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觸不到的戀人
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ISSUE #13
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二零一一年,十一月。253Please respect copyright.PENANApJd8WPAjMz
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天空一直處於陰暗狀態,大概是已經進入冬天的緣故,所以太陽出現的次數也少得可憐。253Please respect copyright.PENANAxTuLx3VNOP
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寒冷的冬天。253Please respect copyright.PENANAqYmwdpjeAH
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班上的每個人都穿的很厚重,甚至圍上了圍巾,看來這次寒流來襲真讓每個人都冷的受不了。253Please respect copyright.PENANA3nf7esidKV
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我也不例外。253Please respect copyright.PENANA9BJI57c1CP
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轉眼間已經進入高二,這一年我是怎麼過去的?253Please respect copyright.PENANA23IcpVdskT
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原以為會和班上的女生處的不好,但卻意外的合得來,尤其是和那個滿臉雀斑的女生。253Please respect copyright.PENANAgRFxxj4bY0
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本來陰沉的個性在和她們相處後變得比較開放了。253Please respect copyright.PENANAQoe81mcCee
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這算好事嗎?我不清楚。253Please respect copyright.PENANAmNJ9jCT0h3
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只覺得能維持好現狀就好了。253Please respect copyright.PENANA3jXdhKfwYP
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「橋橋,妳不進來嗎?外面很冷的說。」身後的窗戶被打開,一個女生探頭出來對我說。253Please respect copyright.PENANAHm6MO5unmw
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我搖頭,然後對她笑了笑,並把窗戶關上。253Please respect copyright.PENANAMq4uV7LdII
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下課後只要我是醒著,就會站在教室後門外,就算很冷,也想站在這裡。253Please respect copyright.PENANA6mgIk7QkSf
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沒有原因的。253Please respect copyright.PENANA4aeqH1xiW2
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以前做事總是需要原因、理由,但時間久了,才發現這些都是多餘的。253Please respect copyright.PENANAuLfR7QZxxb
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太多事情不需要理由。253Please respect copyright.PENANAOPoILRkchE
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包括感情。253Please respect copyright.PENANAKnWIRRiojO
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吹風吹得夠久了,上課鐘也差不多該響了。253Please respect copyright.PENANAsOk3OAaRUl
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在我準備打開教室後門時,耳邊的音樂停止了。253Please respect copyright.PENANArN7V4wvQnb
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我伸手觸摸戴在耳上的耳機,然後疑惑。253Please respect copyright.PENANA4OqaEpO3Wi
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手機在震動。253Please respect copyright.PENANAiI7DNatYSO
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我連看都不看直接把手伸進口袋裡,按下接聽。253Please respect copyright.PENANAV3HMUAYGPd
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耳機沒有傳來任何聲音,我喂了好幾聲,對方依舊沉默。253Please respect copyright.PENANAhC8Yt1vSBM
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會不會對方早就把電話掛掉了?但掛掉的話音樂會繼續撥放才是。253Please respect copyright.PENANAYafZflKTdU
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沉默、熟悉的沉默,這種感覺……253Please respect copyright.PENANAkOMKshQiXD
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我緩緩的把手機從口袋裡拿出來,看了來電者,終於明白這沉默的電話為何不會讓我想掛電話。253Please respect copyright.PENANAhcWl1dDvMG
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早已習慣的沉默。253Please respect copyright.PENANAKYD4LTH6iZ
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他為什麼會打來?為什麼是挑今天、這種時候?253Please respect copyright.PENANAGPy5cAcoMR
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「楊瑀峰,你在不講話我要掛電話了。」上課鐘在我講完這句話後隨即敲響。253Please respect copyright.PENANALMXnfcKOm3
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雖然這節是自習,但我並不想在教室裡講電話,而且是和前男友。253Please respect copyright.PENANAIuZfEVR8bv
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不曾承認過的前男友。253Please respect copyright.PENANAEMDKC0t5ah
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「……妳最近過得好嗎?」耳機終於有了些聲音、他的聲音。253Please respect copyright.PENANATxdbOzBzAn
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一年了,久久未聽到過的聲音。253Please respect copyright.PENANA1Ur5dEaUq3
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依舊冷漠,卻好像多了幾份感情。253Please respect copyright.PENANA4B2wlk6DmA
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是我的錯覺吧?253Please respect copyright.PENANAxYZO3A4s0v
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「我很好。」253Please respect copyright.PENANASY3q84UScb
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我以為我會說「在和你分手後的每一天我都過得非常好」,都我沒有,反而平靜的回答說我很好。253Please respect copyright.PENANA1rNSoSADlV
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不想用那種諷刺的語氣,一年了,我那無理取鬧的個性不該再存在。253Please respect copyright.PENANAI6lCsIdh06
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他沒再講下去,我們又陷入了沉默。253Please respect copyright.PENANAsf2SzJDwH4
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他還是一樣不多話、一樣冷漠,完全沒有改變。253Please respect copyright.PENANAZ5FEekLoBF
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走廊上的人群越來越少,我應該要進教室的,卻因為這通電話不得不止步於此。253Please respect copyright.PENANA5Dnsk6JROT
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「我還在等妳。」他說。253Please respect copyright.PENANApEmDhxw1gP
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「當初那麼乾脆的把我甩開,現在又說你在等我?你在跟我開玩笑嗎?」我掩蓋不住語氣中的怒火,我感覺到氣氛開始變差,我和他。253Please respect copyright.PENANAB6MKxcboT4
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「我們之間能不能不要只有爭吵?」253Please respect copyright.PENANA8622xctoCz
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這話讓我愣了一下。253Please respect copyright.PENANAUYGpObKBCk
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我們?現在會用「我們」這個詞了?253Please respect copyright.PENANA0Fb9h3Aj4g
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我強忍住那想哭的情緒,深呼吸、吐氣。253Please respect copyright.PENANAxtzqw4NE2c
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「我不知道你今天打給我到底要幹麻,如果只是問我近況,那我可以大聲的告訴你我過得很好,你不用擔心,我們分手已經一年多了,你還想知道我的狀況幹麻?如果你是在我們還在一起的時候說剛剛句話,我們可能就不會變成這樣,是你不說、是你不肯表達自己,我知道我自己也有問題,那你就沒有嗎?你說你在等我,那又怎樣?你不改變你這樣的個性,我們還是會有爭執你懂嗎?好了,我要去上課了。」語畢,我打開教室後門走進去,電話沒有按下掛斷鍵。253Please respect copyright.PENANAKDHBkhigMM
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我以為他會結束通話。253Please respect copyright.PENANAz9NC8Nenjs
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「葉星橋。」耳機傳來他喊我名字的聲音。253Please respect copyright.PENANAAGLJDmpQbf
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我回到座位,然後坐下。253Please respect copyright.PENANAv3DvOQlt1k
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「我改,妳等我,好好照顧自己。」253Please respect copyright.PENANAAGznYM3F7e
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在他講完沒多久,耳機傳入耳中的聲音不再是沉默,而是音樂。253Please respect copyright.PENANArb6IkFfbx2
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通話結束了,他掛斷了。253Please respect copyright.PENANA6jcNs4Ebf7
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改變?為我……改變嗎?253Please respect copyright.PENANA1Mlb2xrrs3
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我趴在桌上,臉埋進雙臂裡,睡覺。253Please respect copyright.PENANAT7kIRSS5UV
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只有睡覺、我才不會胡思亂想、不會期待。253Please respect copyright.PENANAX4E8mm6S3F
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我沒想到這是我最後一次聽到瑀的聲音。253Please respect copyright.PENANAngiaapNCNO
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二零一三年,七月。253Please respect copyright.PENANAo5qir6gug9
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車窗外的景色一直在改變,音樂也是。253Please respect copyright.PENANAZAhZapA3v8
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車上除了音樂聲外還有小迪唱歌的聲音,我和阿龍一直都保持安靜。253Please respect copyright.PENANATX7oCvYRGh
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其實小迪心裡也很不平靜吧?所以才唱歌。253Please respect copyright.PENANA29ZpHkRM6X
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我和阿龍呢?我們也只是表面看起來沒事、心裡亂的很。253Please respect copyright.PENANARj9gQQ78FM
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看著車窗外,我試著回想你的聲音、你的模樣,卻已模糊。253Please respect copyright.PENANAVnvtPgB13P
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想不起來。253Please respect copyright.PENANAXQjityy8bS
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車開上了山,這山路一直在繞圈圈,繞的我頭好暈好想吐。253Please respect copyright.PENANAhf6PVz4EIZ
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等到不再繞圈時,已經到達目的地了。253Please respect copyright.PENANAEjdY1kQXTQ
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山頂。253Please respect copyright.PENANA6doKYMgU9L
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阿龍把車停好,並解開安全帶,回頭示意我可以下車了。253Please respect copyright.PENANAOSWJjs8yN4
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小迪比我快一步開車門,我跟在他後面下車。253Please respect copyright.PENANAk6CSIRNI6o
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「終於下車了,頭好暈啊!」小迪挺直身體,伸了個懶腰。253Please respect copyright.PENANAPP7fALZJ3y
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阿龍對小迪嘆了口大氣,然後打開後車廂,拿了一袋水果出來,小迪馬上搶過手,比我們兩個先走一步。253Please respect copyright.PENANAMhdCUIaj3t
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「那傢伙是在急什麼啊?」阿龍搔搔頭,看著小迪離去的背影。253Please respect copyright.PENANAM0FCoXK8W1
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我聳肩,然後望著眼前那巨大狀況的建築物,你──就在裡面。253Please respect copyright.PENANAzF3xLu0s0x
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「為什麼突然想面對了?」阿龍轉過頭問我。253Please respect copyright.PENANAlvlpFcCWTg
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沉默。253Please respect copyright.PENANAKO315o8Zi3
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「當初那麼固執不肯接受,怎麼現在完全不一樣了?」253Please respect copyright.PENANAobL2UWamOo
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「那一年發生太多事情了,也看開了。」我邊說邊踏出腳步,朝那棟建築物走去。253Please respect copyright.PENANAhopEaOcUL3
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總得親自經歷過某些事才會長大,對吧?253Please respect copyright.PENANAsxjPyZdIjR
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進入大門後,那些我不懂的麻煩事就由阿龍和小迪去處理,我則是站在電梯門口等著。253Please respect copyright.PENANASo3mV74R1z
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這裡裝潢的很簡單、但是那種不會看膩的簡單。253Please respect copyright.PENANA6ePW5FWZG2
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而且,很安靜。253Please respect copyright.PENANARTSwbObu6F
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你喜歡這裡嗎?253Please respect copyright.PENANATn2jY6SgYQ
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「橋橋,上樓囉!」眼前出現了一張卡片左右移動著,小迪正拿著電梯感應卡一副準備好的樣子站在我旁邊,而阿龍在他身後。253Please respect copyright.PENANA4S34G2b2Lp
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按了電梯,等電梯開門,我們三個一起走進去,小迪按了五樓,然後用感應卡啟動它。253Please respect copyright.PENANADZZRVayx3m
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電梯一層樓一層樓的上去,我突然覺得喘、覺得不自在。253Please respect copyright.PENANAfr4Hohb1qs
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五樓到了,很快。253Please respect copyright.PENANAlW205Pc68V
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電梯門一開,先看見的是一座佛像,然後周圍的走廊有幾個人在走動,走廊直到盡頭的左右都有條路可以進去。253Please respect copyright.PENANAAy6017iM29
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很多個房間。253Please respect copyright.PENANAp38WBgkNO5
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我停在佛像前面,凝望。253Please respect copyright.PENANANymbZTBR2r
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「怎麼了?」小迪拍了我一下,一臉擔心的問。253Please respect copyright.PENANA7Jkl7azegA
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「我在想,他真的想見到我嗎?」我雖然是問小迪,但視線一直沒有離開佛像過。253Please respect copyright.PENANAoPLZq1U1K8
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這個問題雖然在來之前,他們已經跟我確定過了,但我還是想問。253Please respect copyright.PENANAEQ1RdMHZYz
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問佛、問你。253Please respect copyright.PENANASCfpfdyxzG
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你想見到我嗎?那麼殘忍的傷害你的我?253Please respect copyright.PENANA4FGW8I0juy
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「只有妳,才是阿楊最想見到的人。」阿龍回答。253Please respect copyright.PENANAl8OxfWneDa
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我知道。253Please respect copyright.PENANABxUqvYHvpK
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我在心裡告訴自己,我知道他一直想見到我,只是我的懦弱讓我一直選擇逃避。253Please respect copyright.PENANAVDZoJ4Ljzw
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小迪勾住我的手,朝著他所在的地方前進。253Please respect copyright.PENANA82FGR5lrZq
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不知道經過了多少房間,小迪才帶著我轉彎,走進一個房間裡。253Please respect copyright.PENANApH7Hzrhy6c
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這房間其實很大,很多櫃子,裡面,有很多人的──253Please respect copyright.PENANA31Cj0ehCEn
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骨灰。253Please respect copyright.PENANAhEE2mAXtr1
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走到靠近窗邊的位子,小迪放開我的手,然後淺笑。253Please respect copyright.PENANAILh1H4u5j9
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悲傷的微笑。253Please respect copyright.PENANAeGhtCEx95x
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「這位子是我們、阿傑、殷一起出錢買下來的,很適合阿楊,我覺得很適合。」阿龍像是在對我說、又像是在自言自語。253Please respect copyright.PENANA8crAFXdvsE
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「阿楊,我們來看你囉!這次我們終於把橋橋帶來了。」小迪邊說邊打開那扇門。253Please respect copyright.PENANAlz3aybNAgH
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有你在的那扇門。253Please respect copyright.PENANAVRYC5lIu9C
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有時候我常常在想,人死後被擺進這麼小的一個空間裡,不會寂寞嗎?253Please respect copyright.PENANA1kJyB8ZwMR
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一直以來都很孤僻的你,會寂寞嗎?253Please respect copyright.PENANA4IsHEr7lTb
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小迪和你說了好多好多的話,說到眼眶濕了聲音哽咽了也還是繼續說下去,而阿龍則是靜靜著聽小迪和你說話。253Please respect copyright.PENANAxKPsWMxZzZ
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小迪說了什麼?我聽不清楚,我一直處於失神狀態,直到阿龍叫了我。253Please respect copyright.PENANAD4sJt1eRhM
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「我們先去電梯口那邊,等等在過來,妳和阿楊好好說說話吧?」阿龍拉著好像快哭的小迪,離開了這裡。253Please respect copyright.PENANABO9IWeHG7H
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我愣在原地許久,才走上前,然後面向你、看著你。253Please respect copyright.PENANAt9odBZt16J
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照片中的你和記憶中模糊的你終於重疊,我想起你的模樣,那冷漠不帶任何表情的帥氣臉龐。253Please respect copyright.PENANAnOURLJCetb
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笑起來令我深深著迷的臉。253Please respect copyright.PENANA8W16DbjGTf
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