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觸不到的戀人
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二零一一年,十一月。224Please respect copyright.PENANAKdpUBCNGnv
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天空一直處於陰暗狀態,大概是已經進入冬天的緣故,所以太陽出現的次數也少得可憐。224Please respect copyright.PENANA8lfRPIuhVW
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寒冷的冬天。224Please respect copyright.PENANAcUcGeKsbZt
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班上的每個人都穿的很厚重,甚至圍上了圍巾,看來這次寒流來襲真讓每個人都冷的受不了。224Please respect copyright.PENANASmQZSnIktN
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我也不例外。224Please respect copyright.PENANAGOccYBxqot
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轉眼間已經進入高二,這一年我是怎麼過去的?224Please respect copyright.PENANAfeloAWnJcu
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原以為會和班上的女生處的不好,但卻意外的合得來,尤其是和那個滿臉雀斑的女生。224Please respect copyright.PENANAtjAAsbfzo2
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本來陰沉的個性在和她們相處後變得比較開放了。224Please respect copyright.PENANAZBLiElhvZ4
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這算好事嗎?我不清楚。224Please respect copyright.PENANAthgjNIIxko
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只覺得能維持好現狀就好了。224Please respect copyright.PENANAxNGPRqvrxH
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「橋橋,妳不進來嗎?外面很冷的說。」身後的窗戶被打開,一個女生探頭出來對我說。224Please respect copyright.PENANAypDmYc63Xl
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我搖頭,然後對她笑了笑,並把窗戶關上。224Please respect copyright.PENANAULqh7lpj2F
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下課後只要我是醒著,就會站在教室後門外,就算很冷,也想站在這裡。224Please respect copyright.PENANArkqGFXmQB4
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沒有原因的。224Please respect copyright.PENANAIe26P5j7p1
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以前做事總是需要原因、理由,但時間久了,才發現這些都是多餘的。224Please respect copyright.PENANAoVyKbTTBtU
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太多事情不需要理由。224Please respect copyright.PENANAUy5iXlydlL
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包括感情。224Please respect copyright.PENANAZQQeOXy3eJ
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吹風吹得夠久了,上課鐘也差不多該響了。224Please respect copyright.PENANAx0D5kgBTxv
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在我準備打開教室後門時,耳邊的音樂停止了。224Please respect copyright.PENANATn1W4bheSW
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我伸手觸摸戴在耳上的耳機,然後疑惑。224Please respect copyright.PENANA3pPFIqQIoe
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手機在震動。224Please respect copyright.PENANA9ttWFpH4tm
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我連看都不看直接把手伸進口袋裡,按下接聽。224Please respect copyright.PENANAhTI2rUebvZ
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耳機沒有傳來任何聲音,我喂了好幾聲,對方依舊沉默。224Please respect copyright.PENANAX9pdAszRZe
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會不會對方早就把電話掛掉了?但掛掉的話音樂會繼續撥放才是。224Please respect copyright.PENANAmXDjWmgr4M
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沉默、熟悉的沉默,這種感覺……224Please respect copyright.PENANAcCvh4xpbni
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我緩緩的把手機從口袋裡拿出來,看了來電者,終於明白這沉默的電話為何不會讓我想掛電話。224Please respect copyright.PENANACD7YgsuNXv
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早已習慣的沉默。224Please respect copyright.PENANA6EirNcE5Jt
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他為什麼會打來?為什麼是挑今天、這種時候?224Please respect copyright.PENANA36h25NGKGY
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「楊瑀峰,你在不講話我要掛電話了。」上課鐘在我講完這句話後隨即敲響。224Please respect copyright.PENANAAs4CtLmZf5
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雖然這節是自習,但我並不想在教室裡講電話,而且是和前男友。224Please respect copyright.PENANAXG9BthWK6a
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不曾承認過的前男友。224Please respect copyright.PENANAZkH23izz89
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「……妳最近過得好嗎?」耳機終於有了些聲音、他的聲音。224Please respect copyright.PENANAv8qDIk04TY
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一年了,久久未聽到過的聲音。224Please respect copyright.PENANAyeRs5L2MrX
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依舊冷漠,卻好像多了幾份感情。224Please respect copyright.PENANAl7QNOiSxS6
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是我的錯覺吧?224Please respect copyright.PENANAhfoJFAfeHs
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「我很好。」224Please respect copyright.PENANAhxrimqGuaf
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我以為我會說「在和你分手後的每一天我都過得非常好」,都我沒有,反而平靜的回答說我很好。224Please respect copyright.PENANACdEHRJetbf
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不想用那種諷刺的語氣,一年了,我那無理取鬧的個性不該再存在。224Please respect copyright.PENANA7XvqFfZM8J
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他沒再講下去,我們又陷入了沉默。224Please respect copyright.PENANAmVg748YKkP
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他還是一樣不多話、一樣冷漠,完全沒有改變。224Please respect copyright.PENANAx0TnN3DcFV
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走廊上的人群越來越少,我應該要進教室的,卻因為這通電話不得不止步於此。224Please respect copyright.PENANAsY3bnUOMqY
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「我還在等妳。」他說。224Please respect copyright.PENANAGt6duw68bN
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「當初那麼乾脆的把我甩開,現在又說你在等我?你在跟我開玩笑嗎?」我掩蓋不住語氣中的怒火,我感覺到氣氛開始變差,我和他。224Please respect copyright.PENANAIwQrLwGBXj
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「我們之間能不能不要只有爭吵?」224Please respect copyright.PENANAc0jSILtPCU
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這話讓我愣了一下。224Please respect copyright.PENANAzZIGrVUBXg
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我們?現在會用「我們」這個詞了?224Please respect copyright.PENANAtWWN4Qtxbp
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我強忍住那想哭的情緒,深呼吸、吐氣。224Please respect copyright.PENANATykX2cK0U8
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「我不知道你今天打給我到底要幹麻,如果只是問我近況,那我可以大聲的告訴你我過得很好,你不用擔心,我們分手已經一年多了,你還想知道我的狀況幹麻?如果你是在我們還在一起的時候說剛剛句話,我們可能就不會變成這樣,是你不說、是你不肯表達自己,我知道我自己也有問題,那你就沒有嗎?你說你在等我,那又怎樣?你不改變你這樣的個性,我們還是會有爭執你懂嗎?好了,我要去上課了。」語畢,我打開教室後門走進去,電話沒有按下掛斷鍵。224Please respect copyright.PENANACBxGGyumav
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我以為他會結束通話。224Please respect copyright.PENANAhxzrJoxe1K
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「葉星橋。」耳機傳來他喊我名字的聲音。224Please respect copyright.PENANAFHw0eNf2dt
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我回到座位,然後坐下。224Please respect copyright.PENANAZoRFeSBcnE
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「我改,妳等我,好好照顧自己。」224Please respect copyright.PENANAmACuHh8t5c
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在他講完沒多久,耳機傳入耳中的聲音不再是沉默,而是音樂。224Please respect copyright.PENANArV5yvzfBKk
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通話結束了,他掛斷了。224Please respect copyright.PENANA0iOUvMhNr9
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改變?為我……改變嗎?224Please respect copyright.PENANA8l583SxpJW
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我趴在桌上,臉埋進雙臂裡,睡覺。224Please respect copyright.PENANAh4doYOCcBo
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只有睡覺、我才不會胡思亂想、不會期待。224Please respect copyright.PENANAMZmmv8JU0M
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我沒想到這是我最後一次聽到瑀的聲音。224Please respect copyright.PENANAdepDWjtkFh
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二零一三年,七月。224Please respect copyright.PENANAvPWTI84fJ6
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車窗外的景色一直在改變,音樂也是。224Please respect copyright.PENANA9iJTTmS5en
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車上除了音樂聲外還有小迪唱歌的聲音,我和阿龍一直都保持安靜。224Please respect copyright.PENANA2H8bNuwRy1
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其實小迪心裡也很不平靜吧?所以才唱歌。224Please respect copyright.PENANAx7KXUxQijt
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我和阿龍呢?我們也只是表面看起來沒事、心裡亂的很。224Please respect copyright.PENANA73peLtjj0f
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看著車窗外,我試著回想你的聲音、你的模樣,卻已模糊。224Please respect copyright.PENANAsgRBS6iGtI
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想不起來。224Please respect copyright.PENANAuSpSSdozwb
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車開上了山,這山路一直在繞圈圈,繞的我頭好暈好想吐。224Please respect copyright.PENANAhJoMdotKN9
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等到不再繞圈時,已經到達目的地了。224Please respect copyright.PENANAslM5sa9syX
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山頂。224Please respect copyright.PENANALplZU3GkVH
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阿龍把車停好,並解開安全帶,回頭示意我可以下車了。224Please respect copyright.PENANAwvaKwuCFc3
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小迪比我快一步開車門,我跟在他後面下車。224Please respect copyright.PENANAfkaKK19bSQ
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「終於下車了,頭好暈啊!」小迪挺直身體,伸了個懶腰。224Please respect copyright.PENANA9eEspUuPMH
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阿龍對小迪嘆了口大氣,然後打開後車廂,拿了一袋水果出來,小迪馬上搶過手,比我們兩個先走一步。224Please respect copyright.PENANA2H5qmzZ6JO
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「那傢伙是在急什麼啊?」阿龍搔搔頭,看著小迪離去的背影。224Please respect copyright.PENANAszyx60jd2V
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我聳肩,然後望著眼前那巨大狀況的建築物,你──就在裡面。224Please respect copyright.PENANAO1idYKYFSD
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「為什麼突然想面對了?」阿龍轉過頭問我。224Please respect copyright.PENANAIqffM8HZDp
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沉默。224Please respect copyright.PENANA0NHAg8ewho
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「當初那麼固執不肯接受,怎麼現在完全不一樣了?」224Please respect copyright.PENANAVmQoBwtgtK
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「那一年發生太多事情了,也看開了。」我邊說邊踏出腳步,朝那棟建築物走去。224Please respect copyright.PENANAwXNTsx8fdj
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總得親自經歷過某些事才會長大,對吧?224Please respect copyright.PENANA1LazR5utc1
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進入大門後,那些我不懂的麻煩事就由阿龍和小迪去處理,我則是站在電梯門口等著。224Please respect copyright.PENANAN6WWsEEYCZ
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這裡裝潢的很簡單、但是那種不會看膩的簡單。224Please respect copyright.PENANA9k9FyY7fTA
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而且,很安靜。224Please respect copyright.PENANA998NQOXDjj
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你喜歡這裡嗎?224Please respect copyright.PENANAIGrEBqi8tD
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「橋橋,上樓囉!」眼前出現了一張卡片左右移動著,小迪正拿著電梯感應卡一副準備好的樣子站在我旁邊,而阿龍在他身後。224Please respect copyright.PENANAxDzR6DqQ3Y
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按了電梯,等電梯開門,我們三個一起走進去,小迪按了五樓,然後用感應卡啟動它。224Please respect copyright.PENANAEl758cDDVY
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電梯一層樓一層樓的上去,我突然覺得喘、覺得不自在。224Please respect copyright.PENANAyIu2o29hY3
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五樓到了,很快。224Please respect copyright.PENANAnm6lGUAH2g
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電梯門一開,先看見的是一座佛像,然後周圍的走廊有幾個人在走動,走廊直到盡頭的左右都有條路可以進去。224Please respect copyright.PENANAI6jgVyLlql
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很多個房間。224Please respect copyright.PENANA659fhFDW1c
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我停在佛像前面,凝望。224Please respect copyright.PENANACPkGWrWRpP
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「怎麼了?」小迪拍了我一下,一臉擔心的問。224Please respect copyright.PENANAC1cVysxUVk
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「我在想,他真的想見到我嗎?」我雖然是問小迪,但視線一直沒有離開佛像過。224Please respect copyright.PENANA1JVIxikGcX
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這個問題雖然在來之前,他們已經跟我確定過了,但我還是想問。224Please respect copyright.PENANAodzzNIemHu
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問佛、問你。224Please respect copyright.PENANAhjDogKIPvp
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你想見到我嗎?那麼殘忍的傷害你的我?224Please respect copyright.PENANADFzxx7gpHF
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「只有妳,才是阿楊最想見到的人。」阿龍回答。224Please respect copyright.PENANAoEPhBXtJj3
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我知道。224Please respect copyright.PENANAOprnbpBUvx
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我在心裡告訴自己,我知道他一直想見到我,只是我的懦弱讓我一直選擇逃避。224Please respect copyright.PENANAhLTBS93EQX
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小迪勾住我的手,朝著他所在的地方前進。224Please respect copyright.PENANAoiGGWeseZy
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不知道經過了多少房間,小迪才帶著我轉彎,走進一個房間裡。224Please respect copyright.PENANAJ61xnF8Apg
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這房間其實很大,很多櫃子,裡面,有很多人的──224Please respect copyright.PENANAmSaWTh4EGe
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骨灰。224Please respect copyright.PENANAvqI8rq8Qli
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走到靠近窗邊的位子,小迪放開我的手,然後淺笑。224Please respect copyright.PENANACVmi8vmOcm
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悲傷的微笑。224Please respect copyright.PENANAbLlvJBOFTO
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「這位子是我們、阿傑、殷一起出錢買下來的,很適合阿楊,我覺得很適合。」阿龍像是在對我說、又像是在自言自語。224Please respect copyright.PENANAte3qxBPavu
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「阿楊,我們來看你囉!這次我們終於把橋橋帶來了。」小迪邊說邊打開那扇門。224Please respect copyright.PENANAwALLhwZXLZ
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有你在的那扇門。224Please respect copyright.PENANAKc30QT3H0p
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有時候我常常在想,人死後被擺進這麼小的一個空間裡,不會寂寞嗎?224Please respect copyright.PENANAXtLcLXCRcs
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一直以來都很孤僻的你,會寂寞嗎?224Please respect copyright.PENANAKxQPnD31JL
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小迪和你說了好多好多的話,說到眼眶濕了聲音哽咽了也還是繼續說下去,而阿龍則是靜靜著聽小迪和你說話。224Please respect copyright.PENANARNAyQ9LMGL
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小迪說了什麼?我聽不清楚,我一直處於失神狀態,直到阿龍叫了我。224Please respect copyright.PENANAQ0GTytYzMM
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「我們先去電梯口那邊,等等在過來,妳和阿楊好好說說話吧?」阿龍拉著好像快哭的小迪,離開了這裡。224Please respect copyright.PENANAtcbbo4t1vH
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我愣在原地許久,才走上前,然後面向你、看著你。224Please respect copyright.PENANACsaa1QFU2U
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照片中的你和記憶中模糊的你終於重疊,我想起你的模樣,那冷漠不帶任何表情的帥氣臉龐。224Please respect copyright.PENANAPzXkyF7xVm
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笑起來令我深深著迷的臉。224Please respect copyright.PENANAd4QgosFt25
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