司洛利不曉得這段日子自己是怎麼過的。678Please respect copyright.PENANA8ru2usNlTL
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所剩無幾的時間內,即使告誡自己必須專注於當下,不要去思索關於未來的事,可腦子就是不受控制,無法抑制地思考要是視為生命意義的對象不在了,自己該何去何從?678Please respect copyright.PENANAqMriz4gBeZ
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他很想微笑以對,可是時日越近他就越笑不出來,直到阿爾法真的跟人訂下婚約後,他更覺得嘴角像是僵住了、再也無法保持上揚的弧度。沒有哭,可是也無法笑,就這樣木然地度過每一天。678Please respect copyright.PENANA6P0debiJQj
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而阿爾法就算與人許下婚約,也從未沒看過那人和新娘同進同出。678Please respect copyright.PENANAALFLazx1H8
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即使知道自己離死不遠,那位王子依舊維持一貫的嘻皮笑臉,讓人懷疑他真的明白事情的嚴重性嗎?678Please respect copyright.PENANA5usB21EtLq
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要永遠分開了。678Please respect copyright.PENANAH4w09OeqgW
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再也見不到了。678Please respect copyright.PENANAWcYZJgYUHU
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為什麼……殿下還能笑得出來?678Please respect copyright.PENANAurV4N6gAMU
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「啊?」被問到這個問題的阿爾法想也沒想地迅速回應:「如果等到我死掉,最後你只記得我哀怨的表情,那不是很糟糕嗎?」678Please respect copyright.PENANA5sd53RXWOU
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只是因為這種原因……要是為了他的話,根本不必……司洛利默然,隨後阿爾法又喚了他一聲:678Please respect copyright.PENANAc5T5UHOuKr
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「司洛利,」678Please respect copyright.PENANArA6tX9MeIv
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金瞳凝著紅眸,等待後者未完的話語,夢寐以求的言詞、實際聽見卻只是難受大過喜悅。678Please respect copyright.PENANABrLSyAw2Yk
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「我愛你喔。」678Please respect copyright.PENANAUglM9ATcYg
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好比要彌補這二十年來的遺憾,這些日子以來、一次又一次的拋出那三個字。678Please respect copyright.PENANA5BI3YNrYVl
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明明很難過吧?678Please respect copyright.PENANAiUU678RHo5
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明明很痛苦吧?678Please respect copyright.PENANA5465P7uKXp
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為什麼您不哭呢?678Please respect copyright.PENANAhXAlCS2myy
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──要是您哭泣的話,在下也能盡情流淚了啊。678Please respect copyright.PENANACSN2sYxKtN
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最後的最後,甚至連參加主子的喪禮時,藍髮青年都沒有掉一滴淚。678Please respect copyright.PENANABGbR6y1H29
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看起來就像睡著一樣,司洛利如此忖道。678Please respect copyright.PENANAhkar91lF4K
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只是睡了而已……於是他這麼說服自己,拒絕去想有關於阿爾法的任何事,在宮內閒來無事就去幫忙其他僕役,生活過得和從前沒有兩樣。反正、殿下翹家的時候也都不會在宮內,他不過是又逃了,不是嗎?678Please respect copyright.PENANAIV3GEz0cBy
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幾次的自殺未遂後,藍髮青年只得維持表面的平穩,行屍走肉般地、一天度過一天,直至數個月過去,仍在位的王后艾拉坦召見他。678Please respect copyright.PENANA3oUaJeoPtb
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對於這名女子,司洛利既不嫌惡也不反感,他不是不明事理的人,懂得對方非要留下繼承人的理由、甚至想著這人說不定也有不下於他的無奈與苦澀。678Please respect copyright.PENANA3lEwgqQjtt
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而王后一見到藍髮青年,第一句就是使他有些錯愕的提問:「阿爾法命令你不准死,對吧?」678Please respect copyright.PENANApTFx5xVrJu
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「……是的。」聽見久違的名,司洛利怔了下,但很快又回過神來。678Please respect copyright.PENANA0t7CTjafsc
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「不過,你並不想從命吧?」678Please respect copyright.PENANA24OtTg7N3B
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「沒錯,陛下願意幫助在下?」678Please respect copyright.PENANA2UA1IivRLh
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司洛利問,但艾拉坦先是輕輕搖頭、隨後又點頭,令人摸不著頭緒,接著王后嘆息似地說道:「幫我把那孩子撫養長大。」678Please respect copyright.PENANANxvk2FhaAy
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聞言,司洛利則是呆了呆、沒有做出任何回應,艾拉坦才繼續解釋:「我的孫女,我必須確保我不在了以後,有人能夠扶持我的孫女安然繼位。你把她帶大,我會實現你的願望。」678Please respect copyright.PENANAIBiz3inIgp
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下人依舊沉默,王后右手指著牆面的方向,說道:「剛出生而已,現在一個人在隔壁房間,你去看吧。那孩子就交給你了。」678Please respect copyright.PENANAq0UvTMqUqn
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司洛利點頭,遵照上位者的指示前行。678Please respect copyright.PENANA6qCTMYwSxy
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「那孩子就交給你了」──當初阿爾法帶他回宮時,王后也這麼說過。678Please respect copyright.PENANAQTYC7F0drW
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離開王后召喚他的房間,進到公主所在的地方,看見擺在中央的嬰兒床時猶豫了下要不要接近,最後還是湊了過去。678Please respect copyright.PENANASuuc7BRnYH
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而在初生的嬰兒進入視線範圍後,一股酸澀感自喉嚨深處湧上,他遲來的眼淚這才落了下來。678Please respect copyright.PENANAYFfMkimAsW
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這是阿爾法唯一留下的東西。678Please respect copyright.PENANA3cMv2kyinU
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那人就是為此而死。678Please respect copyright.PENANAM54EnBeyUA
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「……殿下……」678Please respect copyright.PENANAY3OqMr9cJY
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他唯一的、也最愛的主人。678Please respect copyright.PENANAfzIRElJ1zL
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真的、真的已經不在了。678Please respect copyright.PENANAsG9s20jKlK
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此時此刻才強烈地意識到這個事實,淚水一滑落就似潰堤一般、停也停不下來,司洛利不記得自己到底哭了多久,只感覺像是要宣洩這些日子以來無處發洩的鬱悶一般,將剩餘的力氣都用在這件事上頭。678Please respect copyright.PENANAL5wtGt9OTL
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十二月二十五日,前王子的生日,司洛利一如往年般地在這天進到王室專屬的墓園。678Please respect copyright.PENANAV6RVycJUTn
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待藍髮青年離開那幢墨黑建築後,朝陽早已升起,高掛於比擬他髮絲的湛藍蒼穹,藍天白雲、一點兒也看不出先前正下著大雨。678Please respect copyright.PENANALnOwn3erWn
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司洛利抬頭仰望,刺眼的陽光扎得他雙眼微瞇,很快又低下頭來,快步前行,而即便是強光也溫暖不了他的身心。678Please respect copyright.PENANAM5wkuQ4OL8
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明明過了這麼久,還是無法解脫。678Please respect copyright.PENANApms6qxcMpE
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他的人生有太多太多、全都被阿爾法.羅坦赫拉勒這個人佔據,那人的一切之於自己,早已是靈魂的一部份,無法切割亦無法分離,而司洛利所剩的人生則被龐大的思念蠶食,反反覆覆地、沉浸於過去,用那種方式來延續生命。678Please respect copyright.PENANA2TM4umsF2c
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司洛利這輩子再也沒有辦法愛上別人,亦沒有移情別戀的打算。678Please respect copyright.PENANA4ySSymYFcA
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只是等待著、自己的生命結束的一天。678Please respect copyright.PENANA5mSK9wvghM
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他不信有天堂或地獄,可現在的他想要相信,要是有死後世界的話,那麼、他是不是還有再見到心上人的機會呢?678Please respect copyright.PENANAqMpndJIOx1
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──想要再見一面,哪怕是地獄,一面也足矣。678Please respect copyright.PENANAFnLDQbABss
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2011/09/06全篇完678Please respect copyright.PENANAjpMy4CzZAh
後面還有番外喔!678Please respect copyright.PENANAgQ8EcVMjbB
點此填寫感想收集表單678Please respect copyright.PENANAcPBqZDyP7h