What was Your Biggest Mistake, and What Did it Cost You? - The Cost of Always Being There

My biggest mistake was not silence.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6A9n0qQgNk
It was not absence.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ8zyr7PYpyz
It was not cruelty.

My biggest mistake was yes.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡRXlhzNUHdR
Yes, I am here.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡuR2reClxwm
Yes, I will listen.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwxK8u9rzBK
Yes, I will help.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9ZcOxuiID3
Yes, I will stay.

I was too available.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡXgv9OjjCPs
Too open.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡhtEKaphknp
Too ready to pour myself out like water into every empty cup.

They came with stories of brokenness,340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡq6pJkPkDCb
with heavy confessions,340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ959gjyXNY
with promises of redemption340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUul4P4Y8k
spoken as if tomorrow would be different.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡw6xDMwPnYW
And I believed them.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwWOc8v1Qqj
I believed in their return to light340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡQ83XrmriDf
more than they believed it themselves.

So I gave.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡIuS88wp2QG
I gave until giving became my language.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNGfZABUVAd
I gave until giving became my name.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbHK0pk0mQY
I gave until I forgot there was a self behind the sacrifice.

I became a well that never ran dry.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡxXHcKQ8XiA
I became a light that never dimmed.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡbUKa4T19Ei
I became a door that never closed.

But when my nights grew heavy,340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡsUa82aMDOx
when my storms tore through the roof,340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkrAPPDFIit
when my voice broke and whispered for help,340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ3FUpslFipj
where were they?

Silence.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡao51geBuRA
That was the answer.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡrCrBsdLaFz
Silence louder than screams.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ5GWy7CLU88
Silence heavier than stone.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvyV3HuAfim
Silence that told me the ones I held up340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡAok3WTdz80
never intended to hold me.

And still I stayed.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkmxjyFizWS
And still I helped.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡW86McRseDU
And still I said yes.

Availability can be a trap.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ369V0iATz2
A gentle prison.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYyWpQZ42pV
A cage made of open hands.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡH2glfyQGnx
They mistook my presence for obligation.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7lUTWALWKO
They mistook my kindness for weakness.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡfPmwbRAGXe
They mistook my loyalty for endlessness.

And so they took.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡqKl9OrZb2t
They took until my spirit was threadbare.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡtwRGlUDwSp
They took until my trust cracked open.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡulcTJHebiI
They took until I no longer believed that people would stay340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZtrdrSJ6Fg
when the help was mine to need.

Trust does not vanish in a single moment.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ9r3xEFwR02
It erodes, grain by grain,340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡVUYx6clZfz
like cliffs crumbling beneath the waves.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡGmsKqE0yc1
Until one day you stand barefoot at the edge340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ94m0DwQxo7
and realize there is no solid ground beneath you.

Do I regret helping?340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡN5R8qqv7oI
No.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkGxI1RpkmK
The heart that helps is never ugly.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡstMUUA05sm
The heart that gives is never wasted.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡzP9BKx2Awi
But my mistake was believing340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡvViJfWRk4F
I had to help at the cost of myself.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡWbtrCGnrHT
My mistake was believing340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡd1lf9hCq7O
that saving others meant I would be saved.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡwmfFvSS7Hv
My mistake was believing340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡa92Et15r05
that being available to everyone340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡt2Yvkh3DAn
was the same as being loved by anyone.

So now I am learning.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡn9l5k1qiAM
Learning that boundaries are not cruelty.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡTVAsIH2bKF
Learning that locked doors are not punishment340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7hUkETyHRZ
but protection.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnRI5uiG0Oh
Learning that time, and trust, and presence340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡDVHYl5bLN7
are sacred things340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡZ6ay2xMFBU
and sacred things must be guarded.

Yes, I was too available.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡl4cl716XVG
Yes, I was too willing.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡkCJDO6w2ft
Yes, I was too open.

But now I choose.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ7mcCIcYNyR
I choose who sits at my table.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡyVrMTT8yAg
I choose who drinks from my well.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡu7dnrcJUeW
I choose who walks through the doorway of my heart.

Because availability without discernment340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡlbZ7Pfncwh
is not kindness.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡjQQb4iK8mw
It is surrender.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡLBR9fjrpkQ
It is erasure.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡB7pRw12Bdq
It is abandoning myself in the name of love.

And I refuse to abandon myself again.

I will still give,340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ4Mz2yoxLex
but not to those who only take.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡnpTX8fIGBf
I will still stay,340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡNZgS6Vyfa9
but not for those who walk away when I need them near.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ0LkCMZ3tv9
I will still love,340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡ6tJrrxVusy
but not at the price of forgetting my own worth.

My biggest mistake was always being there.340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡe6V0jrgbzu
My greatest awakening is learning340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡSCNal6JQzi
that I am allowed to choose340Please respect copyright.ＰＥＮＡＮＡYNnrWRsUGg
who is there for me.

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