愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVxbUgQf2Gd
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkvEliC1cnL
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRcdrf7EHhD
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6z1jjrJxaG
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW6o15S8GVh
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但他沒有。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3OubFqeyK
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡohulMkk4vU
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或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvtmH3cMaQo
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPYXFnYK0D
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSBp2ibzFSI
花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4mhoqGICVp
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「妳在家嗎？」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUCzOL41wco
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「嗯。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡj3jNTgczAA
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「下來。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdWuEnFS9Ad
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS8VMmKZRXN
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPI2QpfyAjJ
阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT5hSld8q47
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡs6vvUmjSzq
「上車。」他敲敲車子。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6hQBsB0bCP
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡknZmDcgo2t
「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLlg2mQ2pXK
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH68eJaarZr
「把妳載去賣。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡg7P12TjS36
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「嗯，好。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKggD5esOuY
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZkxFtnVeQo
阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZpfKgURx9e
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8CUwMRqF0
我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYGOIVmHqWU
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「起床了。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV7FGf2Bsjp
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaUxiPsBHL
「快點起來，小豺！」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNCWJaOB2GB
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtAuwjt8BGT
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkxf0gUyMDI
「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXZr89kxijV
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpazdWBcMNt
我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfV4ehGXBxV
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqPmKpqJfHg
「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8qkESnEKAk
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsbxxH1VEHc
「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuidKiSHpGu
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡI0dOXsdxBr
「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMAYlmqf5KC
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「在山上。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPiXjyds0T7
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuqzW7DHh9U
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「你要拜拜啊？」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrF65uwganm
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6WFPjktkAo
「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXIIgv5WlyM
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq8tsEaBbVY
「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwe0Hy2Uqv5
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfn3wA1I9jq
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6dsCKV0ccp
「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9yDGVwXnQY
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「我哪知道。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqSE6JvNGT8
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡewqlZjs4Nu
「……說的也是。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAqILuVl5fa
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoNKzs5TraJ
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8HUnHZGpdq
「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVtaGMkQ9yu
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「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0bHEwYrXzK
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYTPX2xc41V
「會發霉。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNfTxWSH92B
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡD8Z9OoehjQ
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDsuKmfK5Oy
「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjs8wvpg8RB
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ975hWnWZGN
「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRAakBiA5AG
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKThrgH3KAj
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhqSfKEp3pg
「啊？」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyfqqnHpMN7
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa07fMOxQmj
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFp7UeaVtEI
「哈…你很噁心耶。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmWfw6LIAoO
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmyjYz8FpJQ
「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJm28FZjrPq
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7akG2wAcsN
「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWZhpU18dc3
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡV3A37Fc39V
「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZ0XQrEXHd
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3HSAodMVU7
我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9uf19QqfZa
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6lcsrMMfO4
「好啦，我勉強用一下。」486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8h1BYZMocs
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQBEEmwHaK3
我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl7LAM4jlkF
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrFFol04PR5
他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBO3LW7oi4x
486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ3pOwDYg20
我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFfvsexLKqj
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。486Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIrpnf4NBe1
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