「咁你呢，又點呀？」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8hASXpdS0Z
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阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljnGvqlgdf
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「托賴，幾好吖。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxiRfw7xJ5g
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「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt6fiDmLKzQ
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即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqXwdJitsFw
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阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PIMLsZDat
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然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeNAEjpjb0
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「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvr9ZYUtchp
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSOMUAaXp4
我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTt9WpeoZT
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阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI44Gxb0BNx
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「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZlbQPcata7
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA7sv7FMQKj
失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9eQPFcPl00
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白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26Oys6dIjW
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她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0DivMn0FF
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她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2TMFQw2Il
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月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz7X1ynvwhq
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每天都不想做任何事。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8pySkBP78
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如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk6z6TpcsEE
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHXCIAsGn1N
明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8u1Bd9tdk
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明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjiWf3poRae
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSyFs8Uhwwm
阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMOqgnSwuwo
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx2fxSmbmKF
「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvVBVVkVoV
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLdJhQzGWZx
「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0if7RtauO
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiRvAn8jMgm
「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61GzcWKohU
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNeOy84gqFf
最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVpFo04YlT
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此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTiDk7Jlosg
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何況，他們如此親厚。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAvFo8IEZaB
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阿樂問：「去邊？」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgADJwwoCMb
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhoUhOCQrqp
青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhSKqSXZBmA
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpzEDvXzvhp
她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUetPp4BIT
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青青直接問：「你想媾我？」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7vfM6CcOb
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Sean回答：691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhl8tx5m0BE
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「係。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozuUBMm2Du
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8iYJX1Kq5S
以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzjIIzuybcI
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbrTp6nsGy
隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgVx6Ztkod
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtkDAf1OjiM
「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiyrYqbirOV
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kV49qOKpK
阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJXLyGt2BHM
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEhgcR1Sdh0
他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7IfxENzyy2
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcqQ6pWfTXf
「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGh84e5ZghQ
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2n4pOBWB2R
除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqQT8SwJaY5
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPJfBz3AJDa
「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFYdTTCKdHg
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2A5xMqo8YA
「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpMlSldeoP
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ4g8Gv93J1
她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8PWcpBEkZb
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqCOMNVYSON
「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2w7SFekhxi
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡseutuP7b9b
阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxLRakBKeYB
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpXt3NqG8ad
「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Oot5wlKM0
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3BwlemsHdW
「係呀係呀。」她也笑。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsot6QMzTdp
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx8aYKtkGuD
阿樂質疑：691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpSCzOm29di
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpkEgSYzD1A
「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQgbpgxztyt
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlT6632qTWb
青青思考，然後緩緩地道：691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdm4QsZHSBI
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa4akVgOMTJ
「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhctsmTZWdk
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUPH4Sk9keA
啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPPzlFszOoU
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我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh6rqRNFrUN
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVsA5vee4XI
因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2pkqgek0fy
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqMMqNl5dwI
青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMpb5lQavRx
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPEfDjRDQKh
畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4dQnV0u67f
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Drx4Ueubg
「搞咩啊？」青青不解。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIsRVIqdTAY
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGBSqRMA481
「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1KSQ7iQr1Y
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfu77rcU0l8
「宜家夏天喎Ching！」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA78vX2lqMw
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ56dnfb1S51
「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡz6uAjpmETA
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOXE2b7djj4
阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjmaktlNhkf
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5JG01cntBF
電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWn0mRvWYz
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡghsgSk5dBB
「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRVJsedYGI3
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡibz6OBXc8U
「因為咁，所以唔信人？」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8tYXPSU9GC
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcEfVqjQvPJ
阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeGOn7eEjnK
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfJaceHHCBg
「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwcW9hetjuY
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頂……我成個怨婦咁。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUMdt5aTSgX
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1vqvIM3MDI
青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXS1pRNrJEw
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她發現自己有些恐懼。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOdTJTpdg2
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNbR3OwjQNP
到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCpYMnmORwy
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJdNKOb2DHW
明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvJJVbFbHkr
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最後，Matt離開。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt1ufk7Rjh6
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她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcSXOT5egPA
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4OipAX4iSD
她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83jUmnNWQ8
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRo5a8UbH8j
阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbD56UZ5nKO
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但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdRxEW4cRKW
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是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5vazHB7i9
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而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFX7ISMNknU
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阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT402VW3HPj
 691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQroomHiTxk
此時，阿樂又冷不防地說了一句：691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9XITZ6lXER
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「佢嗰句『Love you forever』，可能係Made in China。」691Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlN48fcpIr4
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