So, rather recently I've had this thought ambling around in the back of my mind. It's a thought that everyone has. It's a fear everyone has. This thought is something you never hope to be included in. This has just been stuck in my head for a while, I wanted to just get it out there.1407Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOPSydPkiRY
You see, there is a point in which everyone becomes second. There is a point in which someone else matters more. This point is what I like to call the Push Point. It is the point where you being to be pushed away. It is a point were you no longer seem to matter. 1407Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSqAL8Mts85
I feel like I am always at this point. 1407Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡneJIpSJjs7
I am the person who is second by nature and first, well, hardly ever. In people's minds, I suppose, I am someone who is replaceable. To lose me is to only fill that empty space with another me. 1407Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8evLhuKDCo
I wonder, am I so generic that I can so easily be replaced? 1407Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPitTBhY4Os
And God-forbid I speak up about my position or I really will be replaced. It feels like I don't matter enough. Do I have to be some kind of eccentric person to be accepted? Must I make myself more interesting and flattering to the eye? Do I have to change myself just to seem amazing enough to keep around?1407Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4vL2SKoHJV
Is that what people want nowadays? 1407Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIiPKDVS8RR
You know, I don't think I've ever really had a best friend. I've never been first, no one has ever chosen me for anything. I'm second-best. I have fair-weather friends who only want me when there is nothing better to do. 1407Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxjnKOqt9pv
My feelings don't matter to them. Only they do. They want help with their lives when I'm stuck with "I'm sorry". In todays society, I feel like we, as people, are being less and less in-tune with other people's feelings. The generations now seem to only care for themselves. 1407Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡp1AD02UB88
Maybe I'm being a hypocrite, I am apart of said generation. 1407Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqS9Z4xAwX
But I want to be cared for and loved so badly I can't stand it. Family is obligated to love me. I want someone who choses to. Maybe I'm being selfish and too egotistical about myself. I should feel lucky to have the family and "friends" that I have now. 1407Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS09f4ydBuk
But, I'm not. 1407Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuGeTnUx7eA
I guess its a human flaw: we always want more. We are never comfortable with what we already have. 1407Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcXtVAwEeoM
I complain a lot, it seems. Maybe I just have a lot to complain about or maybe I just need to be grateful for what I have. I know I'm not the only one. 1407Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0jFrBo36f7
- Ayame1407Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuyrTywjOcP
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