愛情像顆種子,深埋在胸口,有天它無預警地冒出了小芽,你甚至沒注意到它呢,它就開始茁壯了。535Please respect copyright.PENANAq0TIGQufGr
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後知後覺的我,待胸口的芽已成了小樹,才意識到它的存在。535Please respect copyright.PENANAXxlA5CgDOq
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它,而是拿起大剪,抹去了它未來的可能。535Please respect copyright.PENANAd05MGjBzpo
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面,每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕,刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。535Please respect copyright.PENANAF8osAeGuuE
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也許我心裡某處的希望,是他戳破我的刻意,把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。535Please respect copyright.PENANAsb5nbNMoZh
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但他沒有。535Please respect copyright.PENANADO7uuXAjMG
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在第五個或第六個週末,他不再打電話來;而我,也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。535Please respect copyright.PENANATImnvSbGFD
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或許是直覺,也或許是太了解,我知道就算阿龍喜歡我,他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是,我們很容易因為自私,而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久,加上這段時間的相處,我也知道要是兩人交往,會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉,而是害怕我們的關係一改變,就再也回不去。
說穿了,就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足,阿龍也是。535Please respect copyright.PENANAAcUBywbvh4
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。535Please respect copyright.PENANAGOQMaJqHMY
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花了半年時間,體會了一段荒謬的戀愛,還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾,搞得全世界都知道了,當然也包括阿龍在內。535Please respect copyright.PENANAv3qs98hyWH
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「妳在家嗎?」535Please respect copyright.PENANATOQkrU8VkD
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「嗯。」535Please respect copyright.PENANA8UbZJ9uIAk
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「下來。」535Please respect copyright.PENANA0Z4hXnAlWO
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我下樓,看到阿龍的車停在門口。535Please respect copyright.PENANA9FcREcg9Iz
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阿龍從車裡出來,戴著墨鏡,咧嘴笑開,他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。535Please respect copyright.PENANAi5WiWKrkG6
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。535Please respect copyright.PENANAe9VxJdwgpB
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「去哪裡?」扣好安全帶,我問。535Please respect copyright.PENANA6aIoX6fkhs
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「把妳載去賣。」535Please respect copyright.PENANAroUNX8fXpQ
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「嗯,好。」535Please respect copyright.PENANACrHGCPN3mb
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阿龍又笑了,雖然我沒笑。535Please respect copyright.PENANAc5oYcqILC3
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我把椅背往後仰了些,閉上眼睛,整個人躺在椅子上。其實,我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。535Please respect copyright.PENANAC90pR3OsuD
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「起床了。」535Please respect copyright.PENANAVE4KKjYbaG
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「快點起來,小豺!」535Please respect copyright.PENANA8vg4456Xop
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我張開眼睛,居然睡著了啊…535Please respect copyright.PENANALF6lqEMCc8
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「妳是多累啊?有好好睡覺嗎?」535Please respect copyright.PENANAARnV8lLFI2
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我還躺在椅子上,只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍,他戴著墨鏡,我看不清楚他的眼神,但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。535Please respect copyright.PENANA5OJFYfDate
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「我臺灣人啊,上車睡覺,下車尿尿。」535Please respect copyright.PENANA0p5Lm2qtJy
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「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。535Please respect copyright.PENANAzQT27ILhxR
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「我們在哪?」我坐起來,解開安全帶,看看車子外面,我們在某個停車場。535Please respect copyright.PENANAUfl2FclZ5G
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「在山上。」535Please respect copyright.PENANAmcdinHDmDy
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下車後,看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像,還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…535Please respect copyright.PENANAUP6M2OeNwz
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「你要拜拜啊?」535Please respect copyright.PENANAN2dWpHMHH5
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「沒有,妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎?帶妳來山上走走啊。」535Please respect copyright.PENANAjLcLXQmyKX
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。535Please respect copyright.PENANAtmtmkkzTSG
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我們延著樓梯,爬到了山頂的土地公廟,便隨意找了個地方坐下,那是山頂的展望區。535Please respect copyright.PENANApCoGD1PfCz
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「那是什麼山啊?」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。535Please respect copyright.PENANA2aaB8kJREc
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「我哪知道。」535Please respect copyright.PENANAKTH0Ihx0Mv
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「……說的也是。」535Please respect copyright.PENANAOt5nKSj96R
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後,阿龍開口說。535Please respect copyright.PENANA9W6fOW8mzS
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「嗯。」
我知道,阿龍是帶我出來散心的。535Please respect copyright.PENANAlZ5yryhdRC
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「會發霉。」535Please respect copyright.PENANALuCmYLdR6B
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞,再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看,有沒有發霉的味道?」535Please respect copyright.PENANAUR75xifQ2R
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「噁,有耶,妳看妳的手,都長香菇了。」535Please respect copyright.PENANAepgq9eCRGB
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「我這是靈芝,你懂屁啊!」535Please respect copyright.PENANAFuCOqcrEqh
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」535Please respect copyright.PENANAApUvHH1WKY
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「啊?」535Please respect copyright.PENANAOOFg6P728W
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」535Please respect copyright.PENANApZlAbLtAw0
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」535Please respect copyright.PENANAQZuWoQfLsm
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「什麼噁心,欸,我的胸口還算結實吧?」他搥搥自己的胸。535Please respect copyright.PENANAi7LUztJWbR
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「是啦是啦,好結實,可是我不需要啦。」535Please respect copyright.PENANActhu9pntxy
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「不識貨,那不然肩膀?」
他又拍拍自己的肩。535Please respect copyright.PENANAn0jnaYR69A
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我笑出來,這傢伙真是夠了。535Please respect copyright.PENANA1DbRqkxFjd
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「好啦,我勉強用一下。」535Please respect copyright.PENANAKQ0ecoHusR
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我坐到阿龍旁邊,把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣?」我說。535Please respect copyright.PENANAKVDeAwO6sZ
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他把手繞過我,摟住我的肩,這個動作,讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。535Please respect copyright.PENANArUYK5iNOgw
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我聽得見阿龍的心跳,以規律的速度跳動著,咚,咚,咚。535Please respect copyright.PENANA7sygSFQg1q
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。535Please respect copyright.PENANA1ICdxknkEK
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待續。
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