愛情像顆種子，深埋在胸口，有天它無預警地冒出了小芽，你甚至沒注意到它呢，它就開始茁壯了。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfXUufHgZQo
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後知後覺的我，待胸口的芽已成了小樹，才意識到它的存在。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbBDfukZOEp
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然而我沒有繼續灌溉滋養它，而是拿起大剪，抹去了它未來的可能。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡEqosKYYDJh
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逃避式的不和阿龍見面，每次的邀約都從馬上答應變成立刻拒絕，刻意到像是要讓他知道這是刻意的。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdqnEjTix9v
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也許我心裡某處的希望，是他戳破我的刻意，把已經歪斜的天秤打翻。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeN9b4GdYgE
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但他沒有。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rJdk3htJG
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在第五個或第六個週末，他不再打電話來；而我，也開始和追求自己的男人約會了。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡPeSYcLMxZJ
559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡox1AEH2hgv
或許是直覺，也或許是太了解，我知道就算阿龍喜歡我，他也不會承認。愛情和友情、親情不一樣的是，我們很容易因為自私，而要求對方改變、要求對方配合自己。認識阿龍那麼久，加上這段時間的相處，我也知道要是兩人交往，會有諸多問題與不合。我不害怕自作多情的丟臉，而是害怕我們的關係一改變，就再也回不去。
說穿了，就是沒有勇氣。
我的勇氣不足，阿龍也是。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwFEHrz7yLu
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再接到阿龍電話是半年後的事了。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGbajJlT01k
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花了半年時間，體會了一段荒謬的戀愛，還以非常難看且難堪的方式收尾，搞得全世界都知道了，當然也包括阿龍在內。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡb3f5qiuJ3a
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「妳在家嗎？」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡF9GgeyOQQq
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「嗯。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiVCSlbb2JF
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「下來。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqYXiGDYpSB
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我下樓，看到阿龍的車停在門口。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡMZQZkCDm3O
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阿龍從車裡出來，戴著墨鏡，咧嘴笑開，他整齊漂亮的牙齒回來了。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡraJTsMIOUj
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「上車。」他敲敲車子。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8OVhdFoVbs
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「去哪裡？」扣好安全帶，我問。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ1oecMbphwG
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「把妳載去賣。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaSV9Ib7GCD
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「嗯，好。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhmuxZ9oaMN
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阿龍又笑了，雖然我沒笑。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYMUxNkKLjK
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我把椅背往後仰了些，閉上眼睛，整個人躺在椅子上。其實，我也不是那麼在乎阿龍要帶我去哪裡。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw2fu66VvlK
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「起床了。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpL4VCMzAU7
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「快點起來，小豺！」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIV7fZUbVL9
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我張開眼睛，居然睡著了啊…559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfWeyrrNz6F
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「妳是多累啊？有好好睡覺嗎？」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5rCJspzD6R
559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJNyGPPylgf
我還躺在椅子上，只稍微轉頭看駕駛座的阿龍，他戴著墨鏡，我看不清楚他的眼神，但他的眉頭緊緊的皺在一起。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡdyGFz3iEQ5
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「我臺灣人啊，上車睡覺，下車尿尿。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡCWGZ5Rn3j2
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「噗嗤。」他的眉頭鬆開了。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡiZ7Mz826jY
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「我們在哪？」我坐起來，解開安全帶，看看車子外面，我們在某個停車場。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9mlE2Tg2xO
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「在山上。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡJN11zA5yGP
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下車後，看到了熟悉的特大尊土地公神像，還有往山頂土地公廟延伸的樓梯…559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYtCtDDwHXd
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「你要拜拜啊？」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW3drqLkyUv
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「沒有，妳最近不是很愛爬山嗎？帶妳來山上走走啊。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡOn25x7PFcC
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「……喔…」
我心裡一沉。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9KC8vmFoG0
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我們延著樓梯，爬到了山頂的土地公廟，便隨意找了個地方坐下，那是山頂的展望區。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡpb1xmwrqOi
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「那是什麼山啊？」
我指著橫過城市、遠處一座被雲海包圍的山。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8aeYQ9Jp9y
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「我哪知道。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡaGDQ476Y0j
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「……說的也是。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡeLN9mpHqFp
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「失戀的人不要一直待在家裡。」
好長一段沉默過後，阿龍開口說。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ72FwiRMBSw
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「嗯。」
我知道，阿龍是帶我出來散心的。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡc96T8p6IKG
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「會發霉。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsswj6Yaeoc
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「哈。」我舉起手聞了聞，再把手湊到阿龍鼻子前。「你聞聞看，有沒有發霉的味道？」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsesioQRFHY
559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGk9YBk8g10
「噁，有耶，妳看妳的手，都長香菇了。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ13uleeUeYO
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「我這是靈芝，你懂屁啊！」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkJUQ8EM2AN
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「妳還是這樣笑比較好。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZvYW0ncEEG
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「啊？」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡoiIygRDxR7
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「我剛以為自己要出借胸口還是肩膀讓妳哭一下勒。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuHbBMOq4Pp
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「哈…你很噁心耶。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4BQPZXCKmk
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「什麼噁心，欸，我的胸口還算結實吧？」他搥搥自己的胸。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuQOLcVebaq
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「是啦是啦，好結實，可是我不需要啦。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTUriIqHPnM
559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3MmD9PFMu8
「不識貨，那不然肩膀？」
他又拍拍自己的肩。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡmLLbYhrsm9
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我笑出來，這傢伙真是夠了。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡivXvnMYDo2
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「好啦，我勉強用一下。」559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIZOiXdcCv1
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我坐到阿龍旁邊，把頭靠上他的肩膀。
「這樣？」我說。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhCPqKazZyQ
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他把手繞過我，摟住我的肩，這個動作，讓我從肩膀滑到胸口。
「這樣。」他說。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ2RUFj6QDW
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我聽得見阿龍的心跳，以規律的速度跳動著，咚，咚，咚。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDmzg4Kiyjb
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那是我和他最靠近的一次。559Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡG9kN9zqMMT
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