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     For long minutes, I stroke Jessy's wet hair, trying to soothe his pain, his fears. When he straightens his face, he seems ashamed to have cried in my arms. Delicately, I wipe away his last tears, surprised that he lets me do it, and smile at him to reassure him.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYIflqWTT9
    We set off on our way back in torrential rain, yet we walk peacefully, savoring the fact of being together. I don't care if it rains as long as I'm with him.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTMvA5A2Npa
    — Anyway, we're already soaked, I answer Jessy when he asks me if I want to run to get to his house faster. It'll be OK ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMDnVBsL9M
    — Yeah, I think so.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6GYkrR3mFm
    — Jessy, please promise me you’ll never let yourself fall into the void like that again. I got the fright of my life.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLr5DJScwZC
    Hands in his pockets, he shrugs his shoulders and breathes deeply before telling me : 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEivG3BwbPl
    — Promise. Why do you care about me so much ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjxtJ0jSTMo
    His question makes my heart beat faster. I'm not ready to tell him the feelings he inspires in me. I have to analyze them first and try to find out what he feels. So even though I feel my cheeks turning pink, I answer him evasively.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6pvvU9DYV
    — Why not ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6vLfyqmLuX
    — When people learn about AIDS, they turn their backs on me. This is why my mother and I came to live here. Even my father-in-law couldn't stand me living under his roof anymore.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPjjel1GAsx
    — There are morons everywhere, I whisper. Jessy, I like you. I'm not going to start ignoring you because you have a health problem.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdiE3cWhXC
    — Thank you, he murmurs, pursing his lips. I'm sorry for everything I said to you. I didn't mean to be so rude.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohaRpiDjh7
    His unexpected apology really makes me happy. When Jessy stops telling me off, I see in him the boy I had guessed at first glance : A good guy to whom difficult things happen. I think that's why he always tries to show an angry face, he has suffered so much that he doesn't want people to perceive his fragility.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgYuRHzEKt3
    — It's forgotten. By the way, I met your mother. She seems very nice.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGwWceJpSls
    Despite our slow walk, we already arrive in front of his house.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQySNSxb3aJ
    — She is. Do you want me to take you home ? I can borrow his car.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5D3oC13fvP
    — No, it is going to be fine. I don't want to get the seats soggy, I smile. See you tomorrow ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ulZoJ2GX7
    I am happy to see him nod with a big smile. And as I walk away, I realize I've never been closer to him than I am tonight.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgY9TIwpezR
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    It's almost 11 p.m. when I get home, completely soaked. My parents are waiting for me, impatient and worried.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8Rcf4gEoR
    — Finally, here you are, my father roared. Look at you, you're good at wringing ! 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo1dAZzJXU1
    — Were you with Jessy ? My mother asks in her usual soft voice.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3tTHMCaYB7
    I nod, shivering from the cold.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9eTVW2aqq
    — We spoke with Mrs. Sutter at the meeting. She told us that her son had been missing for hours and that she had no idea where he might be. She was very worried about him, my father told me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRL1K7JJwmC
    — He went back home. How did the meeting go ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx5jeg0DuLB
    — Start by drying off, we'll tell you later.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfsQP4ispcf
    I head into the bathroom where I warm up quickly and quickly put on my pajamas, as well as a warm dressing gown, as I can't wait to see how the evening unfolds. I find my parents in the living room, where everyone, in an armchair, drinks coffee while waiting for me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnja9H0bUOl
    — So how did it go ? I said, sitting across from them on the couch.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8eUaiARhQy
    — Difficult to say, my father grimaces. The principal had asked a doctor to come and answer the parents' questions. It calmed some when he assured their children were not at risk of breathing the same air as Jessy or touching him. But other parents are obtuse and want him to be expelled at all costs. They are simply scared to death, to the point of not understanding that AIDS is not caught like that.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJz4fZ5DfMq
    — Mrs. Sutter spoke, saying how much she loves her son and that there is no risk in sharing his life since she has been doing it for a year without problem, my mother added. She is a very dignified and courageous woman. She told us you came to see her.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQtDrxBydTn
    — Indeed, I was looking for Jessy.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdI3L2s8gAW
    — Nina told us that you went looking for him after Chad’s visit. Did you find it ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSzLJCmJ1U
    — Yes, and as far as you know, it’s over between Chad and me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOYTh5SqscG
    Contrary to what I thought, my father doesn't seem surprised. My mother must have already told him about it. However, I don't like the look they exchange before my mother asks me : 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAMGvadhGC
    — Because of Jessy ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQYUDTtD7Zb
    — Yes and no. Jessy and I are friends. But let’s say that meeting him allowed me to open my eyes to Chad and his little world. I realized that, contrary to what I believed, I am not in love with him. I like him a lot but in a friendly way.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ02JZYfyEkG
    Once again my parents exchange this strange look which seems to mean that they are not at the end of their trouble with me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxMRQEN6m8
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    The next morning, when I arrived near the school, I saw Jessy waiting outside on the sidewalk.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhZzxwuznir
    — Hi, how are you ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUOXhniVgJ
    He puts a hand to his heart.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVkLATc6GfH
    — Oh, you scared me ! 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3Jpm8NQYSG
    I burst out laughing.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHgUk3tSLi
    — That’s for the scare you gave me last night ! 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJnb4VjCSSz
    — It’s fair game, he smiled.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHn2gtEpT1
    He stares at the large white building without taking a step towards it. Since I stayed in his arms the day before for several minutes, he no longer intimidates me as much, and this impression of knowing him for a long time has strengthened. I saw his fragility behind his anger, I saw his despair, but also his strength.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcpi6GisII3
    — Are you planning to come to class today ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf6lMOsHwGZ
    — I don't know. After what happened yesterday...and then this meeting.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9cyqPHMj0S
    He huffs and then purses his lips, visibly uncomfortable.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB0R5kynKwK
    — Did your mother tell you ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYIXoXPyALo
    — Yes, apparently the parents can't do anything against me, but there is always the possibility that they will contact the academy and file a complaint to have me fired. In fact, I wonder if it wouldn't be better if I gave up... 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTlOK7cdgtD
    — No way ! 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmYrW2Mo4tB
    Jessy looks at me, surprised.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj7QDS1XNsn
    — We'll go together and everything will go well, you'll see.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PporqjlyD
    — There are looks that are sometimes hard to bear, he admits to me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYcy738QN69
    However, I notice that he accompanies me towards high school.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc5Qs18HNk4
    — I believe that, unfortunately, you can never please everyone, so give a chance to know you to those who want it and forget the morons.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Hp9gt4APY
    We enter the main hallway, students turn to look at us as I continue talking so that he focuses more on my voice than on the eyes focused on him.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaAsp3SV4T2
    — With time, there will be those who will realize who you really are and they will come to you, as for those who continue to criticize you, act as if they don't exist. They're the idiots, not you.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUAiLCisqjL
    I meet the gaze of a tall guy, named Tyler, who grimaces when he hears me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwmcg8yjfq
    — Yes, complete idiots, I said again in a louder voice.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9EzLYZpvp6
    Jessy gives me a grateful smile.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv7qWEqeKgA
    — Oh, it’s getting bad, he murmurs.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyZXfslX9Q
    I follow his gaze and see Chad striding towards us. He stands in front of Jessy and, after a few seconds of hesitation, offers his hand.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡANrkOlHyBQ
    — I'm sorry for yesterday. For the fight…and everything else. I should never have listened to your conversation and above all I should never have repeated his secret. I'm really sorry.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm29E1WPsnT
     Jessy hesitates for a few seconds then squeezes his hand, nodding.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOT9KSdiF8
    — Thanks.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiKJQRdP9u
    His eyes move from Jessy to me, he doesn't seem to know how to behave around me anymore.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcGVwK5yov9
    Around us, several students observe the scene. Chad is the most popular boy in school and I suspect that after this reconciling handshake, the attitude of some people will change.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkseyFdw33x
    He taps Jessy on the shoulder and says — See you later and walks away.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsIuPwV1op
    — It’s weird that Chad came to apologize. Did you ask him to do it ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8T3wu7BQmI
    — No, he did it alone, but you know, he’s like that. He is impulsive, but quickly regrets his outbursts... I feel, more than I see, Jessy looking at me in profile.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JWV6dQ41u
    — What ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5DWIScGNF
    I turn my head towards him.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnQU2LM6IYy
    — Why did you break up ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKORzMxE4xm
    — We are too different.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8VoOUdovX
    I shrug my shoulders as if it were obvious.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3CgZRPIUGG
    — And are you okay ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0BGSwkAkf
    I see in his eyes that he really cares about me, it warms my heart.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiPrTy4ENqA
    — Alright.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtyte2WSsZ
    A small smile appears at the corners of his lips.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOwjQSgngZc
    — I know you don't like Chad very much, but erase that little smug look. (I smile in turn as the bell rings for the start of classes.) We're going to be late, come on.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMl1VUZmXur
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    In the days that followed, things calmed down at the school. I can't say that Jessy goes unnoticed, but he is seen less as an outcast, which is already a small victory. At school, I was always the model student, collecting good grades. The super serious girl who has the teachers on her side. When I dated Chad, who is the most popular guy, I became popular and other girls tended to take their cues from me. So, even if there are a few who look away and whisper as she passes, most of the students are starting to accept Jessy. Since the evening on the bridge, we have spent a lot of time together. I prefer to be with him rather than with my pseudo friends : Pearl and especially Amy, who has turned her back on me since Chad and I separated.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxpJ8YFp8hv
    Jessy has become my best friend. I can talk to him about everything without being afraid that he will judge me; however, he always gives me his honest opinion.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCt8CbsO5a8
    Jessy lived surrounded by family and friends before learning of his HIV status, but he told me that when those close to him learned of his illness, everyone turned their backs on him and, overnight, he found himself abandoned. Only his mother remained near him. By moving to Millisky where Mrs. Sutter found a job as a secretary in a bank, she hoped that her son would finally be able to return to a normal life.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLUZiHvmHIE
    The more I get to know him and the less I want this solitary life for him, it's like a kind of mission that I have set for myself. I may not be able to save him, but I can make him smile again. Also, I force him to accompany me to the cinema, to the theater, to fast food. Jessy complains, protests, sometimes drags his feet, but in the end, I always make him give in.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56W1fduIPh
    — You've lived locked up enough like that ! » is my key phrase to convince him.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0DbllTtq1s
    He then rolls his eyes, huffing in exasperation while his cross— shaped earring swings to the rhythm of his breathing. Finally, he looks at me with a little smile which alone symbolizes my victory.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO2nnb7V3Nn
    I am myself with him. We have a lot of tastes in common, we laugh at the same jokes, we talk about everything and nothing without ever getting tired of it. And when I'm not with him, he haunts my mind. He is the first person I think of in the morning when I wake up and the last in the evening before I go to sleep. In a few weeks, it has invaded my life and I hope more than anything that it continues as long as possible.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJr1xdM3QLs
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    — Hello Mrs. Sutter, are you well ? I say happily as I enter the living room, accompanied by Jessy.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7YfBn38evf
    Over the past few weeks, I've been spending so much time at the Sutters' that it feels like my second home. I really like Jessy's mother. Just by his look, we perceive his kindness and his strength. I am always welcome at their home and even though Jessy can come to my house whenever he wants, I understand that he is more comfortable in his environment.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHs9Edgsg2x
    — Good Meg and you ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ391NHdfTPx
    — I’m fine.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1UzvPSvlR4
    Elise gets up while Jessy goes to turn on the television.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuUNRpB6S7V
    — What movie are you going to watch ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAPCetCXdd8
    — Ghost ! With a big smile, I show the video tape I brought, asking him : Are you staying to watch it with us ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFkd7CpILat
    — Unfortunately, I can't. I have not finished completing a loan application for a client. I’m going to go lock myself in my room with this file, she sighs.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5B1ppwQ8OU
    — Good luck, Mrs Sutter. 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6r72EYPRr
    She takes a few steps away before turning back to me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu2FWSyuZs4
    — Meg, for the hundredth time, call me Elise.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbe6iy2CE2u
    — I'll try, I promise.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUdK99vOnQq
    His mother leaves the room, leaving us alone.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfBc9PLOh8
    — Pop corn ? Jessy asks me. I only have salty, I don't like sweet.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlNyEF4mLKb
    — That suits me very well.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4ehgBCpd1E
    Once the popcorn is in a large bowl, we sit on the sofa in front of the television. Almost two hours later, I overcame my fear that he would send me away for daring to lean my head on Jessy's shoulder. To my great relief, he just smiled as he continued to watch the film. Now that it is ending, I can no longer contain my emotion and shed many tears.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV8QsTvrmtl
    — Don’t make fun, I said, seeing him laugh discreetly.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRf7yT3Mwbt
    I stand up and stretch before wiping my eyes.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDr94qECDRL
    — Patrick Swayze is too sexy, I comment.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrJinoG8Bl
    — Demi Moore is not to be outdone, he sighs, lowering his head.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡESWtm3xZSp
    He suddenly seems sad, which worries me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ01FS8rxoLv
    — Isn't that okay ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ20Pitn1BDP
    — Yes, it’s just that… Do you believe that the afterlife exists ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv8yBU4C8sr
    Still sitting on the couch, I turn to him.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsAhqzThinZ
    — I think yes. However, I don't know if it's like in this movie.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡltFsvrbluo
    He adopts the same position as me, we find ourselves face to face.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBRkBod7KjX
    — If that’s the case, I’ll make sure to let you know when I get there.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIQYRhIj9p
    I wasn't expecting this response which took me completely by surprise. New uncontrollable tears flood my face. Reality suddenly reminds me. When I am with Jessy, I forget his illness because he is him, the boy I love with all my heart even if he knows nothing about my feelings. But there, faced with the virus, I find myself facing its imminent death. It’s a horrible thing that I try not to think about, as if that could prevent it from happening. I know this is stupid and despite all my efforts, AIDS still remains in the back of my mind. But hearing Jessy talk about his departure is upsetting. I would love to tell him that I am in love with him and that he has no right to leave me, ever. However, this is one of the subjects that I cannot discuss with him as I am sure that he would send me away again. He needs support, so I'm content to be his friend, secretly hoping that one day he'll realize that I mean more to him.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDYTGcdJVE8
    — What do you have ? He is surprised.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhkuSLvTx8
    — I don't want you to die Jessy ! 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzdvo84c8t
    I burst into tears as I threw myself on his neck. Immediately, he hugs me back.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFslMBJ9Eaa
    — Don’t cry, he whispers in my ear. I don't like seeing you sad.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt4ugF7MbRr
    His heart beating wildly against my chest reminds me that he is still very much alive and that as long as that is the case, we must not lose hope.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsrOXoYgoUq
    Staring at him, I detach myself from him.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8zH3xrI9s
    — You're going to fight to stay alive, aren't you ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZdlso95vrt
    He strokes a lock of my hair that falls to the side of his face while observing me attentively. He seems to weigh the weight of his words.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ04AxCnf8CA
    Finally, he nods in agreement.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6uoBdiV44
    — I have confidence in the future and in medicine. They will find a cure, it’s just a matter of time, I resume with confidence.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fsXHSgpiJ
    — Meg, we've already talked about this. You can't save me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv110QfqP1R
    He lowers his head but I have time to see his eyes fill with tears.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJyYAKkMiae
    — I know... For the moment, but I can keep hope, I smile, wiping away the last tears that linger on my cheeks.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9zoStYg15t
    Mrs. Sutter enters the room at this moment, breaking our moment of complicity.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbycSrbkGza
    — Megan, are you crying ? She worries, looking at us in turn. And you too ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBAmQFW9I3Z
    Jessy and I exchange a look before bursting out laughing under the surprised gaze of Elise.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHPvR6fXn3u
    — I’m going to go home, I announce, leaving the sofa.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC2oyfRqh4e
    — I'll take you back.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHGoRJVdugi
    — No, it is going to be fine. I need to get some fresh air.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡne464UraEC
    Above all, I need to expel from my body this disorder that I am trying to control, and also to silence my fears about its future. Kindly, he will get me my coat. After putting it on, I turn to him and take him in my arms. For a few more seconds, I want to feel him against me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZCSuY6T9R
    — Do me a favor, hold on to life, I whisper in his ear.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB5byE0DSPM
    Emu, he acquiesced.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLtdsLED3a5
    When I leave the warmth of his arms, I see Elise watching us from the kitchen, she wears a little knowing smile, which makes me understand that she knows perfectly well how I feel about her son.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKIwDwrVm9l
    — Good night, see you tomorrow ! I throw before going out.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHYnZLSpb5f
    I take a few steps while staring at the dark sky, inside I promise myself to do everything to save Jessy's life.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWUBwnRTgF
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    Since Jessy stubbornly refuses to tell me about his virus, during the days that follow, I go around bookstores looking for medical journals. At that time, when AIDS was terrifying the population, I had hoped to learn more, unfortunately the articles were still rare and the possible treatments even more so. Everyone repeats the instructions to follow in order not to be contaminated but none of them informs me about the solutions to overcome this cursed disease.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtyitEvnKjK
    — What is all this ? My mother asks me when I return home, my arms full of magazines and books.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLuc48T3Bgg
    — I'm finding out about AIDS, I admit, placing my load on the kitchen table.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbwkvFw1P4b
    — Meg, I know you care about Jessy but... Don't waste your life for him.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8rIEEHmjNG
    My mother's words felt like a stab to the heart.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4DSibmEiCS
    — That's not what I meant, she continues, realizing my fear.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtpzuJurzo
    Hand on her forehead, she shakes her head as I grab my books again, determined to put an end to this discussion.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkVtRepQ4Se
    — Megan, you are 16 years old, you have your whole life ahead of you.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDKoVxaBXxb
    — And not Jessy, right ? ! I get angry.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9Mk8o3bLP
    My mother looks down.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxl3KbSd7n
    — That's not what I said. I just think you're too young to have all these worries. You should be able to enjoy your teenage years completely carefree.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfVKquPX3K
    — I would have liked it too, Mom, believe me I would have preferred that Jessy wasn’t sick. But he is and if I can help him in any way I will be there for him. I realize there's not much I can do, however, maybe one of these books will talk about a treatment and I can tell Jessy about it.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5w3AOdb0GO
    My mother nods weakly.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFs1Tw0Nzy
    — I just ask you to be careful. Don't get too involved.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEx1AKWpkW0
    — It's already too late for that, I emphasize. If it was Dad who was sick, wouldn't you do what you could to help him ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsbPLrt3bS
    I turn on my heel, ready to leave the room when my mother asks me : 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0ulvmztoY
    — You love him, don’t you ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocUFLRD2Dn
    I don't answer. I lock my gaze on my mother's, trying to make her understand all the feelings that are inside me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡigNWywyHlF
    — Please don’t tell Jessy about these books, I ask her before going out.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxfMcN6vQ81
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    — Good evening, Megan, Mrs. Sutter calls me from the kitchen when I arrive at their house.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwoaO2BGln
    — Good evening.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb8igyOHSBB
    — Jessy hasn’t come home yet.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcbxnrITEPn
    I look up at his mother with worried eyes. It's 8 p.m., classes ended several hours ago.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwDfLvO8lqy
    — Don’t worry, she reassures me. You know that his doctor advised him to go to the AIDS center, there was a meeting this evening. He had no desire to go, but I think it will do him good to talk to people who are going through the same thing as him.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnHTKUgD4JU
    — Did he leave there complaining ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc8CNdoi1DQ
    — You know him well enough to know that he complains a lot, she said, smiling.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPHbedZjH4a
    — When he is with me, he is rather...412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK7YXAxHBgD
    Hearing the front door open, I don't finish my sentence.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4fHy0jIrNK
    — Yes, but you are special to him, Elise whispers to me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDIWJbmiqzu
    I remain speechless, wondering what she means by that.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFnpc9pcZNl
    — Sorry to be late.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRNe3HXHWNB
    Jessy's face is tense, he seems upset. The evening could be long if he remains in this state of mind.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUiqJDYQ7c
    — How was it ? His mother immediately questions him.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡncGSN5PhkC
    Jessy glances at me quickly before responding coldly : 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJudjLkmAg
    — I don't want to talk about it.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUsb8jHUvTf
    Mrs. Sutter looks at us in turn before announcing that she is going to watch television in her room so that we can watch the screen in the living room. Jessy walks around the bar and goes to help herself to some fruit juice.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4gY6pz9k7
    — You want some ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1q2kax6om1
    His tone is less cold, but still full of anger that he tries to contain.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWLPJHCNuHf
    — Yes, thanks.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3IZphkx2rh
     He purses his lips before asking me : 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKBtEUJBcEW
    — What movie did you bring this evening ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYK3RX8ASUT
    The week before, I had brought the filmGhost which caused us both to end up in tears. This time, I chose to take a lighter one, but still with my favorite actor. Proudly, I take the video tape out of my backpack and show it to him.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fQaDQmRMR
    — Dirty Dancing ! 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQEjkptr87
    He rolls his eyes, but I sense that he is holding back a smile.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO8t1yPpCaC
    — You and your Patrick Swayze ! I know you think he's the most handsome guy in the world, but your obsession with him is starting to turn into an obsession.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVcs3L0IYI
     I pretend to look shocked, which makes him laugh.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYsoKHoqhwG
    — It’s true that he’s hot, but in my ranking of the most handsome guys, he only occupies second place.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu1j3AWcZS9
    — Oh, my God, he whispers with a hint of despair. Which other actor are you planning to pester me with when you're done making me watch all his films ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSXamWSbheb
    Jessy sighs, making a face. His good mood has returned, which makes me happy. I don't want to ask him about the meeting; If he wants to talk to me about it, he will do it alone. I just want to take his mind off things and see him smile. I get up to turn on the VCR while he puts away the bottle of orange juice.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKEQElslvP
    — No others, I promise. For me, the hottest guy isn't an actor.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0uLXS00Nb
    — Ah good ? Who is it ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv32uDAiy4B
    He comes to join me on the sofa, frowning.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPtaLCCF4od
    — He’s someone I see every day.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TdXnPfgDU
    The movie starts and I shut up. Out of the corner of my eye, I see my friend racking his brain to figure out who I'm talking about.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGqZAm1Mjoo
    — Your father ? he asks after a few minutes.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AEvOFjfWc
    Without taking my eyes off the screen, I shake my head and smile. It amuses me to see him searching.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8po3PSqN9
    — Someone from high school ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQTpzvu0lj
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    — Chad ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuSD0558DI6
    A hint of anger and disbelief filters into his voice.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCXn2pMbu99
    — No. Jessy, do you want to watch the movie or tell me all the names of the guys at school ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJAsE7OwmK9
    — Sorry, but no matter how hard I look, I can’t see who…412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVKb8oNi3yu
    — It's you.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQF4QpzXMjc
    I didn't mean to tell him, it just came out, and now I feel myself blushing as I keep my eyes glued to the television. The words have barely passed my lips before Jessy chokes on swallowing and starts coughing. He gets up to go drink some water.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLOahWsQFB5
    — Well, that makes you feel, I said mockingly, pausing the movie.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg9TFgJ5IFL
    — You got me, he says from the kitchen.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJsGH5sIKnD
    I turn around on the couch to look at him.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8sR1CYv7CC
    — It’s the truth, Jessy, I’m not making you walk.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW1HZ9BDvVO
    He comes back to sit next to me on the sofa. His cheeks are red as he places a kiss on my forehead.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSuC8cWPUbl
    — It’s nice of you to try to cheer me up. I love you.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqE9NltcJbP
    That's not what I'm trying to do, I really mean it, yet my heart immediately races : he adores me. 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHut4Y4tu3o
    — Is it true ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnMWS1BXt9
    — Of course. You're my best friend, Meg.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5mIX6rZsJ3
    Oh… Friend ? My heart calms down quickly.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP0z07Jo4A8
    — Aren’t you in good spirits ? Is it because of the meeting ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXidIMyKVvf
    Your mother told me about it, I add in front of his frown.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNnZmMytlkc
    — Yeah… it was depressing. Hearing all these patients talk about their fears… it brought me back to my own.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmCAZF8LwL4
    — Did you speak with them ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA0ABILrwpA
    — No, I listened to them. It’s strange to arrive in this center where I don’t know anyone and where they invite me to confide.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAk8CI8V7T7
    — If you want, next time, can I accompany you ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZNapRWMJK
    I suggest, but I already know the answer.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeJunnpL664
    — Non ! 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KJMy4TZKA
    His tone is harsher than I thought. However, he softens very quickly.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyqoXGAGLNO
    — That’s nice, but no. I don't want you to come into this part of my life.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBrNhikm7Wd
    — For what ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8GWP0shJh
    Anger reappears in his eyes, he lowers his head.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsJRnInjtq
    — Because you are too important to me for me to drag you into this world of illness with me.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTcFpQA5UI
    — Jessy… 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd16NYzs4tT
    — No, Meg. I'm willing to give in when you force my hand to leave this house, but when it comes to AIDS, I won't change my mind, he said firmly, turning his gaze back to the television.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJWYYju0fvh
    — OK as you want.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkNhle1DXvz
    I sigh as he resumes playing the movie. After a few minutes of silence, he glances at me and whispers : 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbOssgTcz4P
    — Are you mad at me ? 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6luMKofEk1
    I can't help but smile and lean my head on his shoulder like I've gotten used to doing when we watch movies together.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlptDwViA7
    — No, it’s your choice.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp5h3jchCzh
    He places another kiss on my forehead. I whisper to him without taking my eyes off Patrick Swayze : 412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzPEfJVWagi
    — Me too, I like you.412Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqVysL6klzT
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