尋死的念頭一出現，我就被自己給嚇到了。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV12oY0RkOn
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「妳瘋了嗎？」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡP9aa2QpQVw
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腦裡出現兩個我，理性的那個正在發飆，狠狠咒罵另一個我。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpN3gsyuvRZ
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而被罵的那個我，只是一個勁兒地哭。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO60eLGuSXi
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我覺得自己隨時都會爆炸、衝動行事，便躲進被窩，用厚厚的被子蓋住全身，連頭都包在棉被裡，不讓任何光線進來。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGlSJR1MGji
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在充滿二氧化碳的被窩裡，我全身是汗，滿臉淚水。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGCRNSHi3h0
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我側身把臉埋進枕頭，把尖叫送進布料與棉花裡。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡY1m0gghLFY
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我往自己的腳下看，有一片草原。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6arHMogsSW
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面前有一條石頭道路，盡頭是顆大樹。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsoHooCqiyc
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樹下站著一個人，太遠了，我看不清他的臉。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljoPmHVwK3
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所以我走近，愈走愈近，直到我看清楚他是誰。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjOSHXZD20k
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站在樹下的人是英傑。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8RKnv2YzHo
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我跑向他，勾住他的手。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ747Ugag9j8
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他對我笑著，什麼話也沒說。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡE00vfTGgC5
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我像是要把這些日子以來，所有發生的事情都告訴他，開始滔滔不絕地講。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡblRKSmbSUr
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他陪著我走到我原本站的地方，就停下來。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdvuEYxl79b
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我還在講，他轉頭看我，伸出手揉了我的頭，就像他每次做的那樣。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYj1UmfF5DP
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我張開眼睛，才知道自己夢見英傑了。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmMZPjk4yo5
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我開始懷疑起自己做這個夢的原因。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgKKeov55kx
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是太想念英傑了，還是壓力太大需要出口？546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBgT54K2N9V
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或是…他真的怎麼了，才到我夢裡來？546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCDvL72T4EH
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我心裡很害怕是後者，但我知道此時的自己無法找到真正的解答。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAktULixLKD
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這個夢緩解了我的情緒，也瞬間恢復了大部分的理智。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡm8AqvS7Ojo
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不管是什麼原因，都是英傑救了我。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbQAU1OBBLc
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我度過了心中的那個坎，日子雖然沒有改變，但我的心態改變了。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDcabcU0XaX
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「沒錯，都是我選的。所以，我要更努力才行。」546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJM2cGiZIDb
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雖然，從那個時候開始，過了很長一段借貸的日子。人都說救急不救窮，但我很幸運，擁有很多好朋友，如果我開口，他們總是不說二話的就拿錢給我；就算我死愛面子不開口，他們也會一直逼問是不是沒錢用。我拿著跟朋友借來的錢，繳家裡的房租、水電費、瓦斯費…然後在假日另外打零工還錢。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6Wt8HDZ8XQ
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高中的最後一個學期，我也差點因為沒能繳出學費而休學（當時已有就學貸款，但沒有考慮，只想著沒錢就去賺錢，別念書好了），但我那班不知該說是兄弟還是恩人的同學，硬是把一疊鈔票交到我手裡，要我慢慢還，要我和他們一起畢業。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf2LmMxsPVq
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我沒參加考試，畢業後直接去找了工作。我還清了錢，卻欠了好多人情債。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡok5R5Wrfxi
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生活條件穩定之後，也談了戀愛，生活圈的人換了幾輪，越來越趨於穩定。
只是在我心底仍有一個空蕩的角落。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlY8htanxOK
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我還是沒有更換手機號碼，一直抱著小小的希望，546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrPFOh4dhhF
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可我已在心裡默默地接受「英傑可能已經過世了」的事實。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTFbNarR3Az
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某天，我的皮夾不知在哪兒掉了，找也找不到。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFpiir8PADe
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我辦了卡片掛失，心裡希望有人撿到皮夾，會願意送還給我。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg8REIuw9yA
546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyOQWYVE5h
這時，我才想起皮夾裡有英傑的照片，也想起我們說好要另外拍照留存的事。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIFsLnbRnR3
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我的皮夾沒回來，英傑唯一的照片也這麼沒了。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ61RSVug7BY
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有時候，我會懷疑自己已經忘記他的長相，便努力回想那段日子，但畫面只是越來越模糊。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXzcS7Ofk5J
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一年、兩年、三年，當我漸漸淡忘這段過去的時候，我卻看見他了。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiTcN92ggOF
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在電視裡面。546Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyWkusCo2Xf
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待續。
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