阿爾法喜歡司洛利,這點無庸置疑。355Please respect copyright.PENANA6ebXxGnsaC
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相較於對方的質疑與猶豫,他很肯定雙方是互相喜歡的沒錯。355Please respect copyright.PENANAU3iEYdrHVO
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是什麼時候察覺的他不記得,等發現時就是如此。355Please respect copyright.PENANAM44kDglKUs
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只是也不能說、更無從表達,僅能將感情擺在內心最深處、用許許多多虛偽的表面壓著,令它半點浮現的機會也沒有。355Please respect copyright.PENANA5HuugVa3CL
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羅坦赫拉勒王室由於他們一族該死又詭異的本能,肯定是一脈單傳,現任王后艾拉坦已經算是晚婚、又不幸產下男嬰,依照平均壽命推算,王子起碼得在三十歲前留下一女,才能讓王后撐到孫子繼位、安然離世──這還不包含又是兒子而不是女兒這種極低的可能性,總之,為了國家的未來,現任王子是越早結婚越好。355Please respect copyright.PENANAJYmjGXlxqb
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可對阿爾法來說,祖國會如何與他無關,每個人都不能決定自己的出生地,他只不過是不幸地降生於羅坦赫拉勒的王族,在他心目中的排名,自己的性命理當列在國家安危前頭,結婚生子這檔事自然是能拖就拖、不要最好。355Please respect copyright.PENANARKr0e3ZmIe
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所以他積極地追求奧斯華德,不管是身份地位或是血統、亦或那初戀的些許情愫,要逃避婚約,奧斯華德必定是門當戶對的絕佳對象,只是說他積極也不太對,阿爾法在這件事上並不是很認真,心中也多少有點抗拒和不是真心喜歡的人在一起,所以他在貓耳男面前的行為幾乎都是裝出來的,否則他非常清楚哪種類型的人才對奧斯華德的胃。355Please respect copyright.PENANAOnHiscr5NQ
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反正,外人看來他愛奧斯華德愛得要死就好,混淆視聽就是他的目的。355Please respect copyright.PENANAoNYFWvAb8k
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阿爾法明瞭自己的母親終有一天會為了羅坦赫拉勒、強迫他去履行該做的義務,王后將國家看得比兒子重要是天經地義,要是被抓到把柄他就完了。355Please respect copyright.PENANA6EMj1D7kBH
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司洛利認為阿爾法愛戀別人,所以永不見天日的暗戀無果,真正的想法也不能說出口,殊不知阿爾法更是如此,別說連真實的那一面都不能表現出來、還得疊上層層偽裝,戲一般地演出不是他想要的、卻又非這麼做不可的人生,箇中滋味大概只有自己明白。355Please respect copyright.PENANAFCEvXXd01r
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然而,做孩子的終究瞞不過母親,親子間總會有那麼幾種方法來確認小孩有沒有撒謊。雖說阿爾法也搞不懂從十七歲就在替他物色新娘的艾拉坦到底有沒有愛過他,不過他想應該是有吧?畢竟看奧斯華德的例子,似乎只要自己養出來的小孩就不可能半點感情也沒有。355Please respect copyright.PENANA1q3X48R6dr
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這回的逼婚不得反抗,也不能逃走,從十五歲開始他就預設了該怎樣面對這件事,心理準備百分之百充足,可是卻依舊不甘。355Please respect copyright.PENANAUlCfbSNbRD
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人嘛,總是有那麼幾樣事物,會把它視為比生命更重要的存在,或者是宗教或者是國家或者是後代──但統統都是源自於愛。355Please respect copyright.PENANAuDynmred8b
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對於打從出生就注定要奉獻給國家的生命,他早已死心,只是就這樣結束,未免太遺憾。355Please respect copyright.PENANApkscMzoH6Q
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說到底阿爾法還是自私的,為了一己之私,明知道司洛利在他離開後會因此更加痛苦,仍是毫無疑慮地把告白脫口而出。355Please respect copyright.PENANAd5oizYuu4v
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貪求一時歡快。355Please respect copyright.PENANA8UIOK7l8Hz
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最後的結果如何雙方心知肚明,烈火燎原般蔓延開來的情感卻又無法遏止、也不想止住,僅能毒癮似地,只專注於毒品所帶來的美好幻覺、刻意忽視警告標識醒目的種種下場。355Please respect copyright.PENANAfKSAaXNPQi
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對阿爾法來說,剩餘不多的生命僅求曇花一現的戀情即可。355Please respect copyright.PENANAJLGvwYaG7Y
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對司洛利來說,本該絕望的事物被點燃了希望的火苗,而火焰卻又將在短暫的時間內燃燒殆盡,手中僅殘留著無法再次使用的火柴,一劃就斷,讓人墮入更深的絕境、再也爬不出來,說不定比從未擁有更加難受。355Please respect copyright.PENANAuMHohK976M
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可是,既然已無法選擇不知情而維持現狀的結局,那又怎麼知道會不會更好過?355Please respect copyright.PENANA7sHcsFpldI
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阿爾法平時看起來從不會做三思而後行這種事,但事實上、他在十幾歲後就很少做出不經思考的行為,然而即使是一時衝動下的決定,現下也容不得他後悔、撤回前言。355Please respect copyright.PENANADrFfLAlf6s
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「司洛利,你覺得我的葬禮要怎麼處理?」355Please respect copyright.PENANAyH5isBYGUd
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「……在下能拒絕回答嗎?」355Please respect copyright.PENANAcnUg8OkItj
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「看要不要跟以前的王族都葬在同一個地方?不過,一想到要跟那群人死在一起就討厭,你覺得呢?」355Please respect copyright.PENANAfGH8ooGGvo
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「在下不是說了不想討論嗎?」355Please respect copyright.PENANAFcVaxXo7SU
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「欸?我還以為你會想把我的屍體保存起來放在你房間之類的,這樣你想上下其手隨時都可以哦。」355Please respect copyright.PENANAurGJUYepSt
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「在下沒、有、戀、屍、癖,更不會做出這等變態行徑。」下僕一字一句的說道,金瞳隱隱散發出怒意,「殿下您為何非得繞著這話題打轉不可?」355Please respect copyright.PENANARxYLIOBay5
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而坐在他對桌的肇事者完全忽視對方的情緒,逕自笑道:355Please respect copyright.PENANAmKKwigWVaj
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「想要我安靜的話,可以考慮拿你的嘴來堵……唔嗯。」355Please respect copyright.PENANArneo1wVZf6
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話講到一半,司洛利就如對方所願地將雙唇覆上,隔絕一連串令人心煩的提議,取而代之的是唇舌交纏。355Please respect copyright.PENANAJn7pVbfmT9
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這些日子以來,他們的相處沒有多少改變,只不過對於以前想做的事,司洛利現在都可以毫無顧忌地執行,包含親吻這件事。355Please respect copyright.PENANAmxb1lHZ4cy
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半晌分開後,阿爾法又用三分嚴肅七分玩笑的語調道:「我很認真的和你討論這件事耶,除了你我還有誰可以說啊?」355Please respect copyright.PENANAY0f73k7iEF
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司洛利回了一句「那在下想陪葬,請您下令把在下活埋吧」就沉默著整理著手中的宴會名單,打算將阿爾法所言的一字一句統統無視,但阿爾法顯然不打算讓他稱心如意,而是轉往另一個對他來說更無理的話題:355Please respect copyright.PENANAa1dquuy3T8
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「吶,要不要我命令你忘掉我、或是愛上別人之類的?」355Please respect copyright.PENANAAFTcalNohb
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「絕對不要!」355Please respect copyright.PENANAOfHCVtYx2L
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藍髮青年有些惱怒地盯著金髮青年,他是不曉得夜行者王族的血有沒有強大到連這種事都可以辦到,不過他一點都不想去考慮那種可能性。後者對前者一副被踩到尾巴的炸毛貓一般激烈的反應不以為意,淡然地把話題延續下去:355Please respect copyright.PENANAwPs0MJhtPM
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「可是你想嘛,你的職位是『王子的貼身侍從』,也就是說,我一死你沒失業也減薪,而且我就算現在掛了也是王子不是國王,根本沒遺產可以留給你。如果一直喜歡我的話,我死了你會很痛苦喔。」355Please respect copyright.PENANAAf1rHwa7A6
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「所以,殿下快點賜死就是最穩當的解決方案。」355Please respect copyright.PENANAUHj6sdAP9V
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阿爾法的生日就快到了,司洛利對此感到些許煩躁,可當事人卻是一副毫不在乎的模樣,還拼命找他瞎扯下葬等等的問題,司洛利除了無可奈何之外也沒有辦法制止,只得再一次提醒那人他希望赴死的這回事。355Please respect copyright.PENANAmNqeYDtRjl
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事實上,司洛利在被告白之後就試過自殺,不過每每要把刀劃下去的剎那,自己的手就彷如受到他人操縱一般,不受控制地偏移位置,讓他想死也死不了,最終得出除非說服阿爾法、否則真的無法解脫的結論。355Please respect copyright.PENANA1oH2BDWgEV
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「在下也是很認真的想問您,命令在下自殺有那麼難嗎?」355Please respect copyright.PENANAFDwjGtUWPQ
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聽司洛利這麼說,阿爾法想都沒想就果斷回答:「廢話,誰會想看到自己喜歡的人去死啊?」355Please respect copyright.PENANAhoFDW54eJl
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而後雙方都沒再說話,司洛利很想強迫自己的腦袋冷靜下來、專注於手邊的事務,但卻無法阻止腦中飛騰的思緒、全數往負面的方向發展。355Please respect copyright.PENANAkLxh9PhpZr
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所愛的人就要死了,自己卻無能為力,甚至就是讓那個人致死的主因。又一次被提醒這個事實,教他如何平復心情?355Please respect copyright.PENANAhZBnm0Miaw
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朝夕相處的人即將消失,簡直無法想像……司洛利只感覺一股抑鬱感積在胸腔無處發洩,偏偏阿爾法又在這時說了一句更令人煩悶的話:355Please respect copyright.PENANAlJ7rUL5PDq
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「到底怎樣才有辦法讓你喜歡其他人?」355Please respect copyright.PENANANse3tJyko7
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似乎是忍無可忍,司洛利「砰」的一聲將整疊公文放到桌上,力道大得連擺在上頭的鋼筆都震了震,金眸直視著鏡片後的紅瞳,字字清晰地開口:「就算殿下是個性格惡劣、品行不佳、明明不是不會看人臉色還喜歡出言挑釁、可說是幾乎沒有優點的笨蛋,在下一輩子就只喜歡您一個人,這個答案您滿意了嗎?」355Please respect copyright.PENANAL8DVLTYHRi
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阿爾法似乎感受不到對方因他的話語逐漸燃起的怒火,嘴角依舊微揚,「司洛利,你真的是被虐狂耶。像我這種人有什麼值得你喜歡的啊?」355Please respect copyright.PENANATEZdc5XY54
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「全部、在下愛的就是您的全部。」司洛利索性把公文扔開,隔著不大的桌子俯身欺到對方身上,左手撐著桌面、右手扣住阿爾法的下顎,輕落一吻後漾出迷人的微笑,「因為殿下實在是太煩人了,雖然在下不會因此感到厭惡,但在下現在只想請您閉嘴,最好是一個字都講不出來。」355Please respect copyright.PENANAhJASSrrWDO
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或許阿爾法就是在誘導他說出這些甜言蜜語似的字句,不過對他來說也無所謂,反正全都是真心話。355Please respect copyright.PENANA6SUM0276JO
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所剩不多的時間裡,他們能做什麼?還有辦法做什麼?355Please respect copyright.PENANAuBMrBAJ0aV
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或許把煩擾的事情統統擺到一邊,盡情享樂才不至於徒增遺憾。355Please respect copyright.PENANAw2NPFFx4Y5
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