「咁你呢,又點呀?」802Please respect copyright.PENANArPBEpfKblt
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阿樂問。這段時間,他和青青接觸得不多,他們的吃飯時間,各有各。802Please respect copyright.PENANABe0xM3fegG
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「托賴,幾好吖。」802Please respect copyright.PENANAtjb31DLhmT
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「你咁樣叫幾好?咪玩啦。」802Please respect copyright.PENANALSP2FIeBzF
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即使不夠光,但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴,突然又說:「上磅睇吓。」802Please respect copyright.PENANAmmLoqIiTCq
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阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。802Please respect copyright.PENANASoDgE00E3F
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然後搬出體重磅,叫她站上去,電子屏幕顯示37.1kg,身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦,只是脂肪輕。802Please respect copyright.PENANAXDmuWjhLXu
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「搞咩啊,宜家仲要係夜晚,啫係已經重咗……802Please respect copyright.PENANAD3bhPaoAZW
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我煮啲飯唔好食咩?你遲啲返到屋企,你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎?」802Please respect copyright.PENANADo7J7HIlTz
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阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去,原本包得很的圓臉已經消減,和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。802Please respect copyright.PENANAgHOdLuPES4
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「好食吖,已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦!未到啫未到啫。」她說。802Please respect copyright.PENANAVGQ0YSs8WW
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失戀之後,青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心,入睡之後卻不斷醒來,有時被雨聲吵醒,有時是發夢嚇醒,有時就是不知何故就醒,每天都只能睡一會兒。802Please respect copyright.PENANABzQsGc7Waw
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白天的胃口不是特別好,總感覺整個人都很暈。802Please respect copyright.PENANA1yGCdek8RS
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她有吃飯,但也就是為了活命吃的,有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口,即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食,吃完之後又覺得愧疚。802Please respect copyright.PENANAv1fnJMH4kB
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她的憔悴體現在臉上,眼皮的膠原蛋白流失,眼窩就變深,令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯,連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。802Please respect copyright.PENANAVcUuzAs9ef
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月經來了一個多星期後,下體又少量出血,不知何故;頭髮大把大把的掉,面臨少年脫髮危機;胃在反覆的飽和餓之間,經常隱隱作痛。802Please respect copyright.PENANAtlsZSpUZoB
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每天都不想做任何事。802Please respect copyright.PENANA44XhpUz0F3
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如果看數字,她確實跌磅了,上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。802Please respect copyright.PENANAjSnI4OxIan
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明明,她是她家人、朋友的寶,為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢?看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮,看來還有智商和理智……802Please respect copyright.PENANAAiZ6qGEY1Q
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明明,她很清楚,就算她橫屍街頭,已離棄她的人都不會在意,最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然,假裝悲情地歎一口氣,然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。802Please respect copyright.PENANA2NEHZNujyG
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阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神,她再強調:802Please respect copyright.PENANAa6dpKzykp8
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「放心啦,邊睇得出。而且,我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」802Please respect copyright.PENANA1eb2wX300d
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「係咪酸嘢易入口啲?聽日煲番茄湯?」802Please respect copyright.PENANA6PXUngb5js
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「好——」她的聲音戛然而止,又說:「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」802Please respect copyright.PENANAghr4AHAZFc
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最近的好多事,她都不想和好朋友說,因為其實也只是小事吧;而且,她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。802Please respect copyright.PENANA9tvGdYuT9i
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此刻的環境,如阿樂剖白心聲那樣,感染了她,突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享,好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月,她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。802Please respect copyright.PENANA5eeY4MlQfF
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何況,他們如此親厚。802Please respect copyright.PENANAty7Sa4nB7c
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阿樂問:「去邊?」802Please respect copyright.PENANAAdTVXE1pJh
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青青站起,去房拿出電話,決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。802Please respect copyright.PENANAR5CyRRKGw3
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她的一個中學同學Sean,從朋友處知道她失戀,然後開始頻繁地找她聊天,講一些曖昧的話。802Please respect copyright.PENANAdgr5jG8UhD
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青青直接問:「你想媾我?」802Please respect copyright.PENANAjPVSbjFIYh
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Sean回答:802Please respect copyright.PENANAQ84D0qyM9V
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「係。802Please respect copyright.PENANAmg5Ev6xlON
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以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你,諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以,我都係冇講到出口,淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」802Please respect copyright.PENANAA2iLgVnOC0
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隔了兩小時,Sean見青青未有回覆,又道:802Please respect copyright.PENANAAI7bICoVt4
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「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯?」802Please respect copyright.PENANAc8cQb2f4kh
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阿樂看完後,說:「佢都幾積極吖,去吓囉。」802Please respect copyright.PENANA38stKeKhaV
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他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清,情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意,但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而,如今她聽他講心事,他也想做一樣的事。802Please respect copyright.PENANALKMmJJ72vD
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「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」802Please respect copyright.PENANAHWIx4Ub6E3
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除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班,青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸,她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不,應該說,她都不太認識Sean,她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少;長相若不是查看了Instagram,可能也陌生得記不起來。802Please respect copyright.PENANACZJKEm74JM
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「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。802Please respect copyright.PENANAlHJNcx2Hlg
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「想試啊,但係,又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒,又講:「都係算啦,唔會得㗎啦。」802Please respect copyright.PENANAax0GpGoFpG
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她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了,她突然覺得毫無心思,在這寧靜的空間裏,分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean:802Please respect copyright.PENANAS2h9ybFIeJ
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「Sorry,我唔想。多謝你。」802Please respect copyright.PENANA0cAPEHX78F
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阿樂邊看青青看電話,邊調侃她:802Please respect copyright.PENANArP5ZfMHNnJ
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「咁我咪好好彩,話哂你都肯試。」802Please respect copyright.PENANAAnwfsRPoLQ
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「係呀係呀。」她也笑。802Please respect copyright.PENANAPXwx7doVzl
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阿樂質疑:802Please respect copyright.PENANAJfhvzBESh0
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「點解唔敢呀?唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩,要勇敢㗎嘛?」802Please respect copyright.PENANAxdMSqgF0Mw
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青青思考,然後緩緩地道:802Please respect copyright.PENANAUKIqJXdtiK
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「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。802Please respect copyright.PENANAxNjYYKHaf1
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啫係,我成日都覺得,無論幾鍾意都好,最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀,我份人好撚老土㗎!拍拖要拍到八十歲,一生一世㗎嘛。但可能,真係太天真,宜家又仲咁後生。802Please respect copyright.PENANAktUeMuqxLO
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我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人,由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方,然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題?係唔係好易接受㗎?802Please respect copyright.PENANA2lj34DZW59
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因為佢,好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」802Please respect copyright.PENANADI00RP7ZOj
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青青緊盯前方的電視,阿樂見狀,突然醒起什麼似的,開啟電視,又放了一隻DVD進去。802Please respect copyright.PENANA8MEE3SGr4n
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畫面出現一個火爐,火在熊熊燃燒。802Please respect copyright.PENANA4nqBvy9c2h
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「搞咩啊?」青青不解。802Please respect copyright.PENANASDhv97OqFG
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「之前買咗呢隻碟,播住睇,感覺個人會温暖啲。」802Please respect copyright.PENANA9prC9VCbPf
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「宜家夏天喎Ching!」802Please respect copyright.PENANAobVy7Xhv5u
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「你個心咁凍,啱㗎啦。」802Please respect copyright.PENANAEtjr0fTJn2
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阿樂微笑,青青覺得很奇異。802Please respect copyright.PENANAvelt8ho1yD
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電視上的火光在搖動,映在了他們的眼裏,也透着橙紅色的活潑。802Please respect copyright.PENANAQE7LCR70KZ
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「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖,但確實覺得很有趣,竟有人花錢買這種碟看。802Please respect copyright.PENANAeuFbcMjnTu
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「因為咁,所以唔信人?」802Please respect copyright.PENANAVeHyawJECc
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阿樂回到剛才的話題,青青正色:802Please respect copyright.PENANAPuXGoViOzr
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「係啊,好似覺得,無論對方幾愛,到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦,夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我,後來我信,之後佢就飛咗我啦。802Please respect copyright.PENANAIJFBBFi1RI
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頂……我成個怨婦咁。」802Please respect copyright.PENANAnfO61lFqzV
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青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。802Please respect copyright.PENANAiID7RerLxJ
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她發現自己有些恐懼。802Please respect copyright.PENANAD2nJUP9QaV
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到底,曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意,最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意,亦在戀愛中對她極好,令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。802Please respect copyright.PENANAdWr3dvobeG
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明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛,二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣,眼見室內環境已經非常完善;但他宣佈要走,隨即撤離其私人物品,卻留下共同購買的傢俬,供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜;她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟,無法盡興地發洩情緒,獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。802Please respect copyright.PENANA6fAT4SkPDM
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最後,Matt離開。802Please respect copyright.PENANA6K4D27ykxa
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她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落,從築起到繁華,最終傾頹。802Please respect copyright.PENANApiDZplSHyD
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她始知,原來,愛情是這樣的一回事。愛,兩個人,開心,然後不開心。某些Happy ending,唯有期望將來會有。802Please respect copyright.PENANAdYMvoLfyjy
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阿樂破了她的處,沒有令她長大,那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液,處女膜破裂,只是暫時的生理性疼痛。802Please respect copyright.PENANAJQ1cDPXymW
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但是,Matt的光臨與離任,真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人,僅僅是一個「大人」,她開始明白許多道理,那些她有過的天真的熱愛,都冷硬起來,被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊,像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。802Please respect copyright.PENANAHwEMaEavjw
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是Matt教青青:愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世,其實只是童話般的幻想……802Please respect copyright.PENANAO56XtV2o0n
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而他們,已過了讀童話的心境了,因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。802Please respect copyright.PENANAGgEmus1Gmt
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阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。802Please respect copyright.PENANAcapMZs1805
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此時,阿樂又冷不防地說了一句:802Please respect copyright.PENANAg35VGqOmQd
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「佢嗰句『Love you forever』,可能係Made in China。」802Please respect copyright.PENANAKn92PprH6e
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青青被此話篤中笑點,覺得很抵死。
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《偏偏喜歡你》//我破咗個文青處,但佢唔肯同我一齊。
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