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不是明面上的調令、處分,連教導處都沒再追問,而是……一種“流傳起來”的名聲。1234 copyright protection83PENANAQ9Qizk6bHn 尼
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有學生偷偷看著我,轉頭對身邊人低語;1234 copyright protection83PENANAcIDUV6JnRO 尼
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有辦公室老師看我一眼,欲言又止;1234 copyright protection83PENANAgVFiG0Xd8e 尼
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直到後來,林曉晴一邊喝奶茶一邊笑著問我:“林老師,聽說你有個新外號?”1234 copyright protection83PENANAEGRvMGzv6e 尼
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“什麼外號?”1234 copyright protection83PENANAEB0kcOLKXh 尼
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“怒——吼——天——尊!”她咬字誇張,臉上都是快憋不住的笑。1234 copyright protection83PENANAuBt6bFdz5y 尼
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“……你們學生群聊都聊這些?”我皺眉,“我聽著怎麼像個魔教長老?”1234 copyright protection83PENANA1S8Pb5zq49 尼
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蘇婉秋在旁邊拍著桌子笑:“你當時真吼了嗎?吼得那學生都不敢動?”1234 copyright protection83PENANAcN1Stfeala 尼
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“吼了。”我故作深沉地點頭,“那場面啊,風捲殘雲,雷霆萬鈞,講臺差點塌了,教室的玻璃都嗡嗡作響。謝文豪當場雙膝一軟,哭著喊我饒命——”1234 copyright protection83PENANAORZGS4LIMg 尼
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“哇哦!”林曉晴配合地驚呼,眼睛亮晶晶,“您真不愧是‘天尊’!”1234 copyright protection83PENANA1ngm0pVBTU 尼
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“師尊師尊!”蘇婉秋也跟著起哄,“弟子給您敬茶啦!”1234 copyright protection83PENANAwDriEnjzz1 尼
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我翻了個白眼,心裡卻忍不住有點發熱。1234 copyright protection83PENANApIxO7bNUhp 尼
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說到底,這幫年輕老師也還沒完全脫離學生的狀態,帶著點孩子氣的熱情和起哄氣質。他們不嘲諷、不回避,反而在笑鬧中,默默給你包了層溫情的濾鏡。1234 copyright protection83PENANABiKcPoMVRv 尼
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我坐在辦公室的小沙發上,看著他們三個在那邊嘰嘰喳喳地“還原現場”,李然端著茶,靠在椅背上看我,一副“你現在知道我多累了吧”的表情。1234 copyright protection83PENANARuSx1nJ4zy 尼
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我舉杯敬他一次:“沒想到啊,我的成名之路竟然是靠嗓門。”1234 copyright protection83PENANApQsPbnbn2u 尼
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他嗤笑:“這形式很江湖嘛,適合你。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAAa8Tj1NlYX 尼
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“合著你早知道這圈子就這德行?”1234 copyright protection83PENANA99hf5qS8b5 尼
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“那當然。”他抿了口茶,悠悠道,“教學是副業,搞氣氛才是主題。能混得開的老師,不一定是最會講課的,但一定是最會‘玩哽’的。”1234 copyright protection83PENANA6gjD4KUWXn 尼
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我聽著這話,心頭竟然泛起一絲奇怪的暖意。1234 copyright protection83PENANA73cSLW7GXR 尼
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那天“怒吼天尊”事件之後,我的職場生涯似乎忽然拐了個小彎。最直觀的變化,就是夏凝也笑我了。1234 copyright protection83PENANAGAM15VGl1d 尼
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在我用繪聲繪色的表情誇張地重演那場“天地變色”“師尊落雷”的怒吼時,她也忍不住彎起眼角,笑得肩膀輕輕顫著,小虎牙從嘴角露出來。1234 copyright protection83PENANABJgBPVNVr0 尼
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她看著我演完,抿了口熱水,像是不好意思地小聲說:“其實……我那天正好路過。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAY3qXkEoFLI 尼
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“哦?”我挑眉,“你是不是也嚇著了?”1234 copyright protection83PENANA0c35blEbiz 尼
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她笑著搖頭:“沒有,我還以為你在演講。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAfh5ZeLWSCl 尼
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“……謝謝你捧場。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAWk6l0KTmmW 尼
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“真的,我覺得你當時好認真。”她歪著頭看我,眼神認真得像個學生在回答老師提問,“有一種……很想守住什麼的感覺。”1234 copyright protection83PENANA26xCOjDlSW 尼
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我被她這句話怔住了。1234 copyright protection83PENANAyEmQkLlHD2 尼
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許久沒聽過有人用這樣不花哨、卻直指心底的語言形容我。1234 copyright protection83PENANAFdSqbKGhUP 尼
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我突然想起那天課後她在樓梯口等我,拎著保溫杯,開不了口,只能把水遞過來。1234 copyright protection83PENANAH9uk9CrFxl 尼
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她不是很會表達,也不是時時都熱情奔放。但她記得你喝茶的習慣,知道你哪裡不舒服,何時說話、何時沉默。1234 copyright protection83PENANA7qAeZ46K7Z 尼
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有幾次下晚自習,她會和我並排走到地鐵站,有一句沒一句地聊著。剛開始我們還會尷尬地避開“評比”的話題,後來誰也沒提起,反而聊起更瑣碎的事:1234 copyright protection83PENANA3Kars1d6jW 尼
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我們不急著到站,有時候會在地鐵出口旁的小賣部買兩罐飲料,然後並排站在燈光下喝完。夏凝偶爾會說:“你這個樣子,真的不像老師。”1234 copyright protection83PENANA92xMieQPN7 尼
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我笑:“我本來也不是。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAnNk6rx1PJC 尼
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“那你現在是嗎?”她仰頭看我。1234 copyright protection83PENANAanhrcnbPFr 尼
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“我……正在努力學。”我頓了頓,低頭看她,“你呢?你覺得你是老師了嗎?”1234 copyright protection83PENANATmDH2fv3fh 尼
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她想了想,忽然笑了:“你不是說,我們是工具人嗎?”1234 copyright protection83PENANARsOLhzqwJ4 尼
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“說是這麼說。”我攤手,“但我們這群工具,還是挺能抱團取暖的。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAumzlEmfhrM 尼
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她沒說話,只是微微靠近我一點,像是不動聲色地分享著城市夜風裡那點不容易察覺的安靜和溫度。1234 copyright protection83PENANApdu4NPcaU9 尼
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我們並沒有突然親近到某種不可回頭的程度,也沒有什麼感情戲碼在這幾天爆發——只是你偶爾回頭,會發現:1234 copyright protection83PENANAtj0frJjvQt 尼
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她在。1234 copyright protection83PENANAKKcWzi2DlK 尼
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她也會笑著說:“你走太快了。”1234 copyright protection83PENANA1ZnT9j5oPo 尼
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這就夠了。1234 copyright protection83PENANAsOhFjodDmu 尼
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某天的午休時分,太陽正毒,辦公室裡昏昏沉沉。大多數人吃完飯要麼趴桌午睡,要麼刷手機劃水,整個空間裡只有風扇呼啦啦轉著,連李然都難得沒擺茶攤。1234 copyright protection83PENANAUnXhoxv2Bn 尼
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我正坐在角落裡看教案,忽然聽到辦公桌另一側傳來一聲輕響。1234 copyright protection83PENANAPuhUy549zZ 尼
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我抬頭,就看到夏凝站在那,低著頭,雙手用力握住資料夾的邊緣,臉上是一種我從未見過的神情——不是生氣,不是委屈,而是……失控前一秒的緊繃。1234 copyright protection83PENANAf5nD5SrWiQ 尼
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她的眼睛死死盯著資料夾,呼吸略快,肩膀在微微發抖。1234 copyright protection83PENANAnet9Xh3Xkv 尼
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我愣了一下,正準備起身,她就拿起桌上的保溫杯轉身沖出了辦公室。1234 copyright protection83PENANAIEMRlRiFXd 尼
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她不是走,是小跑著離開的。1234 copyright protection83PENANASAtOMMdH44 尼
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我幾乎沒猶豫,跟了出去。1234 copyright protection83PENANAvzvXOLUoms 尼
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她去了樓梯間,背對著我站著,胳膊抱在胸前,頭低得幾乎要埋進肩膀裡,整個人像是被陽光抽空了力氣,只剩下一道窄窄的影子貼在牆上。1234 copyright protection83PENANAFeECSivmst 尼
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我走近,輕聲問:“怎麼了?”1234 copyright protection83PENANArqObwgdNfc 尼
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她沒有回頭,聲音悶悶的:“教導處讓我要帶一個補習班……高三的。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAnKeZBuakgs 尼
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我怔了一下:“……現在?突然讓你帶?”1234 copyright protection83PENANAk1K4Bbq9W5 尼
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“對。”她深吸一口氣,聲音已經發抖,“他們說政治組缺人,一個老師家裡出事了,臨時走不開,我是年輕老師,調配優先。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAFlYilIHRFY 尼
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“可你剛上崗不到兩個月……”1234 copyright protection83PENANA4UzFLwCBHn 尼
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“我說我沒經驗,他們說‘鍛煉’;我說我課太多了,他們說可以協調……協調個鬼。”她終於抬起頭,眼眶通紅,“你知道要我講的是什麼嗎?《馬克思主義哲學原理》……高三最後一輪複習!我、我自己上學時這塊都差點掛科的……”1234 copyright protection83PENANAHuwQT1v2pZ 尼
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我看著她,忽然有點說不出話來。1234 copyright protection83PENANAwjOUcqxH12 尼
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她不是任性,也不是撒嬌,而是——真的慌了。1234 copyright protection83PENANAwNlQqtlYch 尼
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那種第一次被“職場安排”擊中、第一次明白現實不是你熱情就能抵擋的那種慌。1234 copyright protection83PENANAGn3WD9pL4f 尼
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她像個被突然抽掉最後一根支撐杆的紙牌屋,眼前還得強撐著笑,假裝自己還能穩得住。1234 copyright protection83PENANAf4svFivrad 尼
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“你怕講不好?”我問。1234 copyright protection83PENANAXPoNWynA0O 尼
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她點頭,鼻子一皺,眼淚就下來了。1234 copyright protection83PENANAtgcVaLjGRn 尼
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“我怕……丟人。”她的聲音低低的,“我怕我一上講臺就結巴,我怕他們笑我,說我不配站在那裡……”1234 copyright protection83PENANAgRgVp1CTfE 尼
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那一刻,我終於明白,夏凝其實一直都很用力地在“裝大人”。1234 copyright protection83PENANAG9wcaHCrJT 尼
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可她終究才二十三歲,才剛從一間明亮的大學教室走出來,還沒在世界的灰色邊界裡走夠幾步,就被推上了講臺,要面對的是一群比她還世故的高三學生。1234 copyright protection83PENANAveqzE5fXCH 尼
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她不是玻璃心,她只是太新鮮。1234 copyright protection83PENANAwcAGvQexcT 尼
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我輕輕拍了拍她的肩,像是給她一個信號。1234 copyright protection83PENANAZHqYPBMnZC 尼
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“我陪你準備。”我說,“你講不出的時候,我就坐在你第一排,眼神裡寫滿‘老師你講得真好’。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAHyWi2b71Ov 尼
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她看著我,鼻子還是紅的,眼睛裡卻有一點點水霧笑意:“……你不是美術老師嗎?”1234 copyright protection83PENANACucbDCh0wr 尼
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“我也學過哲學。”我故作高深,“而且,我嘴硬,臉皮厚,最適合坐第一排扛炮火。”1234 copyright protection83PENANA8nN0SCOdrL 尼
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她破涕為笑。1234 copyright protection83PENANAS3RKroHvFR 尼
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這一刻,我覺得,夏凝終於卸下了那個“優等生”的外殼,變回了那個剛走出象牙塔,站在現實邊緣徘徊的女孩。1234 copyright protection83PENANAXWnILGKw8T 尼
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也許,這場硬著頭皮接下來的換課任務,就是她真正成為“老師”的第一道坎。1234 copyright protection83PENANAtkjkShvev4 尼
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夏凝擦乾眼淚之後,還是像每一個倔強的人那樣,說了一句:“我回去自己準備吧。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAK8iTirqWEr 尼
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我沒多說什麼,只是默默跟在她後面。1234 copyright protection83PENANAAlSgmIf0Rd 尼
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她回頭看了我一眼,也沒阻止。1234 copyright protection83PENANAlvq9jc8sHO 尼
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我們在美術教研室坐下,把手頭所有能找到的《政治複習資料》《教學設計》《往年高考試卷》堆在小圓桌上。1234 copyright protection83PENANA3L63HXwmmM 尼
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“我先講給你聽一遍吧?”她小聲問我,語氣裡還帶著點試探。1234 copyright protection83PENANAyrCQ5VXEqT 尼
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“好,我當學生。”我往椅背一靠,“不過我很差勁,問題特別多,搞不好會舉手反駁你。”1234 copyright protection83PENANA7Xgzkg8eGC 尼
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她笑了笑,那種重壓下的笑容仍舊帶著點孩子氣的溫柔。1234 copyright protection83PENANAWHkOIdxk72 尼
87Please respect copyright.PENANAb0zlXdO59r
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第一遍,她講得磕磕絆絆,嗓子幹,語速急,邏輯跳躍。1234 copyright protection83PENANAMI9b6hQZhj 尼
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“你在笑我吧。”她停住,語氣裡有點洩氣。1234 copyright protection83PENANAzJDuDamj2q 尼
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“沒有。”我把椅子往前挪了點,“我在聽你想怎麼講。”1234 copyright protection83PENANA00cgFpf9T6 尼
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她愣了一下,好像沒聽懂這話。1234 copyright protection83PENANAhk4sbZi5ug 尼
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“你不是在照本宣科。”我說,“你是在努力找到自己的表達方式。我能聽出來。”1234 copyright protection83PENANA3X3e61gUaG 尼
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夏凝沒說話,眼神在燈光下微微晃了一下,然後點點頭:“我想講得有趣一點……但政治,真的很難有趣。”1234 copyright protection83PENANA85Ntn6rUl1 尼
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“試試從學生生活講起。”我拿起她的教案,“你不是說,你講得像是在考試,那就換一個開頭:‘你們有沒有發現,我們每天早上睜眼第一個想的,不是今天穿什麼,而是今天該不該遲到?’”1234 copyright protection83PENANAMTE99HUVXB 尼
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她噗地笑出聲:“這也太像脫口秀了。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAwoJnWgsEJA 尼
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“你不就是帶著脫口秀氣質的政治老師嗎?”1234 copyright protection83PENANAj4Oylw6mHF 尼
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我們一直改到晚上八點,教案寫了一半,稿子翻了三輪,燈光下她的筆記越寫越密,手邊的礦泉水也從滿瓶變成空殼。1234 copyright protection83PENANA4QJoH6cB0n 尼
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我替她揉了揉肩,說:“別講了,我去泡杯茶。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAoW4VxhFDOo 尼
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她輕聲“嗯”了一句,忽然伸手輕輕拽住我衣角:“你明天能在教室裡坐著嗎?”1234 copyright protection83PENANAMHLIy5CGOy 尼
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我點頭。1234 copyright protection83PENANA7IynYvg7NN 尼
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“坐哪?”1234 copyright protection83PENANAPLOkJnIxN6 尼
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“最後一排,靠窗。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAwo57YBAYpo 尼
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“你會笑嗎?”1234 copyright protection83PENANAzoCK6Zz1v9 尼
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“不會。除非我忍不住。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAbfkGgaeRS0 尼
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她睜大眼看我,我笑著補了一句:“放心,我受過專業訓練的。”1234 copyright protection83PENANA8jTKJVYn85 尼
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第二天一早,我提前進了教室。1234 copyright protection83PENANAqM7SD9xnxp 尼
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高三(3)班,學生陸陸續續進來,打哈欠、聊天、發呆、刷題,空氣裡都是臨近高考前那種沉悶又焦躁的氛圍。1234 copyright protection83PENANAYNtX8keNQS 尼
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我挑了最後一排靠窗的位置坐下,低調地翻著夏凝昨晚的講稿。1234 copyright protection83PENANAAgXSAm0xb1 尼
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她說要“講得有趣”,說要用“生活的語言講抽象的理論”,但我知道,這一切要建立在她先撐過那最開始的五分鐘。1234 copyright protection83PENANAczOyPR48Pd 尼
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講臺前的鐘滴答滴答走著。1234 copyright protection83PENANAKbyY8SoyG6 尼
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她終於出現。1234 copyright protection83PENANAZDMtVErTwE 尼
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她抱著教材和筆記本走進教室,腳步明顯放得很慢。我看見她深吸了一口氣,然後勉強擠出一個淡淡的微笑。1234 copyright protection83PENANApRL0sfglpO 尼
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沒人回應。1234 copyright protection83PENANAgTCRuetml7 尼
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教室裡依舊嘈雜,幾乎沒人注意這個剛走上講臺的小個子女老師。1234 copyright protection83PENANAV2bdo934au 尼
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我在後排偷偷舉了下手,對她做了個“加油”的手勢。1234 copyright protection83PENANA9hRWce3udJ 尼
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她看見了,愣了一秒,嘴角微微一彎。1234 copyright protection83PENANAsK8v72eLz0 尼
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“同學們,我們開始上課。”1234 copyright protection83PENANA8lGWDDCXQT 尼
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聲音有些輕,但意外地堅定。1234 copyright protection83PENANATfHutrOBCM 尼
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前排有學生抬頭看了她一眼,依舊沒有太多反應。1234 copyright protection83PENANAhPMK3hXrZd 尼
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她翻開講義,照著準備好的內容開始講——但我一聽就知道,出問題了。1234 copyright protection83PENANAzVZNF8j02m 尼
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她的語速太快,像是拼命想要趕完這節課;句子不夠清晰,有幾個理論術語混淆了;甚至一不小心翻錯了頁,卡了兩秒。1234 copyright protection83PENANAeLy5rTN956 尼
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教室開始躁動,後排幾個學生已經開始在紙上寫字條傳來傳去,有人笑出聲。1234 copyright protection83PENANARrDOIHmjra 尼
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我輕輕坐直,給她投去一個眼神。1234 copyright protection83PENANAS5GkKPt7E9 尼
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她瞥了我一眼,指尖顫了顫,然後深吸一口氣,把講稿合上了。1234 copyright protection83PENANAMHKqRkA8TS 尼
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“我問大家一個問題。”她忽然抬頭,聲音比剛才清晰了不少。1234 copyright protection83PENANAXrKqQHv88o 尼
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“你們有沒有想過,‘人為什麼會後悔?’”1234 copyright protection83PENANAyvP9oEHssQ 尼
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學生們一下安靜了。1234 copyright protection83PENANAEvyVvLcbUQ 尼
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“後悔是一種意識吧,那它和現實有沒有關係?我們是否能用哲學解釋‘後悔’這個動作?”1234 copyright protection83PENANAiLnFGmUdGr 尼
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講臺上,那個剛才還怯生生的小姑娘,忽然像是在講一件自己真正感興趣的事。1234 copyright protection83PENANAGPGj3PEMXR 尼
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她眼神亮了起來,語氣變得自然而投入。1234 copyright protection83PENANA6hUNTYVKcP 尼
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“我們今天要講的是‘意識的能動作用’,也就是說,人類意識不是被動反映,而是可以改變世界的力量。”1234 copyright protection83PENANATYeXRECe3Y 尼
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“就比如,當你後悔的時候,那種感覺會驅動你下次不再犯同樣的錯……這不就是主觀能動性嗎?”1234 copyright protection83PENANA7ao3hGexyC 尼
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我在後排幾乎要拍手。1234 copyright protection83PENANA6FG8rbvkJE 尼
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學生終於有人舉手問:“那老師,有些人明知道會後悔,為什麼還是會做?”1234 copyright protection83PENANAVHxQ47ubOG 尼
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她回答道:“因為意識和潛意識之間有張力,理性知道會後悔,但情緒不一定配合。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAAqTRFZPjd0 尼
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後面的講課,她越發自然。1234 copyright protection83PENANAMHdUjJL06n 尼
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甚至還講了個自己高考政治失利的糗事,說自己當年為了背一條原理,把它編成了rap,結果被老師罰站三分鐘。1234 copyright protection83PENANAT4NegNGOYg 尼
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學生笑了,她也笑了。1234 copyright protection83PENANARon0tyBgwF 尼
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我坐在教室後排,看著那個從昨晚還在樓梯間抹眼淚的女生,今天已經能在課堂上調動氣氛、和學生鬥智鬥嘴,忽然有點莫名的成就感。1234 copyright protection83PENANAe5L3yTW26M 尼
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她不是變了,而是找到了那個在講臺上也能活著的“自己”。1234 copyright protection83PENANApNGWqytA40 尼
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最後下課鈴響起。1234 copyright protection83PENANAfokllXgga9 尼
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她收起講義,走下講臺,路過我時,沒說話,只是輕輕碰了碰我的肩膀。1234 copyright protection83PENANAiWKh6Do6pV 尼
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下課鈴響的那一刻,教室裡像是解了封,學生們瞬間炸開了鍋,疊書本、收文具、喊名字、追著出門。1234 copyright protection83PENANAqCXq1Za9TB 尼
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夏凝站在講臺邊,整整一節課的緊繃還掛在肩膀上,像是沒反應過來已經結束了。1234 copyright protection83PENANAF6VeLUeM9D 尼
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我起身,走到門口時,回頭看了她一眼。1234 copyright protection83PENANAmsiPEbMXZK 尼
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她剛好看向我,兩人眼神對上,夏凝的嘴角輕輕動了一下。1234 copyright protection83PENANAT7n6WMhf0x 尼
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“走吧。”1234 copyright protection83PENANARbMMwJXYZw 尼
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我點點頭,沒說話,率先往走廊盡頭走去。1234 copyright protection83PENANAwB6qQLDplV 尼
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那是一段臨時搭建的秘密頻道,平時沒什麼人走,正好安靜。天光透過磨砂玻璃,打在牆面上,有點像舊電影裡慢放的片段。1234 copyright protection83PENANAFLyZA8MQGN 尼
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她走在我身邊,拎著那本講義,走了幾步,忽然站住。1234 copyright protection83PENANAOoRbj3hcxj 尼
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“等一下。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAgyePhyP6UL 尼
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我回頭。1234 copyright protection83PENANACBNfPLFvK1 尼
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她看著我,低聲說:“我講得很差吧?”1234 copyright protection83PENANAIzhEmoAOZE 尼
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我一愣。1234 copyright protection83PENANASAmntrWCw0 尼
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“你明明知道我中間很多地方講得不清楚,概念混了,節奏也不穩。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAEb8ZS09X8n 尼
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“……但你撐下來了。”我頓了頓,“而且,你讓他們笑了。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAbxqThHkRW3 尼
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“那是我講rap那段。”她的笑有些勉強,“其實……我都不知道我自己是怎麼講下來的。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAVkhBUOtpfF 尼
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我沒說話。1234 copyright protection83PENANAwhB5W0wM3s 尼
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她低頭,看著自己鞋尖,聲音低得像是怕被風聽見。1234 copyright protection83PENANAeJLztB6ufN 尼
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“謝謝你。”1234 copyright protection83PENANALOwjNixdC1 尼
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她第一次用這種正式又認真的語氣跟我說這三個字。1234 copyright protection83PENANAEJmyiXlUIm 尼
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不是禮貌式的敷衍,也不是調侃式的打趣,而是那種——真正覺得有人在關鍵時刻拉了她一把的那種“謝謝”。1234 copyright protection83PENANAorj38XfMAD 尼
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她吸了口氣,看著我:“我昨天真的快撐不下去了。你大概不知道那種感覺——你心裡一萬個怕,但又不能不裝得什麼都懂。你要是走了,我真的不知道該怎麼辦。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAJ5BXIqhF7y 尼
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我笑了一下:“我沒走。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAXD8B2kWSrj 尼
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她看著我,忽然笑了。1234 copyright protection83PENANAH9zks7Fr5T 尼
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她沒說話,只是伸出手,輕輕戳了一下我胳膊:“不准騙人。”1234 copyright protection83PENANAExLwgYolEo 尼
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“我不是騙人,我是助攻。”我一本正經地糾正她。1234 copyright protection83PENANA0F4yW6xXgi 尼
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兩人都笑了。1234 copyright protection83PENANAM5NShuL0X6 尼
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