「總算知道要回家啦。」母親笑笑地迎接她進門,她若無其事地給母親一個擁抱,再走進客廳抱抱父親。431Please respect copyright.PENANAyFJdIYQLLC
以學校事務為由,她花了整整三天的時間,才調整好心情覺得自己可以平靜地回來面對父母。431Please respect copyright.PENANAN4ahFn9nmU
可是,她還是沒辦法在這個從小長大的地方過夜,這裡,已經沒了她的安身之處。431Please respect copyright.PENANAbec9BUThuZ
有些東西,是洗澡也洗不掉的。431Please respect copyright.PENANAid05jFYjkI
她把從歐洲旅行帶回來的紀念品拿給父母,把記憶都停留在回後一天之前,興奮地分享著一路上的所見所聞,直到晚餐父親習慣地打開電視,對很多家庭來說是禁忌的事情,在他們家是被許可的日常,她打斷父親的政論節目,點開事先蒐集覺得好笑的綜藝節目與他們分享,這是她最喜歡的時光—逗父母笑。431Please respect copyright.PENANA4qEC4Il3Zg
直到九點,父母趕著要以學校明天有事為藉口回學校宿舍的她早點回去以免天色太暗,她才與兩老道別。431Please respect copyright.PENANALmoa92BnH1
「到家記得講一聲。」母親將她送到玄關門口,直到她進電梯才關上門,她知道,自己表現得很好,從小她就特別能在父母面前隱藏住負面的情緒,包括身體不舒服、成績考差了,或著失戀,以及更多更嚴重的問題。431Please respect copyright.PENANAIId5d5o8qZ
沒多久她便回到空無一人的宿舍,整棟男女宿,就連僑生都把握長長的假期回自己的國家,只有她一個人透過與舍監的關係偷偷申請了提早入住,她太需要一個人的空間了。431Please respect copyright.PENANAOcsUTwLf9s
她如往常先是攤在床上打開電腦撥放網路節目,直到睡覺時間才動身收拾、洗漱並回覆訊息,最後關上燈,上床。431Please respect copyright.PENANABXdoMzzH2R
漆黑中,她瑟縮在床角哭了,若無其事的謊從淚水流出罪惡感。431Please respect copyright.PENANAhLwtqYZqg0
她無法抗拒地伸手打開床邊的抽屜,摸索出一個鎖著的扁平置物盒,她將裡面的東西拿出來,在黑暗中凝視著那宛若羽翼在月亮底下的反光。 431Please respect copyright.PENANAw1AC9y31M1
輕撫著男人留下的字條,她好似摸到兩個肉體交疊的體溫,如同觸電一般令她疼痛地鬆開手,她下意識地衝到浴室,又將自己的身體再洗一遍,可蓮蓬頭沖出的水,卻像男人落在她身上雨點般的吻,儘管她抗拒地用沐浴乳一遍又一遍的蓋過男人帶著煙味的軀體,卻只能感受到他越來越貼近自己的肌膚。431Please respect copyright.PENANAXosnc0h3I0
最後,她無力地蹲在地上啜泣,如同第一天她洗的第七次澡,她覺得自己不一樣了,而這都是她自己的選擇。431Please respect copyright.PENANAhaQs46MTqz
這是她對老天爺的報復,她傷害自己,想要那個殘酷的人同情,可原來到頭來,她也只是傷害了自己而已。431Please respect copyright.PENANAXibGsrOVj6
唯一被報復的人,是她自己。431Please respect copyright.PENANA7gdaq8BQ5P
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