No Plagiarism!BFoKs9P04kq26lJroEfkposted on PENANA 我第一次正視林婉的衣櫃,是在找外套的時候。52Please respect copyright.PENANA6THMubQaWx
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思源說晚上天氣轉涼,提醒我要多穿一點。我走進房間,打開她那座純白木質、鏡面滑門的衣櫃,想拿件大衣。8964 copyright protection48PENANADfNcnkUMRq 維尼
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結果門一拉開,我整個人僵住了。8964 copyright protection48PENANAI1G6ntINxm 維尼
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裡頭擺滿了衣服,一件一件整齊排列、分色、分類——左邊是襯衫與針織,右邊是裙裝與洋裝,下層是摺疊整齊的居家服與內衣抽屜。8964 copyright protection48PENANAOkqH61fTPW 維尼
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整個衣櫃像是精心維護的紀念館,每一件衣服都在訴說:「這不是你的世界。」8964 copyright protection48PENANAxGA9jYFYmM 維尼
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我原本只是想拿件外套,卻不自覺地,一件一件翻看起來。8964 copyright protection48PENANAigbVWiMDH6 維尼
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有一件灰白的開襟針織衫,袖口磨舊了些,但被洗得很乾淨。我拿起來靠近鼻尖聞了聞,乾燥、柔軟,有淡淡的香氣。8964 copyright protection48PENANA1AgV2fhXmU 維尼
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那香氣不是香水,而是某種……她的存在。8964 copyright protection48PENANATjsGaggApm 維尼
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我不是變態,我只是——不知道怎麼定位自己。8964 copyright protection48PENANA3oZaZE70xb 維尼
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我住在她的房間,穿她的衣服,睡她的床,和她的男朋友說話,卻永遠不是她。8964 copyright protection48PENANA3SvxEPpn7V 維尼
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我不應該開始習慣這些。8964 copyright protection48PENANAotwGbD0vKl 維尼
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但我已經習慣了。8964 copyright protection48PENANA8Uu90Le4BR 維尼
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衣櫃裡還有一件紅色洋裝,明明不是太暴露的款式,卻讓我不敢碰。8964 copyright protection48PENANAxaGYmtQXL9 維尼
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我知道她穿這件出去約會過。8964 copyright protection48PENANAgBzwGIQvPv 維尼
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因為思源的手機裡,有一張她穿這件的合照。他當時發朋友圈寫著:「幸好是妳。」8964 copyright protection48PENANANN8VKjixcC 維尼
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我記得這句話,我還回他:「放閃死全家。」8964 copyright protection48PENANA1U6gnlcL66 維尼
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現在想起來,只覺得可笑。8964 copyright protection48PENANA5UQu26gtu5 維尼
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我站在衣櫃前,握著那件洋裝,心裡忽然出現一個荒謬的想法:8964 copyright protection48PENANA7CmCjqod8R 維尼
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——如果我也穿上它,他會發現嗎?8964 copyright protection48PENANAl93z8uu9z5 維尼
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會發現我不是她?還是會繼續說:「妳穿這件也很好看」?8964 copyright protection48PENANATVIFUicet9 維尼
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到底是哪一部分吸引了他?是這個人,還是這副軀殼?8964 copyright protection48PENANA5mpXcOaBvF 維尼
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我放下衣服,關上衣櫃,像關上一扇讓我窒息的大門。8964 copyright protection48PENANARCEb7ggHn3 維尼
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晚餐時他問我:「最近要不要換點穿搭風格?我朋友說公司要辦個派對,妳如果想去,我們可以一起。」8964 copyright protection48PENANAFMmq9FjKtg 維尼
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我咬著筷子愣了一下。8964 copyright protection48PENANAjSzIC4oWqi 維尼
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「……你確定我可以去?」8964 copyright protection48PENANAp4boszLOS8 維尼
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「怎麼不行?妳可是我女朋友啊。」8964 copyright protection48PENANAchB72MrmMf 維尼
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那一刻我差點沒噎到。8964 copyright protection48PENANAI0hNIwO0by 維尼
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他說得太自然,太順口,像一個確認過無數次的事實。8964 copyright protection48PENANATVpHXzl9sF 維尼
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「……我最近不太想見人。」我低頭說。8964 copyright protection48PENANAxSxSKPAPUd 維尼
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「妳以前超愛社交的,怎麼忽然宅起來了?」8964 copyright protection48PENANAapPt67I1uh 維尼
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我勉強笑笑:「可能年紀大了。」8964 copyright protection48PENANAitjR2Gdb7t 維尼
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他沒說什麼,只是夾了塊豆腐放進我碗裡。8964 copyright protection48PENANAVoVA87J2Ns 維尼
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那是我以前最討厭的菜。8964 copyright protection48PENANAO4vy7uiT6s 維尼
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可我還是吃了。8964 copyright protection48PENANAWtwDgAqxk9 維尼
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這不是我第一次強迫自己接受她的喜好,但這次,特別難以下嚥。8964 copyright protection48PENANAtyXzKS0TID 維尼
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因為我忽然發現,我在消失。8964 copyright protection48PENANAlM413uVd8o 維尼
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消失在林婉的生活裡,消失在思源的溫柔裡,消失在一套又一套不屬於我的衣服與習慣裡。8964 copyright protection48PENANAjjHt9ZIy8G 維尼
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我漸漸成為她,卻再也找不回自己。8964 copyright protection48PENANA9oEpqdkrAT 維尼
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晚上洗澡時,我看著鏡子裡的自己,忽然脫下睡衣,從衣櫃裡翻出那件紅色洋裝,穿了上去。8964 copyright protection48PENANA7GKIpDDgWA 維尼
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拉鍊有點緊,這具身體腰很細,但胸口比我原本的還要豐滿,我得稍微用力才能拉好。8964 copyright protection48PENANAehJfEaPQyt 維尼
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我站在鏡前,像個旁觀者,看著那個女人的身影逐漸浮現。8964 copyright protection48PENANAnZJj1POaQW 維尼
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她不是我。但她的衣服,正包裹著我。8964 copyright protection48PENANA0U4gTSBxML 維尼
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我不知道自己站了多久。8964 copyright protection48PENANAcAruncgGEz 維尼
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直到思源敲門:「妳在裡面嗎?洗好了沒?」8964 copyright protection48PENANA5BMj9ruQBM 維尼
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我回過神:「快好了,等我一下。」8964 copyright protection48PENANAiOiIINGgYG 維尼
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我慌忙脫下那件衣服,重新穿上睡衣,把洋裝摺好塞進抽屜深處,像在藏一件罪證。8964 copyright protection48PENANAMUkEWwKAH7 維尼
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心跳還很快。8964 copyright protection48PENANAgBZxAGECRY 維尼
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我不是因為怕被看到,而是因為——8964 copyright protection48PENANAo0DTSkdY2O 維尼
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那一刻我突然發現,我並不抗拒穿上它。8964 copyright protection48PENANAwD2IqpKjAZ 維尼
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我甚至,隱隱地期待,他會說一句:「妳穿這件很好看。」8964 copyright protection48PENANAjzPRUDnvW8 維尼
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那不應該是我的願望。8964 copyright protection48PENANAiOxqdIX1i6 維尼
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我早就不該擁有這種期待。8964 copyright protection48PENANAV7vHHlYTaH 維尼
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