這是寫給一位舊朋友的話。53Please respect copyright.PENANAWYUGK33Pow
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他是一個我小學時認識的男生朋友。或許也算是個故人了吧。53Please respect copyright.PENANAA6Af036xeR
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那時候因為家庭的事情、學業的壓力、老師過高的期望等的種種因素,加上在學校和一位鄰座朋友因為理念不同而絕交了,我陷入了長久的低谷期。53Please respect copyright.PENANAQotANoAfPB
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那時候的我心裡的情緒很不平衡,然而我表面還是嘻嘻哈哈的,學業也沒有大幅倒退,也沒人察覺我的異樣。53Please respect copyright.PENANAT2MSZX65nw
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再過了些時日,班主任給我們換了座位,我總算和那位關係破裂的朋友分開了。53Please respect copyright.PENANA1K22a6ZuoU
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取而代之的,是他。53Please respect copyright.PENANAFmA71bAFIB
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那天的我本來心情很差,伏在了桌子上,企圖把自己和外界隔絕。也忘了我有沒有哭了,大概有吧。53Please respect copyright.PENANAeRY4a4mARD
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待我抬頭的那刻,他沒有問我發生了什麼,只是朝我笑了笑,給我遞了一顆糖。53Please respect copyright.PENANAoaQqHFj5cR
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那一瞬間,我突然覺得……這個世界可能沒有自己感知到的要糟糕。53Please respect copyright.PENANAYl6tILF6Nc
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他啊,不算特別高,卻已經比我高了一個人頭;不算特別帥,笑起來卻特別好看。他成績不算好,但音樂運動方面卻是校隊裡面的表表者。53Please respect copyright.PENANA4G5yPGeOPO
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那時候的我根本沒幾個能說上話的人,更加沒有半個能交心的人,卻意外的和他合得來,便熟了起來。53Please respect copyright.PENANAIPCTrqK9V4
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他的家境不錯,常常買很多最新款的文具,也常常和我交換來用—儘管我的都是最簡單而且破破爛爛的舊文具。53Please respect copyright.PENANAb74kNty5fD
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我和他經常從上課聊到下課,聽課的時候自然是毫不專心,也挨了很多頓罵—然而我都覺得甘之如飴。53Please respect copyright.PENANAaKypDlUgu9
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後來老師總算看不過眼,把我們分開了—各坐在可是的兩個角落,鄰座也是相對沉默寡言的人。53Please respect copyright.PENANAn4WHQxc4vy
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然而明顯這並沒有阻擋我們的交流,傳字條啊、做口型啊、眼神交流啊……現在想來老師應該也發現了吧,不過無奈地選擇不戳破而已。53Please respect copyright.PENANAkUjHQdFew3
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那時候的我不知道什麼是真的「喜歡」,我只知道和他一起的時間,是我難得特別開心的時間。53Please respect copyright.PENANAqrlSObteVF
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記得那時候被老師分開後,我依然改不了不專心上課的本性,總會偷偷的看向他那邊,被其他同學發現了後又裝沒事的看回書本。53Please respect copyright.PENANAcE3F1TlWY1
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我這輩子都不會忘記,當我看向他的時候,他也托著腮,看著我自然的笑著,和我四目相對以後慌忙別過頭的瞬間。53Please respect copyright.PENANAlVOwh7f5Du
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我更加不會忘了他那刻的笑容;那是我出生以來看過最耀眼的光。53Please respect copyright.PENANAnWi7FjAmGQ
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分開坐後,我和他漸漸也沒像開始的時候要好了,也沒有整天黏在一起,卻還是會有數不盡的話題。53Please respect copyright.PENANAQOSutknXzq
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直到畢業的時候,我和他因為成績上還是有一定差距,而且各自搬去了不同的區域,自然也升讀了完全不同的學校。53Please respect copyright.PENANAp0iazQJ72n
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我以為我們還能有機會和以前一樣地相處下去的,可是,沒有了。53Please respect copyright.PENANArntjlUR12h
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畢業沒幾天後,他便退出了班群,通訊軟件帳號整個刪了,電話號碼也改了。我出席了幾次校友活動,卻始終不見他蹤影。53Please respect copyright.PENANAIi9K3mx9I8
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那時候的我已經隱隱察覺到,我和他大概很可能不會再見了。53Please respect copyright.PENANADL39IRN4Kb
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畢業後的那個暑假,我去了趟旅行,還是給他帶了禮物;那份禮物至今仍然靜靜躺在我的書櫃裡,不曾成功送出,卻也捨不得自己用。53Please respect copyright.PENANAlFJSbgaSlH
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久而久之,我終於意識到了,我和他可能再也不會有任何交集了。那時的我初初升學,在學業、人際、家庭等方面也遇到了不少煩心事。53Please respect copyright.PENANAiYggp7ywvv
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我再次陷入了時間更長,情況更嚴重的低落期,也有了更強的自殺傾向,有幾次甚至差點遂願了。53Please respect copyright.PENANAFQ5wwaojFJ
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那時候徹底擊垮我的,大概不是別人投來的種種目光,也不是源自內心深處的迷茫徬徨;而是告訴我,我已經離自己心裡的那道光越來越遠的理智。53Please respect copyright.PENANAGIvnQsckiX
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我清楚,這一次就沒有一個人從天而降般出現在我身邊,給我一顆糖,朝我笑一笑了。53Please respect copyright.PENANAfWJcNjRGPf
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那一兩月我真不知道我是怎麼度過的。直到之後遇到了很好的朋友,我才漸漸從最晦暗的角落走出來。53Please respect copyright.PENANAFPnxBbJvHc
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再一次改變我的,是在幾個月之前,我在外婆家裡找到了我小學的紀念冊。我把他寫的那張的放在了第三頁,僅次於兩位老師之後,我也沒需要花時間去出他的那頁。53Please respect copyright.PENANAsTEnxAXBdV
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我看了看他那熟悉的字跡,居然已經想哭了。53Please respect copyright.PENANA9dnIWcaP2p
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紀念冊的後頁有一部分,提供了一些形容詞(聰明、可靠之類),然後讓填寫的人寫上對應的同學。53Please respect copyright.PENANA8VOanuh6z2
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有一行是可愛,而他寫的是「可能是你」。其中「可能是」那幾隻字寫得特別擠,可以看出來大概是候加上去的。53Please respect copyright.PENANAaSjNSuU9LM
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我也不知道我為什麼第一次看的時候居然沒看見,等到已經沒有聯絡才注意到這點。53Please respect copyright.PENANAvAb4wiSzfa
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他寫上的聯絡方式已經不再適用,我卻還是反覆把這張紙讀了很多次。那些簡單的寄語似乎是我和昔日那段回憶的最後憑證,也是我最後能抓住的稻草。53Please respect copyright.PENANAQwZ8VqrWxO
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去年秋日,我在社交媒體上找到了他的帳號。我毫不猶豫的加了他的好友,思前想後卻終究沒有傳出一句問好。53Please respect copyright.PENANAzpBNdssLhg
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那時候的我才重新找著他沒幾天,他就又一次下線了,再也沒有出現。幾個月前我倒有看到他有上線幾天,之後又無聲無息地消失了。53Please respect copyright.PENANA3KoKPfsU32
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要說沒有失望的話,那絕對是假的—畢竟那也是我曾經喜歡的人—儘管那不過是小學生的幼稚情感,他於我而言卻仍然是特別重要的人。53Please respect copyright.PENANAw9ZdDXxNmD
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他曾是最苦的日子中唯一的糖,是最黑的世界裡唯一的光,是萬千鋒刃之間唯一的溫柔,是不斷襲來的魔鬼之中唯一的天使。53Please respect copyright.PENANARsczGiO6sQ
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是他,成就了今日的我的一切。53Please respect copyright.PENANADsJ8WXtSK5
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因為沒有他,我大概活不到現在。53Please respect copyright.PENANA3hojU2tMLf
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如果可以回去當時,我應該也不會説什麽喜歡你,但我大概會很衷心的說一句謝謝。想感謝的太多了,所以真的……謝謝你。53Please respect copyright.PENANAAzYK5ObJ5X
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如果可以回去當時,我可能也不會悄悄牽上你的手,但我大概會在臨走之前和你再拍張合照,最後再多看你幾眼,就好了。53Please respect copyright.PENANA3Tyh6veYhW
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那至少,我這幾年不用靠看你沒有我的的老照片,才能看到你熟悉的笑容;或者聽你Youtube頻道的老影片,才能聽到你以前的聲線。53Please respect copyright.PENANAAnU615UglG
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那至少,我不用害怕我哪天就會忘了你。53Please respect copyright.PENANAmNCgZ563NX
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其實呀,寫這麼多的原因,其實也只有一個,相信大家看標題也知道了:今日是他的生日。53Please respect copyright.PENANAcLV5xvfpq6
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好希望以後的你,都能和當年一樣,仍舊像個太陽一樣溫暖地點亮別人的生命。53Please respect copyright.PENANACGIZabGeOt
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無論如何還是希望你,一切安好。53Please respect copyright.PENANAkexpkNfL9U
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即使知道你並不可能看到這段文字,最後還是想要簡單說一句:53Please respect copyright.PENANAjQ9xcIaTYd
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生日快樂,還有,謝謝。53Please respect copyright.PENANAGYB3PlBlfF
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—此致那親手賦予我翅膀的天使。53Please respect copyright.PENANAvQgCFBFUoe
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霜降微光
ISSUE #10
生日快樂【感謝&生賀文】
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