尋死的念頭一出現，我就被自己給嚇到了。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡChWa2ccEo4
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「妳瘋了嗎？」502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2FgkwPJQDe
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腦裡出現兩個我，理性的那個正在發飆，狠狠咒罵另一個我。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWXjiPw6xo
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而被罵的那個我，只是一個勁兒地哭。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCHeuOpvMV8
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我覺得自己隨時都會爆炸、衝動行事，便躲進被窩，用厚厚的被子蓋住全身，連頭都包在棉被裡，不讓任何光線進來。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡax8TdDlzuQ
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在充滿二氧化碳的被窩裡，我全身是汗，滿臉淚水。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwCIhAdw4se
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我側身把臉埋進枕頭，把尖叫送進布料與棉花裡。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbDXfEpaY0s
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我往自己的腳下看，有一片草原。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡww7m43Ldi3
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面前有一條石頭道路，盡頭是顆大樹。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcriO1K3xtV
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樹下站著一個人，太遠了，我看不清他的臉。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7ZJwHtAVyM
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所以我走近，愈走愈近，直到我看清楚他是誰。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFrJIjZ0nwu
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站在樹下的人是英傑。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmQb2RvOVVk
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我跑向他，勾住他的手。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGfNk4R9wW5
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他對我笑著，什麼話也沒說。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdFeAGfKM5L
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我像是要把這些日子以來，所有發生的事情都告訴他，開始滔滔不絕地講。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpFcx1zyVYd
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他陪著我走到我原本站的地方，就停下來。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYWpTR3zfeo
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我還在講，他轉頭看我，伸出手揉了我的頭，就像他每次做的那樣。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMabfyep2qJ
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我張開眼睛，才知道自己夢見英傑了。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfDJZbstiwM
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我開始懷疑起自己做這個夢的原因。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkEN0qj5tmM
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是太想念英傑了，還是壓力太大需要出口？502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKwTTU49PNS
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或是…他真的怎麼了，才到我夢裡來？502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwrG2yshoeI
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我心裡很害怕是後者，但我知道此時的自己無法找到真正的解答。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡr4ij55pZV9
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這個夢緩解了我的情緒，也瞬間恢復了大部分的理智。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0IkQpodyZ7
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不管是什麼原因，都是英傑救了我。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmagAGv6dPq
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我度過了心中的那個坎，日子雖然沒有改變，但我的心態改變了。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrjoSgnI6HA
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「沒錯，都是我選的。所以，我要更努力才行。」502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCG3McdPnh3
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雖然，從那個時候開始，過了很長一段借貸的日子。人都說救急不救窮，但我很幸運，擁有很多好朋友，如果我開口，他們總是不說二話的就拿錢給我；就算我死愛面子不開口，他們也會一直逼問是不是沒錢用。我拿著跟朋友借來的錢，繳家裡的房租、水電費、瓦斯費…然後在假日另外打零工還錢。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiKVFDl0snE
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高中的最後一個學期，我也差點因為沒能繳出學費而休學（當時已有就學貸款，但沒有考慮，只想著沒錢就去賺錢，別念書好了），但我那班不知該說是兄弟還是恩人的同學，硬是把一疊鈔票交到我手裡，要我慢慢還，要我和他們一起畢業。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQW0IPYGo0w
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我沒參加考試，畢業後直接去找了工作。我還清了錢，卻欠了好多人情債。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVJwNqMUein
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生活條件穩定之後，也談了戀愛，生活圈的人換了幾輪，越來越趨於穩定。
只是在我心底仍有一個空蕩的角落。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAt2vTOsiDd
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我還是沒有更換手機號碼，一直抱著小小的希望，502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivCJfxtcJX
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可我已在心裡默默地接受「英傑可能已經過世了」的事實。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjgTqeBaURu
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某天，我的皮夾不知在哪兒掉了，找也找不到。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ95E0OpcTC4
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我辦了卡片掛失，心裡希望有人撿到皮夾，會願意送還給我。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeEAlFQ0QkY
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這時，我才想起皮夾裡有英傑的照片，也想起我們說好要另外拍照留存的事。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLnknZUam8t
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我的皮夾沒回來，英傑唯一的照片也這麼沒了。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLWw4mIFjgI
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有時候，我會懷疑自己已經忘記他的長相，便努力回想那段日子，但畫面只是越來越模糊。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7OFHXDfckT
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一年、兩年、三年，當我漸漸淡忘這段過去的時候，我卻看見他了。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAv8zK1dbic
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在電視裡面。502Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdmuy6Ac8Yn
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