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「我想她一定會原諒你的。」
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那人佇足原地,思緒被稱不上朋友的同學單單一句善意話語給侵佔,久久不能自己。70Please respect copyright.PENANAxKpUqSdIWU
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白雪輕降,灑落一片冰涼,覆蓋在排列整齊的墓碑上、少年輕眨的睫毛上、已無溫度的心頭上。70Please respect copyright.PENANA9ryyFWIfnA
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即使安高愛已經祭拜完離去多時,獨人仍跪在墓前。70Please respect copyright.PENANAo4lCS8aLp1
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「茉紅梨,妳願意原諒我嗎……」70Please respect copyright.PENANAiZHT6hIMIa
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呢喃中摻有些許哽咽以及沙啞,這是時流獨人這輩子第一次如此向人示弱。70Please respect copyright.PENANA93SXaRHl6N
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……卻得不到任何回應。
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這一天可真漫長,他感覺渡過了數日,天色卻僅僅只是由亮白轉為暗橘。70Please respect copyright.PENANAJWRdJFo9c2
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「獨人?」70Please respect copyright.PENANAIKtRnzTQli
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又是他,是只要來此處便能遇見的那人。70Please respect copyright.PENANAEJ1Y8NsTI5
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伊堂春菅,一名低調過了頭的英雄,無法排解喪妻之痛而長期駐守墓園。70Please respect copyright.PENANAdH1belFMca
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「真少見,竟然在傍晚看到你。」70Please respect copyright.PENANAYA3hmjYpLY
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「我出獄了。」70Please respect copyright.PENANAfdFbCOTPqo
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春菅愣了一瞬,眼前這名少年太常出沒了,導致他根本就沒有散發受刑人的氣質,而且一般也不可能如此自由。70Please respect copyright.PENANAgwE67IKtuT
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不過殺人可是重罪,身為英雄、親自將多名敵人送入監獄的春菅對這點觀念還是有的。70Please respect copyright.PENANADkwCEnYg9O
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恢復了平靜眼神,本想道聲恭喜的,卻馬上意識到他們兩人身於何處,而少年又是為了何事才入獄又出獄。70Please respect copyright.PENANAHXTUoSUVl4
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想到這,春菅就吞回原本的祝賀,改成沒什麼起伏的回應,「這樣啊。」70Please respect copyright.PENANA9WPIpasiXD
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兩人呼著白色霧氣,吸入相同的冰冷,位於此處的他們有著相同的孤寂。70Please respect copyright.PENANAOPWAj5ekAL
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沈默維持著,明明見過數次面卻沒話可聊,但春菅也不是會為此感到尷尬的人,他就是生性活潑健談。70Please respect copyright.PENANAB165LSA4RY
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在只剩彼此鼻息的無語寧靜中細細思考,該開什麼話題才好呢?70Please respect copyright.PENANAwo4e4ycsIA
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思念之人?不,對獨人來說這可是禁忌話題。70Please respect copyright.PENANAEO1YYvztYK
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仔細想想他還真是對獨人一無所知,那談談經歷吧?嗯……還是算了,對過去最後悔莫及的人肯定非獨人莫屬了。70Please respect copyright.PENANALxhHCPldwu
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最後,春菅無奈輕笑,嘆了一口白煙。70Please respect copyright.PENANAlRony6bYkt
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「獨人,你未來想做什麼?」70Please respect copyright.PENANAMa2xJ4zkKe
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原來他最終也只能問這種大人的制式問題,春菅不禁覺得想笑。70Please respect copyright.PENANALYOWoDKNZP
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「……未來?」70Please respect copyright.PENANASuzzN2bLTh
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「對啊,既然順利出獄了,得到重啟人生的機會,那更應該想清楚未來的出路吧?」70Please respect copyright.PENANA7uT90IKQ4i
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獨人瞪大了眼,像是腦袋當機般發愣著。70Please respect copyright.PENANAIO1mRAWOG2
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他從未思考過未來。70Please respect copyright.PENANAOPiYSV4xls
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因為他眼裡只有回到過去的路。70Please respect copyright.PENANA8j8XsmnBdM
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說來可笑,費盡心思博取他人的敬重,嘔心瀝血才換來了「天才」的稱號,獨人卻從未想過自己究竟想做什麼。70Please respect copyright.PENANAeDECTJd3hs
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國小作文課在全班面前發表的題目——我的夢想——當時寫了什麼?他似乎不記得了,反正肯定是寫了個會讓眾人羨慕的職業吧。70Please respect copyright.PENANAA4gvjyAVzH
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那此刻的他呢?70Please respect copyright.PENANASukEx7Bi6L
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腦袋一片空白,他想不出任何答案,而且越是努力探索內心,腦海越會深刻浮現出茉紅梨不諒解的面容。
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「我已經沒有未來了,你憑什麼有呢?」
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喉頭發出吞嚥口水的聲音,獨人沒有任何回應。70Please respect copyright.PENANA1bT8sfUQ1n
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春菅無法靠這片沈默理解對方內心,於是繼續道,「那你的個性呢?」70Please respect copyright.PENANACd9GCfLRsR
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「……」70Please respect copyright.PENANAqKdSqh8XGn
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「如果沒有想做的工作,也可以找跟自己個性相關的來考慮。」70Please respect copyright.PENANATaZcv5BMM4
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「一般人要取得英雄執照才能對他人使用個性,這是常識,對吧?但很多時候如果個性可以運用在工作上,也能由公司去申請許可證。其實電力公司裡面一堆電氣系個性的人,真羨慕那些傢伙,哈哈!」70Please respect copyright.PENANApur0HueHn9
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雖然知道自己講這些很像愛管閒事的老人,但這也正是成年人的諫言,春菅希望這名已經悔過的少年,能夠光明磊落走完剩下的人生。70Please respect copyright.PENANA7vzuiljhRW
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「……我沒有個性。」70Please respect copyright.PENANAyOVt87WEqO
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只是他完全沒有料到會得到這樣的回應。70Please respect copyright.PENANAc1RnLLMHip
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「這、這樣啊,不過沒關係啦,大部分的人個性也沒有運用在工作上。就像我要是做一般工作,這個性大概頂多也只能讓我睡過頭也不會遲到吧。」70Please respect copyright.PENANA5wJaCq8Kyw
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春菅平常就看得出來性格隨和多話,只是今天明顯是拼命在找話題,這反而讓獨人不太能理解。70Please respect copyright.PENANAu0vRHkXxAF
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他們又不是什麼朋友,安慰自己對春菅可沒有好處。70Please respect copyright.PENANAS4JWLbScSE
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剛剛對未來的提問已經讓獨人煩心,現在已經完全沒心力理會春菅了。他沒有回話,甚至將頭轉回,繼續凝視茉紅梨的墓碑。70Please respect copyright.PENANAor5eoev0G2
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「唉,不過,我最羨慕的果然還是『回到過去』的個性呀。」70Please respect copyright.PENANAA5Y9B6OUeK
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「……?」70Please respect copyright.PENANAL9KEMiFSzb
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頭皮瞬間發麻,獨人像是卡榫生鏽的機械一頓一頓地看向春菅,他已經在妻子的墓前盤腿坐好,為彼此各倒一杯酒,握起小酒杯搖動,瞧著在容器內泛起漣漪的透明液體。70Please respect copyright.PENANAT2Apsw1KJX
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「要是能回到過去,我肯定會想盡辦法阻止我妻子的悲劇。」春菅將酒杯高舉至眼前,無高光的暗綠雙眸將所有期望寄託於杯中反射的光芒,「就算犧牲這條命也在所不惜。」70Please respect copyright.PENANAQ58qfCLuzk
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最後那句話甚至刺進獨人心底深處,嘲笑著他只顧著反悔,卻沒有一點覺悟的窩囊樣。70Please respect copyright.PENANARUHbqRSA3K
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欲言又止了一番,獨人最終鼓起勇氣啟動雙唇,「伊堂先生你……難道不會害怕嗎?」70Please respect copyright.PENANAo48FK3fzzC
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「害怕?為什麼?」70Please respect copyright.PENANAk5IgSUG9Wp
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「害怕回到過去之後,你妻子怪罪你為什麼沒來得及救她……」獨人越說越沒自信,音量逐漸減小。70Please respect copyright.PENANALk4qJEC67L
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「都回到她還沒出事的時候了怎麼可能會怪我啦?」春菅笑道,一口飲盡小酒杯裡的清酒,「不過倒可能怪我馬桶蓋又沒放下來就是了。」70Please respect copyright.PENANAXCYvaQU0hl
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幽默緩頰沒有奏效,獨人仍被困在自我怪罪的循環裡,微弱卻快速地喘著氣。70Please respect copyright.PENANAkvPHiLTZtE
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「我也想回去,一直都想……是真的真的很想回到過去……」70Please respect copyright.PENANAmf0F7vojWc
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聲音哽咽著難以發出,摻雜些許啜泣,語氣裡盡是懊悔。70Please respect copyright.PENANA2Oc61AK4an
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獨人因為劇烈心痛不自覺緊抓胸口,就算衣襟擠出深深皺摺仍得不到緩解,眼角堆積淚水,不用兩秒便溢出。70Please respect copyright.PENANAhhAdfMy2oU
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「我想回到她還活著的時候……!」哽咽使他聲音變得尖銳,卻莫名令人心痛。70Please respect copyright.PENANAx8Bp4TSC57
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春菅已經沒有剛才開玩笑時的笑容了,被獨人的悲傷渲染著他根本笑不出來,而且就算沒有提及也知道那個「她」指的是誰。70Please respect copyright.PENANARDSBtjx3yE
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「可是,就算回到過去,就算她還活著,我犯下的那些過錯也已經無法改變了。」70Please respect copyright.PENANADdyXttGiKY
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十幾年來的言語霸凌是何等程度的罪孽,心智早已成年的獨人再清楚不過了。70Please respect copyright.PENANAJaBVe6VECn
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他已經不討厭茉紅梨了,甚至想要補償她,但這只是獨人自己單方面的想法。70Please respect copyright.PENANAxvb4mus93D
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茉紅梨肯定很討厭自己,獨人打從心底畏懼,如果妹妹看著自己的眼神充滿憎恨,他真不敢面對。70Please respect copyright.PENANAqnwc2CH9Cs
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其實也有想過如果回到更早呢?如果再次回到四歲,自己所做的一切就會歸零,那些罪孽就不存在了呀。70Please respect copyright.PENANAOOaZlp7W5Z
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然後這數年來的「獨人」也將不復存在,所有努力白費只剩下空蕩蕩的軀殼,一切從頭來過,自己仍然什麼都不是,而茉紅梨依然被眾人擁戴。
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他感覺自己會再壞掉一次。
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「我希望茉紅梨能活著……但我害怕她的存——」70Please respect copyright.PENANAd6XdCAuTEk
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「我不知道你們過去發生了什麼,不好隨便做評論啦。」春菅以他成熟的磁性嗓音打斷,隨後嘆了一口氣,「不過,會害怕是因為你承認自己的錯誤了吧?」70Please respect copyright.PENANA8pRCuTNeAS
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他慢悠悠地將給妻子的酒一口乾掉,隨後把兩個清酒杯酌滿,收回盤起的腿起身,拎著酒杯將其中之一放到茉紅梨墓前,「吭啷」的敲擊聲有些突兀。70Please respect copyright.PENANAyrs0068ruq
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春菅蹲下,這樣便能與跪在墓前的獨人平視。70Please respect copyright.PENANArodydTUnhV
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「既然承認做錯事了,後續再害怕都要勇敢面對,要當個負責任的男人嘛。」70Please respect copyright.PENANAH9kAufVjZJ
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感受到手中傳來溫熱卻冰冷的觸感,獨人才發現春菅正把另一杯酒塞到自己手中。70Please respect copyright.PENANA5aSYtgygJo
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春菅的手有些粗糙,壓緊獨人握杯的掌後連帶抬高,乍看之下獨人像在與茉紅梨敬酒。70Please respect copyright.PENANATDLZGxi45y
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「茉紅梨她……在最後一定比你更害怕,是吧?」70Please respect copyright.PENANAgRZ1NojVuA
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春菅的手一脫離,缺少了支撐,獨人握著杯的手便瘋狂顫抖,清酒隨著晃動不斷沿著杯口滲出。70Please respect copyright.PENANAHvhzOHHCIg
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是的。70Please respect copyright.PENANA2okP2qr8O5
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茉紅梨在最後肯定很驚恐,竟然被哥哥拿刀攻擊,怎麼可能不嚇到。70Please respect copyright.PENANAqPRKxg6F9z
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——而且與自己不同,她再也沒有機會害怕了。70Please respect copyright.PENANAfoswoK6lta
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「……嗯。」獨人發不出聲音,只能用力點頭,擠出奇怪的悶哼。70Please respect copyright.PENANAsDMvjEsyxB
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他將酒一口飲盡,咕嚕一聲,酒精順著喉結下滑。70Please respect copyright.PENANAftwmjLcVnl
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率先感受到的是來自喉嚨的灼燒感。70Please respect copyright.PENANAXy2alddzI0
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隨後則是沿著雙頰流入嘴角的鹹味。70Please respect copyright.PENANAWdaPn2AN4Q
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就像他的人生一樣既辛辣又死鹹,難以下嚥。
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而茉紅梨墓前的酒杯仍透著傍晚夕陽的暖橘,熠熠生輝。
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