愛情像顆種子,深埋在胸口,有天它無預警地冒出了小芽,你甚至沒注意到它呢,它就開始茁壯了。381Please respect copyright.PENANAJ2QGwaesGF
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後知後覺的我,待胸口的芽已成了小樹,才意識到它的存在。381Please respect copyright.PENANA48jdElIl7N
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它,而是拿起大剪,抹去了它未來的可能。381Please respect copyright.PENANAHbi5ccosOC
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面,每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕,刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。381Please respect copyright.PENANAEAujXbc3DI
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也許我心裡某處的希望,是他戳破我的刻意,把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。381Please respect copyright.PENANAFNIByUWgBg
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但他沒有。381Please respect copyright.PENANAU1lYt16GdZ
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在第五個或第六個週末,他不再打電話來;而我,也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。381Please respect copyright.PENANAIrxqCHs0x7
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或許是直覺,也或許是太了解,我知道就算阿龍喜歡我,他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是,我們很容易因為自私,而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久,加上這段時間的相處,我也知道要是兩人交往,會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉,而是害怕我們的關係一改變,就再也回不去。
說穿了,就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足,阿龍也是。381Please respect copyright.PENANAtBn7bL3kwg
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。381Please respect copyright.PENANASqRxUvM9Fs
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花了半年時間,體會了一段荒謬的戀愛,還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾,搞得全世界都知道了,當然也包括阿龍在內。381Please respect copyright.PENANA9CelrYIkaW
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「妳在家嗎?」381Please respect copyright.PENANAij0p7n7zJp
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「嗯。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAOeFlYRP7PM
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「下來。」381Please respect copyright.PENANATfmmbT0SRR
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我下樓,看到阿龍的車停在門口。381Please respect copyright.PENANAv8Bkq3NBv0
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阿龍從車裡出來,戴著墨鏡,咧嘴笑開,他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。381Please respect copyright.PENANAIrlxvMh0Jz
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。381Please respect copyright.PENANA6wsjeMdZhY
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「去哪裡?」扣好安全帶,我問。381Please respect copyright.PENANAoSdWx3S0mF
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「把妳載去賣。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAU09kMtKTcE
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「嗯,好。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAuE0e7Rbu7w
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阿龍又笑了,雖然我沒笑。381Please respect copyright.PENANA5MkxmcypKe
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我把椅背往後仰了些,閉上眼睛,整個人躺在椅子上。其實,我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。381Please respect copyright.PENANANpTPR00zeT
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「起床了。」381Please respect copyright.PENANASaM1wg504W
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「快點起來,小豺!」381Please respect copyright.PENANAhe8v47cUHr
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我張開眼睛,居然睡著了啊…381Please respect copyright.PENANAk6DqfSexvf
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「妳是多累啊?有好好睡覺嗎?」381Please respect copyright.PENANAlkLzPYqIYP
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我還躺在椅子上,只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍,他戴著墨鏡,我看不清楚他的眼神,但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。381Please respect copyright.PENANAbMhUIpPsMN
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「我臺灣人啊,上車睡覺,下車尿尿。」381Please respect copyright.PENANA8l94GbHLX4
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「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。381Please respect copyright.PENANAjWvHXCJU7e
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「我們在哪?」我坐起來,解開安全帶,看看車子外面,我們在某個停車場。381Please respect copyright.PENANAckDcTDHdND
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「在山上。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAsCzZ9E9jQl
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下車後,看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像,還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…381Please respect copyright.PENANAfL2CR8K0lc
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「你要拜拜啊?」381Please respect copyright.PENANAkFuLhzczgk
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「沒有,妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎?帶妳來山上走走啊。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAPqTz0qLdWd
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。381Please respect copyright.PENANAXZSxQUkXvZ
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我們延著樓梯,爬到了山頂的土地公廟,便隨意找了個地方坐下,那是山頂的展望區。381Please respect copyright.PENANAAL3nDDIpTJ
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「那是什麼山啊?」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。381Please respect copyright.PENANADVxhLB1Nx6
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「我哪知道。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAxu3t8QXdTk
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「……說的也是。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAsLtb3UqjQK
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後,阿龍開口說。381Please respect copyright.PENANACwQer7sKps
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「嗯。」
我知道,阿龍是帶我出來散心的。381Please respect copyright.PENANANM155Gf2Y1
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「會發霉。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAag8Y5mxcj9
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞,再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看,有沒有發霉的味道?」381Please respect copyright.PENANAiCiqVKaCTU
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「噁,有耶,妳看妳的手,都長香菇了。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAFcJZRzhjOr
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「我這是靈芝,你懂屁啊!」381Please respect copyright.PENANACWvdGS4ZUw
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」381Please respect copyright.PENANA61FENyauSt
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「啊?」381Please respect copyright.PENANAyMxuzeGdkT
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」381Please respect copyright.PENANA9Z9ANfeSgV
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAo6DVGSGlhK
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「什麼噁心,欸,我的胸口還算結實吧?」他搥搥自己的胸。381Please respect copyright.PENANATfZmRPmX9Q
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「是啦是啦,好結實,可是我不需要啦。」381Please respect copyright.PENANANgPOPHknzA
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「不識貨,那不然肩膀?」
他又拍拍自己的肩。381Please respect copyright.PENANAPvykHTQvJD
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我笑出來,這傢伙真是夠了。381Please respect copyright.PENANAXtKALfiEaj
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「好啦,我勉強用一下。」381Please respect copyright.PENANAwZagO653OR
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我坐到阿龍旁邊,把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣?」我說。381Please respect copyright.PENANARGRmet6lFd
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他把手繞過我,摟住我的肩,這個動作,讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。381Please respect copyright.PENANAxaIWROfiq0
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我聽得見阿龍的心跳,以規律的速度跳動著,咚,咚,咚。381Please respect copyright.PENANAlw7AMHxfmi
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。381Please respect copyright.PENANAcGjNQXJtpM
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待續。
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