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觸不到的戀人
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ISSUE #13
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二零一一年,十一月。240Please respect copyright.PENANANSg3V3MAv2
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天空一直處於陰暗狀態,大概是已經進入冬天的緣故,所以太陽出現的次數也少得可憐。240Please respect copyright.PENANANHbWyclwqb
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寒冷的冬天。240Please respect copyright.PENANAcs57RsfK4G
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班上的每個人都穿的很厚重,甚至圍上了圍巾,看來這次寒流來襲真讓每個人都冷的受不了。240Please respect copyright.PENANAZ6TOp383hs
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我也不例外。240Please respect copyright.PENANAtRfWjt4bYV
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轉眼間已經進入高二,這一年我是怎麼過去的?240Please respect copyright.PENANAm4QQEwqvBr
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原以為會和班上的女生處的不好,但卻意外的合得來,尤其是和那個滿臉雀斑的女生。240Please respect copyright.PENANAbkF7X0iGn7
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本來陰沉的個性在和她們相處後變得比較開放了。240Please respect copyright.PENANAx5JRstrRqw
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這算好事嗎?我不清楚。240Please respect copyright.PENANAeSf0zzmU3F
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只覺得能維持好現狀就好了。240Please respect copyright.PENANA0Dy8sFmcdD
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「橋橋,妳不進來嗎?外面很冷的說。」身後的窗戶被打開,一個女生探頭出來對我說。240Please respect copyright.PENANAljMP335a2W
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我搖頭,然後對她笑了笑,並把窗戶關上。240Please respect copyright.PENANAcmKoJrweXS
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下課後只要我是醒著,就會站在教室後門外,就算很冷,也想站在這裡。240Please respect copyright.PENANAXEBMQnjNyN
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沒有原因的。240Please respect copyright.PENANAwCAkHTZ9j1
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以前做事總是需要原因、理由,但時間久了,才發現這些都是多餘的。240Please respect copyright.PENANAxQyG2kEGwp
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太多事情不需要理由。240Please respect copyright.PENANAttj94VPe02
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包括感情。240Please respect copyright.PENANA2SvIvgzeL2
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吹風吹得夠久了,上課鐘也差不多該響了。240Please respect copyright.PENANACneglWbqHP
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在我準備打開教室後門時,耳邊的音樂停止了。240Please respect copyright.PENANAnCsVcRlxoQ
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我伸手觸摸戴在耳上的耳機,然後疑惑。240Please respect copyright.PENANAHD24zJtoZp
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手機在震動。240Please respect copyright.PENANA4BLeYvyEXG
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我連看都不看直接把手伸進口袋裡,按下接聽。240Please respect copyright.PENANA7mfkVNY5T8
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耳機沒有傳來任何聲音,我喂了好幾聲,對方依舊沉默。240Please respect copyright.PENANADob7kiS7zQ
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會不會對方早就把電話掛掉了?但掛掉的話音樂會繼續撥放才是。240Please respect copyright.PENANAVbloyXNuCI
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沉默、熟悉的沉默,這種感覺……240Please respect copyright.PENANAdHMN2HBiVy
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我緩緩的把手機從口袋裡拿出來,看了來電者,終於明白這沉默的電話為何不會讓我想掛電話。240Please respect copyright.PENANAiH6qPjqioh
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早已習慣的沉默。240Please respect copyright.PENANAujMHdUUavu
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他為什麼會打來?為什麼是挑今天、這種時候?240Please respect copyright.PENANA3A5DEI8BOO
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「楊瑀峰,你在不講話我要掛電話了。」上課鐘在我講完這句話後隨即敲響。240Please respect copyright.PENANAx5I6jcDPUL
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雖然這節是自習,但我並不想在教室裡講電話,而且是和前男友。240Please respect copyright.PENANA6MJf0usV16
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不曾承認過的前男友。240Please respect copyright.PENANAOsSvwCc9xu
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「……妳最近過得好嗎?」耳機終於有了些聲音、他的聲音。240Please respect copyright.PENANARyzeU6L8Rt
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一年了,久久未聽到過的聲音。240Please respect copyright.PENANALktxv7Raz8
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依舊冷漠,卻好像多了幾份感情。240Please respect copyright.PENANAWiZhCmU9ys
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是我的錯覺吧?240Please respect copyright.PENANAewRLp3DBZX
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「我很好。」240Please respect copyright.PENANAIqsifCnhJR
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我以為我會說「在和你分手後的每一天我都過得非常好」,都我沒有,反而平靜的回答說我很好。240Please respect copyright.PENANApwpVWQpUwR
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不想用那種諷刺的語氣,一年了,我那無理取鬧的個性不該再存在。240Please respect copyright.PENANAlXpE4JKxoT
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他沒再講下去,我們又陷入了沉默。240Please respect copyright.PENANAQ2ElG9dqLX
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他還是一樣不多話、一樣冷漠,完全沒有改變。240Please respect copyright.PENANA0gQjrgip7N
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走廊上的人群越來越少,我應該要進教室的,卻因為這通電話不得不止步於此。240Please respect copyright.PENANASDS5HzG1oc
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「我還在等妳。」他說。240Please respect copyright.PENANAdYbB3xEv7Y
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「當初那麼乾脆的把我甩開,現在又說你在等我?你在跟我開玩笑嗎?」我掩蓋不住語氣中的怒火,我感覺到氣氛開始變差,我和他。240Please respect copyright.PENANAgRDW1mcwZV
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「我們之間能不能不要只有爭吵?」240Please respect copyright.PENANA9Fd4aXIduM
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這話讓我愣了一下。240Please respect copyright.PENANApRJKMkFQPK
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我們?現在會用「我們」這個詞了?240Please respect copyright.PENANAgycNnIgmcA
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我強忍住那想哭的情緒,深呼吸、吐氣。240Please respect copyright.PENANAGgI8o7YvZM
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「我不知道你今天打給我到底要幹麻,如果只是問我近況,那我可以大聲的告訴你我過得很好,你不用擔心,我們分手已經一年多了,你還想知道我的狀況幹麻?如果你是在我們還在一起的時候說剛剛句話,我們可能就不會變成這樣,是你不說、是你不肯表達自己,我知道我自己也有問題,那你就沒有嗎?你說你在等我,那又怎樣?你不改變你這樣的個性,我們還是會有爭執你懂嗎?好了,我要去上課了。」語畢,我打開教室後門走進去,電話沒有按下掛斷鍵。240Please respect copyright.PENANAgELl8glA4j
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我以為他會結束通話。240Please respect copyright.PENANAM5FbnI8WMx
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「葉星橋。」耳機傳來他喊我名字的聲音。240Please respect copyright.PENANAHod1uoD4cy
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我回到座位,然後坐下。240Please respect copyright.PENANAIrQHK5ZcpL
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「我改,妳等我,好好照顧自己。」240Please respect copyright.PENANAv1gYABk9Xh
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在他講完沒多久,耳機傳入耳中的聲音不再是沉默,而是音樂。240Please respect copyright.PENANAtMOHzquEaW
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通話結束了,他掛斷了。240Please respect copyright.PENANApukiyOXQmT
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改變?為我……改變嗎?240Please respect copyright.PENANAApM8djPHX1
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我趴在桌上,臉埋進雙臂裡,睡覺。240Please respect copyright.PENANAUGgCbPXKB7
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只有睡覺、我才不會胡思亂想、不會期待。240Please respect copyright.PENANAD3Q9PDuDP5
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我沒想到這是我最後一次聽到瑀的聲音。240Please respect copyright.PENANA2Ar7Q4xvQs
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二零一三年,七月。240Please respect copyright.PENANAqFhbxHPgwA
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車窗外的景色一直在改變,音樂也是。240Please respect copyright.PENANA52R4vXWOII
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車上除了音樂聲外還有小迪唱歌的聲音,我和阿龍一直都保持安靜。240Please respect copyright.PENANAOluTDAEDSQ
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其實小迪心裡也很不平靜吧?所以才唱歌。240Please respect copyright.PENANA6wQ5dYKAWC
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我和阿龍呢?我們也只是表面看起來沒事、心裡亂的很。240Please respect copyright.PENANAhnsRcw65TX
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看著車窗外,我試著回想你的聲音、你的模樣,卻已模糊。240Please respect copyright.PENANAPKTcKYqLNw
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想不起來。240Please respect copyright.PENANALbwTKW3jQU
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車開上了山,這山路一直在繞圈圈,繞的我頭好暈好想吐。240Please respect copyright.PENANAqK8cuwfMhT
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等到不再繞圈時,已經到達目的地了。240Please respect copyright.PENANAfMquCzdhwK
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山頂。240Please respect copyright.PENANA02sNOIJLvH
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阿龍把車停好,並解開安全帶,回頭示意我可以下車了。240Please respect copyright.PENANA9HLm5NiaNg
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小迪比我快一步開車門,我跟在他後面下車。240Please respect copyright.PENANAGOS821a599
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「終於下車了,頭好暈啊!」小迪挺直身體,伸了個懶腰。240Please respect copyright.PENANA10wJ4rMJIL
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阿龍對小迪嘆了口大氣,然後打開後車廂,拿了一袋水果出來,小迪馬上搶過手,比我們兩個先走一步。240Please respect copyright.PENANAIMCJ5lt20c
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「那傢伙是在急什麼啊?」阿龍搔搔頭,看著小迪離去的背影。240Please respect copyright.PENANAlvwMvVEDuz
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我聳肩,然後望著眼前那巨大狀況的建築物,你──就在裡面。240Please respect copyright.PENANAEm8QnRKdus
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「為什麼突然想面對了?」阿龍轉過頭問我。240Please respect copyright.PENANATp2JO1HlQC
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沉默。240Please respect copyright.PENANAwqXI5U3R9Q
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「當初那麼固執不肯接受,怎麼現在完全不一樣了?」240Please respect copyright.PENANAUNtOY6O889
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「那一年發生太多事情了,也看開了。」我邊說邊踏出腳步,朝那棟建築物走去。240Please respect copyright.PENANAchk1zHJjfy
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總得親自經歷過某些事才會長大,對吧?240Please respect copyright.PENANA2TmuA8MxdK
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進入大門後,那些我不懂的麻煩事就由阿龍和小迪去處理,我則是站在電梯門口等著。240Please respect copyright.PENANAFLlEVMlvfC
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這裡裝潢的很簡單、但是那種不會看膩的簡單。240Please respect copyright.PENANA9sD7zwMbbw
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而且,很安靜。240Please respect copyright.PENANAlNbRRea9zB
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你喜歡這裡嗎?240Please respect copyright.PENANA4R7PO2g0Tp
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「橋橋,上樓囉!」眼前出現了一張卡片左右移動著,小迪正拿著電梯感應卡一副準備好的樣子站在我旁邊,而阿龍在他身後。240Please respect copyright.PENANALqy8oOGJoO
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按了電梯,等電梯開門,我們三個一起走進去,小迪按了五樓,然後用感應卡啟動它。240Please respect copyright.PENANALqv4sp7Gro
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電梯一層樓一層樓的上去,我突然覺得喘、覺得不自在。240Please respect copyright.PENANAmp500TS5xu
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五樓到了,很快。240Please respect copyright.PENANAO3HLMW7x5A
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電梯門一開,先看見的是一座佛像,然後周圍的走廊有幾個人在走動,走廊直到盡頭的左右都有條路可以進去。240Please respect copyright.PENANAnUFlzC25iK
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很多個房間。240Please respect copyright.PENANAtmnRS0xN9s
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我停在佛像前面,凝望。240Please respect copyright.PENANACI2qEsgvWl
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「怎麼了?」小迪拍了我一下,一臉擔心的問。240Please respect copyright.PENANAFqsD3uas8a
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「我在想,他真的想見到我嗎?」我雖然是問小迪,但視線一直沒有離開佛像過。240Please respect copyright.PENANAzHuYCO4QeG
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這個問題雖然在來之前,他們已經跟我確定過了,但我還是想問。240Please respect copyright.PENANAzHr7aY0pz9
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問佛、問你。240Please respect copyright.PENANAwHb27OMpcK
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你想見到我嗎?那麼殘忍的傷害你的我?240Please respect copyright.PENANAQ9mPn5aTXQ
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「只有妳,才是阿楊最想見到的人。」阿龍回答。240Please respect copyright.PENANALZkfZDhlDY
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我知道。240Please respect copyright.PENANAMTo7I3PB4h
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我在心裡告訴自己,我知道他一直想見到我,只是我的懦弱讓我一直選擇逃避。240Please respect copyright.PENANAtw7z16Q38j
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小迪勾住我的手,朝著他所在的地方前進。240Please respect copyright.PENANACf0F5II4jD
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不知道經過了多少房間,小迪才帶著我轉彎,走進一個房間裡。240Please respect copyright.PENANAzky5YrvB8w
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這房間其實很大,很多櫃子,裡面,有很多人的──240Please respect copyright.PENANAOCCvERl9F9
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骨灰。240Please respect copyright.PENANAhjdfk4uYLj
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走到靠近窗邊的位子,小迪放開我的手,然後淺笑。240Please respect copyright.PENANA8KmqkxpYFR
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悲傷的微笑。240Please respect copyright.PENANAb9zQMmv4gL
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「這位子是我們、阿傑、殷一起出錢買下來的,很適合阿楊,我覺得很適合。」阿龍像是在對我說、又像是在自言自語。240Please respect copyright.PENANAgpvv5RGqrW
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「阿楊,我們來看你囉!這次我們終於把橋橋帶來了。」小迪邊說邊打開那扇門。240Please respect copyright.PENANAWDPExA1a2Y
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有你在的那扇門。240Please respect copyright.PENANAYLLDGTtuCw
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有時候我常常在想,人死後被擺進這麼小的一個空間裡,不會寂寞嗎?240Please respect copyright.PENANAtgGh6bFGxV
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一直以來都很孤僻的你,會寂寞嗎?240Please respect copyright.PENANA1aaXXujwYc
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小迪和你說了好多好多的話,說到眼眶濕了聲音哽咽了也還是繼續說下去,而阿龍則是靜靜著聽小迪和你說話。240Please respect copyright.PENANAmZEshdMS6B
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小迪說了什麼?我聽不清楚,我一直處於失神狀態,直到阿龍叫了我。240Please respect copyright.PENANAWsYxfURrwd
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「我們先去電梯口那邊,等等在過來,妳和阿楊好好說說話吧?」阿龍拉著好像快哭的小迪,離開了這裡。240Please respect copyright.PENANArSGo5XjLOO
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我愣在原地許久,才走上前,然後面向你、看著你。240Please respect copyright.PENANA24mIILoonN
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照片中的你和記憶中模糊的你終於重疊,我想起你的模樣,那冷漠不帶任何表情的帥氣臉龐。240Please respect copyright.PENANAskQRwR4KrL
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笑起來令我深深著迷的臉。240Please respect copyright.PENANAdWA5QzGhh8
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