《楊穎姿散文日誌》 - 《關於我的一週年》

一年了，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqf9zX0BGNI
離開生活了二十多個年頭的地方，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZ3IdBxAsv
移居到個從來都沒想過會居住的國家。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWKB95jH8QR
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有趣的是離開以前，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQoM3j6lAQ
最後一個到訪的國家亦是這裡，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSfI0K2h0ul
當時還未想像到再次到訪會以這種方式。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjifRh3JnxN
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離開之前是想遠離那個只適合生存，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfZpKxlQbdC
不適合生活的地方。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWEFmSdMv1
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但離開以後，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5FomZOR9Lc
才發現一切仍然離不開那邊的人和事。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM4RZaYQ1wv
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有想念，會掛念。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YtaI3erVf
掛念朋友，掛念原本的生活。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXhln8JmSBp
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就算再努力嘗試適應，仍是會有點想念，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ46hKvqISHs
會幻想沒有離開的話，自己會變得怎樣。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDq4fM2CJe7
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「離開以後有變得更開心嗎？」234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX5dlpVBxnB
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這是來到以後經常被問到的問題。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4G3mKUGR9y
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有⋯⋯吧？！應該有的吧。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlwxbA6fa8C
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至少⋯⋯距離使我跟厭惡的一切阻隔開，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFgDphStlv
不用經歷一出門口就大汗淋漓的夏天，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfVEJhGinoH
不用打開電視就聽到聽不進耳的新聞，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHpAQ3NF1i
不用出門後就聽到卷舌音特別重的語言。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCH8EuAwY6
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那時每樣都足以令我想趕快逃離，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtGUkvwYNyJ
但當我真正離開以後，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWiOGAva3Q1
又一直透過媒體去了解。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAzqSkazymk
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只是作為離開了的人，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp4967AljsO
對於留下來的人和地方，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnLOy6ZhNni
總會有種隔閡，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtm801jN0sl
像一道無形的牆，一直看不清。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoO6Ru18yig
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那邊還有人戴口罩出門嗎？234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdKoRDD8nO
帶來的都沒用過。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFNPCCPWtfr
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那邊的天氣又很高了嗎？234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Zvvd0YYCV
我都忘記大熱天是甚麼感覺了。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qWqVv7oKu
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那邊的那個地方那關店倒閉了嗎？234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQdiYaZBef
好可惜喔，怎麼那麼突然？234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbDN1dKaNB
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那邊新開了那間店呀？234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCenqOUS4QL
回去以後要嘗嘗嗎？234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZaqKdk0O7A
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那邊掛颱風了呀？234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR574fJYRQh
我都忘記颱風是甚麼了。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡemyFJiGXlE
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這些都是我只能憑媒體，從影片中得知，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxkYc3sdDxz
每次都會有種距離感，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzuOtW1qbTd
因為我全都接觸不到。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ975KbO5lza
繼續跟那地方談我最討厭的遠距離戀愛。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡETpjhwdULr
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離開以後認識到新的朋友，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSxtKPBdAo
我還是會很驕傲地報上自己來自的地方。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlkDYWAeJs1
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但後面總會多帶一句：234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUfCu35yML
但那邊⋯⋯234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoqlcDdBcqk
變很不一樣了，跟我小時候不一樣了。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQxxLVpvDp9
你早幾年有留意到新聞嗎？234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVhQRfSZwIn
嗯，一切都不一樣了。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡniPDgyMYgU
很多人都離開了，去了不同的地方，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsSoSlRylyS
有些像我這樣沒用的人，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpEOkeu6Cwj
還能隔幾年回去探訪。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyIfbjQvFZK
但有些人一輩子都回不去了，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT1DIdQC3CW
不是他們不想回去看看，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAwI0MxF1oB
是他們再也沒辦法回去了。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIO4VFzVivM
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再回去之後心態大概都會變了吧，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡshIedeq6Sj
我就只是個遊客，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDyddakL18D
走馬看花般，老一輩般，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIXE0M5aqeM
只看到這邊那邊的不同樣貌，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFk2nh7jiz
內𥚃真正的核心價值改變了沒，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZRpQ27SO8
我卻無從得知。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFsdGUAL0qM
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因為我就只是個過客，一切都跟我無關，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6sYaCBMiqW
最多也只是下一代出生後多教他種語言，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPmf5syxx0m
但他的一切都會在這邊生根發芽，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTCMhIBXIPX
這邊才會成為他的「故鄉」。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg0dqkPjGmq
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到達了一年，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTN40T9zU5o
這邊的風土人情大概都感受過了，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ22RfyXVO6U
抹去小時候那層美好的濾鏡，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZjj4Is07u
才真正體驗到生活與旅客的分別，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLZVDmr28OV
會因為電費跟物價的上漲而抱怨，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJUbTVbvaF
因為在地人處事方式不同而抱怨，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhJOF7bXgn
會因為同種族的人做了傻事而感到羞恥。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwepW5wscpM
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最可笑是，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU69qYtwuZA
即使在他鄉生活了一年，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtHcahMtNYC
我下意識都仍在以故鄉的思維去思考。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwSUiwtc3CP
一切都跟原本的地方比較，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEj6WmfIBKy
到現在每看到一件事物，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwsj14fMQ82
腦海還會自動把金額換成故鄉的貨幣。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3adDnB4vQF
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原來想離開的我，一年以後還是離不開。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLT2iYvASg
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那就給自己點時間吧，234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FZNE9Et8A
明年今日再告訴自己吧。234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡho3I5wZfGR
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離開了的人，你有變快樂嗎？234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNsLaNU0pBp
留下來的人，你有變快樂嗎？234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡajah0d15wX
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我的一週年紀念快樂．嗎？234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkuWNzWlL6
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楊穎姿 2023年夏234Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNzMJh2EpFh