在TG上，大家互相交換照片，今年的動漫節我只去了兩天。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ak5AWrR4d
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Annie看完我cosplay男角和女角的照片，她看到其中一張我cosplay著女角跟一另一名女coser的合照，便回應：583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0fyAO6WyAz
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Annie：你隔離嗰條女好靚，你啲frd嚟？583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb5bEesvGdj
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我：梗係唔係啦，啱啱先識嘅（笑喊583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqjxhcc2nv
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接著Annie也給她的化妝照我看，又交流著化妝心得。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡApP3OSue9Y
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論「擠牙膏式」聊天戰術，對我來講cosplay、化妝、寫網絡小說，這三大話題是最長壽命的話題，能用來談很長、很長的時間。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK9ywO6dlzM
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總之，我最終目的就是要把她約出來見面！583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfLzuMsotnU
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每次我以cosplay裝扮出席這類活動時，都必定認識到新朋友，男女都有，也是同樣cosplay的人，然後他們都會跟我交換IG。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDMyG66z6Mw
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUBSAqR2jO1
在我的IG裡，粉絲頗多，主要有兩類：一是從cosplay圈認識的人，二是我從網上寫小說而招來的讀者粉絲和其他作者。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvhtHYoaPwb
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每逢我發佈小說的宣傳文，只有十幾個讚好，但當我發佈cosplay照時，不論是男裝還是女裝，總會引來多3倍的讚好，真是人靠衣裝。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyF8bj37mC
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因此有人會覺得我的朋友圈子大，但其實這只不過是假象；因為我都很少與人會面，平日頂多都是跟我唯一好友Jason見面或獨自一人到cafe消閑。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kvOViEZBF
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4WOym5qeUs
Annie：你個樣本身可以好女仔，出街實冇人知你係偽娘。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9Nxmv8oDz
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡck39GVveCt
我：但冇計啦我太高喇，實出賣男兒身㗎（笑喊583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJdGbCd6mN
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8fsXHn4WxQ
Annie：其實我好憎啲男仔睇樣583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeQYapth7ux
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2eopVKQEyX
我：做咩突然間講呢啲嘅？583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ33bkVaGhVL
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoaKbCYPMzR
Annie：以前試過交換完相之後，條仔嫌我肥，就即block我583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJVnK1UFUy3
Annie：我真係好自卑583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1K52LBGrd
Annie：啲人成日都同我講，話我個樣唔差，叫我扮下靚就有583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK1SpUxNHk4
Annie：佢哋口口聲話唔介意肥閪，但係行動上就好誠實咁話我知，佢哋跟本介意。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFZv7g5G9d
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其實我也很清楚知道，這個世上沒有絕對的零歧視。很多時候人只是出於禮貌，而在表面的社交應酬上，包裝自己的說話，但心裡仍然保留真正的自己。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3Ifoa0Vy0
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所以我的世界觀是：適者生存，與其努力去改變世界，倒不如學習保護自己。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm9Dy8fFSCO
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTH6vZBLRXi
偽娘也會被歧視嗎？當然有，只是我比較幸運，身邊的人大致上都是禮貌跟我相處；或可能有人心底裡不喜歡，但我相信既然有人不喜歡，那麼總有人喜歡，每個人總會找到自己的一套生存之道，多訓練自己的敏感度，便可容易地觀察人心，從而使自己作更好的決定。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoA9JE6sP3X
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所以在前面說到創建Tinder帳號時，我都說，即管大膽表明自己是偽娘身份，當有人被我吸引進來之後，再慢慢過濾誰是真正交友。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYKuatgKk6x
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或許有人問：你這樣不辛苦嗎？不做偽娘就好了。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzJ0I5zMvF
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhIxEP3cmJP
我會反駁：食得鹹魚抵得渴，為心靈滿足而選擇紋身的人，會害怕生活上的阻礙而放棄嗎？583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQf4P246UP
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我們又繼續聊，然後我嘗試開玩笑地拋出一句。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmaBo89Lt67
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我：我好想食豬扒飯。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPtruoUgiH
我：不過我想食你件豬多啲（笑喊583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEkGsnmnzlp
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Annie：我唔係豬扒！！583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eZpK08Xfa
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糟糕了，我講錯說話，焦慮的我想嘗試修復。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNWr1DlWZc
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhOmkhpFKqr
我：豬扒都有豬扒嘅好（笑喊583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2QE1A1n2BT
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Annie：可以啪啪聲嘛（大笑583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEygqbdyFyk
Annie：同埋，我呢啲高嘅係叫坦克車唔係豬扒583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo5SoRotCj5
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKG0ZwA9zED
最原始的對話版本我已經忘記了，也刪了；總之大概記得，我以「豬扒」這個詞語來開玩笑，說過幾句；但是勾起了Annie的怒火，而我又嘗試熄滅。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVlhO5d4I6f
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSaeToEUYsw
我：噢，原來我一路以嚟攪錯咗豬扒呢個term嘅用法。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOKllMIYZLb
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSnZwjF8vzN
沒辦法下，我只好裝傻混過去。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsoKQgEdJYk
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWupc1rHJJC
本以為如此便蒙混過關，於是我們又如常地相處下去。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKpzuz9rTH1
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzsmkaI6ErJ
接著幾天後，我又約了一個攝影師在派對房裡拍攝泳裝照片；但是照片要修圖，要等待一陣日子才有。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3qCo6jUq88
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5WXqJmZvJ
這晚我又跟Annie聊到半夜三更。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7jLwSGliVb
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFJrCaER0mi
Annie：你去影泳衣咁有冇相？583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDZLtI6TrR8
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh2Cx2eihJI
我如實地交代暫未有相片，只有一張我當場的自拍照，是上身照，相中的我看起來與一個穿三點式的女人無異。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSFp6wycgOU
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLn7yhsnEc
艷濃的妝容、長長的啡捲髮、以及黑色三點式泳裝，露出大面積白皙的肌膚，正正是我當時的打扮。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMrZtjjDlrd
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbGVB03tM82
Annie：慘囉慘囉，連你都咁靚。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvWQPcZLMJ
Annie：我一見到有排骨精就有種想保護佢嘅感覺583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmS9gjbWYCv
Annie：驚佢俾風吹走583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ytaYuw2v1
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKLlt8dnEXQ
我：你講緊邊個排骨呀？（笑喊583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6YbjS2s2Tp
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ79UJm074G4
Annie：我好唔中意啲男仔自大583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWzopOgBOPI
Annie：見過有啲男仔喺網上露佢自己上身583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjw61GaBqE8
Annie：佢以為自己有六舊，有好大條J583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkcfhZR4Ui
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOO0tfw6jzb
我：俾著係我直情同人講：我冇J㗎（笑喊583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW72OM6EjqG
我：冇六舊肌同大J，咁咪做返女人囉（笑喊583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSR6Jfgeqx1
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbszRETkGvS
我不像一般的某些直男，在網上放出袒露上身的大漢照。不穿衣服，我都會，只是我不會這樣表達而已。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNO670atGA4
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡenw5KMV9io
事實上，我的確在Tinder放過一張三點式泳裝照，還有假髮和妝容；並不是因為我對自己男性特徵（例如6腹肌）沒自信，而純粹是因為我喜歡美麗的自己。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbFkCcc8PSU
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWP1P1a1c8
以火影忍者的語言說，大多數男人都是使用鳴人的「逆後宮術」，而我則只是在用「後宮術」，一個「逆」字只是男版和女版的分別。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0TiIuEWJs6
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAn6t3ang6A
Annie：半夜三更瞓唔著，突然性起，傾吓性？583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7PFasBn4nn
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡShPouJskbW
我：你做乜咁突然想講18禁呀？M到？（笑喊583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡORzZLdk9S6
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc9HkxgSbdn
Annie：係呀，你又知？（笑喊583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhFCULwyNIz
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxQZs1lQpgk
我：我憑直覺亂估咋583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKoubMRfgkR
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Annie：好奇想知你唔打飛機㗎咩？583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQrZ8gOQBvj
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我思索了一會，然後回覆。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjXcoKOPReU
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc3PtoIUFBD
我：打呀，但我嘅性幻想唔係男女扑嘢咁簡單。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGGc6ujvbhz
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkFvosmsQfO
我的性癖，是戀物。事實上對於女性的胸、陰道，不是主要的興趣；因此如果有大胸妹子在我面前引誘我，是沒有用的；唯一能刺中我「死穴」的只有女裝。583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkazjfxJ0W2
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcsUAjmkrQW
Annie：我屋企都有兩件sex toy583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsntVA5KXKq
Annie：我試過自己裝上假J然後插落第二條女度583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGK9bjpNjXa
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRgCqVrgKQO
我：你本身都係bi？583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkeLuQiKHM
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Annie：唔係嘅，只係貪屌女仔好玩（大笑583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQHGiRLCHnb
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWAIuh5WqUF
我：話說今日我去私影時都就嚟出水583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU8YTh2TfMV
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4gvLiVozFQ
Annie：你都冇閪，點出水？583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYQn0S9t7nL
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我：人工閪😏583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7nPUld2oSF
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Annie：😳😳583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuvIF5mLOKL
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我：你嚟上我啦（笑喊583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgXaTfMHiM
583Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ3ULJ0gt7M
今晚看似她已經把我說的「豬扒」拋諸腦後；另一方面，我們已經聊了1.5個月，我三番四次約會她，她都不出來，漸漸地我也被磨去了耐性和動力。我開始有點迷惘，下次應該如何提出約會，還是只保持網上關係就罷了？8964 copyright protection579ＰＥＮＡＮＡxUTIIBtZu9 維尼

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