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     For long minutes, I stroke Jessy's wet hair, trying to soothe his pain, his fears. When he straightens his face, he seems ashamed to have cried in my arms. Delicately, I wipe away his last tears, surprised that he lets me do it, and smile at him to reassure him.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvRZreft7DL
    We set off on our way back in torrential rain, yet we walk peacefully, savoring the fact of being together. I don't care if it rains as long as I'm with him.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNQb6XSNUc1
    — Anyway, we're already soaked, I answer Jessy when he asks me if I want to run to get to his house faster. It'll be OK ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc1EWnIuHmQ
    — Yeah, I think so.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGYHBB2EGP2
    — Jessy, please promise me you’ll never let yourself fall into the void like that again. I got the fright of my life.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNWTjkgDnG3
    Hands in his pockets, he shrugs his shoulders and breathes deeply before telling me : 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbk9GI6tTi6
    — Promise. Why do you care about me so much ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6CyLiY9dg3
    His question makes my heart beat faster. I'm not ready to tell him the feelings he inspires in me. I have to analyze them first and try to find out what he feels. So even though I feel my cheeks turning pink, I answer him evasively.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGylnJXvTAg
    — Why not ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyoPzXiS2A8
    — When people learn about AIDS, they turn their backs on me. This is why my mother and I came to live here. Even my father-in-law couldn't stand me living under his roof anymore.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrBjjdQtBY
    — There are morons everywhere, I whisper. Jessy, I like you. I'm not going to start ignoring you because you have a health problem.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoYU7Roo9Iv
    — Thank you, he murmurs, pursing his lips. I'm sorry for everything I said to you. I didn't mean to be so rude.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGEucGhUKVe
    His unexpected apology really makes me happy. When Jessy stops telling me off, I see in him the boy I had guessed at first glance : A good guy to whom difficult things happen. I think that's why he always tries to show an angry face, he has suffered so much that he doesn't want people to perceive his fragility.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvfmOhICAsK
    — It's forgotten. By the way, I met your mother. She seems very nice.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU95KM8UILA
    Despite our slow walk, we already arrive in front of his house.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfy8xINVlf
    — She is. Do you want me to take you home ? I can borrow his car.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68YpreKZCM
    — No, it is going to be fine. I don't want to get the seats soggy, I smile. See you tomorrow ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGJKv5STJxd
    I am happy to see him nod with a big smile. And as I walk away, I realize I've never been closer to him than I am tonight.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5PvzIPnnuR
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    It's almost 11 p.m. when I get home, completely soaked. My parents are waiting for me, impatient and worried.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf9q3PsyNe4
    — Finally, here you are, my father roared. Look at you, you're good at wringing ! 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54yLWWvQKD
    — Were you with Jessy ? My mother asks in her usual soft voice.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5S4PCPTKNn
    I nod, shivering from the cold.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIMaHBe2GWZ
    — We spoke with Mrs. Sutter at the meeting. She told us that her son had been missing for hours and that she had no idea where he might be. She was very worried about him, my father told me.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdX7n6aAzE
    — He went back home. How did the meeting go ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTpQfYIOQZ
    — Start by drying off, we'll tell you later.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJiovmdYy04
    I head into the bathroom where I warm up quickly and quickly put on my pajamas, as well as a warm dressing gown, as I can't wait to see how the evening unfolds. I find my parents in the living room, where everyone, in an armchair, drinks coffee while waiting for me.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXsD7xDytqm
    — So how did it go ? I said, sitting across from them on the couch.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vrL1O8gb9
    — Difficult to say, my father grimaces. The principal had asked a doctor to come and answer the parents' questions. It calmed some when he assured their children were not at risk of breathing the same air as Jessy or touching him. But other parents are obtuse and want him to be expelled at all costs. They are simply scared to death, to the point of not understanding that AIDS is not caught like that.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIkXRBGECjj
    — Mrs. Sutter spoke, saying how much she loves her son and that there is no risk in sharing his life since she has been doing it for a year without problem, my mother added. She is a very dignified and courageous woman. She told us you came to see her.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1cwOjc4BN
    — Indeed, I was looking for Jessy.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡexPYqGqUAI
    — Nina told us that you went looking for him after Chad’s visit. Did you find it ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOP3eOdX25Z
    — Yes, and as far as you know, it’s over between Chad and me.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6qgy1kOI6J
    Contrary to what I thought, my father doesn't seem surprised. My mother must have already told him about it. However, I don't like the look they exchange before my mother asks me : 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW5SBlqfaVw
    — Because of Jessy ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6oOiaU7hGD
    — Yes and no. Jessy and I are friends. But let’s say that meeting him allowed me to open my eyes to Chad and his little world. I realized that, contrary to what I believed, I am not in love with him. I like him a lot but in a friendly way.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdlkcZJD0Ao
    Once again my parents exchange this strange look which seems to mean that they are not at the end of their trouble with me.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPA6NAl5Gkv
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    The next morning, when I arrived near the school, I saw Jessy waiting outside on the sidewalk.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1DomR3NQQZ
    — Hi, how are you ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKeHTe486wU
    He puts a hand to his heart.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsa7g9q2WoT
    — Oh, you scared me ! 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxrnXH34RtS
    I burst out laughing.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlK8ZOE6fA3
    — That’s for the scare you gave me last night ! 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdABsowgPQv
    — It’s fair game, he smiled.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtZGYFnhiS
    He stares at the large white building without taking a step towards it. Since I stayed in his arms the day before for several minutes, he no longer intimidates me as much, and this impression of knowing him for a long time has strengthened. I saw his fragility behind his anger, I saw his despair, but also his strength.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGafu7nmLdu
    — Are you planning to come to class today ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHWpu61jYYg
    — I don't know. After what happened yesterday...and then this meeting.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPViSrqB7Hf
    He huffs and then purses his lips, visibly uncomfortable.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSVTCLj6dgB
    — Did your mother tell you ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7W6LDJJkwp
    — Yes, apparently the parents can't do anything against me, but there is always the possibility that they will contact the academy and file a complaint to have me fired. In fact, I wonder if it wouldn't be better if I gave up... 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvazCB7lWxf
    — No way ! 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjnc2d2ZAbj
    Jessy looks at me, surprised.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfKBlxEMCAG
    — We'll go together and everything will go well, you'll see.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjDrpjny2kZ
    — There are looks that are sometimes hard to bear, he admits to me.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ31ZYi6apUi
    However, I notice that he accompanies me towards high school.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksz40Y6pwF
    — I believe that, unfortunately, you can never please everyone, so give a chance to know you to those who want it and forget the morons.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxwgteq85Ew
    We enter the main hallway, students turn to look at us as I continue talking so that he focuses more on my voice than on the eyes focused on him.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡipcH6s1Y72
    — With time, there will be those who will realize who you really are and they will come to you, as for those who continue to criticize you, act as if they don't exist. They're the idiots, not you.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNP8RQzZC8S
    I meet the gaze of a tall guy, named Tyler, who grimaces when he hears me.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2wQ8Jfsanq
    — Yes, complete idiots, I said again in a louder voice.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHDDfcII909
    Jessy gives me a grateful smile.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2Lvh3PXex0
    — Oh, it’s getting bad, he murmurs.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkp9lBxWvWR
    I follow his gaze and see Chad striding towards us. He stands in front of Jessy and, after a few seconds of hesitation, offers his hand.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbuook9zOC
    — I'm sorry for yesterday. For the fight…and everything else. I should never have listened to your conversation and above all I should never have repeated his secret. I'm really sorry.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwkMeHJtmi
     Jessy hesitates for a few seconds then squeezes his hand, nodding.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTX8UPNPpe7
    — Thanks.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfU9cK0EH6c
    His eyes move from Jessy to me, he doesn't seem to know how to behave around me anymore.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7o2aZL7qiB
    Around us, several students observe the scene. Chad is the most popular boy in school and I suspect that after this reconciling handshake, the attitude of some people will change.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJRk0MDVikX
    He taps Jessy on the shoulder and says — See you later and walks away.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLKaFSD2QNy
    — It’s weird that Chad came to apologize. Did you ask him to do it ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWProaPDbu
    — No, he did it alone, but you know, he’s like that. He is impulsive, but quickly regrets his outbursts... I feel, more than I see, Jessy looking at me in profile.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvOsRObsjO
    — What ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC8pDtoLecb
    I turn my head towards him.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb2JUbZMPJf
    — Why did you break up ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ0OJTKRJFR
    — We are too different.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJ9Q0ckPCc
    I shrug my shoulders as if it were obvious.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteZ0xwMV9c
    — And are you okay ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRYgQQxRwR2
    I see in his eyes that he really cares about me, it warms my heart.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡojyNwQAcH2
    — Alright.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡteKCp7RpON
    A small smile appears at the corners of his lips.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK0oq2VGn5G
    — I know you don't like Chad very much, but erase that little smug look. (I smile in turn as the bell rings for the start of classes.) We're going to be late, come on.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCCpgp7YxYU
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    In the days that followed, things calmed down at the school. I can't say that Jessy goes unnoticed, but he is seen less as an outcast, which is already a small victory. At school, I was always the model student, collecting good grades. The super serious girl who has the teachers on her side. When I dated Chad, who is the most popular guy, I became popular and other girls tended to take their cues from me. So, even if there are a few who look away and whisper as she passes, most of the students are starting to accept Jessy. Since the evening on the bridge, we have spent a lot of time together. I prefer to be with him rather than with my pseudo friends : Pearl and especially Amy, who has turned her back on me since Chad and I separated.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvzXkkR470
    Jessy has become my best friend. I can talk to him about everything without being afraid that he will judge me; however, he always gives me his honest opinion.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZJ8bTCxLJ
    Jessy lived surrounded by family and friends before learning of his HIV status, but he told me that when those close to him learned of his illness, everyone turned their backs on him and, overnight, he found himself abandoned. Only his mother remained near him. By moving to Millisky where Mrs. Sutter found a job as a secretary in a bank, she hoped that her son would finally be able to return to a normal life.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡegROao5zAb
    The more I get to know him and the less I want this solitary life for him, it's like a kind of mission that I have set for myself. I may not be able to save him, but I can make him smile again. Also, I force him to accompany me to the cinema, to the theater, to fast food. Jessy complains, protests, sometimes drags his feet, but in the end, I always make him give in.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjtBBtBCdDu
    — You've lived locked up enough like that ! » is my key phrase to convince him.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfTAEowIwET
    He then rolls his eyes, huffing in exasperation while his cross— shaped earring swings to the rhythm of his breathing. Finally, he looks at me with a little smile which alone symbolizes my victory.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvbNOdsEnAy
    I am myself with him. We have a lot of tastes in common, we laugh at the same jokes, we talk about everything and nothing without ever getting tired of it. And when I'm not with him, he haunts my mind. He is the first person I think of in the morning when I wake up and the last in the evening before I go to sleep. In a few weeks, it has invaded my life and I hope more than anything that it continues as long as possible.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD4awbfxG8l
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    — Hello Mrs. Sutter, are you well ? I say happily as I enter the living room, accompanied by Jessy.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtfKdoqqSP
    Over the past few weeks, I've been spending so much time at the Sutters' that it feels like my second home. I really like Jessy's mother. Just by his look, we perceive his kindness and his strength. I am always welcome at their home and even though Jessy can come to my house whenever he wants, I understand that he is more comfortable in his environment.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPexysS3vlZ
    — Good Meg and you ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjH0hRp8RJL
    — I’m fine.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOT87qkeRbZ
    Elise gets up while Jessy goes to turn on the television.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMFco7ujjA1
    — What movie are you going to watch ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaEnVVJ7T2q
    — Ghost ! With a big smile, I show the video tape I brought, asking him : Are you staying to watch it with us ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSwrBgQjzur
    — Unfortunately, I can't. I have not finished completing a loan application for a client. I’m going to go lock myself in my room with this file, she sighs.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHtuWeITXAz
    — Good luck, Mrs Sutter. 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbKIhr9wgcJ
    She takes a few steps away before turning back to me.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3H4S9u9FpN
    — Meg, for the hundredth time, call me Elise.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKRL1utXp7V
    — I'll try, I promise.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbnOlWmZRI
    His mother leaves the room, leaving us alone.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKKUGhTzTLB
    — Pop corn ? Jessy asks me. I only have salty, I don't like sweet.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhKsfaqSU5q
    — That suits me very well.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NdjVDKZph
    Once the popcorn is in a large bowl, we sit on the sofa in front of the television. Almost two hours later, I overcame my fear that he would send me away for daring to lean my head on Jessy's shoulder. To my great relief, he just smiled as he continued to watch the film. Now that it is ending, I can no longer contain my emotion and shed many tears.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg3awdfAycb
    — Don’t make fun, I said, seeing him laugh discreetly.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZgUMsyustK
    I stand up and stretch before wiping my eyes.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHnCEDEFfWX
    — Patrick Swayze is too sexy, I comment.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzUtLk1OYru
    — Demi Moore is not to be outdone, he sighs, lowering his head.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhEZfh4HaM
    He suddenly seems sad, which worries me.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEaIhze5qFv
    — Isn't that okay ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnt3RZ0VOtr
    — Yes, it’s just that… Do you believe that the afterlife exists ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNhR3KXIJIi
    Still sitting on the couch, I turn to him.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEjkYagL3hs
    — I think yes. However, I don't know if it's like in this movie.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBDSS5CKrIT
    He adopts the same position as me, we find ourselves face to face.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡubHiA8fgD3
    — If that’s the case, I’ll make sure to let you know when I get there.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqOlzBsVybn
    I wasn't expecting this response which took me completely by surprise. New uncontrollable tears flood my face. Reality suddenly reminds me. When I am with Jessy, I forget his illness because he is him, the boy I love with all my heart even if he knows nothing about my feelings. But there, faced with the virus, I find myself facing its imminent death. It’s a horrible thing that I try not to think about, as if that could prevent it from happening. I know this is stupid and despite all my efforts, AIDS still remains in the back of my mind. But hearing Jessy talk about his departure is upsetting. I would love to tell him that I am in love with him and that he has no right to leave me, ever. However, this is one of the subjects that I cannot discuss with him as I am sure that he would send me away again. He needs support, so I'm content to be his friend, secretly hoping that one day he'll realize that I mean more to him.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Bzpvzxt28
    — What do you have ? He is surprised.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6gfsfvCGi4
    — I don't want you to die Jessy ! 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8CrqOqDJd
    I burst into tears as I threw myself on his neck. Immediately, he hugs me back.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI8WsHRsyZS
    — Don’t cry, he whispers in my ear. I don't like seeing you sad.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpVZe0tzMqg
    His heart beating wildly against my chest reminds me that he is still very much alive and that as long as that is the case, we must not lose hope.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmpCx0R9hWF
    Staring at him, I detach myself from him.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwLfxVJlX5
    — You're going to fight to stay alive, aren't you ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqgpM0IhsxW
    He strokes a lock of my hair that falls to the side of his face while observing me attentively. He seems to weigh the weight of his words.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSk0UH5ACjp
    Finally, he nods in agreement.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWmXa3VWCkY
    — I have confidence in the future and in medicine. They will find a cure, it’s just a matter of time, I resume with confidence.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUldRyhAe3Z
    — Meg, we've already talked about this. You can't save me.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmHPwVfQZK8
    He lowers his head but I have time to see his eyes fill with tears.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV6oqpxIdZF
    — I know... For the moment, but I can keep hope, I smile, wiping away the last tears that linger on my cheeks.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡellIMJJ7Nq
    Mrs. Sutter enters the room at this moment, breaking our moment of complicity.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM1LcdBjA2Y
    — Megan, are you crying ? She worries, looking at us in turn. And you too ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGjplWrvxS
    Jessy and I exchange a look before bursting out laughing under the surprised gaze of Elise.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXFLrn01U8Q
    — I’m going to go home, I announce, leaving the sofa.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYh0kIPEEd3
    — I'll take you back.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCNeT06lJxF
    — No, it is going to be fine. I need to get some fresh air.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG1il4dTwAM
    Above all, I need to expel from my body this disorder that I am trying to control, and also to silence my fears about its future. Kindly, he will get me my coat. After putting it on, I turn to him and take him in my arms. For a few more seconds, I want to feel him against me.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡabb7OSvdaB
    — Do me a favor, hold on to life, I whisper in his ear.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS49n5ThnKZ
    Emu, he acquiesced.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ36brDSMXgJ
    When I leave the warmth of his arms, I see Elise watching us from the kitchen, she wears a little knowing smile, which makes me understand that she knows perfectly well how I feel about her son.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2s2vQbX4Kb
    — Good night, see you tomorrow ! I throw before going out.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSw9EyM4NS7
    I take a few steps while staring at the dark sky, inside I promise myself to do everything to save Jessy's life.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo3dmxZewyS
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    Since Jessy stubbornly refuses to tell me about his virus, during the days that follow, I go around bookstores looking for medical journals. At that time, when AIDS was terrifying the population, I had hoped to learn more, unfortunately the articles were still rare and the possible treatments even more so. Everyone repeats the instructions to follow in order not to be contaminated but none of them informs me about the solutions to overcome this cursed disease.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHzuAjBVvfZ
    — What is all this ? My mother asks me when I return home, my arms full of magazines and books.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2aXWS7NXk
    — I'm finding out about AIDS, I admit, placing my load on the kitchen table.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOHZBhFsgx
    — Meg, I know you care about Jessy but... Don't waste your life for him.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRnfMDrBMBo
    My mother's words felt like a stab to the heart.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzCfUMkR6Gr
    — That's not what I meant, she continues, realizing my fear.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmThjEz3HRi
    Hand on her forehead, she shakes her head as I grab my books again, determined to put an end to this discussion.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzLrWXwQtE9
    — Megan, you are 16 years old, you have your whole life ahead of you.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEt5XAvi1rk
    — And not Jessy, right ? ! I get angry.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMH0FTXvGcQ
    My mother looks down.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnajCH5MOOO
    — That's not what I said. I just think you're too young to have all these worries. You should be able to enjoy your teenage years completely carefree.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYRx6G5CUq1
    — I would have liked it too, Mom, believe me I would have preferred that Jessy wasn’t sick. But he is and if I can help him in any way I will be there for him. I realize there's not much I can do, however, maybe one of these books will talk about a treatment and I can tell Jessy about it.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjbUsQeWTJ
    My mother nods weakly.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡou9t8cpbRJ
    — I just ask you to be careful. Don't get too involved.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCfE5QHeB0
    — It's already too late for that, I emphasize. If it was Dad who was sick, wouldn't you do what you could to help him ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUBRB6o2hy
    I turn on my heel, ready to leave the room when my mother asks me : 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv5Vbi2wfh6
    — You love him, don’t you ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpeWzSSM9fC
    I don't answer. I lock my gaze on my mother's, trying to make her understand all the feelings that are inside me.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZrXA87SaC3
    — Please don’t tell Jessy about these books, I ask her before going out.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyVoxsEsK8
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    — Good evening, Megan, Mrs. Sutter calls me from the kitchen when I arrive at their house.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAovAzG9H8r
    — Good evening.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsKWb4OnEdv
    — Jessy hasn’t come home yet.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoPFELhlBmT
    I look up at his mother with worried eyes. It's 8 p.m., classes ended several hours ago.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdBEWX8ZADd
    — Don’t worry, she reassures me. You know that his doctor advised him to go to the AIDS center, there was a meeting this evening. He had no desire to go, but I think it will do him good to talk to people who are going through the same thing as him.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCUAmX7O8y
    — Did he leave there complaining ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡktcLCEvdBY
    — You know him well enough to know that he complains a lot, she said, smiling.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUzA4XvlY6r
    — When he is with me, he is rather...444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZVFNljCji
    Hearing the front door open, I don't finish my sentence.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIoiRH4CreF
    — Yes, but you are special to him, Elise whispers to me.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuPTjDGJvtD
    I remain speechless, wondering what she means by that.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJPuokpnw9x
    — Sorry to be late.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEJWx07vkOI
    Jessy's face is tense, he seems upset. The evening could be long if he remains in this state of mind.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpvhzQRhgp7
    — How was it ? His mother immediately questions him.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTr8926QBi
    Jessy glances at me quickly before responding coldly : 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlpPJAtGo7
    — I don't want to talk about it.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz47nQFN6NI
    Mrs. Sutter looks at us in turn before announcing that she is going to watch television in her room so that we can watch the screen in the living room. Jessy walks around the bar and goes to help herself to some fruit juice.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡboiQUr20FW
    — You want some ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaZXpimWokb
    His tone is less cold, but still full of anger that he tries to contain.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmoE87iXP1a
    — Yes, thanks.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJN6xCApkwC
     He purses his lips before asking me : 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQzgXOhrdi9
    — What movie did you bring this evening ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzoZDsNI2g
    The week before, I had brought the filmGhost which caused us both to end up in tears. This time, I chose to take a lighter one, but still with my favorite actor. Proudly, I take the video tape out of my backpack and show it to him.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaR7q2WSHsT
    — Dirty Dancing ! 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ90aIlAsfSu
    He rolls his eyes, but I sense that he is holding back a smile.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIaIY5DUxTD
    — You and your Patrick Swayze ! I know you think he's the most handsome guy in the world, but your obsession with him is starting to turn into an obsession.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgYqXNKtw6
     I pretend to look shocked, which makes him laugh.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBbd8FHGnj
    — It’s true that he’s hot, but in my ranking of the most handsome guys, he only occupies second place.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnUi27X74up
    — Oh, my God, he whispers with a hint of despair. Which other actor are you planning to pester me with when you're done making me watch all his films ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvWE3ZQhprl
    Jessy sighs, making a face. His good mood has returned, which makes me happy. I don't want to ask him about the meeting; If he wants to talk to me about it, he will do it alone. I just want to take his mind off things and see him smile. I get up to turn on the VCR while he puts away the bottle of orange juice.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOeXRnPKagW
    — No others, I promise. For me, the hottest guy isn't an actor.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZukIaMlVen
    — Ah good ? Who is it ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9JlOn6f7hF
    He comes to join me on the sofa, frowning.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWg0KHafW7e
    — He’s someone I see every day.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvg3E6N3CZ
    The movie starts and I shut up. Out of the corner of my eye, I see my friend racking his brain to figure out who I'm talking about.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvoM0CN825
    — Your father ? he asks after a few minutes.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzOZ3BcrCCt
    Without taking my eyes off the screen, I shake my head and smile. It amuses me to see him searching.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ40R5CPnJjl
    — Someone from high school ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5pmVbyOtn4
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    — Chad ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8ACQCW1yR
    A hint of anger and disbelief filters into his voice.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQaiMnmVjV
    — No. Jessy, do you want to watch the movie or tell me all the names of the guys at school ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmu1IIxqLoD
    — Sorry, but no matter how hard I look, I can’t see who…444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi8KJLxhjN5
    — It's you.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwT7NiQdIY
    I didn't mean to tell him, it just came out, and now I feel myself blushing as I keep my eyes glued to the television. The words have barely passed my lips before Jessy chokes on swallowing and starts coughing. He gets up to go drink some water.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuG07OVo75A
    — Well, that makes you feel, I said mockingly, pausing the movie.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡslt7xREKDH
    — You got me, he says from the kitchen.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJIs8BR5Kx9
    I turn around on the couch to look at him.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUysZKvzWPY
    — It’s the truth, Jessy, I’m not making you walk.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ2kHbMUBws
    He comes back to sit next to me on the sofa. His cheeks are red as he places a kiss on my forehead.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSPmYNiNAq
    — It’s nice of you to try to cheer me up. I love you.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMkW6mIEpVN
    That's not what I'm trying to do, I really mean it, yet my heart immediately races : he adores me. 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTIN5wDOsBJ
    — Is it true ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvW9tyB2uk2
    — Of course. You're my best friend, Meg.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP7upgwZO7X
    Oh… Friend ? My heart calms down quickly.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUK9wGq9CpN
    — Aren’t you in good spirits ? Is it because of the meeting ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi6dO97r21H
    Your mother told me about it, I add in front of his frown.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYXITI0LqjV
    — Yeah… it was depressing. Hearing all these patients talk about their fears… it brought me back to my own.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgajIvdAe1Q
    — Did you speak with them ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI3LXpH9sDI
    — No, I listened to them. It’s strange to arrive in this center where I don’t know anyone and where they invite me to confide.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwVsBqDzQBk
    — If you want, next time, can I accompany you ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvkuc4iNfZ
    I suggest, but I already know the answer.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEDZ46S2Z9f
    — Non ! 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPOvfltfU8x
    His tone is harsher than I thought. However, he softens very quickly.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOydeQj53rb
    — That’s nice, but no. I don't want you to come into this part of my life.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ZRo5rZjUs
    — For what ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZAV7wQKGXw
    Anger reappears in his eyes, he lowers his head.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqqGqUsetFS
    — Because you are too important to me for me to drag you into this world of illness with me.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENVnqow66B
    — Jessy… 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBMEYvrGVoN
    — No, Meg. I'm willing to give in when you force my hand to leave this house, but when it comes to AIDS, I won't change my mind, he said firmly, turning his gaze back to the television.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIDZ2Cius3
    — OK as you want.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiETt4gLop4
    I sigh as he resumes playing the movie. After a few minutes of silence, he glances at me and whispers : 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUtxiS0EPYD
    — Are you mad at me ? 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL27i2iv5JS
    I can't help but smile and lean my head on his shoulder like I've gotten used to doing when we watch movies together.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWrQjPjT0C
    — No, it’s your choice.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEVW7CsKn9j
    He places another kiss on my forehead. I whisper to him without taking my eyes off Patrick Swayze : 444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkISkCqOTUI
    — Me too, I like you.444Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qDsR4qyOg
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