天亮，上班。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRN35c2bTEv
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擠進人山人海的車廂，心竟是難得的平靜。看著人們專注把玩手中的電子玩物，我心中更覺異常的安全。畢竟，好不容易才能擺脫熟人的注意。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡny3jceoucI
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車廂一如往常，平穩中帶輕微搖晃，教本已帶睡意的乘客更為昏昏欲睡。有些嘴饞的人不理會廣播的呼籲，繼續進食，令人側目。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpJ0OB0F0C4
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6KUqCnHNfD
食物的細碎，像沙子一樣，在人們毫不注意的情況下，悄然掉在地上，再被無意地踏個粉碎。在接著的數個車站，人們再肆意加以踐踏，令碎粉再度粉碎。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡebEX3pjkQ6
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到站了，我有意無意地繞過人羣，「不經意」踏中那些有數隻小蟻的食物碎粉，心中是一陣少有的快意。幕門關上，我回頭望進車廂，想要看看被我蹂躪過的碎粉，但列車經已開駛。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIUa4NEUoeT
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看不見，罷。
天黑，下班。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXvkdYUX4aZ
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr3MZs1Tcj9
身心俱疲。好不容易才與同路的男同事擠進車廂，繼續講上司的壞話。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF3SVIVnrj8
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRUHDJAGHtG
「有蟻。」男同事突然指著快由我鞋面爬到小腿的一隻小螞蟻。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKzcJmqVMMi
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtBv9l9gHXm
我呆了。腦海中一片空白。不！有一個很遙遠的身影。那是誰？我看不見……我不想看見……984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ26eS1yZgi2
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcZTqCJPY7c
「啪」的一聲，男同事一手拍在我的小腿上，那隻螞蟻——扁了。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtW4u1bGLBB
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAS0MIdObwj
「沒事了！」他笑了笑，問我：「你很怕小昆蟲？」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy38hRCwkrP
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvkH9DIsxf7
「不，只是怕蟻。」我感覺到，我的唇還在顫抖，但卻仍勉力一笑。
公司，午飯時間。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ88lvgXlzew
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpRFMHdfi8e
甲小姐正在上網看劇；乙先生在打盹；丙小姐外出吃飯去；丁先生仍在享用他那巨型飯盒；戊小姐……984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjVqhJGqjnz
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOuQDq0QpA3
看著同事們的百態，我突然覺得自己和他們一樣，都是很渺小的生命體，小得……有點兒……像……螞蟻。這是我最不想要看到的事，尤其是發生在我自己身上。大家營役勞碌，不也是只為求兩餐溫飽嗎？那與盲目求存的螞蟻有何分別？984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYz9SkJDOk1
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfQQyoVQIIp
驀地，我看見一隻螞蟻在我手背上路過，卻沒意識去按扁它。我把手輕輕放在枱面上，讓它自然而然的爬走。看著它在牆角消失，我感到自己也消失了似的。
其實，真正的我只是一隻螞蟻，不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己變成人類，過著那荒唐無稽的生活。那種生活，是有目的的付出，有希望的付出。每天朝著那所謂的「希望」跑，多奢侈！無他，這就是意義。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvzcYg1XkIH
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還是……984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD7cZ99SpRc
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4vhT0VJLw
其實，真正的我只是一個渺小的人類。不過會偶爾做白日夢，幻想自己是一隻蟻，過著那種沒頭沒腦的生活。那種生活很乏味，只懂一味尋找食物。無他，這就是生存！
公司，工作。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVc0HqEDCp4
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被上司罵個狗血淋頭。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2dI4xvnc7o
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhlhvHm67TU
大家心知犯錯的不是我，奈何人是怕事的，只好把我推上斷頭台。事後，一句道歉或安慰也欠奉。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡehMvWeqfCI
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡijNXM6AEO6
很難過。我只好躲進廁格稍作自我冷靜。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP771Mgwzs4
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6PJsEBHhAV
剛巧，一隻螞蟻經過廁格。我毫不猶豫一腳踏扁它。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ83O1cA8a3O
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ35kRDdTkMZ
快意，笑了。
酒吧，喝酒。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnYEJTB8L7l
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUH0tFS4OHP
「你不是只怕螞蟻而已嗎？為何現在也怕酒起來？」男同事笑問。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJw1T1JLHc9
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXOHCkEITbK
「其實，我不大好喝酒。」我怯怯的道。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFVdAt5NLz
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8NUPv6GMQ6
「還是……你根本不會喝酒？」他哈哈大笑。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnkkpQGPPq7
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVWnnIjqJXq
聽著他那豁然開朗開朗的笑聲，我突然變得不大抗拒，乾脆把小杯裡的酒一飲而盡。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWCSNvuWtvl
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ314MNs1I71
醉倒。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRSK9Phfjcj
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ16coLjkF3F
迷糊間，我看見男同事以螞蟻姿態爬上我的身體，不停遊走於每吋肌膚。他似乎沒停下來的意欲，想要到它的洞穴去……984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4sBLdsgjVJ
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「上天取走你的一扇門，定會留給你一扇窗。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqw655EgFsi
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡix6YpKmw9i
今趟，上天留給我一隻螞蟻。我給其取名為「男朋友」。
假期，醫院。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡid4xSFG9bH
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡePY4wVdyFN
媽就在這間醫院裡。她患了甚麼病，還未明確，因為報告要待下星期才會完成。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡksmomUITao
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7qK9JKt2Ud
看見媽的時候，家中各人都是淚眼漣漣，很憂心。這種氣氛令健壯的人也難免感到窒息。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqySwd4QTco
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZKF7O6HT2p
「我覺得……」近幾天，媽的話都變得斷斷續續：「自己……」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKOrhwLZH21
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡx233P3TIBo
大家都屏息靜氣，深怕這是她的最後一句話。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7znFhAdgIq
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡK4OCwKStlj
「自己是……一隻螞蟻……」她的聲音，輕如柔絲，但我知道大家都聽得很清楚。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDotvadm7W9
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死寂。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbhAh9wASN1
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出乎我意料，這竟是她講得最清楚的一句話，不論是肉體還是心靈上。
回家，晚飯。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW64V2fkSXp
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO4puxUrY8m
一枱六椅，異常的沉默。電視的聲浪，掩不住大家的咀嚼聲——大家口中的食物似乎比鋼鐵更硬。我裝作不以為意，繼續吃。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWeNtL7D56T
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94T4lvKWX2
「很難吃。」爸突然放下筷子：「不如外出吃飯。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlY4IqYN7U2
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjJ47XFq3k
妹放下筷子衝進房內，甩門；姨低下頭來，但她盯著枱上菜餚的怒目卻仍清晰可見；婆呆了，眼眶紅潤；我默默望著對面牆身上一隻偶然經過的螞蟻。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCHfv5gWC2
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoo7MiNydB5
我心想：世界末日來臨後，地球會否只剩下這隻螞蟻？
每次望著媽，心中都生起莫名的感覺。我的腦海裡浮現出一隻螞蟻的模樣，彷彿她根本就是一隻螞蟻。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCO1xfgzs6T
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7zxtmLbXKO
一隻螞蟻在做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……多可笑！就是因為她是一隻螞蟻，所以我從沒有幫忙做家務的念頭，去減輕她的負擔。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgrCd52Aeyl
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久而久之，我每次一見到她，便會掉頭走。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnJbWVcj0Sn
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但我知道，我永沒能走遠。
男友家，床上。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1OcIPm3oLs
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ81dnXpGCxH
前奏後，男友進入極度興奮狀態，沒注意到我正在放空自己。在他還在我身上冒汗之時，我的思緒又飛往遙遠的他方去了——産房。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI1A1oyMSEA
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlHB5Dab01O
産房內有一張床，床上有一隻非常細小的蟻后。她痛得不得了，是産婦們口中的十級痛楚。那表示，她要生産了。不消一會，整張床上都是幼蟻，恐怖非常。但她的身體卻沒停止的意識。現在幼蟻已攻陷整個産房、整間醫院、整個世界。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9bxXDz1RHJ
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhUkyxe6FZj
我驚恐萬分之際，耳邊傳來蟻后的淒怨聲音：「他朝君體也相同！」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG4paPx1yme
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡv00CyExp6v
床上的我驚叫。男友以為我也感到興奮，於是更用力……
舊生聚會，內地某酒家。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaRPyBLHhkm
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIv6rslkhlu
說也奇怪，舊生聚會竟會選擇在內地舉行。聽聞是聚會發起人的主意，說會給我們驚喜。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ60bb7OR36H
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1Hfkzs3rsJ
「蟻宴？」我呆了，但逃不了。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy2qvh8cAmx
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlQq2dwf8XV
「你有收看《天與地》嗎？」舊生甲吃一口紅蟻炒蛋。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbrPACZRhyY
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmD0iVqru8h
「有。人吃人那幕很震撼！」乙滿口黑蟻殘肢。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsREiF7i3Oa
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj6vrZnsr92
「結局何如？」丙一口氣喝下半碗白蟻湯。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcR4rIk44A
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXBt4KSRcfQ
「沒好下場！」丁邊說邊給我一碗黃蟻糖水。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9co9ELV9qt
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzQEUmWDcyM
「對！沒好下場！」我在心裡重覆著，衝到洗手間嘔吐大作。
男友有很多恐怖的寵物：蛇、蜥蝪、蜘蛛……每次做愛時，他都會放一些寵物在床邊，以增加他的性趣。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkeVjyXmkzS
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmY2XwPkrW5
今趟，床邊竟無任何寵物的蹤影。我暗喜。完事後，我不經意的問道：「你的寵物呢？」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj9bCkG7CyQ
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBC7sQjfWk
「在你體內。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ610U4BdS7S
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvdJbAgmqOI
「甚麼？」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2rAs5yTQZU
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2NzP7IvZ1y
「蟻。」
有一隻螞蟻住在我心內。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlrChGNQIc
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDoVzOPX9W
它平常會做甚麼？做菜煮飯、洗衣拖地、燙衫抹窗……嗯，它會做的事真的很多，但從沒理會過我的感受。它憑甚麼闖進我的心、我的生活！它最好立刻消失！984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1uHUtkyaK
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhQKzVMAcXO
結果，我生命中其中一隻螞蟻真的消失了。我依稀記得它的名字是「媽」。
靈堂上，我一再向來賓欠身鞠躬。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGUbmE4ouTN
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0EIZv96338
「她真的死了嗎？」某君的聲音傳到我耳邊，但我心知那不是靈堂裡的人。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡX7o6Cv642H
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSiDMz9Qvhh
「誰？」另一聲音反問。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTzhhn26CeO
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKqGDYTt2Pq
「二九三號表妹。」某君不耐煩的道：「她……」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8BHj1tEkHg
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkowEbLNZ33
靜。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOB1UwT96gN
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF0TdBRC172
我回過神來，低頭一看——我剛不經意踏扁兩隻小蟻。
我：「我的耳朵有毛病嗎？為何會聽到螞蟻講話？」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLgIVe5Wer2
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡatERwHLSlO
醫：「不。是你的壓力過大，導致有幻聽。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8cNX2O4Ol8
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCqkECw0o5n
我：「我有精神病？」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtzdBa5WVDm
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsecoWRaCCR
醫：「是情緒病。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMvKyskEL6L
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUVV1n0e3MN
我：「怎麼辦？」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlMDs8pFSm1
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljKqE2yRHg
醫：「我會處方一些藥物，你要按時服用；另外，你也要多休息……」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdZEydwx9Ek
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRmfMa2y3UF
我：「謝謝醫生。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy8gDsqZgDZ
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxoq6UjiXUq
醫：「不用謝。」984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoxMNn6lgNZ
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzr3TAIDmZD
離開診所時，我回頭望一望地上的廣告牌——「馬義專科」。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsWlP4kmwf8
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiwoS1bhGs4
不，我走近細看，是「虫馬虫義」專科。
總覺得體內有東西在蠶食著我。是蟻？984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJM9NFLtyK8
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBUiOLk9UHJ
醫生替我作身體檢查，一切正常；984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjhc3UmR1fz
984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJL95mnfgBl
男友向我解釋，螞蟻之說，純粹幽默；984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsQX9FNrtd
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「真的有蟻在我體內！」我尖叫，奪門而出，從天台一躍而下，肝腦塗地。984Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ76s6RSpjm7
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臨死前，我看見那東西了——不是蟻，是……
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