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1991年，我出生在槟城。

我爷爷混黑社会，我父亲也混黑社会。父子俩，不在同一个帮会。

小时候我常想：我以后的人生，是不是也会走上那条路？

后来没有。不是因为什么高尚的理由，而是因为有一年过年，我把自己的红包钱输光了。

输光的那一刻，我体会到一种很奇怪的感觉——不是心疼钱，而是一种不甘心又无法掌控的滋味。你控制不了骰子，控制不了下一张牌，控制不了运气，甚至连自己的情绪都控制不了。

从那天起，我很确定一件事：我这辈子最讨厌的感觉，就是失控。

这本书不是什么自传，也不是什么励志书。它只是一个槟城小孩，从1991年到2026年，在江湖传闻、新年赌桌、偏科的教室、深夜的Nasi Kandar、澳门的台风和吉隆坡的厨房之间，捡起来的一些记忆和胡思乱想。

如果你也在混乱和温情之间长大过，或许你会在这里面，看到一点自己的影子。


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