《赤足的庭院》（2）109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyMzM0PdSXg
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  我對故鄉的印象僅僅是印象。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWwgV1N2RKz
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  因為那裡的事物並不是被人實務性的記憶下來，而是作為更不完全的東西，留在心底的某些角落。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1o3HVAHrsL
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  我記得潮水的味道和海浪等聲音，沙子的觸感，樹梢下刮起的微風，夜晚時絕對黑暗的地面，和成為那個時間裡唯一存在事物的星和月。魚腥味、油輪的廢氣、風雨來的時候，所感到的恐懼。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoXimtoCaai
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  我的故鄉作為一個印象，我記錄在腦中，知道自己總有一天會以某個型式的遠離它。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡh0bstKavk9
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  但那不是指現在。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6LAqbZ6dH
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  就算獨自一人逃到台北，看過了城市鮮豔的夜色，耳裡塞滿城市的吐和吸，我還是知道，自己並沒有真正的遠離故鄉。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKxUJuDioGv
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  「嗯⋯⋯可以問你的名字嗎？」小舫姐說她昨晚沒能睡著。在平常的那張餐桌上，她癱軟的用雙手撐著臉。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiGpO7XF6L1
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  我一邊解釋著自己的事，一邊看著她疲累的試著聽進我所說的。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyreTrhJ8ce
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  看她渴望睡眠的樣子，我感到有些內疚。她睡不好大概就是因為我。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBtaAm402Ui
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  昨晚，小舫姐讓我暫時待在她家借住一晚。公寓的房間很小，只有一張床鋪。我原本堅持要睡地板，不過被她拒絕了：「落到這副德性的人少跟我客氣。」。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9r6QKMXK4
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  多了一個人在床上，一定很不習慣。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hkR4yMODC
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  但是昨晚，還好我實在是筋疲力盡，不然大概會整夜無法入睡。年紀的問題。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8YCzBa2J7t
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  「李靜。」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBYana0IU5U
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  「噢，好娘。李靖或是李欽不是更適合男孩子嗎？」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYpa7VfXwwZ
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  「⋯⋯」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX4hb32yPrE
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  「不過還好。要是是李靖或是李欽的話，昨天晚上我大概就危險嘍。」我說。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapL4oLDwpI
109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY33BIvi1ja
  「哈⋯⋯」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfyXjt0xQx7
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  當然，昨晚的我本來就沒有對他抱著任何期待。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsjuzJDLyT4
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  只是回想起來，那確實是很荒謬的決定。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiCqfB9aD8a
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  「一個23歲的女人，讓16的陌生少年上了自己的床鋪。」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqP5s7J8YBq
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  寫成文字或是作為台詞被唸出來，大概都不會影響它的離譜。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3X5unc0rQ
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  「那麼，李靜。你打算就這麼住下來嗎？」她問，十分嚴肅的。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpGakUAk4FT
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  我搖搖頭。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt5zuj6jW6h
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  「靠著你偷出來的錢，青年旅館還能住多久呢？要是在那之前，你依然不想回到自己的故鄉，你打算怎麼辦？」還不想，的話。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8ev96oiMA
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  面前的少年低著頭，一語不發。我大概知道他在思考著什麼。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYfSPw1tfko
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  「我遲早會遠離我的故鄉⋯⋯」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡi5sBHcCqw0
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  「但不是由這個方式。對吧？」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ074ygRYuIw
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  「是的，所以⋯⋯」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFUQVcOCyoD
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  「怎麼辦呢？」這次不是為了捉弄人，她露出溫柔的微笑。「在錢花完之前，你得思考噢。來到這個混亂的場所，你能得到什麼？或是追求什麼。」她說。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2U6WgknTkr
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  「小舫姐，妳常常離家嗎？」他突然一臉佩服的看著我。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm5IfoiMuXK
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  「這是什麼蠢問題？」啊，說錯話了。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaYoKYkiblE
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  「嗯⋯⋯不是，總感覺妳很熟練的樣子。」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjTsGxAkAvA
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  「怎麼可能。」她說。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCEypJF3Duk
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  然而這是事實。16歲之前，我離家過無數次，每次都是無功而返，只帶回挫折跟疲勞的身體。然後，到了他的這個年紀，我幾乎像是投降了一樣。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNMeyhVTfgs
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  好好的準備了考試，盡了全力去考大學。畢業之後也找到了穩定的工作。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoCDHShUiit
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  這7年來的生活十分穩定。而且那是不容置疑的正確。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkupji2Fnyw
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  直到他出現的那天。我再次質疑起自己作的決定。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFKaKTR1WXj
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  長時間離開過我的這份自我懷疑又找上門來，然而我絲毫不比之前的自己成熟或是冷靜。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcELFfIdXI0
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  但是看著他，我總有一種感覺。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr5rzJ5c0Dg
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  「大概沒問題的。我想⋯⋯。」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5wGIc30CX8
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  沒有理由的，我這麼相信著。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfBqLE4L97j
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  因為，注視著她時，海嘯和風的呼嘯聲就會從腦袋中消失。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuy3MH8HNdv
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  「阿靜，你是獨生子嗎？」最近每到中午，她都會走到我身邊，把我從樓下的那個陰暗的角落，帶到樓上的用餐區。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqGMQHA0dK2
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  「是啊。」我吃著員工餐，回應的問題。到台北之後，這是我第一次吃到泡麵以外的熱食。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdVquZmDWrG
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  「好吃嗎？」她用頭指了指我的盤子。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJ69hTWkYAf
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  「嗯，非常美味。」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJq85GGojtV
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  「那就好。」她又塞了一口飯到口中。「你看這個。」她拿出手機。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYhhqeZoUkh
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  滑開桌面，她打開某個定期回報全球衛星雲圖的程式。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4kaPMUpfjj
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  不知道為什麽，程式剛打開所指定的地方是新幾內亞，但是她好像不太在意。說實在話，我也不太在意，我滿腦子在想桌面照片是哪個作家的書。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIBMv77qdzJ
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  然後她讓我看了台灣附近。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVFpCaXx8RC
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  「一次來兩個颱風噢，很要命對吧？」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDiJ1MJYQve
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  「嗯⋯⋯。」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtd3zsEz9KH
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  「可是啊，你看這個。預測路線說，它們會剛剛好⋯⋯像這樣，一個往上、一個往下，躲開台灣噢。」她用手指畫出線條，語氣雀躍的說。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqwmz3lOLHR
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  「真的是這樣就太好了。」他皺著眉頭說。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsRvfjN5DcY
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  肯定沒事的。看到她笑著這麼說，我的心不知為什麼就這麼安心下來了。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlw9bmm6qcT
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  我從二樓的圍欄往一樓看，看到不少人離開座位，或是把書本丟在一旁，往樓上來。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGRmAlkpLF
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  離席的人一個個往同一個方向去，每個人離開前的習慣和走路的姿勢、服裝的外型，從腳的移動到眼神，每個人都有所不同，卻做著一樣的事。我很喜歡這幅光景。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnE49FBJBNz
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  「阿靜，獨生子是什麼樣的感覺啊？」我的注意回到她身上。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwCDglxwB4
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  「什麼？」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡchZ7wOxV4J
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  她又問了一次。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ9cTeUxns6
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  「啊⋯⋯獨生子啊，不知道，小舫姐不是獨生女嗎？感覺很像啊。」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡduZ8j32p4s
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  「什麼意思？」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvByWHQau0z
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  「對那種需要一個人鑽研的事物比較感興趣。」孤僻的怪人。我從來沒看見她和其他圖書館員熱絡的交談過，說不定，她在這唯一的朋友就是我了。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeP7B95TKLu
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  「噢，這樣啊⋯⋯還有呢？」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WtfYu8yzK
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  「感覺很有自己的想法。」不顧別人的感受。從來不看場合的捉弄人，不管話題或是氣氛，只要她覺得好玩就好。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvMnGtVolGf
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  「這樣啊，可是我不是噢。」她笑著說。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcmhhmXSdbw
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  「是嗎？」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6SewIWine5
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  「嗯，我有一個弟弟⋯⋯長得跟你很像噢。」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB9pMcAEC6g
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  她這麽的同時，皺起眉頭，仔細的觀察的我的五官。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLrbQP0fC4l
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  果然很像。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJJtmcuJf4P
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  午餐時間結束，他作為暫時的圖書館員，整理書架時的那副神情，和弟弟替我收拾行李時的表情一模一樣。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7MQZabz2Mb
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  那是我第四次的離家出走。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAOno2sQIuf
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  準備離開家門前，剛升國中的弟弟，突然擅自打開我的行李箱。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQbCiwULMLj
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  我害怕會錯過父母不在家的時間，對他斥責了幾句。但是他很冷靜，說要替我檢查。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUJgNmElWjS
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  「少了牙膏和食物⋯⋯啊，火車上要看的書呢？姊，妳沒有書活得下去啊？」這時的我，為了大學的志願在鬧家庭革命。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq05hKDLvUT
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  我喜歡文學。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdSxsEI48X5
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  那個時候，驅動我一切不成熟和自私的動力，都來自這麼一個模糊而膚淺的理由。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXwPXc1zju1
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  因為這個尚未成形的夢想⋯⋯那個時候，更適合的詞可能是妄想。因為它，我把自己的容身之處給否定了。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGHAysN4yC
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「 我無法待在那個否定我一切的地方。」我那個時候是這麼告訴弟弟的。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8bXyPrJSTQ
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  我看著他替我收拾書本和盥洗用具後，他堅持要送我到車站。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgiOtv7tt4x
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  於是我在車站冷冰冰的塑膠椅上，用極為平淡的語氣對還是國中生的他說。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5IV8KUDg3u
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  「嗯⋯⋯從妳的角度來看，待在家裡確實是很痛苦吧。」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5moJ6wO32a
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  我沒有說話，於是他繼續說。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFiNjUcFy3X
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  「我希望妳能快樂。當然，我也希望爸爸媽媽快樂⋯⋯嗯⋯⋯怎麼辦呢？」他笑著對我說。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡU2vSnym1Cj
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  那時的我沒有意識到，他的笑之後有著多麼巨大的重量。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbjmwbUcbER
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  也許因為我，他時時刻刻對自己的存在感到矛盾。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJszHebYRYM
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  但我被自己的夢想遮住了耳，沒能聽出他的求救。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPSytzaLCPg
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  「謝嘍。」搔搔他的頭，我抱住他瘦小的身軀。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡURaD2kGyP8
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  「姊⋯⋯早點回來噢。不要餓到肚子。」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPm7qg1w34d
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  「嗯，你也是。」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwU9bx1lCYq
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  我記得，那個冬天，台北第一次下了雪。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGS1KRWH9hG
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  雖然是很少、很細的冰線，但那確實，是貨真價實的雪。109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6kEdyL2kzT
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  「小舫姐⋯⋯這個算是小說學術類還是偉人自傳啊？」109Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYoA9U7JVtO
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