White sheets stained red in a hotel bed236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2EHGqQsVh
Skin, ice cold, lying on the bathroom floor alone236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapACIpTMA4
Brains blown out in the shed, stone cold, dead
The basement where I cut off my breathing236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVyTxhVYq60
My bedroom where I died while I'm sleeping236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnFH9CWuc86
Empty pill bottles scattered around my room 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZizgbo7JMz
Maybe a noose, don't make it loose 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSnKo9So8Tp
Maybe even a death I didn't choose
I'm stuck with these thoughts in my head236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1NTGp1Vzqp
Vivid visions invading my rest 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmcqvrtVvCx
I can't sleep because all I see is death236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhwJvohZVc9
I can't stay alive because I'm stuck in my head
I'm digging myself an early grave 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFbjkafse7
Thinking about death at such an early age236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT48qNmB6Gg
Part of me strives for the moment when the earth lies above my head 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXtioRagW4
The moment I'm dead is the day I'll rest236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaEoKDV5RHR
No more fighting an uphill battle that never seems to end 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYZiKIh8Iqz
But another part of me doesn't want to let go, doesn't want this to end236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88sM7CIbbI
I want to fight to stay alive, I want to fight to "live, laugh, love" again236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRtSYTyodqT
As corny as that is
I've tried so hard to stay alive, to stop crying236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcf3aR35sAH
To cut off the memories that I live out in daily reveries236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAIbkK30v4r
The dread that they dismiss as being "all in my head"236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGAzxKdyISj
I'm honestly tired of trying to be heard, to be lead in the right direction 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8lctHXAiZ
Because, so far, it's all dead-ends and "mental health awareness" trends236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJ3nbVxXx3
Nobody actually cares until you're dead236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZGpnpexICJ
Until you're another headline in the news236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpBdqBgB6nb
All the attention directed on you, and your grieving family who never even knew 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3uqP0aINqs
Because they never tried to listen to you
Now they post on your page, they age and you stay the same 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfM8LJbQzAn
"I miss you today" 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtvjH6M2qzC
But they couldn't seem to feel that way when you were around236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFcl35oKMgW
But they care now, 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGdBHqDvhr4
Now that your life met an abrupt end
And my "friends", 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZTP4PHuWp3
Mixed signals is all they send236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8GGrn4PEtz
One day I matter to them 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXC06rmTqXz
And the next I'm condemned
A few months ago, I was fine236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA4uASBCR8z
A few months ago, I felt like flying 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMASeN2FUN0
A few months ago, I truly felt alive236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3rP7kZqMe
And a few months ago, nothing hurt...
But now, everything hurts 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzfDw8DVWa1
It's hard to explain with words,236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5ExeaFqp1V
How the silence kills 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZLvKDlJ4qC
How the pain I'm in rips me to shreds 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv1tL6Wr9vH
How my mind's convinced me that I'm better off dead
It's impossible to count on both hands, 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVzomqMWH5v
How many people I've cut off or let go of because I convinced myself that they deserved better 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9gZZaR1vjv
And look at them now, better off without me anyhow236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYJo17e2eV7
I guess I didn't matter as much as they tried to make me believe 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLLuq0DZ8Qk
But even their "reassurance" were pretty little lies that they weaved like tapestries 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOSuUzgEW51
The grief from all the casualties of all of my fantasies, my wildest dreams
There's a theme within all of it236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZqqEttHHQj
The little voice in my head, it screams it236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCQaxihOeYz
"This was their choice"236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwgpZhddljY
And to be lonely all the time is mine236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7m5q8qXuDM
All of my feelings are voiced, published publicly236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkSU3vDOPT
But they're overlooked, dismissed as fiction, a phase, lucky me...
So now my eyes, once open windows into my mind, close their curtains236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlmbVNFqhBu
The words on all of the pages of my open book erase as the pages are burned236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWiW7v8f8Q
This is exactly what I deserve, everything I've earned after the bridges I've burned 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgXvZWJrJZ2
It was never on purpose, never my intention, but I never had your attention from the start
All my wishes, sent to the stars, missed them all 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSUcupLshoh
Their light flickered and died as I spent nights in my room crying236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzq5ZFrNAzU
I wish somebody would call236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYgxB4sERb
But there's no denying that there's no point in trying
So I pour it out in my writing, daily and nightly 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqhXQV0jc8q
But when I post these on the internet, I feel like I'm oversharing 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUIUZkqPaJ6
And when I vent to my friends, even though they reassure me that it's fine, I feel like a burden236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXqf1bMyMbh
A buzzkill, a thrill-killer 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9pxYmrIpWS
So I lie, saying that I'm fine 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ03JfzCsUFk
So that nobody asks questions, and nobody cries 236Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5vWDMhQYSK
I wanted to feel heard but nobody cared enough, nobody tried
and then Add to home screen.