尋死的念頭一出現，我就被自己給嚇到了。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPlTvpo0a4i
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「妳瘋了嗎？」500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXTTL1YlaXD
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腦裡出現兩個我，理性的那個正在發飆，狠狠咒罵另一個我。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeS39edWjf2
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而被罵的那個我，只是一個勁兒地哭。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSpdMRMZXbX
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我覺得自己隨時都會爆炸、衝動行事，便躲進被窩，用厚厚的被子蓋住全身，連頭都包在棉被裡，不讓任何光線進來。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgPAKg18lEE
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在充滿二氧化碳的被窩裡，我全身是汗，滿臉淚水。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSQSOPDab6W
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我側身把臉埋進枕頭，把尖叫送進布料與棉花裡。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ2H11eXw2qB
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我往自己的腳下看，有一片草原。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvruVW7FcgA
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面前有一條石頭道路，盡頭是顆大樹。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1PUGtvq3J3
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樹下站著一個人，太遠了，我看不清他的臉。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGW6ohNA2Fi
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所以我走近，愈走愈近，直到我看清楚他是誰。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUqEWTvkrim
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站在樹下的人是英傑。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyE8OjVtog1
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我跑向他，勾住他的手。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPoXrxTWmJ8
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他對我笑著，什麼話也沒說。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeUIJaAOu0G
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我像是要把這些日子以來，所有發生的事情都告訴他，開始滔滔不絕地講。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0w3DgmO1R8
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他陪著我走到我原本站的地方，就停下來。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4PDoh3GRK5
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我還在講，他轉頭看我，伸出手揉了我的頭，就像他每次做的那樣。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyhG3Elo8su
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我張開眼睛，才知道自己夢見英傑了。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCzNZ8dFWEi
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我開始懷疑起自己做這個夢的原因。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8Yl4uWnYr4
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是太想念英傑了，還是壓力太大需要出口？500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUXJrMLshLX
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或是…他真的怎麼了，才到我夢裡來？500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPhd3NAGDUY
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我心裡很害怕是後者，但我知道此時的自己無法找到真正的解答。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqglyadGBYT
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這個夢緩解了我的情緒，也瞬間恢復了大部分的理智。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMq1PmDuwtm
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不管是什麼原因，都是英傑救了我。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSzvIVG2RXB
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我度過了心中的那個坎，日子雖然沒有改變，但我的心態改變了。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMNylVMpINP
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「沒錯，都是我選的。所以，我要更努力才行。」500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6AGKCmwvrl
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雖然，從那個時候開始，過了很長一段借貸的日子。人都說救急不救窮，但我很幸運，擁有很多好朋友，如果我開口，他們總是不說二話的就拿錢給我；就算我死愛面子不開口，他們也會一直逼問是不是沒錢用。我拿著跟朋友借來的錢，繳家裡的房租、水電費、瓦斯費…然後在假日另外打零工還錢。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRjfpSA3Wdr
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高中的最後一個學期，我也差點因為沒能繳出學費而休學（當時已有就學貸款，但沒有考慮，只想著沒錢就去賺錢，別念書好了），但我那班不知該說是兄弟還是恩人的同學，硬是把一疊鈔票交到我手裡，要我慢慢還，要我和他們一起畢業。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq46v0C2mFe
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我沒參加考試，畢業後直接去找了工作。我還清了錢，卻欠了好多人情債。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFwZsLZCRD9
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生活條件穩定之後，也談了戀愛，生活圈的人換了幾輪，越來越趨於穩定。
只是在我心底仍有一個空蕩的角落。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡf4kh9dcK7Q
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我還是沒有更換手機號碼，一直抱著小小的希望，500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡux7yQ7RkOd
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可我已在心裡默默地接受「英傑可能已經過世了」的事實。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsp68AI3MKy
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某天，我的皮夾不知在哪兒掉了，找也找不到。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXL75ikGocr
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我辦了卡片掛失，心裡希望有人撿到皮夾，會願意送還給我。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLvDkE11lzh
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這時，我才想起皮夾裡有英傑的照片，也想起我們說好要另外拍照留存的事。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYgztCkBUr5
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我的皮夾沒回來，英傑唯一的照片也這麼沒了。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAGDeoMw6He
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有時候，我會懷疑自己已經忘記他的長相，便努力回想那段日子，但畫面只是越來越模糊。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5gYL4XTzha
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一年、兩年、三年，當我漸漸淡忘這段過去的時候，我卻看見他了。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkeE8wOJxIb
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在電視裡面。500Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWdqMQspf0q
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