男友有幾個大學同學飯聚group,一個group係同hall嘅同學,一個係同一個學系嘅,仲有一個係做莊啲莊友。
佢哋其中三兩個人,係重疊身份,亦都係同男友最熟絡,已經到達大家講說話可以口不擇言,而又互不介懷嘅程度。351Please respect copyright.PENANAqscvrdpFb5
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成班同學處身喺人生打拼階段,工作繁忙,每次飯聚好難齊人,男友係缺席最多嘅其中一個,不過每次佢出席都會帶埋我一齊去。
出席唔代表可以融入,唔否認有幾個男仔暗中注意住我,但大部份人對我好疏離,當我半透明,可能大家背景唔同,生活圈子有別,但最大原因係我唔懂得交際,怕出席人多喧鬧場合呢啦。351Please respect copyright.PENANAeLbxJ0HgFo
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男友知道我嘅喜惡,好多時佢都搵借口唔出席,但係我明白到佢需要維繫多年朋情,甚至擴闊人際網絡,我都叫佢唔好因為我而缺席。
當男友同Julie工作上重聚無幾耐,佢班同學就開名要男友一定出席。
幾個相熟,喜歡鬧事嘅,無理會我在場,嬉嬉哈哈,好輕挑,以迫供咁嘅態度,追問男友同Julie嘅近況,佢哋仲話下次聚會,一定要捉埋Julie出席。
如果佢哋當我唔在場還好,難堪嘅係佢哋迫供之時,仲週不時望吓我,想睇吓我有咩反應。
我每次都只係陪客身份,對佢啲同學,或者佢啲同學對我,一直都認識唔多,所以佢哋對我可以不留情面。351Please respect copyright.PENANASZbd8e0hM7
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唯獨男友一位師姐,同我較為熟絡,又或可以講係佢比較同情我嘅處境,當男友初升上大學,入住宿舍,呢位師姐已經係博士研究生,佢幫社監管理個hall,喺飯聚group裡面,我同佢係小數嘅女性,所以佢都特別關顧我。351Please respect copyright.PENANAgGsOzcX7BV
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有好幾個比較諸事八卦嘅同學,席間不停偷偷打量我,似乎要將我同Julie比較。351Please respect copyright.PENANAArmn887V5V
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呢位師姐亦都留意到,佢每次趁我去洗手間時,都借意跟埋入嚟,幫佢班同學講好說話,向我表示班男仔係無惡意,只不過佢哋喺hall習慣咁以令對方尷尬為樂,同時佢都會同我打吓氣。351Please respect copyright.PENANAeTxzKv5oMM
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加上嗰時男友剛剛俾咗三塊拼圖小片我,同我講我哋未來人生大併圖,得到男友安慰,我搵番一啲信心。351Please respect copyright.PENANA2KBcehdNHV
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不過佢班同學用咁嘅眼神睇我,話雖佢哋無乜惡意,俾佢哋評頭品足,亦都好難受。351Please respect copyright.PENANAtb02YoJycZ
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我有自知之明,Julie幾乎每一方面都比我強。351Please respect copyright.PENANA8X70mkpN1G
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佢身形高挑,面貌清秀,皮膚嫩白,魅力迫人,加上學歷高,舉止端莊,事業又有成就,擺出嚟就俾一個標準嘅萬人迷。351Please respect copyright.PENANA8nMinVUAWG
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比起我只係中學學歷,一間小小貿易公司裡面一個小文員,佢每個條件都優越過我。351Please respect copyright.PENANApBblJOYqJr
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唯一可以挑剔,就係佢比較瘦削,稍欠身裁,不過瘦削唔係缺點,唔同人有唔同喜好,我相信喺部份人眼裡面,會嫌我皮膚太黑,身型妖惹,未必吸引到佢哋。351Please respect copyright.PENANAmpHcjB6S0c
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問心而論,男友身裁高大,Julie身形高挑,樣貌端莊,兩個人企埋一齊,尤其出席一啲重要宴會,Julie係優勝過我好多。351Please respect copyright.PENANAqe6hfLBLZg
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之前幾日,我再出席咗男友同學嘅另一次飯聚,351Please respect copyright.PENANAIsyq2jnb3r
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佢哋話題如常不著邊際,天南地北,乜都講到,當中固然唔少得懷緬讀書時嘅舊事,每當提及Julie,佢哋一定扯上男友同佢嘅戀情,仲不停用金童、玉女嚟稱呼佢哋兩個。351Please respect copyright.PENANAbxdSGu5XD1
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金童、玉女呢個稱呼似乎係佢班同學之間稱呼佢哋嘅,因為我追查Julie facebook,咁多年嚟,佢哋班同學或者朋友留言裡面,從來無出現過「金童」「玉女」呢兩個稱呼,莫非喺佢哋同學圈子裡面所知道嘅嘢比我只係從face book所知嘅仲要多?351Please respect copyright.PENANALxfgm2AsDd
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男友每次都苦笑住叫同學唔好搵佢嚟開玩笑,我坐喺佢旁邊,身為佢女友更加唔知點應對。351Please respect copyright.PENANA9sUShhocf1
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飯聚後,佢送我返屋企,對於佢哋成晚唔離口嘅「金童、玉女」,我無仼何表示,佢亦都無好似早幾個星期前咁安慰我,我同佢全程沉默,佢揸佢嘅車,我有我沉思。351Please respect copyright.PENANADI6Tq8HtTr
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“夜喇,唔駛送我上去喇!”351Please respect copyright.PENANA83ZqDT3sjD
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到咗我屋企,佢想駛入停車場,然後送埋我上樓,不過我制止咗佢。351Please respect copyright.PENANAf1tZaeZnpA
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“嗯⋯⋯咁好吖,拜拜!”351Please respect copyright.PENANAjTUMYEJ6it
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佢如夢初醒咁,無反對,只係向我揚一揚手講拜拜。351Please respect copyright.PENANA4rP7af3kYs
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“拜拜!”351Please respect copyright.PENANAf3vEQhTNH2
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我心情好沉重,連續失眠咗幾晚。351Please respect copyright.PENANAm5FDP5EIYO
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