在TG上，大家互相交換照片，今年的動漫節我只去了兩天。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ73MghTNfZJ
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Annie看完我cosplay男角和女角的照片，她看到其中一張我cosplay著女角跟一另一名女coser的合照，便回應：525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiXsLR8uZRs
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Annie：你隔離嗰條女好靚，你啲frd嚟？525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrwJgErFjqP
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我：梗係唔係啦，啱啱先識嘅（笑喊525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKSfPV0B1ah
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接著Annie也給她的化妝照我看，又交流著化妝心得。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZPoC4LlH11
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論「擠牙膏式」聊天戰術，對我來講cosplay、化妝、寫網絡小說，這三大話題是最長壽命的話題，能用來談很長、很長的時間。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSDgaQA67C9
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總之，我最終目的就是要把她約出來見面！525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLgKEjEXBq
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每次我以cosplay裝扮出席這類活動時，都必定認識到新朋友，男女都有，也是同樣cosplay的人，然後他們都會跟我交換IG。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP6xtx65d2c
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在我的IG裡，粉絲頗多，主要有兩類：一是從cosplay圈認識的人，二是我從網上寫小說而招來的讀者粉絲和其他作者。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWJLV58eQDi
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每逢我發佈小說的宣傳文，只有十幾個讚好，但當我發佈cosplay照時，不論是男裝還是女裝，總會引來多3倍的讚好，真是人靠衣裝。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8toE1G2qc6
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因此有人會覺得我的朋友圈子大，但其實這只不過是假象；因為我都很少與人會面，平日頂多都是跟我唯一好友Jason見面或獨自一人到cafe消閑。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1BuQZPlFuj
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Annie：你個樣本身可以好女仔，出街實冇人知你係偽娘。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivIP9ZBFMv
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我：但冇計啦我太高喇，實出賣男兒身㗎（笑喊525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMaSbkMXLP9
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Annie：其實我好憎啲男仔睇樣525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrVwrAndWM
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我：做咩突然間講呢啲嘅？525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5N1XHiMIIq
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Annie：以前試過交換完相之後，條仔嫌我肥，就即block我525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjsSjRJdG1
Annie：我真係好自卑525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTQOSLZEIAy
Annie：啲人成日都同我講，話我個樣唔差，叫我扮下靚就有525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvCyoHb69Z4
Annie：佢哋口口聲話唔介意肥閪，但係行動上就好誠實咁話我知，佢哋跟本介意。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgyBNHBg2KT
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其實我也很清楚知道，這個世上沒有絕對的零歧視。很多時候人只是出於禮貌，而在表面的社交應酬上，包裝自己的說話，但心裡仍然保留真正的自己。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvlck8ul0Aw
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所以我的世界觀是：適者生存，與其努力去改變世界，倒不如學習保護自己。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ17sNq99XP1
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偽娘也會被歧視嗎？當然有，只是我比較幸運，身邊的人大致上都是禮貌跟我相處；或可能有人心底裡不喜歡，但我相信既然有人不喜歡，那麼總有人喜歡，每個人總會找到自己的一套生存之道，多訓練自己的敏感度，便可容易地觀察人心，從而使自己作更好的決定。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMwt4HZpPxN
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所以在前面說到創建Tinder帳號時，我都說，即管大膽表明自己是偽娘身份，當有人被我吸引進來之後，再慢慢過濾誰是真正交友。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY9mYNT565t
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或許有人問：你這樣不辛苦嗎？不做偽娘就好了。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdebOGViX7T
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我會反駁：食得鹹魚抵得渴，為心靈滿足而選擇紋身的人，會害怕生活上的阻礙而放棄嗎？525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWoovq2t67z
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我們又繼續聊，然後我嘗試開玩笑地拋出一句。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrcsuBUX5bs
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我：我好想食豬扒飯。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2JP3yH14ZM
我：不過我想食你件豬多啲（笑喊525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Vo3VcVJ2l
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Annie：我唔係豬扒！！525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP3mZUs5eY8
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糟糕了，我講錯說話，焦慮的我想嘗試修復。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSH7bnpIqMT
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我：豬扒都有豬扒嘅好（笑喊525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhsnVbqQmAR
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Annie：可以啪啪聲嘛（大笑525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKt5boBJCuD
Annie：同埋，我呢啲高嘅係叫坦克車唔係豬扒525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB2b4hYwxvV
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最原始的對話版本我已經忘記了，也刪了；總之大概記得，我以「豬扒」這個詞語來開玩笑，說過幾句；但是勾起了Annie的怒火，而我又嘗試熄滅。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnyHoMROf17
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我：噢，原來我一路以嚟攪錯咗豬扒呢個term嘅用法。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyXgYN1vNko
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沒辦法下，我只好裝傻混過去。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaVB7E37nnb
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本以為如此便蒙混過關，於是我們又如常地相處下去。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtdCs5dXHD5
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接著幾天後，我又約了一個攝影師在派對房裡拍攝泳裝照片；但是照片要修圖，要等待一陣日子才有。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnEsOe5jfmr
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這晚我又跟Annie聊到半夜三更。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIwPaF83xp
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Annie：你去影泳衣咁有冇相？525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu89qacyyKC
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我如實地交代暫未有相片，只有一張我當場的自拍照，是上身照，相中的我看起來與一個穿三點式的女人無異。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmLOjJW8k7
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艷濃的妝容、長長的啡捲髮、以及黑色三點式泳裝，露出大面積白皙的肌膚，正正是我當時的打扮。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbF2RYxCrCV
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Annie：慘囉慘囉，連你都咁靚。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhryrBZLeoC
Annie：我一見到有排骨精就有種想保護佢嘅感覺525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGz7LSaFTMW
Annie：驚佢俾風吹走525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡklUWjNPMQ0
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我：你講緊邊個排骨呀？（笑喊525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoGfRIHVUxX
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Annie：我好唔中意啲男仔自大525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp8x2vabVVT
Annie：見過有啲男仔喺網上露佢自己上身525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLcoJlQZMsw
Annie：佢以為自己有六舊，有好大條J525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyJOejmC2rh
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我：俾著係我直情同人講：我冇J㗎（笑喊525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQmz6p79JeB
我：冇六舊肌同大J，咁咪做返女人囉（笑喊525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYO0Amupe4u
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我不像一般的某些直男，在網上放出袒露上身的大漢照。不穿衣服，我都會，只是我不會這樣表達而已。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ8yX8Xybx7
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事實上，我的確在Tinder放過一張三點式泳裝照，還有假髮和妝容；並不是因為我對自己男性特徵（例如6腹肌）沒自信，而純粹是因為我喜歡美麗的自己。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBD2ECDYqac
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以火影忍者的語言說，大多數男人都是使用鳴人的「逆後宮術」，而我則只是在用「後宮術」，一個「逆」字只是男版和女版的分別。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNiiEJkOuH
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Annie：半夜三更瞓唔著，突然性起，傾吓性？525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg34bzCvm8J
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我：你做乜咁突然想講18禁呀？M到？（笑喊525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEQDxD4wklw
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Annie：係呀，你又知？（笑喊525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcm1RMGiqdN
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我：我憑直覺亂估咋525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqAdpxpQleq
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Annie：好奇想知你唔打飛機㗎咩？525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOmnE6Z6yKP
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我思索了一會，然後回覆。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwuLHzWyFm
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我：打呀，但我嘅性幻想唔係男女扑嘢咁簡單。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6NG58pH8h
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我的性癖，是戀物。事實上對於女性的胸、陰道，不是主要的興趣；因此如果有大胸妹子在我面前引誘我，是沒有用的；唯一能刺中我「死穴」的只有女裝。525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lTCgD5pL8
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Annie：我屋企都有兩件sex toy525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFomDLhmzsk
Annie：我試過自己裝上假J然後插落第二條女度525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcVClcqIJ5W
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我：你本身都係bi？525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ11ytMVstaf
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Annie：唔係嘅，只係貪屌女仔好玩（大笑525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCKSag8BMTP
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我：話說今日我去私影時都就嚟出水525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeBiL5scZh
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Annie：你都冇閪，點出水？525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIRvNzsp8AA
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我：人工閪😏525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyuiPqHtapl
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Annie：😳😳525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EmopcQpDC
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我：你嚟上我啦（笑喊525Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGjNzeifveh
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今晚看似她已經把我說的「豬扒」拋諸腦後；另一方面，我們已經聊了1.5個月，我三番四次約會她，她都不出來，漸漸地我也被磨去了耐性和動力。我開始有點迷惘，下次應該如何提出約會，還是只保持網上關係就罷了？8964 copyright protection521ＰＥＮＡＮＡCteMdrTx0g 維尼

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