天亮，上班。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp37iIpaTfb
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe86SYdYtyo
擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVATbKlZYGe
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaThhViJ39W
車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKJiq1Hw8Gu
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn6m2Tohb47
食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNIezFrlqow
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjL7zXWB0B0
到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmTmqNQYuUX
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsPgsEHyRX7
看不見，罷。
天黑，下班。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzTlZ4Xfk3A
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXbOX294eSj
身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQyYA2zIY8
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD93eObGbIU
「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw3KiNLPmHF
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdQBmtrX9sd
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCbqcOWi7wR
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoowiSHudUr
「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9vryCS7zuM
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Z0JPLmQsY
「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl0OYzm4WL7
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTa8zWbktQf
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。
公司，午飯時間。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJbzm34dKeE
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsqOdNyvyIx
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB8YssXe2ah
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsuz230wAaA
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ204JqwJIpc
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡL2cgH1WL5t
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtmawFmHnsX
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5n3vQG2BOB
還是……981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSrvnwI3PeC
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAgSEm08l9B
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！
公司，工作。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdYL4QqJ10G
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPcT4Iv6v7P
被上司罵個狗血淋頭。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2gpyyXwDni
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDj20ZM7IAP
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3JDHJXyboq
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN1Q6WPubt4
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlzolXhRnaL
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuDKV6FEjOa
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZWCYBXJ55h
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaPaGBE9XJA
快意，笑了。
酒吧，喝酒。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH5LwxfPput
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb1buUALkFI
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9Pn7rMD2mk
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbdINEETqk3
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlGeGkbSmEc
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfydqGipKQF
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj8kISNT2iN
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKyVOE10RF6
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJiaNqXv4CJ
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYu1RmF7a3H
醉倒。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ68gKAbY1yq
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUE4A9Gdjc8
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxE5YauoONG
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFY3AHk2bRb
「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwGtJYWipoS
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzE8Xtfn0wv
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。
假期，醫院。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfoKc4hd589
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhjj9teTXo2
媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzw71yRfNtZ
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVETu5CBTnZ
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiWskPSARB8
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡo0NRYE78NT
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpNrjQBd0l9
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ67mOiJJpMv
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3D5Rl7Gu5
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3WklhSL1dH
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIwAOumR5pJ
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkSG7ac65wn
死寂。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNn0Z0oBCKD
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwbNLBJP6Kx
出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。
回家，晚飯。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGsZllgIsAZ
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv9B5CIrlZp
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRlr6m9JcO
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0Ed3ACyVDw
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡC9JN6fTNnt
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14dcxdTxTz
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6l52zWDaea
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH4smokrCAm
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡapxSrd0G20
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡR4nq9xIDv2
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmKGtPOSgIZ
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqHmN7Iq3tW
久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRCXMFCKAgI
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhYaEYpl1Og
但我知道，我永沒能走遠。
男友家，床上。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgunhHsz0zp
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡA8o3D0nLYz
前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvnJ6nyqP3e
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdCGnCq4Pif
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgxWXASnrPE
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLf1BF3apZc
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUyBQQquXH8
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5DO8fHMTJp
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlKpZrcdWh3
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3om16yyhYY
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiQQEZQSPDJ
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY3cadKRQyJ
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ97ct3gW6xA
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkb0UO12fu7
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMSsLDQg3Qy
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHhksQbygoH
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjzKpLlbTsr
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ14R3CLbKJ5
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3UyNW4tqgA
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCB3ZisotSX
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlOJgLO21H
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcPavVOBNqz
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJY5v5Z41BQ
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZp1sIvuS2Z
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWvC6EcxCBu
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡls568ofa3E
「在你體內。」981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGuYhzSlm9R
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBFbsefIrmY
「甚麼？」981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwOXagpbCoZ
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjAQ8MEv7O4
「蟻。」
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPBuKDMqr9L
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfcqtG89VD5
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKVwnxQZkGr
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Qdz99Akwh
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAUPAf80ekd
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTgpLgYIHB1
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡHMelPmuhSQ
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtcBVmeKVgm
「誰？」另一聲音反問。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuAwcYcjN4W
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnfDTHRDeCg
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeSzf1WT2UN
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJClczT6Jro
靜。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJZ1ND4bqy1
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZNQfqNIxmD
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGMNnow9dK8
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCnbIoJF2z
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡleJK1XywBs
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvH0hSHyFyS
我：「我有精神病？」981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcnmkp6YGEs
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4qWSu2wXkc
醫：「是情緒病。」981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKHlLuYq8pb
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0wh7P19HJN
我：「怎麼辦？」981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡENha8BXanT
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvGLRP1rTg
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbRSHHIS2Js
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUTBslunsLS
我：「謝謝醫生。」981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOC9LYAtvmu
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvKrNjM0J4A
醫：「不用謝。」981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsZNeFSo9Kw
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxBn6e4Lnr
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg89QBvQp5w
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfI6RAPbw6R
不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNYJhzQS4lR
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAWKA1dpEaJ
醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrD4SS98Zl0
981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsCqqgYJytn
男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；981Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ915GzjQIr8
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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