
天亮,上班。896Please respect copyright.PENANAYau4xyYv9R
896Please respect copyright.PENANAVDwk9dtcfj
擠進人山人海的車廂,心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物,我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟,好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。896Please respect copyright.PENANAMqZdogpJvS
896Please respect copyright.PENANAvVUeumqRwa
車廂一如往常,平穩中帶輕微搖晃,教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲,繼續進食,令人側目。896Please respect copyright.PENANA73C4x63qfP
896Please respect copyright.PENANA61uYbzJaje
食物的細碎,像沙子一樣,在人們毫不注意的情況下,悄然掉在地上,再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站,人們再肆意加以踐踏,令碎粉再度粉碎。896Please respect copyright.PENANAiD1ORxVfGk
896Please respect copyright.PENANAsAf3P9oKcG
到站了,我有意無意地繞過人羣,「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉,心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上,我回頭望進車廂,想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉,但列車經已開駛。896Please respect copyright.PENANAPw0jyCqh7R
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看不見,罷。
天黑,下班。896Please respect copyright.PENANAjnm9z9OcSz
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身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂,繼續講上司的壞話。896Please respect copyright.PENANAH34Qpu5Snq
896Please respect copyright.PENANAjExHzheFaL
「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。896Please respect copyright.PENANAebK0gOG4c1
896Please respect copyright.PENANAyqRbiqMt83
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不!有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰?我看不見……我不想看見……896Please respect copyright.PENANArT90pKDPa7
896Please respect copyright.PENANAo9Wueax7iy
「啪」的一聲,男同事一手拍在我的小腿上,那隻螞蟻——扁了。896Please respect copyright.PENANAjStejtJmaS
896Please respect copyright.PENANA6sp8fTQuct
「沒事了!」他笑了笑,問我:「你很怕小昆蟲?」896Please respect copyright.PENANAc8IJn9lwzC
896Please respect copyright.PENANAk5LTMW4GUt
「不,只是怕蟻。」我感覺到,我的唇還在顫抖,但卻仍勉力一笑。
公司,午飯時間。896Please respect copyright.PENANAcCoXAF2nCJ
896Please respect copyright.PENANA8NJRU9COS2
甲小姐正在上網看劇;乙先生在打盹;丙小姐外出吃飯去;丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒;戊小姐……896Please respect copyright.PENANAWgaxVBiHfw
896Please respect copyright.PENANAq49F5srNHH
看著同事們的百態,我突然覺得自己和他們一樣,都是很渺小的生命體,小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事,尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌,不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎?那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別?896Please respect copyright.PENANAWJR507ozY2
896Please respect copyright.PENANAjTYIxE6lYR
驀地,我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過,卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上,讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失,我感到自己也消失了似的。
其實,真正的我只是一隻螞蟻,不過會偶爾做白日夢,幻想自己變成人類,過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活,是有目的的付出,有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑,多奢侈!無他,這就是意義。896Please respect copyright.PENANAVATojySgkC
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還是……896Please respect copyright.PENANAPywaGCHWrR
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其實,真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢,幻想自己是一隻蟻,過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味,只懂一味尋找食物。無他,這就是生存!
公司,工作。896Please respect copyright.PENANAotPAMbYafn
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被上司罵個狗血淋頭。896Please respect copyright.PENANAE21lF0pdST
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大家心知犯錯的不是我,奈何人是怕事的,只好把我推上斷頭台。事後,一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。896Please respect copyright.PENANAJJkYrhTBVr
896Please respect copyright.PENANABKyTm5cyIz
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。896Please respect copyright.PENANALCgptNJrJk
896Please respect copyright.PENANAQITncEOsZc
剛巧,一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。896Please respect copyright.PENANAn9raiWg5aA
896Please respect copyright.PENANACqWKEiqsOx
快意,笑了。
酒吧,喝酒。896Please respect copyright.PENANAgwx0rBkP4x
896Please respect copyright.PENANAUd4glvAZdH
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎?為何現在也怕酒起來?」男同事笑問。896Please respect copyright.PENANA8mhCrKujJ6
896Please respect copyright.PENANA7g1vhD8lQX
「其實,我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。896Please respect copyright.PENANAtyyvPdjf7y
896Please respect copyright.PENANAvILao1hzsV
「還是……你根本不會喝酒?」他哈哈大笑。896Please respect copyright.PENANAt3fuOJ11Xx
896Please respect copyright.PENANA5qaDA3zJxf
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲,我突然變得不大抗拒,乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。896Please respect copyright.PENANAdym437yQMo
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醉倒。896Please respect copyright.PENANAgQuEf829cE
896Please respect copyright.PENANAwX4zq2eVjV
迷糊間,我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體,不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲,想要到它的洞穴去……896Please respect copyright.PENANAyM9lzbaEO2
896Please respect copyright.PENANApyFS1MEhKC
「上天取走你的一扇門,定會留給你一扇窗。」896Please respect copyright.PENANAHVWl02qVgB
896Please respect copyright.PENANAxipv3lfr5m
今趟,上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。
假期,醫院。896Please respect copyright.PENANA2X4JZAsMNa
896Please respect copyright.PENANATJx9cNfr6r
媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病,還未明確,因為報告要待下星期才會完成。896Please respect copyright.PENANA2abxgZYphU
896Please respect copyright.PENANAV9Uhq01akQ
看見媽的時候,家中各人都是淚眼漣漣,很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。896Please respect copyright.PENANA3ui8Td6ZCD
896Please respect copyright.PENANAfjpag7VNBs
「我覺得……」近幾天,媽的話都變得斷斷續續:「自己……」896Please respect copyright.PENANA6c0xBpTSY3
896Please respect copyright.PENANApBuJxvlrVj
大家都屏息靜氣,深怕這是她的最後一句話。896Please respect copyright.PENANAclPA45cjuo
896Please respect copyright.PENANAQp8PTFdF8P
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音,輕如柔絲,但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。896Please respect copyright.PENANA7Ui29SGSLA
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死寂。896Please respect copyright.PENANAue0SO61uBu
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出乎我意料,這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話,不論是肉體還是心靈上。
回家,晚飯。896Please respect copyright.PENANAVZhiWM5Xv1
896Please respect copyright.PENANAnaFHRueFhz
一枱六椅,異常的沉默。電視的聲浪,掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意,繼續吃。896Please respect copyright.PENANAsUqmScd9Sv
896Please respect copyright.PENANAuwcGA1CxWS
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子:「不如外出吃飯。」896Please respect copyright.PENANANeViUhFHQX
896Please respect copyright.PENANAibxot4PSRf
妹放下筷子衝進房內,甩門;姨低下頭來,但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見;婆呆了,眼眶紅潤;我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。896Please respect copyright.PENANAhviRvb8r0V
896Please respect copyright.PENANAUiXjE82tgH
我心想:世界末日來臨後,地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻?
每次望著媽,心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣,彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。896Please respect copyright.PENANA1O0thxyGXX
896Please respect copyright.PENANAJ0jvPKwX6Q
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑!就是因為她是一隻螞蟻,所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭,去減輕她的負擔。896Please respect copyright.PENANAsTYHrqkuis
896Please respect copyright.PENANArHdjMGTalP
久而久之,我每次一見到她,便會掉頭走。896Please respect copyright.PENANAHiyRI4PKlr
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但我知道,我永沒能走遠。
男友家,床上。896Please respect copyright.PENANAOIgmSVbshi
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前奏後,男友進入極度興奮狀態,沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時,我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。896Please respect copyright.PENANA3zjyTpjnV3
896Please respect copyright.PENANAxfHpTwF6eK
産房內有一張床,床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了,是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示,她要生産了。不消一會,整張床上都是幼蟻,恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。896Please respect copyright.PENANAv2mlt7S6pN
896Please respect copyright.PENANAeTwZafZGmW
我驚恐萬分之際,耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音:「他朝君體也相同!」896Please respect copyright.PENANAwrWFMkMnOy
896Please respect copyright.PENANAO02pTTNwAs
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮,於是更用力……
舊生聚會,內地某酒家。896Please respect copyright.PENANAbFmER8Fbym
896Please respect copyright.PENANAr3J9IqK9jo
說也奇怪,舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意,說會給我們驚喜。896Please respect copyright.PENANAvz6ZMqiphV
896Please respect copyright.PENANATrloDVJOHa
「蟻宴?」我呆了,但逃不了。896Please respect copyright.PENANAyQAHQ0A3kp
896Please respect copyright.PENANA0WKpEU1gMl
「你有收看《天與地》嗎?」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。896Please respect copyright.PENANAVCmCFDNEZU
896Please respect copyright.PENANARnSDYxmAv7
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼!」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。896Please respect copyright.PENANAV68GLO0wad
896Please respect copyright.PENANA9GdTmhD2mf
「結局何如?」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。896Please respect copyright.PENANA675iZ5mBP2
896Please respect copyright.PENANAaJAjbW5HXH
「沒好下場!」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。896Please respect copyright.PENANAiMya28BnAl
896Please respect copyright.PENANAL0H9jHOE2Y
「對!沒好下場!」我在心裡重覆著,衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。
男友有很多恐怖的寵物:蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時,他都會放一些寵物在床邊,以增加他的性趣。896Please respect copyright.PENANA7aBNhal4PC
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今趟,床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後,我不經意的問道:「你的寵物呢?」896Please respect copyright.PENANAmmEQunqbxa
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「在你體內。」896Please respect copyright.PENANAba2W0zxTQG
896Please respect copyright.PENANAqp6CksscK4
「甚麼?」896Please respect copyright.PENANAPYDQj6FKv3
896Please respect copyright.PENANAvijbtwaNtb
「蟻。」
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。896Please respect copyright.PENANAwNgk1JDBoz
896Please respect copyright.PENANAcOV5tjV6oC
它平常會做甚麼?做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯,它會做的事真的很多,但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活!它最好立刻消失!896Please respect copyright.PENANAYVp3gnOGXJ
896Please respect copyright.PENANA9fygJMn4s2
結果,我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。
靈堂上,我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。896Please respect copyright.PENANAuRa159nsj6
896Please respect copyright.PENANA9r6C2YlFX1
「她真的死了嗎?」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊,但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。896Please respect copyright.PENANA45rIre1A4X
896Please respect copyright.PENANAbSjKlltUrm
「誰?」另一聲音反問。896Please respect copyright.PENANAT4A4g9NMkK
896Please respect copyright.PENANAlo4aETXOY3
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道:「她……」896Please respect copyright.PENANAid0QTGAnOc
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靜。896Please respect copyright.PENANAZQ4ak6u6d7
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我回過神來,低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。
我:「我的耳朵有毛病嗎?為何會聽到螞蟻講話?」896Please respect copyright.PENANAN4rkOVdpe6
896Please respect copyright.PENANAgwlXTzk6Lt
醫:「不。是你的壓力過大,導致有幻聽。」896Please respect copyright.PENANALFXFY8KD4u
896Please respect copyright.PENANAOM6yFCcgNT
我:「我有精神病?」896Please respect copyright.PENANAwmAc7Neyx7
896Please respect copyright.PENANAlU37ozWivT
醫:「是情緒病。」896Please respect copyright.PENANA50owcZT2rz
896Please respect copyright.PENANAHIb6CJA4Td
我:「怎麼辦?」896Please respect copyright.PENANALicwhsV9C4
896Please respect copyright.PENANAJ9l580U1Hz
醫:「我會處方一些藥物,你要按時服用;另外,你也要多休息……」896Please respect copyright.PENANAUGyu1FMLym
896Please respect copyright.PENANAg8vBOLvmG5
我:「謝謝醫生。」896Please respect copyright.PENANAm4h6d0TPeW
896Please respect copyright.PENANATkQbZFvprD
醫:「不用謝。」896Please respect copyright.PENANADeKhFGGFYh
896Please respect copyright.PENANANXmWvWjFfW
離開診所時,我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。896Please respect copyright.PENANAoWwGeTlOoZ
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不,我走近細看,是「虫馬虫義」專科。
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻?896Please respect copyright.PENANAYstHr6YrVa
896Please respect copyright.PENANAIzUStNyy0D
醫生替我作身體檢查,一切正常;896Please respect copyright.PENANAR4tzH3oHm8
896Please respect copyright.PENANA8VwG9wy0kW
男友向我解釋,螞蟻之說,純粹幽默;896Please respect copyright.PENANAwbiDevyk8J
896Please respect copyright.PENANAe7Fp7mQkFn
同事都勸我休息,減少工作量;896Please respect copyright.PENANAeSxbMN2FAM
896Please respect copyright.PENANAbhvjv7kOYS
……896Please respect copyright.PENANAdPDv0BObDw
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「真的有蟻在我體內!」我尖叫,奪門而出,從天台一躍而下,肝腦塗地。896Please respect copyright.PENANAEaPa3qv5yg
896Please respect copyright.PENANAX9PhvNU2qR
臨死前,我看見那東西了——不是蟻,是……