《相愛十年》//《結咗婚十幾年，好似已經唔太愛。》 - 二十一歲

一晚，思思陣痛。阿朗帶上「走佬袋」，和她到醫院去。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4q0BLw3aDo
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後來，回家，已經三人。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP8WlaemcHk
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小嬰兒小名叫棉花糖，軟軟滑滑的，令他們融化。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJTKmRjGdY5
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之後每天，棉花糖都會在夜晚哭鬧。思思和阿朗輪流起床照顧她，有時肚餓，有時賴屎，有時睡不着。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlL5J58zdLS
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二人疲累，但興奮。他們又有了一個新的身份：「父母」。忽然天降使命感，二人告訴自己、提醒對方，要好好照料棉花糖，給她最温馨的家；傢俬不是擺設，而是用作孕育愛的。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL7e45FQ65i
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有一次，阿朗母親上來探望他們，見思思正在喂奶，說：1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6MR5kOytK
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「唔係咁喂呀，姿勢唔啱。」1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUWebPBNpRx
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「你係咪唔夠奶呀？棉花糖邊夠飽㗎。」1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAxC8s9OtRL
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「後生真係後生……」1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ00hNVkM17O
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思思不語，明明在醫院時，坐月姑娘讚她喂得好，而棉花糖啜得很開心。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZRQRl2Jft2
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但此刻棉花糖確實不斷哭泣，無論怎喂也不能安撫她似的，像跟着阿朗媽媽一同批評她。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0tZINvDIwG
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思思忽然氣餒，心想：連你都唔撐我嘅……1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7fhFc2iqFe
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平時，就算睡眠不足，脾氣暴躁，她也能回校聽課，回家後處理家務，處理自己的情緒，因為她知道，這個家中，每個人都累。而她持着「為了棉花糖」的決心支撐自己的身體。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMU1gg2zsE
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她在二年級時轉了主修學系，從哲學轉到了社會工作，今天出實習，回家即喂奶。在外，笑面迎人；回家，受到批評，以及得不到棉花糖的肯定……她突然想做回小孩，她怕再這樣下去，會成為自己最討厭的大人，將嬲怒發洩在不相干的人身上。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmmZHIlDuWl
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她強忍情緒：「好，我再試下。奶奶你出去坐下啦。」1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcLJjTxFE50
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很快，阿朗回家，思思面色已經自如。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWUt3dOqWFl
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他知道媽媽作客，所以買了一盒半肥瘦叉燒回家加餸。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYzfR2SfP12
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飯桌上，三人共對。客氣寒暄。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkXtKGkgLjT
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「阿仔，最近嚟唔嚟食飯呀？包好餸過呢度喎。」1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhNJG2ReRyW
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「得閒就嚟，放心啦媽，呢度都好好住。」1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWxEw6HLog
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阿朗媽媽再婚，從三百呎公屋搭上了私樓的電梯，她看起來十分精神，髮質順柔，指甲修得齊齊整整，連牙都白了不少。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡioKKPM43E4
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「思思。」阿朗媽媽忽然喚思思。「菜同蛋都寒，唔好食，對身體唔好。」1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK2Nfseogwn
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「啊，叉燒都係，毒呀。」1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKx03qujtbH
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阿朗看着枱面只有三碟餸，失笑：「咁佢可以食咩？扒白飯？」1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrHD4T2bdNM
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阿朗媽媽沒有說話。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZL4g1l22gx
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「唔緊要，我都食飽啦。入去喂棉花糖先。」思思起身。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ynms9tUgX
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一關房門，她就哭，轉身背對棉花糖，不願讓小寶寶知道她是軟弱的——1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoJDijhYDqq
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我好餓。全日都冇食過啲咩。點解寒同毒？我都係想食餐飯啫。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZ2isFt3g6
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她嘗試笑，拉下衣領，喂奶：「棉花糖，你要食飽啲啊……」1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7xzMvUpD6H
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但棉花糖不斷搖頭，作拒絕狀，嘴巴偶然碰到思思的乳頭，刺痛了脹奶的她。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5aZLH0B98r
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思思心想——有得食，你點解唔食？求下你，啜一啖。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNxjRCNN1ff
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被棉花糖拒絕的這個小小的齒輪，脫落，令思思整個人也開始散亂，她開始思考最近的一切。她想吃孖條、上課後和同學飯聚、出外看戲行街拍拖，總之不困在小小的空間喂奶拖地。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzgqkvfULn
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阿朗開門，一見思思紅了整張臉，卻不斷牽扯嘴角，他嚇一跳。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrRJkvtR6O8
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他將她擁入懷，說：「因為阿媽？」1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ62nWVYE4k9
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「唔係，我自己冇用。」1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAcUWgoePHf
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阿朗不明白，她何解無用？他覺得，她最近有些抑鬱。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFWxLE3F9OP
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「你想食咩？我買俾你，對唔住寶……」1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdgQ4vrLVxk
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他不知道自己在為什麼而道歉，但他覺得自己有錯，明明說過將世上最好的給她，現在呢？將世上最好吃的空氣餵她嗎？1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIIwAd7ED0F
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思思笑：「煮個麵得啦。我冇事，真係。」1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9QEV5lRFk
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她知道，阿朗莫名內疚；但偏偏誰都沒錯，他們沒錯，阿朗媽媽、棉花糖同樣。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwvZpEE21t
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他心想：喊哂都叫冇事？女人真係……1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5qUSz9UPTw
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阿朗送走母親時，對她說：「思思最近好辛苦，同你凑大我嗰時一樣辛苦。」1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI4mOZCGEFE
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「你又知我凑你辛苦？」她笑，兒子已經長大，為了老婆什麼也說得出。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRzRNukf3pC
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「因為，你哋都係媽媽囉。」阿朗無厘頭地答。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx926FRXYLR
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阿朗媽媽明白，他意指，請她別再挑剔思思。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡowh1fPiOaz
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「嗯。」1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuxiZN07upo
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送走母親後，阿朗到街邊買了幾串魚蛋、燒賣、豬大腸；經過便利店，買了孖條，打算和思思一人一條。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrKR8955Ru
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怎知思思見到，哭得更兇，然後，又笑着吃她的晚餐。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmh4u2V995F
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女人。阿朗心想，真奇怪。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡARzUM04kQ5
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「放心啦，我買嘅一定唔寒唔毒，請安心品嚐！」1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWBfm3fY5bf
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為免思思抑鬱情緒加劇，阿朗會等她入睡之後，才外夜班工作。每次他安撫好棉花糖後，都祈求她不要再醒來。其實他不明白，為何小嬰兒總喜歡在深夜大哭，是寂寞嗎？發現已沒有大人關注自己，所以不安嗎？1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHnoe9Vdpm
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他總是抱着小公主，直至她在床上無聲遊玩。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGTCezqlBhD
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他想：以後一定要乖呀棉豬，爸爸媽媽都好愛你。1515Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCTchgMH0i5
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