十月的某個早晨,林晚秋醒來時發現江承暮不在床上。30Please respect copyright.PENANAhIP11oE8jC
她起身,看到他站在落地窗前,背對著她,肩膀微微顫抖。走近了才發現,他在哭。30Please respect copyright.PENANA2HklV3YvUD
「承暮?」她輕輕叫他,「怎麼了?」30Please respect copyright.PENANAjTeGEZgnM7
承暮轉過身,臉上滿是淚痕:「晚秋,我⋯⋯我剛剛忘記妳叫什麼名字了。」30Please respect copyright.PENANA5paymvVCpo
晚秋的心像被狠狠捏住。30Please respect copyright.PENANAUPxUNOIVpH
「我醒來的時候,看到妳睡在我旁邊,」他的聲音發顫,「我知道妳是我很重要的人,我知道我很愛妳,但我就是想不起來妳的名字。」30Please respect copyright.PENANAsKAjLTQMfB
他用力抱住晚秋,像是抓住最後的浮木:「我看了好久牆上的照片,才想起來妳叫林晚秋。我好害怕,我好怕有一天會完全忘記妳。」30Please respect copyright.PENANAamMW9CLtIG
「不會的,」晚秋摸著他的頭,努力讓聲音聽起來堅定,「你不會忘記我的。我是林晚秋,你的女朋友,你最愛的人。」30Please respect copyright.PENANAp69JjSVHrI
但她知道,這一天遲早會來。30Please respect copyright.PENANAKtUxHNHd8I
從那天起,承暮的記憶問題越來越嚴重。有時他會忘記今天是星期幾,有時會忘記吃過飯了沒有。最讓晚秋心疼的是,他開始忘記他們一起經歷的事情。30Please respect copyright.PENANA5xFSDB8x9v
「我們去過海邊看日出嗎?」有一天他問。30Please respect copyright.PENANA2IBiIXFkpU
「去過,」晚秋拿出照片給他看,「你還記得嗎?那天風很大,你把外套給我穿。」30Please respect copyright.PENANADy1qLml0iU
承暮盯著照片看了很久,眼神迷茫:「我⋯⋯好像有點印象。」30Please respect copyright.PENANANAGn4eMqEO
但晚秋知道,他只是在努力配合她,其實什麼都不記得了。30Please respect copyright.PENANAGDGfOp1Nqi
更可怕的是,他開始認不出人。30Please respect copyright.PENANAqIlv5ysqXw
有一次,晚秋去便利商店買東西,回來時發現承暮站在門口,神情慌張。30Please respect copyright.PENANAh1gLjKu260
「你怎麼在外面?」她問。30Please respect copyright.PENANAKAzVmDf7BO
「妳是誰?」承暮看著她,眼中滿是戒備,「妳為什麼有我家的鑰匙?」30Please respect copyright.PENANAquFOrzB1RK
晚秋的心碎了一地。她深吸一口氣,溫柔地說:「我是晚秋,你的女朋友。我們住在一起,記得嗎?」30Please respect copyright.PENANAfddkwx8OL0
承暮困惑地搖搖頭。30Please respect copyright.PENANAjoN4r2Krx9
晚秋拿出手機,給他看他們的合照:「你看,這是我們一起拍的照片。」30Please respect copyright.PENANALV6M7RVIwR
承暮看著照片,眉頭皺得很深,像是在努力回憶。過了好久,他的眼神突然清明了一些:「晚秋?」30Please respect copyright.PENANAUzQRE7Phnt
「對,我是晚秋,」她笑著說,但眼淚已經在眼眶裡打轉,「你終於想起來了。」30Please respect copyright.PENANAthnF11tddT
「對不起,」承暮抱住她,「對不起,我剛剛⋯⋯我不知道⋯⋯」30Please respect copyright.PENANAFVzCL5Mf7y
「沒關係,」晚秋拍拍他的背,「你只是暫時忘記了,現在想起來就好。」30Please respect copyright.PENANA6EPBoTOFrT
但這樣的事情發生得越來越頻繁。30Please respect copyright.PENANAaRpahPWd74
有時早上他還認得她,下午就忘了。有時他會叫她「小姐」,客客氣氣地問她是誰。有時他會突然生氣,說家裡怎麼有陌生人。30Please respect copyright.PENANAzaTnCv8JEb
晚秋學會了每天早上都重新自我介紹。她會拿著照片,耐心地告訴他:「我叫林晚秋,是你的女朋友。我們相遇在一個雨天,在一家咖啡店。你是建築師,我是設計師。我們很愛很愛對方。」30Please respect copyright.PENANAFJviz0vh0H
有時承暮會點頭,說「我記得了」,但晚秋知道他其實不記得,只是不想讓她難過。30Please respect copyright.PENANA7vhOZ4sCct
最痛苦的時刻,是看著他努力想要記起來的樣子。30Please respect copyright.PENANAsvXcEfpWhn
他會盯著晚秋的臉,眉頭緊皺,像是在搜索腦海中的每一個角落。他會看牆上的照片,一張一張仔細地看,試圖找回那些失去的記憶。他會抱著頭說「為什麼我記不起來」,然後痛苦地哭泣。30Please respect copyright.PENANAHHR5hethr9
「不記得就算了,」晚秋會抱著他說,「沒關係的,真的沒關係。」30Please respect copyright.PENANALh7X50gvKG
但怎麼可能沒關係呢?30Please respect copyright.PENANAM8vlJ1J9tj
她看著心愛的人一點一點忘記她,忘記他們的過去,忘記他們的愛情。就像看著一幅美麗的畫被慢慢擦去,而她什麼都做不了,只能眼睜睜地看著。30Please respect copyright.PENANAjkeRkGjSqv
有一天,醫生把晚秋叫到一旁,告訴她:「病情惡化得比預期快。腫瘤壓迫到了海馬迴,這是負責記憶的區域。後面他可能會完全失去長期記憶,只保留一些幼年時期的片段。」30Please respect copyright.PENANAH5z8hExILR
「那⋯⋯我呢?」晚秋問,聲音發顫,「他還會記得我嗎?」30Please respect copyright.PENANAtAFOOzbI7b
醫生沉默了一會兒,搖搖頭:「很遺憾,可能不會。」30Please respect copyright.PENANAkonrZI2hBa
晚秋走出診間,在醫院的長廊上蹲下來,無聲地哭泣。護士路過,問她要不要緊,她搖搖頭說沒事。30Please respect copyright.PENANArxGmLu5UXu
但怎麼會沒事呢?30Please respect copyright.PENANApARGcxSTdY
她愛的人正在一點一點離開她,不是死亡,而是遺忘。而遺忘比死亡更殘忍,因為他還在,卻已經不認識她了。30Please respect copyright.PENANADIdk87bMag
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第六章:漸行漸遠
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