關於我啱啱出世嗰一年,其實我根本唔會有任何記憶。但我聽過好多遍大人講嗰陣嘅事,多到好似我自己親眼見過一樣。
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媽咪話,嗰陣兩家人好似打通咗一樣,根本分唔出邊度係呂家,邊度係陳家。聽講媽咪當年抱住我餵奶嗰陣,陳姨姨就喺隔離幫詠賢換尿布,兩個人仲會互相抱怨邊個 BB 今晚又嘈醒咗大人。
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我印象最深嘅「故事」,係有一晚詠賢突然發高燒。呢件事係大人講得最多嘅,每次講起,佢哋嗰種心有餘悸嘅語氣,令我好似自己都有份經歷過一樣。聽講爸爸當時連鞋都唔著,發癲咁衝落街去拍醫生門,嗰種焦急,到而家諗返起,我都好似仲聽到嗰晚拍門嘅聲。
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當晚四個大人縮埋喺廚房,圍住個火水爐煲粥。嗰晚之後,我好似隱隱約約感覺到,呢四個人之間有啲嘢,係乜嘢都拆唔散嘅。
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一歲到兩歲嘅我,開始對呢個世界有咗好奇。雜貨店嗰塊木地板,爸爸每日收舖都會抹一次,但第二日又鋪滿灰塵——嗰度就係我同詠賢嘅領地。
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我係個靜唔落嚟嘅細路,成日鍾意喺啲裝貨嘅紙箱中間爬嚟爬去,撞到頭又或者跌低係家常便飯。每次我跌低,我都會第一時間望向詠賢。
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佢同我完全唔同,佢好斯文,細細步咁跟喺我後面。每當我跌倒嗰陣,我未識喊,佢對眼就已經先紅咗,伸出佢嗰對細細隻、肉騰騰嘅手想拉我起身。
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爸爸同陳叔叔兩個大男人,就坐喺店門口抽住煙、飲住茶,睇住我哋兩個細路仔喺入面爬。爸爸成日會笑笑口同陳叔叔講:「老陳,睇怕你個女將來要俾我個仔食住喇。」
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而陳叔叔就只係推一推佢副眼鏡,笑得好溫柔咁答:「呢啲叫互補,女仔心細,剛好管住你個仔嘅粗心。」
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兩歲到三歲,我同詠賢學識講嘢。我哋嘅世界變得好細,但又好充實。我哋開始學大人玩「過家家」,雜貨店嘅櫃檯係我哋嘅「辦公室」。
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詠賢好鍾意拎住陳叔叔支舊毛筆,學佢寫字,畫到成紙都係墨漬;而我就鍾意學爸爸,拎住個生鏽嘅磅,扮晒蟹咁秤啲紅豆、綠豆,扮晒做生意。
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最令我印象深刻嘅,係有一日,我喺地上執到粒糖,我攞上手捽咗好耐,最後鼓起勇氣,踮起腳尖,將粒糖剝開,慢慢塞入詠賢個口入面。
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佢個樣好驚訝,跟住就笑到眼都瞇埋。睇住我哋兩個細路仔嘅互動,爸爸同陳姨姨都停低咗手頭嘅工作,相視一笑。嗰一刻,我唔知咩叫責任,我只係覺得——佢笑嘅時候,個心口暖暖哋。嗰種感覺,我後來先知道叫滿足。
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到了三歲到四歲,我哋開始走出櫃檯,接觸更大嘅世界。雖然係條老街,但對我同詠賢嚟講,呢度係我哋嘅探險樂園。
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陳叔叔買咗幾本插圖書俾我哋,嗰啲故事成為我哋每日必做嘅「探險」。我記得我好鍾意學書入面啲獅子,挺起胸膛大嗌一聲,然後望住詠賢——佢笑,我就覺得自己做啱咗。
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詠賢就會眨住對大眼睛同我講:「爸爸教過我,獅子雖然威武,但心也要細。」
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我嗰陣雖然聽唔太明咩叫「心細」,但我知道佢講嘢好聽。如果我哋爭玩具,只要我大聲啲,佢就會細細聲咁喊,然後我就會立刻心軟,將個玩具拱手相讓。我哋嘅嗌交,從來冇隔夜。
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四歲到五歲,陳叔叔開始教我哋寫字。雜貨店嘅櫃檯,瞬間變成咗我哋嘅課室。
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我坐唔定,拎住枝筆就心急,寫幾個字就想去搬貨幫爸爸手。陳叔叔好嚴肅,但他從來唔會打我,只係會嘆口氣,同我講:「浩然,書中自有黃金屋,你現在學好了,以後才能保護詠賢。」
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呢句話聽落好沉重,但我嗰陣真係聽得入耳,我會立刻坐正,咬住條脷繼續寫。詠賢就完全唔同,佢寫字寫得好靚,佢攞住張紙,好工整咁寫低「呂」同「陳」呢兩個字,擺埋一齊。
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我望住呢兩組筆劃,嗰陣仲細嘅我,雖然唔識咩叫政治,亦唔識咩叫命運,但我莫名覺得,呢兩組字好似就係我哋以後嘅人生。
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轉眼間到了五歲到六歲,我哋個子長高咗好多。有一日,我同詠賢手牽手去巷口買冰棒,嗰陣嘅陽光好猛,但我哋完全唔驚。
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我著住條爸爸買俾我嘅寬大短褲,詠賢綁住兩條小辮子,我哋並排企喺街口,我感受到一種好奇怪嘅默契。
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我哋已經開始有咗屬於我哋自己嘅秘密,唔使再咩都同大人講。我偶爾會見到陳叔叔望住我同詠賢嘅眼神,嗰種眼神好複雜,好似見到啲咩,又好似擔心啲咩。
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但我唔理咁多,我只係覺得,嗰個夏天特別長,長到我覺得只要我牽住佢隻手,我哋就可以一直行落去,行到呢條街嘅盡頭,行到好遠好遠嘅地方。
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