自殘者的矛盾

我不懂...

我想活下去....1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqrEKUtVyTU

所以...好想流血.....1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbe2nAcJJi

流血的時候才覺得自己還活着....1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTeVthVZ8BR

明明流多了就會死....1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQqchHM3ir8

會不會在手上多插幾針就會不辛苦了...1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcWPC8AztVI

可是又不是....1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCs4Qmcfnp2

真的...一點也不覺得痛.....1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNEEgvD87D2

就像個不合格的瑕疵品...也不能退貨...

就像個沒心沒肺沒血沒肉的人1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkBuArnQbCH

為一次又一次的那種自殘帶來的痛感到興奮1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdfvpQMhi45

然後卻又埋怨自己的扭曲....1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2ftMdxpdpj

直到真的感到麻痹...可又明知這只是沉淪1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdGX7mUATVg

睡在過去中一睡不醒1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1SqHPGt1w7

明明心裹得清楚...1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEHSzUvMZAT

明明並不想死...怕痛...也討厭受傷.....1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeYL3vlPeEg

但又沒辦法去停止追求痛....1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡosy4nLmygu

也沒辦法離開死亡的引力1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFMaxmO2O5

美麗得讓人窒息的笑話...1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡouPfnikFio

好討厭自己...1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRvusfFobOf

好討厭這無可救藥的自己...1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FSC1YNpye

自殘就像吸毒1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjfKjaMjeqk

開始了第一次就算停了也忍不住回頭1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL31NajWaC9

既害怕又讓人不能停止1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfy8o0wBjtC

每次也在想倒不如死了算了...1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxUzrjzMbB

可是你也會在...然後又給予我希望....1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTOtLMcIHCK

捉住後便開始想要更多去填補自己的絕望....1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTzB90cB4d

然後又一次又一次地發現這不可能...1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhw6c8CqFVX

想死又想活下去1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7J0GvbcxA1

想流血但不想受傷...1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpwyKH3xiK7

怕痛但沒感覺....1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxAuDGagHne

我就在這裏苟延殘喘....曾哭著向自己求饒...

也曾找過結束的方法....卻狠不下心....

好辛苦...好累....好想哭.....1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE7VPfJ2rgX

血流多少也不夠....1082Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5WNTDrABXD

淚卻已經流不出來了......

所有鬱結塞在胸口中....無發宣洩這苦悶和壓抑.....

活過的這17年裏我已經自殺了4次在醫院垂死掙扎

聽到醫生課我會比別人早死...我竟然感到安心...

我的是個無可救藥的垃圾

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