(歌詞來源:薩頂頂〈萬物生〉、〈自由行走的花〉)276Please respect copyright.PENANA2lvhY5nFLa
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2163年10月9日,下午三點,凝雪寺276Please respect copyright.PENANAN1wXbuwxpx
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「……成功了?」276Please respect copyright.PENANAfF7KwqR3gQ
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凝雪寺,蜘蛛糖的系統將檸檬的狀況,告訴正在掃落葉的羅笙。276Please respect copyright.PENANAFslPagk2a5
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「『與利維坦同步』……做得好,安琪。」276Please respect copyright.PENANA2nAyYluGe8
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得知好消息,羅笙感到驕傲,嘴角竟不自覺上揚,也是他這些年第一次,為白絃以外的事微笑。276Please respect copyright.PENANAuWDEv38yRi
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「只要利維坦穩定,就能應用在實戰,我們的勝算會更大。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAOpIXYQL3BZ
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思索到一半,羅笙看見郭凝羽朝這邊走來,似乎有事找他。276Please respect copyright.PENANAsrrFoTg5Cx
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「凝羽,怎麼了?」276Please respect copyright.PENANAFr3RQcKZFt
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「……。」276Please respect copyright.PENANA8wFDjqcZgV
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郭凝羽沒有笑,表情莫名沉重。羅笙覺得奇怪,直到郭凝羽的嘴吐出玫瑰花瓣,他才意識到不對勁。276Please respect copyright.PENANAgf1xIdQ8sK
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「這是什麼?」276Please respect copyright.PENANAcA4q1tt94o
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紅色的玫瑰花瓣,落在羅笙剛掃好、成堆的枯葉上。他抓著郭凝羽的肩膀,著急問:「誰用的?高宇維,還是我姊姊?」276Please respect copyright.PENANAk9UOlFEK3r
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「……。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAFxbXk3OrDf
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郭凝羽沒有回答,冰涼的手牽著羅笙,示意他跟上。276Please respect copyright.PENANAkzr1cQN4Qk
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跟在郭凝羽後面,羅笙沿著樓梯,來到漆黑的地下室。這是郭凝羽平時打坐的地方,羅笙從沒來過。276Please respect copyright.PENANAd8YJ3gjdjB
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郭凝羽點亮蠟燭,一共九盞,幽微的火光照亮地下室,羅笙看見包圍他們的佛像,每尊都有一層樓高。郭凝羽示意中間的位子,兩人面對面坐下。276Please respect copyright.PENANADtecwK1e2m
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「從前冬天冷呀,夏天雨呀,水呀。」276Please respect copyright.PENANADbck0oYuJ2
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「妳說此時屋後,有白茫茫的雪呀。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAiVfIImomhS
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郭凝羽開口,冰涼的手依然牽著羅笙。她沒有唱歌,而是一字一句唸著。羅笙屏氣凝神,不敢說話。276Please respect copyright.PENANArJN2UqjFd6
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「我看見鶴在寂寞,兩條魚上飛。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAVxiU84uPNG
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「兩條魚兒,穿過海一樣鹹的水。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAv8VSSKrvho
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語畢,周圍的佛像、牆壁、地板……所有一切遁入黑暗,彷彿被吸入深淵,只有白色的蜘蛛網亮著,粉紅色的鶴穿梭於蜘蛛網間,還有兩條藍色的魚,他們游在一起。276Please respect copyright.PENANAZvr7ofsCaV
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「這是……妳眼裡的世界嗎?」276Please respect copyright.PENANAvZPxIGZs6T
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羅笙和郭凝羽兩人,都坐在網的中央。她將看到的、聽到的,透過牽在一起的手,分享給她的眷屬羅笙。郭凝羽的眼睛看不見塵世,卻能看見別的、只有位於網中央的蜘蛛,才能看見的東西。276Please respect copyright.PENANAfickV7ZVvc
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「春天遠處傳來妳的聲音,暖呀暖呀。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAbbHZ9FowH2
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「山谷裡有血色花瓣,在大風裡飄呀。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAovtNSLCUYW
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羅笙抬頭,發現郭凝羽上方,有個不同於蜘蛛網、完全不一樣的世界,和煦的陽光從那個世界灑下,和郭凝羽的婚戒連在一起。276Please respect copyright.PENANApf52OVfnR6
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「仙境……?」276Please respect copyright.PENANAxQ3SWuzdNX
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羅笙想的沒錯,那是羅琳娜的仙境。凡是第一代水果塔,都是白絃記憶的一部分。儘管成為蜘蛛,「笑臉」與羅琳娜的連結始終存在,白絃沒有忘記她。276Please respect copyright.PENANAubkgYAa0kR
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然而,正是與仙境的連結,羅笙看見不屬於羅琳娜,也不屬於郭凝羽的東西──花瓣。276Please respect copyright.PENANArDerjnFClu
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血紅色的玫瑰,纏繞著仙境的光,深根於郭凝羽體內,所以她吐出了花。若不予理會,玫瑰會蔓延到蜘蛛網上。276Please respect copyright.PENANAQpCluzY1k5
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「兩朵玫瑰,落滿天蛾的灰。」276Please respect copyright.PENANA7YkXhtbYMg
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「一片春天,遇見鏡子破碎。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAMGryPEfbWx
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為了羅笙,為了檸檬,為了利維坦,郭凝羽做出選擇──她的婚戒裂成兩半。郭凝羽割斷玫瑰,割斷陽光,割斷與羅琳娜的連結,割斷水果塔的一切。276Please respect copyright.PENANAV19TwU3xs3
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「咳咳……咳咳咳……!」276Please respect copyright.PENANAos0yfxOSKz
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婚戒破裂,郭凝羽放開羅笙,摀著嘴巴咳嗽。他們回到地下室,羅笙再次看見那些佛像,蜘蛛網不見蹤影。276Please respect copyright.PENANABjBAY2CXeP
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「凝羽!」276Please respect copyright.PENANADilulXDZXn
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羅笙攙扶,郭凝羽不停地咳,成堆的紅色花瓣被吐到地上。直到玫瑰離開她的身體,郭凝羽才停止咳嗽,變回平常的她。276Please respect copyright.PENANAxFCT36FWT1
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「……。」276Please respect copyright.PENANA16opDt20kT
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她微笑,沒有和羅笙多說。郭凝羽起身,當他們回到一樓,羅笙看見寺外的地板,結冰的湖面全部崩裂,冰塊在水中載浮載沉,慢慢溶化。276Please respect copyright.PENANA6QJeQehxqU
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「凝羽,妳的水果塔……!」276Please respect copyright.PENANAgPPUIWWmJN
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如冰之火,如火之冰──當郭凝羽斷開仙境,「笑臉」的水果塔自此消失。她拒絕仙境,拒絕羅琳娜,拒絕與艾莉絲共鳴;現在的她只是蜘蛛,沒有別的身分。276Please respect copyright.PENANAJhVjvGbSa8
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「如果你只是等待愛情,她不會悄悄的來。」276Please respect copyright.PENANARXeWHuVImM
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抱著琵琶,郭凝羽開口唱著,赤腳踩在冰冷的大地。276Please respect copyright.PENANAY70hnrKhFq
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「人兒呀,祈求花兒,讓他能得到永遠。」276Please respect copyright.PENANA8OgJy3AIDH
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一百年,郭凝羽求佛;佛勸她放下,談何容易?276Please respect copyright.PENANAj565BrQlWn
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她等,等無緣變有緣,仍是一場空,有緣也成了無緣。276Please respect copyright.PENANAkCVn01nlXw
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「就在這個冬天,雪花片片從天上飄下。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAZyw4jQnVCx
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「雪蓮花在這一刻,變成了片片的雪花。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAeAIieaF6Dq
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如果仙境來自白絃的執著,蜘蛛有何資格,說羅琳娜看不到現在?276Please respect copyright.PENANAQKIV1wh3CK
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郭凝羽瘋,但她不傻;瘋了百年,蜘蛛有人格,也有原則。276Please respect copyright.PENANAfsO3hgLI32
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「所有的人兒,在雪中找到了永遠的家。」276Please respect copyright.PENANA40jAqISI2R
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「從此後,懂得永遠的你,找到了熟悉的他。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAriSn3Ep0dv
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因果輪迴,在劫難逃,誰也躲不掉。郭凝羽救一個,是一個。276Please respect copyright.PENANAIC6QCgyxgs
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希望,還來得及。276Please respect copyright.PENANAK6xiJKkizZ
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2163年10月9日,下午四點,大眾媒體E區276Please respect copyright.PENANAjJyaaZJufP
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「郭さん……?」276Please respect copyright.PENANAAp4tL6xBiO
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那一刻,包含假海龜在內的水果塔,都感知到仙境裡,名為「笑臉」的存在已經消失。雖然郭凝羽是蜘蛛,遲早與他們分道揚鑣,但事出突然,NAGI還是覺得奇怪。276Please respect copyright.PENANALJTIRUf2w5
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「媽媽?」276Please respect copyright.PENANAHZSxqiZJcO
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正在泡溫泉的MIO抬頭,看著坐在岩石上的NAGI,問:「怎麼了?」276Please respect copyright.PENANAsQ9lSzejQL
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「郭さん……笑臉不見了。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAc2EHOSdB0t
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NAGI一說,MIO和遠在B區的李博洋都愣住。MIO知道李博洋想問什麼,代替發問:「被羅琳娜遺忘了嗎?」276Please respect copyright.PENANA5nQb9KlsdO
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「不,雖然白さん處境不妙,但真要忘記,第一個被遺忘的會是黛娜,不會是笑臉。」NAGI思考,「我想,是她自己脫離的,機率比較大。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAomkcpPPkCg
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MIO歪頭,再幫李博洋問:「為什麼是現在?發生什麼事?」276Please respect copyright.PENANAuXRretftMo
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「我倒想問你們。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAqQp74j3tEd
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NAGI掀開面具,從嘴裡拿出一片玫瑰花瓣,問他倆:「這個,與你們期望的事有關嗎?」276Please respect copyright.PENANALBBxxFxQNn
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「噢!是晴煬!」276Please respect copyright.PENANAdSf6DW7Mrf
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神與畜內,MIO是唯一見過紅玫瑰和白玫瑰的成員,所以MIO異常興奮,迫不急待地說:276Please respect copyright.PENANA6xdYgtxtIJ
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「雖然不知道能幹嘛,但MIO和博洋保證,一定是快樂的事情喔!媽媽不用擔心!」276Please respect copyright.PENANA9nZRFffX3P
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「……。」276Please respect copyright.PENANABjnZoNxdQa
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女兒這麼說,NAGI便不再追問、扔掉花瓣,任其在體內滋長。凡是MIO期望的、喜歡的,她都無所謂。276Please respect copyright.PENANAvrJXfYnfeW
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「中村,晚餐準備好了。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAfIZctLJaeE
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突然,隔壁房屋傳來老人的聲音。MIO大喊「好耶!」,離開燙到爆炸的溫泉,換上浴衣、吹好頭髮。以前都要李博洋幫忙,她現在能一個人解決,MIO覺得自己很棒。276Please respect copyright.PENANANYFeUhr6Fy
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「中田,今天吃什麼?」276Please respect copyright.PENANA6vkGvGTtKp
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打開小屋的拉門,MIO跑到客廳、鑽進暖桌,跟幫她盛飯的老爺爺聊天。276Please respect copyright.PENANA2aFIVKPEfP
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「哇!是MIO今天釣的魚!」看見桌上的烤魚,MIO的眼睛閃閃發亮。276Please respect copyright.PENANAANF9JCSQX7
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「是,多虧中村,中田今天煮了魚,中田很會煮魚。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAxjqBEGSxqI
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眼前的老爺爺,正是最後一位證人──中田翔太,也是超過百歲的人瑞。中田一生都在Platinum工作,尤其與希波克拉底合作的醫療項目,中田因此接觸許多健康方面的知識,也是他長壽的原因之一。276Please respect copyright.PENANAXR5QBpCouA
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中田的妻子早已逝世,兒子女兒都有自己的家。退休後,中田一個人住在深山,每天去神社打掃、參拜,也是在那裡遇見MIO。怪的是,不管MIO怎麼糾正,中田都叫她「中村」。李博洋說,中田得了名字很長的病,阿什麼海默的,MIO記不起來。276Please respect copyright.PENANAmfh5Rjo82f
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「MIO,派翠克任務完成,剩下妳了。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAKbQwbZu8PZ
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吃晚餐時,MIO耳邊傳來羅俊的聲音。羅俊問MIO:「中田老人痴呆,是睡覺拿枕頭悶死、都不會掙扎的類型哪,MIO在等什麼?」276Please respect copyright.PENANA83XJMkGklx
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「別急,羅俊。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAEcg1Nw5Nzj
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回答的人是李博洋,他代替MIO說:「時間快了,不用擔心。」276Please respect copyright.PENANA5c131PJsZJ
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「你們上禮拜也講一樣的話。」羅俊抱怨:「搞不懂你們在想什麼……殺人不是你們的專長嗎?對象是手無寸鐵的老人,到底困難在哪?」276Please respect copyright.PENANAqGiABtR0u7
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「MIO知道自己在做什麼,我也一直看著。」李博洋擺出前輩的架式,教訓羅俊:「管好你自己,旁邊那位公主也是,不要質疑我們的判斷。想發牢騷,去找你的赫老大,他是牢騷界的勞斯萊斯。」276Please respect copyright.PENANADKBxCYSHjX
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語畢,羅俊被迫下線。MIO繼續吃晚餐,繼續和中田聊天。她想泡茶,中田卻拿走MIO的茶葉,表示:「中田不想喝中村泡的茶,中村泡的茶很難喝。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAPG0D9GIAVT
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「騙人!!」MIO伸手要搶茶葉,氣噗噗地說:「MIO每天泡給博洋喝,博洋喝得很開心,是中田的舌頭有問題!」276Please respect copyright.PENANA7TAMt9OZk4
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一老一小吵吵鬧鬧,MIO追著中田,兩人繞著暖桌跑來跑去,筷子都掉到榻榻米上。全程目睹的NAGI靠著壁櫥,戴著面具偷笑。276Please respect copyright.PENANA5rWldd8zsE
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最後,MIO還是搶到茶葉,中田必須喝又苦又燙的茶。看到桌上的魚,中田想起什麼,突然問MIO:「中村還記得嗎?小學的校外教學,老師帶我們去水族館,那裡有好多魚。」276Please respect copyright.PENANApDIuq4Hf9N
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「不記得。」MIO誠實回答:「MIO沒上過學,也沒有老師,但MIO和博洋去過水族館,看到很多企鵝。」276Please respect copyright.PENANALozlWZSANd
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「中田記得,中村那時候帶的便當是咖哩,是中村自己做的。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAzFqnmiahia
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中田好像沒聽到,自顧自地說:「中村很厲害,小學的時候就會煮飯,不像中田什麼都不會,因為中田很膽小。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAXuZe0OMEvG
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講到回憶,中田都會像這樣自言自語,聽不進別人的話。MIO打開中田家的古老電視,邊吃邊看,不予理會,反正中田也不會理她。276Please respect copyright.PENANAfPpHQyCWLB
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「如果中田勇敢一點就好了。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAbbpSAjVk77
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說到這,中田露出後悔的表情,垂頭喪氣地說:「如果中田勇敢一點,就可以救中村了。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAmXUqDo82Ey
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「……。」276Please respect copyright.PENANANeQhlzrKdE
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NAGI沉默,幸好中田看不見她,也幸好有面具,MIO看不到她的表情。276Please respect copyright.PENANAoGPpxMfMxa
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「都是中田的錯。」老人用手抹著眼淚,「中田沒有救中村,都是中田的錯。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAWOJecfUWBf
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「……。」276Please respect copyright.PENANAyUJOkRcAzO
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NAGI撇頭,看向壁櫥內,一件老舊的制服被中田放在最下層,和NAGI身上的制服是同款,男生繫的是藍色領帶,女生繫的是紅色領巾。276Please respect copyright.PENANAHmMyEBprAO
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