「咁你呢，又點呀？」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQV67Se9fLb
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阿樂問。這段時間，他和青青接觸得不多，他們的吃飯時間，各有各。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeBjknHfc3h
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「托賴，幾好吖。」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLwC3Bw0nw7
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「你咁樣叫幾好？咪玩啦。」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMnTaTBW6ay
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即使不夠光，但阿樂還是看得出青青的憔悴，突然又說：「上磅睇吓。」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG0rs4pLkOU
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阿樂想確認是不是他的錯覺——他覺得青青越來越瘦。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ39BYchhsP
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然後搬出體重磅，叫她站上去，電子屏幕顯示37.1kg，身高只得米五多一點的她其實不特別瘦，只是脂肪輕。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf7irwDYM73
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「搞咩啊，宜家仲要係夜晚，啫係已經重咗……731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5hRvJfAvx
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我煮啲飯唔好食咩？你遲啲返到屋企，你阿媽會唔會以為我哋唔俾飽飯你食㗎？」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡraQfRe5Ug7
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阿樂卻知道她的臉一點點地削下去，原本包得很的圓臉已經消減，和她Instagram的舊相差很遠。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9OYuYnVcl0
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「好食吖，已經慢慢食多咗㗎啦！未到啫未到啫。」她說。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGSlP37peWZ
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失戀之後，青青的身體差了很多。晚上失眠只在被窩裏漆黑地消耗入睡的耐心，入睡之後卻不斷醒來，有時被雨聲吵醒，有時是發夢嚇醒，有時就是不知何故就醒，每天都只能睡一會兒。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2jJSgWkBV
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白天的胃口不是特別好，總感覺整個人都很暈。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtsd4tt2eqb
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她有吃飯，但也就是為了活命吃的，有時感覺不到餓就隨便吃兩口，即使阿樂煮得很好。晚上又會忽然有心癮暴食，吃完之後又覺得愧疚。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWX4Jv7hn8
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她的憔悴體現在臉上，眼皮的膠原蛋白流失，眼窩就變深，令她的雙眼皮有點老氣。黑眼圈也明顯，連上眼皮都像塗了大地色系眼影一樣。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmtA7Zl07B0
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月經來了一個多星期後，下體又少量出血，不知何故；頭髮大把大把的掉，面臨少年脫髮危機；胃在反覆的飽和餓之間，經常隱隱作痛。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiDI7h5VOm1
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每天都不想做任何事。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZY0V1xOski
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如果看數字，她確實跌磅了，上年的八月她比現在重五公斤。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjBqknYWq5T
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明明，她是她家人、朋友的寶，為什麼要這樣自我折磨呢？看來脫落的不只是曲折的頭髮，看來還有智商和理智……731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvqRWw09UZR
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明明，她很清楚，就算她橫屍街頭，已離棄她的人都不會在意，最多像看新聞那樣心裏閃過一刻的惻然，假裝悲情地歎一口氣，然後遺忘她的存在、過自己的快活日子。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDGtydTojZO
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阿樂向青青投向懷疑的眼神，她再強調：731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5Bbb9Jl0oH
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「放心啦，邊睇得出。而且，我已經有食返多啲嘢啦。」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡInBVIp5EF0
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「係咪酸嘢易入口啲？聽日煲番茄湯？」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsdf4ImWL4X
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「好——」她的聲音戛然而止，又說：「我諗緊聽日出唔出街。」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJk5wNxQ6TB
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最近的好多事，她都不想和好朋友說，因為其實也只是小事吧；而且，她的驕傲不允許她說太多真心的脆弱。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvp2PNwQDqV
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此刻的環境，如阿樂剖白心聲那樣，感染了她，突然覺得晚上就應該大肆地分享，好的壞的也是。阿樂和她只相識了兩個月，她感覺可以在他面前不用握緊無謂的自尊。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAkFp7QScvR
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何況，他們如此親厚。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkAMGuF6FTE
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阿樂問：「去邊？」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbF2bBGHm4
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青青站起，去房拿出電話，決定給阿樂看她的WhatsApp對話。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzGx1I5zhMQ
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她的一個中學同學Sean，從朋友處知道她失戀，然後開始頻繁地找她聊天，講一些曖昧的話。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwpRQmlUxeJ
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青青直接問：「你想媾我？」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhyHPJVql6O
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Sean回答：731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqodwl7kxCE
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「係。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLI77ktWZce
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以前中學嗰陣我已經鍾意你，諗住DSE完就同你表白。但你嗰時已經有男朋友。所以，我都係冇講到出口，淨係Grad Din嗰陣揾咗你影相。」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVvpqIwAq13
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隔了兩小時，Sean見青青未有回覆，又道：731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOreafqnbXM
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「不如我哋聽日出嚟食餐飯？」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQUwcqyzPgP
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阿樂看完後，說：「佢都幾積極吖，去吓囉。」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsEh8NESsDT
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他完全沒有吃醋、難過。他認清，情感一時的高温驅使他對青青有意，但短短十幾天的時間已足以冷卻。反而，如今她聽他講心事，他也想做一樣的事。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqebmDZqpnO
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「唔知啊……好突然啊好似。」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAmlEhTrsgb
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除了通識分組同一班、初中曾經同過班，青青和Sean根本沒有太多接觸，她都不知道他喜歡她什麼。不，應該說，她都不太認識Sean，她只知他成績不錯、朋友不少；長相若不是查看了Instagram，可能也陌生得記不起來。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbJeJjaa6Qr
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「想試咪去囉。」阿樂鼓勵。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr0zuSDuccB
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「想試啊，但係，又唔敢。」青青停頓數秒，又講：「都係算啦，唔會得㗎啦。」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1tXmDLnL9A
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她突然直覺和Sean不會後續了，她突然覺得毫無心思，在這寧靜的空間裏，分辨自己的念頭。她回覆Sean：731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡawXQOGBCyd
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「Sorry，我唔想。多謝你。」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpOgxFVpZho
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阿樂邊看青青看電話，邊調侃她：731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqZn80fk4tz
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「咁我咪好好彩，話哂你都肯試。」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXCK0kdKMzx
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「係呀係呀。」她也笑。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgG6A6IgVc5
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阿樂質疑：731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN3v1Evxyt2
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「點解唔敢呀？唔係叫我狗衝㗎咩，要勇敢㗎嘛？」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMyRq5MKnS5
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青青思考，然後緩緩地道：731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFFy0YMmIkb
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「我好驚啊因為。我太垃圾啦。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFZ7mJ5hrq6
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啫係，我成日都覺得，無論幾鍾意都好，最後都係會走咁。我頂唔順呀，我份人好撚老土㗎！拍拖要拍到八十歲，一生一世㗎嘛。但可能，真係太天真，宜家又仲咁後生。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡet26z5bQ7M
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我好唔鍾意呢一個過程——好唔容易先至全心全意認定一個人，由冷漠去到開始熱情、開始信任對方，然後佢就走咗去。其實係咪我問題？係唔係好易接受㗎？731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsQSZzs0gsc
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因為佢，好似一啲都冇唔捨得我啊。」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2yMgBM8kvl
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青青緊盯前方的電視，阿樂見狀，突然醒起什麼似的，開啟電視，又放了一隻DVD進去。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡocruFJZ1ps
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畫面出現一個火爐，火在熊熊燃燒。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc7B6KLweGc
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「搞咩啊？」青青不解。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdeFHgD3j8W
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「之前買咗呢隻碟，播住睇，感覺個人會温暖啲。」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA3uihkocc8
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「宜家夏天喎Ching！」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjNHNqsYD1W
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「你個心咁凍，啱㗎啦。」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOzDtzAlldy
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阿樂微笑，青青覺得很奇異。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjo7J5JW9Ll
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電視上的火光在搖動，映在了他們的眼裏，也透着橙紅色的活潑。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0qQel5Esxc
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「OK啦。」她的心沒有變暖，但確實覺得很有趣，竟有人花錢買這種碟看。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb0Qg5nIq1G
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「因為咁，所以唔信人？」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGHRyqWZgHg
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阿樂回到剛才的話題，青青正色：731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFE7kq1gyt
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「係啊，好似覺得，無論對方幾愛，到最後都係會走。佢夠話愛我一生一世啦，夠話以後淨係愛我一個啦……起初唔信㗎我，後來我信，之後佢就飛咗我啦。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54pFnNyEga
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頂……我成個怨婦咁。」731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMdtemRWZ4m
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青青自嘲。乾癟癟地「哈」了一下。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Ji4fgPYfw
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她發現自己有些恐懼。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBfo9yFBywP
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到底，曾經甜蜜如Matt的愛意，最後也化煙。明明是Matt追求青青、首先表達愛意，亦在戀愛中對她極好，令信心不足的她從懷疑到沉淪。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7TP4VNeI3Z
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明明是他先到來入侵她的生活。仿佛，二人為新居添置不同的傢俬和私人物品一樣，眼見室內環境已經非常完善；但他宣佈要走，隨即撤離其私人物品，卻留下共同購買的傢俬，供她睹物思人、念記舊時歡喜；她卻因這居室過分和暖而心無怨懟，無法盡興地發洩情緒，獨得傷心在無眠夜裏壓着她。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡM8svQEGVn5
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最後，Matt離開。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnWfiEloysp
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她可笑地見證了這一段關係的興落，從築起到繁華，最終傾頹。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4SVNONuYZA
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她始知，原來，愛情是這樣的一回事。愛，兩個人，開心，然後不開心。某些Happy ending，唯有期望將來會有。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPMlVqPjYKT
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阿樂破了她的處，沒有令她長大，那不過是幾個姿勢、幾番高潮、幾潭愛液，處女膜破裂，只是暫時的生理性疼痛。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyrH7e7JXng
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但是，Matt的光臨與離任，真令她成為大人——不是好人、不是壞人，僅僅是一個「大人」，她開始明白許多道理，那些她有過的天真的熱愛，都冷硬起來，被摔到地上粉碎得無法拼湊，像攤開手就忘情飛揚的骨灰。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡswWe79l9ef
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是Matt教青青：愛情世界是殘酷的。曾經她想像過的一生一世，其實只是童話般的幻想……731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaohPwmKLX8
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而他們，已過了讀童話的心境了，因只想窺探幸福快樂之後的日子。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXnkKvH0ySI
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阿樂只好拍拍青青的肩。731Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2lOJqb4VhD
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