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他曾對她說過。109Please respect copyright.PENANAO42un9A6nG
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「別回溯,像逃避一樣。」109Please respect copyright.PENANAboaXXV43HL
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所以她照做了、勇敢面對了,最後仍迎來這種慘澹的下場。109Please respect copyright.PENANA9rnLjy7oKN
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那他呢?109Please respect copyright.PENANAgULNQB6Z6B
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不知不覺,又或者刻意假裝沒有發現內心角落的畏懼,他自那之後再也沒發動過個性。109Please respect copyright.PENANApL8Hqb1ccm
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因為不敢面對,所以逃避了。109Please respect copyright.PENANA8g3SyCibqy
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明明對茉紅梨說過那樣的話,還真是可恥。109Please respect copyright.PENANA3Y04psGmqy
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「茉紅梨她……在最後一定比你更害怕,是吧?」109Please respect copyright.PENANAqEpcw2XVOD
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所以春菅的這句話宛如在獨人臉上狠狠摑了一掌。109Please respect copyright.PENANAXkqQYqfoVP
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是時候該回去了,至少要回到她面對死亡的恐懼以前的日子才行,她本就不該經歷那些,不應該的。109Please respect copyright.PENANAol33SzFi9y
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緊皺的眉頭抖動,緩緩睜眼,露出烏黑亮麗的眼眸子,獨人左顧右盼觀察所在位置。109Please respect copyright.PENANACZ7BoAmZw3
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他的個性有些不方便的地方,回到過去的目標年紀越大就越不能精準掌控力道。109Please respect copyright.PENANAzROVRGjwyG
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回到四歲時還可以選擇日期甚至時間,但回到仍是18歲的幾個月前,就會產生數日至數週的誤差。109Please respect copyright.PENANAfqAwQ2yA7d
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比如說現在,剛剛明明瞄準了「殺人」事發前一天的時間點發動個性,他卻發現牆上日曆的日期提前了整整一個月。109Please respect copyright.PENANAZCWETBu8CY
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不過無妨,此時的茉紅梨還活著,這才是獨人在意的。109Please respect copyright.PENANAyIj4P9WsEG
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他正在房間書桌前,敞開的日記本吸引他目光,那是記錄每次輪迴重點用的筆記。109Please respect copyright.PENANAp9lLDQoO4u
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曾做了什麼事情導致什麼後果、又或前幾次的時光旅行是從哪一天到哪一天。畢竟穿梭於時光的次數一多,對於「這個時空」的自己目前做了什麼事,他也會感到混亂。109Please respect copyright.PENANAg87RGuShAN
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白紙上的字體散發出些微憤怒,目光掃視幾行,獨人便不忍再看下去了。109Please respect copyright.PENANAhR8Ft8yIq6
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上頭紀錄著他之前為了抓到不良少年小川把柄而重複輪迴的重點,包括小川家的調查、他跟他爸借錢的細述、甚至提款卡密碼都拿到了。109Please respect copyright.PENANAAud9RPdn4k
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這些小事在現在的獨人眼裡看來格外諷刺,以前的他到底為何要把心思花在這些無用的事情上?109Please respect copyright.PENANADQjZyBZ54L
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無奈嘆了口氣便把本子闔上,獨人走向房門,握著把手遲遲不敢轉開,隨著時間溢出汗珠在金屬表面與皮膚之間產生噁心的黏膩感。109Please respect copyright.PENANArfEZYHw8K8
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打開門就能看到茉紅梨了嗎?109Please respect copyright.PENANAFeo166LtcE
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看到了,我又該怎麼反應呢?109Please respect copyright.PENANAk3l4oCjxe6
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他從沒想過這種問題,倒不如說以前他幻想「要是那個笨妹妹不在的話」這種情境的次數更多。109Please respect copyright.PENANAiQkDjrnx42
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剛才日記本的資訊完全沒有提及任何有關茉紅梨的事情,因為他對妹妹的嫉妒深刻到連寫下她的名字都不願意。109Please respect copyright.PENANAxUr5YriGYr
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「此時」的茉紅梨在哪?「最近」發生了什麼事,獨人完全不知道,過去的他對於妹妹實在太漠不關心了。109Please respect copyright.PENANA0VqzStb4bo
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最終他豁出去,大口嚥下口水才猛力轉開門把,有些年紀的木門推開時發出「磯——」的聲音使他更加緊張。
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「呃......」
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她才剛從玄關進入客廳,看見獨人便止住動作僵直在原地,踮起的腳尖和單肩托在背後的書包完全說明了她正躡手躡腳不想被發現的心情。109Please respect copyright.PENANAFSW57KzlxW
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被抓個正著的茉紅梨愕然勾起單邊嘴角,笑容尷尬至極,「ㄏ、嗨,獨人……我回來了……」109Please respect copyright.PENANAqMCCGe1gWH
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獨人心頭沒來由地一緊彷彿被擰乾的毛巾,喉頭也開始哽咽,逐漸酸澀了起來。109Please respect copyright.PENANAyNs76sfnN0
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他幾乎是想都沒想,本能地衝上前給予妹妹人生第一次的擁抱。109Please respect copyright.PENANAmrnxOf1pf5
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激動情緒已不容許自己發聲,他只能全身緊繃著出力,就像防止懷中那人離開一樣抱得很緊很緊,修長手臂死命抓著茉紅梨相對較小的背。109Please respect copyright.PENANATtYFWmnJCw
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獨人首次知道,原來茉紅梨的體溫是如此溫暖。109Please respect copyright.PENANAU7NbfTXIqK
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茉紅梨耳邊傳來哥哥的啜泣聲,身子也不時感受到吸鼻子的抽搐。109Please respect copyright.PENANAAPierA6pdB
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「獨、獨人?」109Please respect copyright.PENANAfKks6K35SJ
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一直到茉紅梨發出聲音,獨人才鬆開束縛退開來。109Please respect copyright.PENANAcykFQ9kKeZ
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只見茉紅梨的表情彆扭,摻雜恐懼、麻煩、慌張,是一個負面情緒的集合體,獨人才意識到——原來她一直是這樣面對他的。109Please respect copyright.PENANAndzotEypaF
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「茉紅梨……」獨人試圖將緊張感隨著口水吞下肚,明明是曾經歷過的日子,以前自己的心情是怎樣來著?不耐煩嗎?他也不記得了。109Please respect copyright.PENANAivHFQzvauB
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只知道此時此刻自己感到畏懼,良心在譴責,心裡有股聲音正告訴他「你曾殺死的人就在這裡」、「她等等就會向你興師問罪」。109Please respect copyright.PENANAOxLIeCHjvK
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也許他還沒準備好,腦筋一片混亂以致喚了茉紅梨名字之後就沒有後續了,這令被呼喚的本人無所適從,最後她趁這次機會乾脆開口。109Please respect copyright.PENANAFuSoBuxU5N
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「那個……獨人,我想問你……」109Please respect copyright.PENANAlFR1MaaEu6
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茉紅梨猶豫不決,拖沓著是否要繼續接話,在雙方都不敢直視對方的情況下,她率先鼓起了勇氣問道。109Please respect copyright.PENANAliPz3yYp2T
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「那個……週六你有空嗎?我們學校有園遊會,如果你有空的——」109Please respect copyright.PENANAKaJFe1qBt2
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似曾相似的對話,獨人依稀記得這段被他拒絕的過去。109Please respect copyright.PENANABICx0E7Yyy
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心頭猛然湧上一股酸意,他再度克制不住情緒擁了上去,淚水沿頰滑下,順著下巴浸濕茉紅梨肩邊的衣料。109Please respect copyright.PENANAmOrc6GHPWR
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「我有空、有空……我想去……!」109Please respect copyright.PENANAM3edBXwvxS
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「真、真的嗎?」109Please respect copyright.PENANAPSnW8hxtFH
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「……嗯。」109Please respect copyright.PENANAnx5j7dwEBZ
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那是茉紅梨這一輩子第一次得到哥哥肯定的答案。109Please respect copyright.PENANALJWB29hMTz
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也是獨人這輩子首次接納了她。109Please respect copyright.PENANAeVis35sRtF
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那天之後兄妹倆之間的關係戲劇性好轉。109Please respect copyright.PENANARRP2haNWE6
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突如其來的態度轉變令茉紅梨感到疑惑,甚至一度懷疑這是不是另類的惡作劇,或許是獨人故意對她好,然後再一口氣想讓她絕望也說不定。109Please respect copyright.PENANAtlsNMURLVZ
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依照以前獨人的所作所為,這不無可能。109Please respect copyright.PENANAGzgjSBY7UW
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不過一天、兩天下來,雙方皆在尷尬的不適應下逐漸接受現況,哥哥的柔軟姿態變成日常。109Please respect copyright.PENANAgjhfPtvDkD
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儘管長年累積的芥蒂無法立即抹去、兩人獨處時也依舊找不到什麼話題,可在茉紅梨心中,獨人已然成為了一名不需要戒慎恐懼的哥哥了。
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一個多月後。109Please respect copyright.PENANAgdp9HSHBhC
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「茉紅梨,我要交志願調查表了,妳的給我吧,我一起拿去。」109Please respect copyright.PENANArsUj8rlv1M
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「哦,葵,Thank you啦!」109Please respect copyright.PENANARxm0f0PpNw
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安高葵面帶欣慰地看著茉紅梨。109Please respect copyright.PENANAXzzoLbtswG
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她們是幼稚園同學,直到升上國三才再度相遇,安高葵本來對於茉紅梨性格與幼稚園時期大相徑庭感到在意。109Please respect copyright.PENANAa1fnneg9EP
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不過從一個月前開始,茉紅梨顯露憂鬱神情的次數驟減,恢復成與幼兒時期一致的開朗了。109Please respect copyright.PENANAXQU3OILiyz
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「妳果然是打算去雄英嗎?」安高葵順著接過的紙張注意到上頭文字,並不感到意外,「也是啦,妳的個性不去當英雄真的太浪費了。」109Please respect copyright.PENANASZ6mTl03BG
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「嘻嘻,對吧?」109Please respect copyright.PENANAdpeqaoiXec
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別人誇無所謂,由本人露出我很厲害吧的表情時總是有些欠揍,安高葵忍不住翻了個白眼。109Please respect copyright.PENANAP4spm8CLDG
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下一秒,她卻發現友人驕傲的情緒冷靜了,茉紅梨望著地板悠悠地道。109Please respect copyright.PENANANPR4S98HnO
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「我本來以為自己這輩子都不能嚮往成為英雄了。」109Please respect copyright.PENANAxnRs8jRES6
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「咦?為什麼?」109Please respect copyright.PENANAejn0qZ2k7N
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回憶起過往或許有些酸澀,她真曾經想過要放棄,因為她有個無個性又羨慕自己的哥哥,在他面前成為他嚮往的存在——這實在太諷刺了。109Please respect copyright.PENANApdHV8gmDtv
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不過……109Please respect copyright.PENANAsDnmw8iBpd
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昨天當她拿著志願表到父母面前簽名,心驚膽顫就怕被哥哥發現時,獨人從房間出來正巧撞見一切。109Please respect copyright.PENANAw2Jk7e19Av
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「妳一定能成為很棒的英雄。」獨人是這麼對她說的。109Please respect copyright.PENANAM9jqlRElnR
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不同以往口是心非的諷刺語調,那句肯定是打從心底,茉紅梨感受得到。109Please respect copyright.PENANAN65AADpttb
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「不過我錯了。」搖搖頭,她不打算回答安高葵的疑問。109Please respect copyright.PENANAs4YKwINGoH
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這件事情埋在自己心中即可。109Please respect copyright.PENANAXoAHmvU9uP
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然後,茉紅梨微笑看向窗外天空。
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「今天的天氣真好!」
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