「藍奇馭,答應我不要再打人了,你不需要用這種方法證明自己。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAaMDDxuQhl4
我睜開眼後與天花板對視了幾秒。75Please respect copyright.PENANApKG1HhfEde
又夢到老師了。75Please respect copyright.PENANA6SKFnsmRyx
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天氣變得寒冷,我們也換上了冬季制服。75Please respect copyright.PENANAQ2l3xi0c8U
終於不用再一直穿外套了。75Please respect copyright.PENANAQ7X0RUUfHz
雖然話是這麼說,但我並不喜歡冬天,在冷的打哆嗦的天氣卻被迫只能穿著上衣,誰也不會喜歡。75Please respect copyright.PENANAjpFiKMqzUZ
啊,現在不用這麼做了,只是仍然不喜歡而已。75Please respect copyright.PENANAFHN2daOgfs
正好段考剛結束不久,同學們都在歡愉的討論著該去哪裡玩時,我看著手上的紙沉思。75Please respect copyright.PENANAHKEgp3QgzW
藍奇馭同學,XX月XX日請到教官室,這是紙上寫的內容,時間則是今日的午休。75Please respect copyright.PENANAbPVqRdMxwi
我沒有做什麼事吧?這次的段考雖然沒有拿到第一,但還在班級以及學校排名前段。75Please respect copyright.PENANAiZzaZXZoxH
逃過班導師的問話,卻逃不過教官嗎?75Please respect copyright.PENANAudAq20Axm2
忽然間,鐘聲響起,像是提醒著我該去面對現實了。75Please respect copyright.PENANAOmLzuk3qws
由於已是午休時間,走廊上沒有其他學生,就只有我,教官室亦是如此。75Please respect copyright.PENANASyPs2HT6JP
「來你過來這裡。」一進去,教官像是與我認識許久一般,帶著我到教官室裡的小房間。75Please respect copyright.PENANAWkutAzoPUx
只有軍訓課看過幾次吧。75Please respect copyright.PENANAlvNaJycYty
教官跟著我一起入內,將門帶上後,我們坐在裡面的木椅上,他詢問著令我意外的問題。75Please respect copyright.PENANAeTPF2SHHip
「你有遇到什麼事情嗎?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAhW8iogQWVX
我一臉茫然。75Please respect copyright.PENANApAtPb5CYuU
他見我的反應如此,又問了下一個問題,「我看到你的手了,可以告訴我發生什麼事嗎?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAQE4P5f9lZw
聞言,我心臟跳動的非常大力,不用想也知道他在說我手上的傷口。75Please respect copyright.PENANANsDAYJQP7A
但我都是穿著外套,現在天氣變冷也都是穿著長袖制服,為什麼?75Please respect copyright.PENANAN6eg35m8uv
難道是段亞音?她通報教官嗎?因為我拒絕去看精神科?75Please respect copyright.PENANAIuStSJHkoc
「藍奇馭,我不是在逼問你,只是想知道遇到了什麼事而已,你願意說出來嗎?」他眼神極其柔和,與段亞音不相上下,但我依舊無法放鬆心情。75Please respect copyright.PENANA0dfKMeFcwz
準確來說是我不知道我遇到什麼問題。75Please respect copyright.PENANAFS6Te5xRkG
就只是...好想逃避一切。75Please respect copyright.PENANAgtZoH6HCO9
整場面談我幾乎沒說什麼話,而教官他最後似乎有點不知所措,說了句會讓我去輔導室,我就回教室了。75Please respect copyright.PENANAQ82Gmuks3J
為什麼大家都喜歡問我遇到什麼事。75Please respect copyright.PENANAt80izBZWRe
我真的不知道。75Please respect copyright.PENANAVS14cMaiyf
可不可以不要管我,就這樣讓我一個人,然後慢慢淡出。75Please respect copyright.PENANAKbCp3OUOiP
淡出這個世界。75Please respect copyright.PENANAc71mNo14kX
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#75Please respect copyright.PENANA2JYOBJJM4O
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「結果她竟然說,我又不像妳一樣,長得漂亮成績又好,我聽到的時候不知道該回什麼欸。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAPfBaBUeW5i
「她絕對是嫉妒妳。」75Please respect copyright.PENANA26dKbFNyUe
「對,她嫉妒妳。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAppxbV9HReM
自從我與段亞音去醫院縫針的那天之後,她與其他兩位好友都會到我位子上聊天,好像是希望我也能加入她們一樣。75Please respect copyright.PENANAMTqcnlhZYO
即使她們每節下課都自然的來到我的位置上,我卻依然無法加入她們。75Please respect copyright.PENANANoyOSV47El
「是你沒有努力吧。」腦中聲音響起。75Please respect copyright.PENANAKFAi8yGXsD
大概是,我也沒有認真的想參與話題過,只是不斷的被動接受她們在說的話。75Please respect copyright.PENANASTncQEcFWM
她們在說些什麼,我好像也不知道。75Please respect copyright.PENANAtXWeQUh3pK
「啊對了,藍,我要答謝你上次段考前幫我補習。」段亞音忽然叫了我。75Please respect copyright.PENANAMDs7BDdFWK
我回神過來。75Please respect copyright.PENANABDzN4ZnU6q
「我也是,謝謝你。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAvBY0DKCHvc
「我也。」75Please respect copyright.PENANALXJFNWorWN
除了段亞音外,她的兩位好友突然對我道謝。75Please respect copyright.PENANAXbWJWlIvw9
「我沒做什麼。」這是事實,畢竟會在這個班上的人,本來底子就很好,而我也只是提點了一下她們不會的地方而已。75Please respect copyright.PENANAwI7s9vZtx8
「哪會沒做什麼,你的教法一點就通,很好理解。」75Please respect copyright.PENANADetBQVBfZ9
「對呀對呀。」75Please respect copyright.PENANATI8aVe15ey
被誇得我不知道該回答些什麼,但是,我的排名好像比她們後面。75Please respect copyright.PENANAfYYcTUrJgd
「好像還害你自己沒有考好...。」這回換段亞音發言,她雙手食指繞呀繞的,帶著些許歉意,接著又馬上開了新的話題,手則是放到了桌上,「為了感謝你,我們今天放學請你吃好吃的,你喜歡吃什麼。」75Please respect copyright.PENANA3ujqUyjbd6
在她左右邊的兩位同學睜大眼睛看著我,三個一起對我眨眼睛的畫面使我非常不習慣。75Please respect copyright.PENANAytScWMTJ64
不過不是不好的感覺。75Please respect copyright.PENANARHsCymmRy6
「我...沒有特別喜歡吃什麼。」我答道。75Please respect copyright.PENANAKP0aU4wF67
「都沒有嗎?總會有一兩樣東西是你吃到覺得好吃的吧。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAr88w6ZdZ5c
她們繼續眨眼。75Please respect copyright.PENANAAvPc5MtydK
「沒有。」我並沒有說謊。75Please respect copyright.PENANAJG4GfZ1gM8
沉默了數秒。75Please respect copyright.PENANAu1RQHhv5qy
「那...那我知道佐明國中那邊有一間好吃的。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAtXyckWBejB
是我的母校。75Please respect copyright.PENANAXmQfipqCSh
她們分別觀察著我,像是害怕觸碰到什麼禁忌一樣。75Please respect copyright.PENANAlz0gZyRKkD
然而我並不在意,那只不過是母校而已。75Please respect copyright.PENANAuFjP3hsRkI
我點點頭表示同意她們的提議,她們三個相視一笑,接著也對我莞爾。75Please respect copyright.PENANAyRUbHqJ23L
看著她們,明知道她們沒有惡意,我卻還是沒辦法發自內心對她們微笑,而只好硬是勾起嘴角。75Please respect copyright.PENANA1NTXUM8d2Y
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段亞音、葉易真以及簡菲羽,三個人是很好的朋友。75Please respect copyright.PENANAe8BgvKOoKK
不包含我。75Please respect copyright.PENANAwuwCUWxnFi
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#75Please respect copyright.PENANAAJ5qiIGLSY
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熟悉的街道映入眼簾,經過以前每天上學都會走到的路,好像在提醒我回到母校附近了。75Please respect copyright.PENANA3O7FmqoFVT
一點都沒變,不管是學校旁邊的商店,早餐店,便利商店全都一樣。75Please respect copyright.PENANAHv6zNRd0q9
還有很多奇怪的學生這點也一樣。75Please respect copyright.PENANAvrMslRaFya
佐明國中明明是間風評不錯的學校,在裡面卻有很多整天只會偷偷抽菸跟打架的人。75Please respect copyright.PENANAhKQDQCjvH7
「啊,巷子裡有人在打架。」葉易真大聲呼叫了一聲。75Please respect copyright.PENANADY4vfCxb8K
在旁邊的段亞音以及簡菲羽幾乎是同時,她們趕緊將葉易真的嘴巴摀起來。75Please respect copyright.PENANA0jsVk4OZHQ
「小聲一點,等一下轉移目標到我們身上就不好了。」段亞音壓低聲音說道。75Please respect copyright.PENANAbG5VYhpTbQ
我不自覺的瞄了一眼巷子內,想一探究竟。75Please respect copyright.PENANAtrgj4Sek6M
三位身材高大的男學生,穿著佐明國中的制服,而他們三位學生包圍著一個身材嬌小的女生。75Please respect copyright.PENANAVQzN5BB4d9
裡面那位女生沒有穿著制服,大概是想要搭訕她,但用這種方法,沒有人會答應的吧。75Please respect copyright.PENANAJafVjaqUYL
再仔細一看,發現被包圍起來的女生年紀好像比較大一點。75Please respect copyright.PENANAJme9zmDNJD
總覺得哪裡怪怪的。75Please respect copyright.PENANAo8sUFAFwNC
我直接走進巷子裡,無視段亞音她們的勸阻。75Please respect copyright.PENANAQFkwJhTHfd
而巷子內的所有人注意到有人進來,各個進入備戰狀態,他們上下打量我之後,可能見我身材矮小,又都鬆懈了。75Please respect copyright.PENANATrJQOUlAHg
「藍奇馭!回來!」75Please respect copyright.PENANAUReWy6CsuA
巷子外以段亞音為首,紛紛在乎叫著我。75Please respect copyright.PENANAy8FwyeRGIw
此時我只想救出被包圍的女生。75Please respect copyright.PENANAdsh0dBfzQh
「同學,你很大膽嘛,怎樣,這是你馬子嗎,還是是外面那幾個。」其中一位學生挑釁著。75Please respect copyright.PENANAfoblyIaxDJ
「再靠近就不要怪我不客氣了,又或是我對外面那幾個動手你會比較聽話?」75Please respect copyright.PENANA7XK7oyMubz
我抬眼瞪他們。75Please respect copyright.PENANAR4w450aiCw
這眼神非常有用,在國中時非常常使用到。75Please respect copyright.PENANAgnbZe3gdG0
看他們的反應,顯然是威力依舊,然而他們又想要裝鎮定。75Please respect copyright.PENANAWcaMTxEm7m
「你...你你那什麼表情!」語畢,他將拳頭舉起準備揮向我。75Please respect copyright.PENANAcVTHo16OiA
我快步向前,拉出在他們身後的女生後趕緊跑出巷子。75Please respect copyright.PENANAE8ABhZCY40
不可以打架。75Please respect copyright.PENANAYwsMDEc2VU
我答應老師了。75Please respect copyright.PENANAY6brwsjKCz
要忍住。75Please respect copyright.PENANAxkwK7ouc2R
我很棒。75Please respect copyright.PENANAeaGhnVtX8B
「藍奇馭?」75Please respect copyright.PENANA2cjk4IOJ7j
當我以為是段亞音她們在叫我時,卻赫然發現聲音是從我後面出現的。75Please respect copyright.PENANAGuZaqyHQvf
而現在在我後面的正是我剛剛拉出來的女生。75Please respect copyright.PENANA2zjHL0mdZK
我回過頭,眼前的人先是讓我感到錯愕,卻又很生氣。75Please respect copyright.PENANAAJc5oPdC6f
「老...師?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAV3fD688rLO
她正是我國中的班導師,我的恩人,我最喜歡的老師。75Please respect copyright.PENANAWUbadTaMTf
「老師妳為什麼會在這裡?他們對妳做了什麼?」我激動萬分,用著比一般時候都還要大的音量問著,連我自己都被自己嚇到,原來我說話可以這麼大聲。75Please respect copyright.PENANAO00Q6rqWKJ
老師垂眸,淡淡的說,「他們是我的學生,沒有對我做什麼,你趕快走吧我沒事,你的朋友還在等你呢。」說完,他將我的手放開,輕輕把我推到段亞音那邊。75Please respect copyright.PENANAJLcNqGtNoX
我想要移動,段亞音卻緊緊抓住了我的手,不讓我再次靠近。75Please respect copyright.PENANA4Agzxln5A1
老師笑咪咪的看著我,朝我揮揮手,「你們走吧,這是我跟我學生的事情,我們會自己處理。」75Please respect copyright.PENANA5LwvdMnpiB
縱使我不擅長猜透別人的想法,現在老師的笑臉絕對是虛假的。75Please respect copyright.PENANApX0gm2AYfR
就這樣,即使我很想留下來,但她並不希望我留下。75Please respect copyright.PENANAa7VxABaZct
而我更沒有看漏,老師的臉上,有一些皮肉傷痕。75Please respect copyright.PENANACyxeWA0eLI
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「那是你國中的班導嗎?」走遠後,段亞音似乎終於找到時機而開口。75Please respect copyright.PENANAGFxnmy7fHm
「嗯。」75Please respect copyright.PENANANCF9orSqeg
這裡有四個人,沉默時間卻異常的長。75Please respect copyright.PENANArhBXppb7Sq
我倒是不希望她們繼續問其他問題了。75Please respect copyright.PENANAmimeQVZ8sK
我在心裡默默立一個目標,決定要去調查老師的事情。75Please respect copyright.PENANAaK5RzgWkJw
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#75Please respect copyright.PENANA5EGFG40KR5
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比起老師的事情,現在首先要面對的是學校。75Please respect copyright.PENANAfUk9lykiyl
自那天去過教官室後,輔導室將通知單發到班上。75Please respect copyright.PENANAXGQE8AWSTk
「藍奇馭被叫去輔導室欸。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAA5udP7OQ8b
「我有看到,一定是他又做了什麼事啦。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAImRExdNfc8
「我想也是。」75Please respect copyright.PENANA0pqXyEVbGe
班上的同學一如既往的吵呢。75Please respect copyright.PENANADgnfWEJHnh
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進到輔導室後,其中一位老師隨即站起身,將我引領到一間房間裡面。75Please respect copyright.PENANAXy4g02yLaV
跟去教官室有點像。75Please respect copyright.PENANAwOxT3L5pH1
不太一樣的是,這間小房間不是普通的房間,牆壁的材質很明顯是軟的,且有著凹凸不平的表面,照理來說在小房間內回音會很重,但在這裡卻沒有。75Please respect copyright.PENANAItCy8BDjel
擺設也很簡單,有一張單人沙發,還有一張雙人沙發,在沙發前則放有一個小茶几。75Please respect copyright.PENANAyqegCN7Nuf
是間隔音室。75Please respect copyright.PENANAjhHK0GozKy
輔導老師在單人沙發前停下來,比了比手勢示意我坐在雙人沙發上,她自己則是坐在單人沙發。75Please respect copyright.PENANAPZkY95y6EF
「藍奇馭同學,我這邊收到教官室的通知,要把你找過來,你怎麼了,可以跟老師說嗎?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAWp78BQzkOU
又來了。75Please respect copyright.PENANAimCY907TdK
每個都只會問發生什麼事。75Please respect copyright.PENANAdd4Fhq0BxJ
我蹙眉,忍住不把白眼翻過去,語氣不耐煩的說道,「我沒有怎麼樣。」75Please respect copyright.PENANA9VzclNFkAb
輔導老師嘴角下垂,聽得出來是強行讓自己保持友善的語氣,「沒有怎麼樣為什麼要自殘呢?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAWawxqP5ytT
「因為這可以讓我放鬆。」我不假思索的說。75Please respect copyright.PENANAwMvkf24iW8
她表情比方才還要更加不悅,「做這種事怎麼可以放鬆呢?你就老實說吧,是不是因為這次考試考不好,還是你就只是想要引起別人注意,覺得自己這樣很可憐嗎?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAlplPvAnEMN
似乎是意識到自己說錯話,她馬上轉換語調,變得柔和萬分,「我不是這個意思,老師是希望你有事好好說,不要想用別的方法。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAGYEsiRHV5a
我看著她的眼睛,自己也不知道我現在的表情是怎麼樣,就這樣注視著她不發一語。75Please respect copyright.PENANAOnpe21h5u9
「藍奇馭,你不講的話事情沒有辦法解決喔。」75Please respect copyright.PENANActAGMG7jAY
「沒有什麼好說的。」75Please respect copyright.PENANANB7RdUSmqF
發現對話沒有任何進展,她默默從茶几上拿了一張小小的名片,遞給了我。75Please respect copyright.PENANAkCWwMOecJZ
「以前也有很多學長姐,可能考試壓力大會也一些不好的行為,有些人選擇去這裡,改善了不少問題。」75Please respect copyright.PENANAVkK070mLPL
光輝精神科。75Please respect copyright.PENANAxaETZoinDz
名片上寫著這幾個字。75Please respect copyright.PENANAjQttbd5wko
我的腦中突然浮現段亞音的臉,她滿臉擔憂的要我去看精神科,在此時她的臉與我面前的人重疊,頓時一陣反胃感襲來。75Please respect copyright.PENANA09LfkFYiEy
原來,我在你們眼中就是一個有病的人啊。75Please respect copyright.PENANAOu8WpT2ASa
「謝謝老師,我會參考的。」我將名片收起來,眼睛瞇起,嘴角上揚到我快要支撐不住的角度,給出一個大大的笑臉,隨後便站起身來,走沒兩步路便到了門口,將門把轉開。75Please respect copyright.PENANAwn1Ge7zLUO
「藍奇馭!你每天都要來這裡報到!我會一直送通知單過去的。」老師在我身後吼著。75Please respect copyright.PENANAB0BPZzYIU5
我回頭,莞爾道,「我會來的。」接著走出輔導室。75Please respect copyright.PENANAuTV36leRin
「還是你就只是想要引起別人注意,覺得自己這樣很可憐嗎?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAGfee3CVfj5
「還是你就只是想要引起別人注意,覺得自己這樣很可憐嗎?」75Please respect copyright.PENANA8zIfXMSA9n
「還是你就只是想要引起別人注意,覺得自己這樣很可憐嗎?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAE6G3T7XPDa
「還是你就只是想要引起別人注意,覺得自己這樣很可憐嗎?」75Please respect copyright.PENANAl7qV6Y6caA
「還是你就只是想要引起別人注意,覺得自己這樣很可憐嗎?」75Please respect copyright.PENANA83tYDPWnX9
「藍奇馭,你不講的話事情沒有辦法解決喔。」75Please respect copyright.PENANA19YDJZhh9O
煩死了。75Please respect copyright.PENANATYs2Y0IgD1
聲音,又關不掉了。75Please respect copyright.PENANA93RxTA2RzS
我躲到學校的頂樓,望著風景,閉上眼睛,靜靜吹著寒風讓自己冷靜。75Please respect copyright.PENANAQt7QO1drGr
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後面的日子去到輔導室,我全程放空,老師問什麼我都予以笑臉回應。75Please respect copyright.PENANA4ttObyFgkq
日復一日。75Please respect copyright.PENANA7eIMSeTOQM
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期中考時當監考老師真是無聊,正當楊佳良教官冒出這個想法時,巡邏著一年一班的他,卻發現有位學生袖子底下藏了許多傷口,偷偷對了一下座位表確認了他的名字--藍奇馭。
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