
No sunlight.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3h2ShpRI9D
No sleep.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwhIO9JZDF6
No time.
I was running on caffeine, coping with cold metal bunk beds and the constant hum of exhausted ambition.
So during the day’s technical hub sessions…49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJjlqH6ddq
I slept.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkMgKt5JUCD
An excuse disguised as exhaustion.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUbjCxxNFW
A mask for what I couldn’t confess — that I just didn’t have it in me anymore.
This semester's subjects were Operating Systems and DBMS.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrk08DKcWd
Three days a week in Thub, threee days in regular classes.
There went my attendance…49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEMKAtwN6xh
Flying out the window like a bird that no longer cared to return.
Inside Owl Coder, I got to know how selections happened.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAN7WGVThWp
How people were noticed.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKI7hGWwIMP
How chances bloomed and vanished in a blink.
All I wanted to do was explain it all to her.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9qSuodGgDL
To help her — even if I could no longer be near her.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8g381PrD3
Even if I was just a background character now.
I texted her.
Asked if she could meet in the library — just for a moment.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSEtmE7Ry08
I waited.
She replied:
“I’ll be late. I have class.”
That was it.
A sentence.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7gzBwagDD
A dagger.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDAXlVNkJ9n
A quiet way of saying, You’re not important enough to wait for.
And yet I still hoped.
Then one evening, everything cracked.
I was walking toward the hostel.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2QzJL3kyz
From the buses, through the mango gardens — one of the quietest, most serene places in our campus.
I saw her.
Sitting under the trees.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ89s5rxX7aq
With Ren.
Talking.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ43fs9avHjN
Smiling.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcc3g6aDeX9
Laughing.
I couldn’t stop.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy4tw3Fo1kO
I couldn’t go back.
I ran past them — like a ghost of someone who once mattered.
My heart screamed:
“Why… can you talk to him, but not to me?”49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhz77jPgZKQ
“What did I do… that made me forgettable?”49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyre58s3sHQ
Or its just maybe me, who is overthinking.
The following days blurred.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5oydxN8rz
I wasn’t myself.
A haunted version of who I once was —49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHfejDeHFZa
Lost in old texts, lost in memories.
I texted her again.
This time, everything I had.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7EJpZyxghf
Every unspoken word.
She replied.
It was reassuring.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCA7TZrK1Pt
Warm, maybe.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXQZvcg0q9b
But it felt forced — like something written more out of duty than care.
And that’s when it happened.
She became a stranger.
The third name I gave her.
She said:
“I have a lot going on. I don’t want to get involved. I care for you…”
Then why did I feel like I only existed in her joy?
Was I meant to only be her comfort, her tutor, her support —49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU6JMVk90QD
and when the storms came, someone to lock away?
Was I disposable when I hurt, but valuable when she smiled?
Then the final blow.
I heard she wouldn’t be continuing in Technical Hub anymore.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6e6Rc16jfA
That she was stepping away from the journey we once shared.
My chest sank.
It was true.
She was walking a road I would never again walk beside her.
Still… I wrote to her.
One heartfelt message.
Encouraging her.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjbXMXFKDy
Reminding her of how much potential she had.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfmXR8ePyF
That the world still waited for her — even if I no longer did.
She replied:
“That made my day…”
And maybe that was enough.
Maybe, sometimes, we don't get closure.49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGoLntJM70
We just get moments like this —49Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYC85N4A3A
A soft echo that reminds us it was real… once.
Even if now, all that remains is a ghost, a third name, and a message.
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