《赤足的庭院》（2）92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBofkk0CeML
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92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLsI6fjrPkN
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  我對故鄉的印象僅僅是印象。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHsJqvYVV0A
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVHgas4E2j3
  因為那裡的事物並不是被人實務性的記憶下來，而是作為更不完全的東西，留在心底的某些角落。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5zoLV0WgfI
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16OspFCRDd
  我記得潮水的味道和海浪等聲音，沙子的觸感，樹梢下刮起的微風，夜晚時絕對黑暗的地面，和成為那個時間裡唯一存在事物的星和月。魚腥味、油輪的廢氣、風雨來的時候，所感到的恐懼。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxczCZ1fTp7
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeiQXDUsw2W
  我的故鄉作為一個印象，我記錄在腦中，知道自己總有一天會以某個型式的遠離它。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNYlx5SEYC
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9uhQaf5BG
  但那不是指現在。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjwWSQdxImv
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4LDpPAZh0h
  就算獨自一人逃到台北，看過了城市鮮豔的夜色，耳裡塞滿城市的吐和吸，我還是知道，自己並沒有真正的遠離故鄉。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkt0bJBBvV5
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2e5Qo4K4YX
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92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMfMQ4lc5wL
  「嗯⋯⋯可以問你的名字嗎？」小舫姐說她昨晚沒能睡著。在平常的那張餐桌上，她癱軟的用雙手撐著臉。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnTxNmz5GNf
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcrOteTDpp5
  我一邊解釋著自己的事，一邊看著她疲累的試著聽進我所說的。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7RYXRBsWss
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8AsKgKEUCI
  看她渴望睡眠的樣子，我感到有些內疚。她睡不好大概就是因為我。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMXp6tPKCwl
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUT0u7hwJID
  昨晚，小舫姐讓我暫時待在她家借住一晚。公寓的房間很小，只有一張床鋪。我原本堅持要睡地板，不過被她拒絕了：「落到這副德性的人少跟我客氣。」。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5fJqoQiirn
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMi0QhcDr69
  多了一個人在床上，一定很不習慣。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoafSCmn4UJ
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUHk02sXBnp
  但是昨晚，還好我實在是筋疲力盡，不然大概會整夜無法入睡。年紀的問題。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZEYkqx80ah
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXc5q2YQTY1
  「李靜。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIgDnUU02Q8
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRFDCtvgbDB
  「噢，好娘。李靖或是李欽不是更適合男孩子嗎？」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK5IgnigW2m
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7kgxNOcZXT
  「⋯⋯」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9Cw4gnCxu
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkkPujl8TkR
  「不過還好。要是是李靖或是李欽的話，昨天晚上我大概就危險嘍。」我說。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ZUXchsCc2
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu4LvYNVTa7
  「哈⋯⋯」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9jB2LOdo7
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKPmldzV6Zg
  當然，昨晚的我本來就沒有對他抱著任何期待。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzNKmheqI0i
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuFPwua8TME
  只是回想起來，那確實是很荒謬的決定。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCuYp7zvbEs
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7P3LftjhXx
  「一個23歲的女人，讓16的陌生少年上了自己的床鋪。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUeGZihSzCo
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvTFpIQVj9z
  寫成文字或是作為台詞被唸出來，大概都不會影響它的離譜。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKnirU2HKxI
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7CmwMrz4V7
  「那麼，李靜。你打算就這麼住下來嗎？」她問，十分嚴肅的。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBBi0GSabmG
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN8AYgWhhKU
  我搖搖頭。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0T3f17jqqU
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbEyAZYtxF2
  「靠著你偷出來的錢，青年旅館還能住多久呢？要是在那之前，你依然不想回到自己的故鄉，你打算怎麼辦？」還不想，的話。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHKi6XSciA6
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe4bgMoPaTb
  面前的少年低著頭，一語不發。我大概知道他在思考著什麼。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDU9P0rVnyN
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4JJX5JTdQF
  「我遲早會遠離我的故鄉⋯⋯」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuiO2R7C92e
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLGIpZ45bRr
  「但不是由這個方式。對吧？」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBmxu32lk1
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLqojkE3R6g
  「是的，所以⋯⋯」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCUgMya00xc
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYVI7KcYNHt
  「怎麼辦呢？」這次不是為了捉弄人，她露出溫柔的微笑。「在錢花完之前，你得思考噢。來到這個混亂的場所，你能得到什麼？或是追求什麼。」她說。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6LLVUeGO1f
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXPiiyWct9Y
  「小舫姐，妳常常離家嗎？」他突然一臉佩服的看著我。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFuzSZcMubD
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2b13YFgmrg
  「這是什麼蠢問題？」啊，說錯話了。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa9VMT3lDcp
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlYCl2TaQAJ
  「嗯⋯⋯不是，總感覺妳很熟練的樣子。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2Ti0z9iAL
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDABiht79N3
  「怎麼可能。」她說。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWuTD4Ou20B
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIfOqtfMTAZ
  然而這是事實。16歲之前，我離家過無數次，每次都是無功而返，只帶回挫折跟疲勞的身體。然後，到了他的這個年紀，我幾乎像是投降了一樣。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNM4EQ4TBBZ
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJw2HzUGw8E
  好好的準備了考試，盡了全力去考大學。畢業之後也找到了穩定的工作。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ47Ik67WbAp
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCn3skNl8c
  這7年來的生活十分穩定。而且那是不容置疑的正確。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtJAmVGKNIO
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcDRM31GGbk
  直到他出現的那天。我再次質疑起自己作的決定。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjRD3BGJXGU
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUOXQleg11v
  長時間離開過我的這份自我懷疑又找上門來，然而我絲毫不比之前的自己成熟或是冷靜。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQIiqoVdLWy
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH0oTDARgad
  但是看著他，我總有一種感覺。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6UiWOi9HDO
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi3Bhf685g2
  「大概沒問題的。我想⋯⋯。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEc1YJWfGYG
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmxSl0ybDRK
  沒有理由的，我這麼相信著。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡokpdou8VL8
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUhrpfJ8gc
  因為，注視著她時，海嘯和風的呼嘯聲就會從腦袋中消失。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡISbWoIKcgm
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlck0I4TiAK
  92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjSBC0e1cIN
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00492Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPF5cHRABFg
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmUV4jvtr78
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtunGJQ5vFh
  「阿靜，你是獨生子嗎？」最近每到中午，她都會走到我身邊，把我從樓下的那個陰暗的角落，帶到樓上的用餐區。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgVijLrmCw
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzs01ekpup
  「是啊。」我吃著員工餐，回應的問題。到台北之後，這是我第一次吃到泡麵以外的熱食。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ50Nt2lXz9B
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDpZWYfVvZ7
  「好吃嗎？」她用頭指了指我的盤子。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAW21ykj6US
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewhYHn3ZqE
  「嗯，非常美味。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc4atxr5JuD
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOppA04ZMa
  「那就好。」她又塞了一口飯到口中。「你看這個。」她拿出手機。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4npFkqgsV
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX8diXTbtpW
  滑開桌面，她打開某個定期回報全球衛星雲圖的程式。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUmfowjT2wE
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRwFd2JZFTb
  不知道為什麽，程式剛打開所指定的地方是新幾內亞，但是她好像不太在意。說實在話，我也不太在意，我滿腦子在想桌面照片是哪個作家的書。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqdnZIpd9l0
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8ncKhWsIE2
  然後她讓我看了台灣附近。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHcoEmJNC2x
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt9DCJImVjD
  「一次來兩個颱風噢，很要命對吧？」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgJfrQvgFnQ
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6On4OZxNfD
  「嗯⋯⋯。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJvkbfmTCGO
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzXYhzau7H4
  「可是啊，你看這個。預測路線說，它們會剛剛好⋯⋯像這樣，一個往上、一個往下，躲開台灣噢。」她用手指畫出線條，語氣雀躍的說。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsyiD2vh5eG
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFvBqSNard1
  「真的是這樣就太好了。」他皺著眉頭說。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdMrMwog84O
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt39zfUnhtb
  肯定沒事的。看到她笑著這麼說，我的心不知為什麼就這麼安心下來了。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8LQBHJ9BH3
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡk1mKpgIxtd
  我從二樓的圍欄往一樓看，看到不少人離開座位，或是把書本丟在一旁，往樓上來。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOvTeKsgz0E
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmspiNDe5h0
  離席的人一個個往同一個方向去，每個人離開前的習慣和走路的姿勢、服裝的外型，從腳的移動到眼神，每個人都有所不同，卻做著一樣的事。我很喜歡這幅光景。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJh6skzNCRS
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRrxu5l5s4F
  「阿靜，獨生子是什麼樣的感覺啊？」我的注意回到她身上。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr1QDJFyMfa
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6ER14FWAjv
  「什麼？」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS6LxWKfuwD
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9OCpwGZXJ
  她又問了一次。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6QmiyxQq1
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFDqVL6WMSm
  「啊⋯⋯獨生子啊，不知道，小舫姐不是獨生女嗎？感覺很像啊。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hh08Hzg0J
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡphMC41hDWI
  「什麼意思？」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ54SsJjW2Rr
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1mfAMzu6DK
  「對那種需要一個人鑽研的事物比較感興趣。」孤僻的怪人。我從來沒看見她和其他圖書館員熱絡的交談過，說不定，她在這唯一的朋友就是我了。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCGYXYZsOjG
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxeIFev5TQv
  「噢，這樣啊⋯⋯還有呢？」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiSQLi8r2s
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEACnmcBXUg
  「感覺很有自己的想法。」不顧別人的感受。從來不看場合的捉弄人，不管話題或是氣氛，只要她覺得好玩就好。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSsDiOJ1YYr
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ44fOn2o4c7
  「這樣啊，可是我不是噢。」她笑著說。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67yFHQqEUX
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUKyXJotuQG
  「是嗎？」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv2ZW2Jk6z5
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCvEIr2iH8e
  「嗯，我有一個弟弟⋯⋯長得跟你很像噢。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVbERveiGI
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIGeTQ1W4Ll
  她這麽的同時，皺起眉頭，仔細的觀察的我的五官。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡazaRaBVIx3
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVjgJydERMs
  92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2iBvFGHNXF
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNcSmQyzf8L
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFbK7PA16cC
  果然很像。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtw1W3oN11l
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzn68Ftc7cr
  午餐時間結束，他作為暫時的圖書館員，整理書架時的那副神情，和弟弟替我收拾行李時的表情一模一樣。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ljHRYNGa6
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL3HGFKunD6
  那是我第四次的離家出走。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTB7OIeWdIm
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI2OewzJbUa
  準備離開家門前，剛升國中的弟弟，突然擅自打開我的行李箱。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOn4hHgHcab
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLo6rHJCmR
  我害怕會錯過父母不在家的時間，對他斥責了幾句。但是他很冷靜，說要替我檢查。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgoIleONsw7
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi1XD4A5qkF
  「少了牙膏和食物⋯⋯啊，火車上要看的書呢？姊，妳沒有書活得下去啊？」這時的我，為了大學的志願在鬧家庭革命。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡROS3XTG3qJ
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ8zVNjRPfg
  我喜歡文學。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw7EZonVpct
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRW2KvMCMsu
  那個時候，驅動我一切不成熟和自私的動力，都來自這麼一個模糊而膚淺的理由。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkz085SOAgj
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTeUho55Wy
  因為這個尚未成形的夢想⋯⋯那個時候，更適合的詞可能是妄想。因為它，我把自己的容身之處給否定了。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlf4FOXlYSi
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrGHa7YnXD3
「 我無法待在那個否定我一切的地方。」我那個時候是這麼告訴弟弟的。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfx1bGUz6uw
92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcv3WmpKret
  我看著他替我收拾書本和盥洗用具後，他堅持要送我到車站。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9D0cMFvVn0
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  於是我在車站冷冰冰的塑膠椅上，用極為平淡的語氣對還是國中生的他說。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpypx9HQ3EN
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  「嗯⋯⋯從妳的角度來看，待在家裡確實是很痛苦吧。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7WufpgbcJL
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  我沒有說話，於是他繼續說。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe7xRmPioM4
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  「我希望妳能快樂。當然，我也希望爸爸媽媽快樂⋯⋯嗯⋯⋯怎麼辦呢？」他笑著對我說。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP5xPmakPjU
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  那時的我沒有意識到，他的笑之後有著多麼巨大的重量。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMg5XXnMMyV
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  也許因為我，他時時刻刻對自己的存在感到矛盾。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzn3CnpkHMS
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  但我被自己的夢想遮住了耳，沒能聽出他的求救。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRO2j3JFuM7
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  「謝嘍。」搔搔他的頭，我抱住他瘦小的身軀。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5I1qgPm0rx
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  「姊⋯⋯早點回來噢。不要餓到肚子。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX67R52fP4U
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  「嗯，你也是。」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwqHVl2oybS
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  我記得，那個冬天，台北第一次下了雪。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyQJvysgbTj
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  雖然是很少、很細的冰線，但那確實，是貨真價實的雪。92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI6ytSnmid1
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  「小舫姐⋯⋯這個算是小說學術類還是偉人自傳啊？」92Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVjyJnhQkL
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