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獨人在觀察期間行為優良。81Please respect copyright.PENANA5S2d3BCVY7
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無論是少年觀護所的其他少年犯、負責感化教育的老師,還是機關高層甚至是最高負責人,無人不喜歡他。81Please respect copyright.PENANAlXvEeYeNtR
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他太懂得解讀人心,靠近他的人所說的每一句話、每一個細微的表情變動,其背後的動機與原因都能不費吹灰之力解讀出來。並非個性,這是屬於獨人的天賦,儘管他已經受夠了這個特有技能。81Please respect copyright.PENANApTuc0oMKEW
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知道人們內心根源尋求的答案,他總是能說出人們想聽的,成為一個大家都想接近的對象。81Please respect copyright.PENANAoH8VCCOZPg
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儘管殺人罪定讞,在這個人人皆有個性的世代之下,無個性者殺人的罪狀相對輕上許多,外加上未成年以及悔意深切,故只被判一年半的有期徒刑。81Please respect copyright.PENANAaaOdphYA5l
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最終,獨人身為模範生的形象深植少年觀護所眾人的心,獲得了兩年的緩刑,這也意味著——他重獲自由之身,離家數個月的少年終於可以回家了。81Please respect copyright.PENANAce6iqwcRXm
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回到殘缺不完美的那個家。
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從少年法庭回家的路上,三個人坐在緩速移動的轎車之中不發一語,父母親神態疲倦,或許為了這一天足足擔憂了數個月,或是……81Please respect copyright.PENANAZ5wSWalG9m
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或是因為少了一個寶貝女兒而每天以淚洗面。81Please respect copyright.PENANA9zDZ9lHgzM
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獨人不知道。81Please respect copyright.PENANAGofqLNW56x
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依照他的敏銳觀察力也許觀察一下表情就能知道答案,可是他沒有辦法直視父母,有膽量殺人,此刻卻對直視雙親感到畏懼。81Please respect copyright.PENANAjDS13KFLjc
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緊咬下唇,坐在後座的他雙眼無神地望著車窗外快速略過的景物。81Please respect copyright.PENANAie3HvdqmLf
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「獨人。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAGDYgX6PQWL
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忽然間,駕駛座傳來呼喚,怔地他雙瞳緊縮,不自覺屏住呼吸。81Please respect copyright.PENANAMGo7yFI1go
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「回來就好。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAF6gh0ZXrzi
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他始終盯著窗外呼嘯而過的行道樹群,餘光能感受到後照鏡反射駕駛座爸爸凝視自己的目光。81Please respect copyright.PENANAai4WEVMyyk
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與他內心預設的不同,是道浸滿暖意的溫柔視線。81Please respect copyright.PENANAXVs6FgLSFl
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咬唇的齒間開始顫抖,從嘴角滲進一絲絲頰上順下來的鹹味,獨人回想起很多以前的事,充滿憤怒與嫉妒的回憶現在看來是多麼微不足道。81Please respect copyright.PENANA7BEuK6AF0H
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「回來就好……」副駕駛的媽媽輕柔複誦。81Please respect copyright.PENANAhgeV2KhLcU
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他開始止不住啜泣,豆大淚珠在雙眼緊閉的瞬間滴落,或許是二十多年的歲月來首次如此激動地哭泣。81Please respect copyright.PENANATfGWoGu7Ls
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頭腦脹熱,鼻腔酸澀,獨人早已無法克制情感潰堤了。81Please respect copyright.PENANANvEjamUjqx
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「……嗯!」
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如果……81Please respect copyright.PENANAwq8N9xrsNa
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妳也能回來就好了……
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白皙修長的手指輕觸金屬把手,冰冷一瞬間由指梢傳至大腦,凍得他一動也不動,在門前駐足了好一段時間。81Please respect copyright.PENANATH7n4WZy18
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最後他深呼吸,才得以聚集足夠勇氣轉開門把走進房內。81Please respect copyright.PENANAlWk8kS9GLB
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打開燈,黑暗空間頓時被暖色系橙光籠罩,房間內的一切映入眼簾的瞬間,獨人不由自主倒抽了一口氣。81Please respect copyright.PENANAIY8BDIG8do
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堆滿課本與散亂文具的書桌前椅子就是不好好闔上,床鋪棉被堆成高高一坨,床頭櫃擺滿了由歐爾麥特為首的一大群英雄系列娃娃與公仔。81Please respect copyright.PENANAygUNKaRuy0
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這房間給人一種主人不久前還在這裡的錯覺。81Please respect copyright.PENANA0hpUMaMgDn
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獨人不知道平時茉紅梨的生活習慣,他根本不屑也不願進來她房間多看一眼。這或許是他第一次如此了解自己的妹妹,才知道原來茉紅梨就只是一個普通女孩,不摺被子、不愛整理書桌、喜歡收集娃娃……81Please respect copyright.PENANATnIsCJS51I
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覺得身為哥哥的自己就是一場天大的笑話,獨人嘆了一口氣,默默深入房內開始整理環境。81Please respect copyright.PENANAu8H7eAuUZC
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爸媽打從心底歡迎兒子歸來,不過還是有一個不能讓步的命令,他們要獨人整理茉紅梨的房間。81Please respect copyright.PENANAUMJBKwInXP
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到今天開庭判刑前,被收容在少年觀護所的這段期間長達兩個月,也就是說房內維持著這個狀態如此之久,獨人在整理期間卻發現所有表面皆是一塵不染。81Please respect copyright.PENANAWfzTzbIMOO
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有人來打掃過。81Please respect copyright.PENANAeDNknRzfGp
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依這種每個角落都不放過的仔細程度來看肯定是媽媽所為。81Please respect copyright.PENANAlu98CF7hQj
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獨人這就不懂了,原本以為父母是因為不想面對女兒的離去才把整理房間的重任交給他,但如果都敢進來打掃了,為何不一同收拾物品呢?81Please respect copyright.PENANAZfTCBcEBGa
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帶著困惑的心,他伸出手握住堆成一團的棉被邊角朝空中用力一甩——81Please respect copyright.PENANAckXR2cwGjj
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長期包裹在被內的味道瞬間佈滿空氣之中。81Please respect copyright.PENANANrk3s3rtU9
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原來這是屬於茉紅梨的味道。81Please respect copyright.PENANAWzlKjCnQmZ
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以前從不願多待在有她的任何地方,總是憤怒地咬牙切齒快步離去,根本就沒發現過妹妹的體味。81Please respect copyright.PENANAlxjI9mLOqq
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此刻摻有淡淡花果香氣的洗髮精掠過鼻腔。81Please respect copyright.PENANAjZR9P0ZUFJ
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好香。81Please respect copyright.PENANAfT2YO7jmkC
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也好悲傷。81Please respect copyright.PENANAM1769hEmfT
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深吐一口鼻息,獨人繼續手邊的動作,將蓬鬆的羽絨被摺成豆腐狀,接著他來到書桌前,把散亂的文具一個個塞回鉛筆盒內、課本一本又一本疊起、輕敲桌面整平,打開椅背上的書包塞進去——81Please respect copyright.PENANAc31ARYiFVY
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卻壓到不平整的異物。81Please respect copyright.PENANAt9owQ2slYU
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考卷嗎?81Please respect copyright.PENANAZUfdGD1tUN
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他從沒關心過妹妹的學習狀況,因為她就算考得再差只要撒個嬌就沒事了,而自己不管得了幾個滿分也沒得到什麼好處。81Please respect copyright.PENANAsPG9TNa2y5
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所以他才憤怒,所以才會嫉妒。81Please respect copyright.PENANAxfivXa5DtN
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伸手進去觸摸,那是股既陌生又熟悉的觸感。81Please respect copyright.PENANA2YSUzrwFz1
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獨人想起了曾經的某一個國小時期,上台領取68分的考卷後惱羞成怒的自己,當時揉爛後又攤開的考卷就是這種觸感。81Please respect copyright.PENANAIByqVcfRoP
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試圖攤平卻掩飾不了曾經造成的皺褶,跟他此刻試圖懺悔卻換不回茉紅梨的性命一樣。81Please respect copyright.PENANAzXlS790Hrk
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抽出那張壓在書底下的白紙,那是升學意願調查表。81Please respect copyright.PENANA4LJoivPm8D
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這又令他回想到「那件事」發生的前一天,爸媽在客廳歡談著準英雄的女兒有多麼優秀,惹得他嫉妒到最後對茉紅梨罵了一句「要是沒有妳就好了」。81Please respect copyright.PENANANXDZj0qnBx
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呵,還真是一語成讖。他苦笑。81Please respect copyright.PENANAAwPEDz2sKG
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然後,笑容僵了。
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——第一志願學校:鹿兒島高中 英雄科
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紙上寫的是這幾個字。81Please respect copyright.PENANAHJWaHOdgDn
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志願表欄位被來回擦塗幾次後殘留的淡淡黑墨上頭,紊亂字跡寫的答案與獨人印象中的可不一樣,不可能是這間幾乎算是日本本島最南端的學校才對。81Please respect copyright.PENANAKswxY3DlD4
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他眨了幾眼,開始凝神仔細觀察紙上的所有細節,最終發現了不明顯的「雄英高中英雄科」字樣。81Please respect copyright.PENANAPtvscO0mdt
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欄位旁數個淚滴暈染,滲透了紙張甚至破了小洞,誰能想像這張紙的主人是以何種心情填寫的呢。81Please respect copyright.PENANAXpoWcQs3mF
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「……我對不起妳。」獨人閉上眼,將紙緊壓在胸前,努力壓抑住哭意的下巴抖得厲害。81Please respect copyright.PENANA5tQr7yReWn
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皺摺破爛的志願表。81Please respect copyright.PENANAmXkYIkrowb
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如同殘缺不堪的未來人生。
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——「要是沒有妳就好了!」
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如果當初我沒說那句話。
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——「……我知道了。」
——「我會消失的。」
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妳是不是就不會消失了呢?
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他不苟言笑地跪在墓前,或許拿「被抽走了魂」來形容更為恰當,像是墓園裡被建立在路中的人形墓碑,就這樣埋沒於眾石塊之中一動也不動。81Please respect copyright.PENANADHlcQZ0NdF
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時間流逝不知道多久,鼻尖傳來疼痛喚醒他的思緒,黑瞳才終於恢復光澤。81Please respect copyright.PENANAwm3QMQbraW
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伸手撫了撫鼻頭,感受不太到來自指尖的觸感卻依然刺痛,甚至五指都難以操控。81Please respect copyright.PENANA55Q4w8LDJl
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「好冷。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAcejFZyvFmm
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回想起那時懷中已經失去心跳的軀殼,比起此刻的自己,那遺體冰冷多了。81Please respect copyright.PENANAWCBtAb9dWs
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獨人將脖子上的厚圍巾卸下,輕柔綁在四方柱的石塊上頭,細心調整位置避免遮住名字。81Please respect copyright.PENANAXPeXJRKcJx
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「妳一定更冷吧。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAda9O1afWbw
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右手順勢撫上了刻有「茉紅梨」三字的區域,彷彿看見自己的手正撫著茉紅梨本人的臉,套上黑色圍巾的她笑得可燦爛了——這可是她第一次被獨人如此呵護。81Please respect copyright.PENANALEPA8ypPzg
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心中有股說不出的難耐,胸口鬱悶卻又同時麻痹了知覺,是極度不舒服卻又無感的矛盾,他只知道有點呼吸困難。81Please respect copyright.PENANAtlAVWmNIpp
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頭昏昏脹脹的,看來是慚悔的不夠,得繼續跪個三小時才行。81Please respect copyright.PENANAxcmn4XTKeb
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這時旁邊有些動靜。81Please respect copyright.PENANAFAWdkocCdS
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有人來了,長靴的厚跟踩在石子路上喀喀地靠近,一束鮮花被放上墓前,外包裝的紙與塑膠接連發出聲響可以知道這束花肯定不小。那人在旁邊跪下,膝蓋彎曲之際的那聲「喀」總讓人有種很痛的感覺。81Please respect copyright.PENANAl22tmUAaGQ
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這讓他想起有個沒很熟的同班同學膝蓋也會這樣,那個人正是——81Please respect copyright.PENANANNlHMTwbuY
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「安高。」獨人從頭到尾都沒有看她確認身分。81Please respect copyright.PENANAxJeI0w1H3F
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對方似乎對獨人的高度敏銳沒有意外,只是靜靜的盯著墓碑,「獨人。」81Please respect copyright.PENANA9SKpiAvQ1n
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對話終止,雙方並行拜了好一陣子之後才終於又抬起頭。81Please respect copyright.PENANABfWqGBFfD2
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「從上次開始妳就改叫我獨人了,為什麼?」81Please respect copyright.PENANAobTbzkQA8C
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他不懂,這太不符合一般邏輯了。81Please respect copyright.PENANAthewx0lTPT
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所謂上次,也就是他失手殺了茉紅梨的那天,也就是不良少年在便利商店外朝她們拳打腳踢的那天,那時的安高愛明明氣得不得了,不可能反視獨人為親密存在。81Please respect copyright.PENANA5lVKxmabcI
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安高愛只是搖搖頭嘆了口氣,既無奈、又感到有些哀傷。81Please respect copyright.PENANAZjTfOy9PGH
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「……因為叫你『時流』,會讓小茉紅混淆的。」81Please respect copyright.PENANA4exjHiNDn7
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因為你們是兄妹。81Please respect copyright.PENANAv3334dFYTg
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因為你們體內流淌著同一個血脈、擁有同樣的姓氏。81Please respect copyright.PENANApfFpywqCWY
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然而如此理所當然的事情在長期抗拒當茉紅梨哥哥的獨人眼裡,竟然需要旁人解釋才能意會,這讓他深受打擊。81Please respect copyright.PENANAaC9Bqc0IIo
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面對新認識的春菅時明明刻意隱瞞姓氏,在舊識的同學面前卻不由得露出長期侵蝕自己的情感,著實諷刺。81Please respect copyright.PENANAey4oAlocHg
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「是呢。」他低下頭冷笑了幾聲,不過安高愛感覺得到,這次獨人的嘲笑對象變成自己了。81Please respect copyright.PENANABepE26uOe3
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「吶,獨人。」安高愛轉頭看向他,他的側顏十分清秀、卻也憂鬱,讓人不自覺產生憐憫,「對不起。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAz8ArK8uHfp
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獨人因疑惑而轉頭之時,雙方的視線終於連接上了。81Please respect copyright.PENANAWn21vtTuaf
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安高愛那雙不畏懼、不逃避、勇於承擔的眼眸子充滿堅定。81Please respect copyright.PENANAbIJe4cjP8p
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「那天打了你一巴掌,對不起。」81Please respect copyright.PENANAD9NVyTaGXp
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「為什麼要跟我這種人道歉?妳應該知道的吧?殺了茉紅梨的人可是……」81Please respect copyright.PENANAGOAQP38oX3
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「一碼歸一碼。」81Please respect copyright.PENANA3brpCTmzQg
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「……」81Please respect copyright.PENANAqaKqGX4gum
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「無論你做了什麼,單就扇巴掌這件事情,因為是不對的所以我才跟你道歉。而你對小茉紅做的事情……該不該道歉,或是該對誰道歉,這些答案你心裡應該比誰都明白。」81Please respect copyright.PENANApHVVMs9kcW
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天氣十分寒冷,可眼前圍上黑色圍巾的墓碑看起來著實溫暖,早晨之後就產生的露珠依舊掛在表面,在「茉紅梨」的邊角閃爍白光。81Please respect copyright.PENANA90ONviCucS
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安高愛盯著墓前,露出一抹淡淡微笑。
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「我想她一定會原諒你的。」
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寫到床頭櫃歐爾麥特娃娃的時候我才意識到:對欸我正在寫我英同人……
嗯?我是在寫我英同人沒錯吧😂
內容幾乎不相關,但是用了我英的世界觀了還是得放在同人類別XDDD
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