愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstW3PSxTGK
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFqD9xZe36M
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡT8lcNvgP7i
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVcezG2nkZE
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdaBMpLZWsE
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但他沒有。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrTvGvUmcTr
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8SwH5hWd0q
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或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡUwgzgMcbzh
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTqxdqWTjA0
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花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡgGhn8Kr8Oy
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「妳在家嗎？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡS2EZoTyxpL
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「嗯。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBjn5EzK0ee
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「下來。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kzGwDSdsA
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbsbBCEQwQ4
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阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfdwwZr5QZv
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOFjCsu4IAY
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「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡKoAEPfvfQO
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「把妳載去賣。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhgsHfgurSZ
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「嗯，好。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡljf9FoFNwY
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阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNmhX8aS9G
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我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡFoefbOJ9Fp
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「起床了。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNDX9lEbtWb
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「快點起來，小豺！」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzVETUMMfR5
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9YA1R5poCw
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「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvIv8mE4Gb5
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我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnKXlAfla2j
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「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoSFyvDMaCt
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「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRQhNBGpiXH
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「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwzBBmjB6vn
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「在山上。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡBO7pJNKrUN
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZbTGsQ90qx
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「你要拜拜啊？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡO5W5I8LLeU
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「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzJwA8SjpaG
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQPwEgrz1SA
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbO70ZowXYk
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「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOaLt6w3RV3
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「我哪知道。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGriwbQSmfd
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「……說的也是。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡozQ512ujJv
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAjIvNfncJe
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「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtklu3oAbqr
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「會發霉。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWXPgo3u1u
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu0DpNv0igL
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「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiIZ6Ow1KbK
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「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlOiU1V72SO
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡy7n78q3kJA
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「啊？」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCVVGx1RrdM
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkpx4ueNSC2
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTc0nvzVrWS
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「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8kMyJl2Z5N
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「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0FgoOj0knd
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「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡcb24f2ObrF
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我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSoAHqVX4Zs
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「好啦，我勉強用一下。」517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9QHuwgALiB
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我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8FUI1E7C6x
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他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIWXq15JzHW
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我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa6EE6jTADg
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。517Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyyDEKttaCa
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