在經過那天夜晚後,他們的生活並沒有立即發生什麼劇烈的變化。62Please respect copyright.PENANAySQr9dhYFJ
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糸師冴恢復了訓練的節奏,一切都像回到了正軌。62Please respect copyright.PENANAq8uZGcPwpU
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他現在所屬的訓練基地不對外開放,記者與訪客不得擅入。基地本身雖不華麗,但設施完整且專業,從力量房到室內場、康復中心到心理輔導區應有盡有。62Please respect copyright.PENANA88q7cFTmRm
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每天早上,他總是最早抵達球場的人。天還沒完全亮,場地邊緣還泛著未退的霜白,糸師冴就已經穿好訓練衣,開始繞場慢跑,做暖身,接著進入重複千百次的基本傳球、停球與控球練習。62Please respect copyright.PENANAQhro38zOfL
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他的動作俐落,沒有任何失誤。從旁人眼裡看來,糸師冴「沒有退步」。62Please respect copyright.PENANAS1hfmbFjyn
但只有他自己知道,YIPS從來不是退步,而是恐懼與遲疑藏進了反射動作之中。62Please respect copyright.PENANA4NB8EAIale
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那是一種只有真正站上場,才會知道的異樣感。62Please respect copyright.PENANAixOf9Ne14c
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——當腦袋下達指令,腳卻比以往慢了一秒;當你看見球來了,卻無法像以前一樣迅速做出選擇。62Please respect copyright.PENANATusS1I41QE
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那種感覺不明顯,卻會在瞬間毀掉整場比賽。62Please respect copyright.PENANAqHtlvWglfL
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因此,他反覆練習。用汗水逼迫自己重新信任自己的腳、自己的判斷。62Please respect copyright.PENANATl4JSG6Ei2
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等到日光斜斜灑進球場邊緣時,與RE·AL合作的大學青訓隊也陸續報到。那些少年大多與他年齡相仿,朝氣蓬勃,身上帶著尚未察覺的銳氣與剛要起飛的野心——62Please respect copyright.PENANASaqvK5d85w
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他們會看見糸師冴早已滿身是汗,連護膝和手套都濕透。沒有人問他為什麼這麼早來練習——也沒有人問他為什麼回來。62Please respect copyright.PENANAt1KmMwhDKY
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對這些少年來說,糸師冴是從海外頂級俱樂部歸來的明星,氣場冷冽又強大。他們在他身邊練習時會忍不住偷瞄、壓低聲音討論,甚至在對練時不自覺避讓。62Please respect copyright.PENANA0QllIqvjDe
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糸師冴的存在太安靜,也太有壓迫感。62Please respect copyright.PENANAvpR4FoKpsl
像是一段不需解釋的傳說突然回到眼前,只剩訓練本身在說話。62Please respect copyright.PENANAAcOLBrXkob
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他感覺得出來,也從不掩飾這種落差。62Please respect copyright.PENANAusxmPZ6nM3
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——但他知道,這不是回到過去。62Please respect copyright.PENANADzkKv52uhP
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每週,他必須提交訓練報告與心理狀況評估,並在遠端視訊會議中接受教練組與RE·AL總部的監控回饋。一切看似規律、穩定,實則是在一條逐步被收緊的繩索上行走。62Please respect copyright.PENANAHHIXZGTVq1
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三個月內若無明顯改善,他就可能被正式標記為「失去主力價值的球員」。62Please respect copyright.PENANAHryqi1jMIU
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這裡沒有鎂光燈,沒有傳奇的鼓掌聲。62Please respect copyright.PENANARiCd4JBir2
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只有他自己,與那些他不認識的未來選手們,在同一片場地上喘息、奔跑、摔倒、再站起來。62Please respect copyright.PENANAzihTVvXpn3
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這份孤獨很清楚,也很真實。62Please respect copyright.PENANAnUoM1Wuysk
也正因為孤獨,他才能不被打擾地,一步一步——62Please respect copyright.PENANAaoOhS5dBti
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慢慢逼近那個自己曾經說過「一定會抵達」的位置。62Please respect copyright.PENANA4WanpRlell
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與此同時,星野莉奈的生活仍舊按著行程表精準運轉,甚至達到前所未有的緊湊。62Please respect copyright.PENANAkNSlf1EJFi
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清晨五點的妝髮,九點準時進棚拍攝,午休接受簡短採訪,下午三點轉場,晚上七點參加活動或品牌會議——她幾乎沒有喘息的空間。62Please respect copyright.PENANAjHkgLt1Q3y
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在鏡頭前,星野莉奈學會拿捏「剛剛好」——不過分熱情,也不太過疏離。62Please respect copyright.PENANAtYfvoB0pmY
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過去那些只在快閃店亮相的拍攝,現在已經開始進入品牌公關的正規會議名單——她的定位,正從曝光素材,慢慢走向核心代言候補。62Please respect copyright.PENANArIEmCvDB6n
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高級感、親和力、性感率真,甜美自信,她切換自如。造型師說她是天生的衣架子,攝影師說她的眼神能說故事,品牌總監說她是「可塑性極高的質感模特兒」。62Please respect copyright.PENANABHlfRqGfVw
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她知道——她真正該做的,不是「展現什麼」,而是「收起什麼」。62Please respect copyright.PENANAl2btPJw6Sq
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收起情緒,收起喜好,收起不該出現在燈光下那部分的自己,才能成為任何品牌想要的樣子。62Please respect copyright.PENANAPxBENHWB8g
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她不是沒看到網路上的留言,也不是沒聽過某些品牌內部那些有意無意的討論。62Please respect copyright.PENANA6yuav6NocU
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「最近看起來好像穩定滿多的。」62Please respect copyright.PENANAJ5xNZthTCx
「就是那個被冴神隔空拒絕的女生?」62Please respect copyright.PENANAUAIRmzzB2b
「還以為這時候會怒炒一波耶。」62Please respect copyright.PENANAS92r7b4dUp
「裝沒事比較快啦,畢竟被打臉滿慘的。」62Please respect copyright.PENANA20CIT5Hu7Z
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這些話,她都聽過。62Please respect copyright.PENANAOO6DVASIqI
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包含那些網路留言。最初看到時,星野莉奈甚至會因為心跳太快而忘了呼吸。現在已經不會了,只是視線會下意識地掠過螢幕、滑開頁面,像是肌肉記憶。62Please respect copyright.PENANASOlnEyYwfA
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「年紀還輕嘛,說話難免沒輕沒重的。」62Please respect copyright.PENANAzjC4Hvyel9
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那句話是某位客戶在會議結束後、走出門口時隨口說的。她正好站在電梯前,一句不漏地聽進去了。62Please respect copyright.PENANAO7uz2q2qfq
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「小模星野莉奈Rina配不上天才足球員糸師冴」——背後多少潛台詞,誰都聽得出來。62Please respect copyright.PENANACTDN9dt9Cw
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從她開始出現在更多視野中、廣告裡;從那篇訪談爆紅之後,這些就一波接一波地出現。62Please respect copyright.PENANAidCVbe7X5t
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就算她已經接下幾個高端品牌的聯名合作、登過幾次雜誌封面、拍過多支廣告、出席過不少活動——壓低妳的人從不會管妳走到哪裡。他們只想確定:妳還沒到他們想要的位置。62Please respect copyright.PENANAnOCDko8Ewb
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而這句話不只是說她不夠好,更是在嘲笑那個被她告白、卻沒回應的天才——「他怎麼會選這種女孩」?他們不是在問她配不配,而是在懷疑他怎麼可能會看見她。62Please respect copyright.PENANAxJHbwPbom0
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星野莉奈笑了笑,沒關係。本來就是啊。62Please respect copyright.PENANApA0SsT5wWC
他可是已經被世界看到的人呢。而她——不,她也在走,哪怕每一步都不被算進那個「世界」裡。62Please respect copyright.PENANAWomkhmPlDF
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經紀人很快幫她擋下了幾個敏感採訪,也悄悄聯繫幾家媒體,請他們「先觀望」,讓「告白事件」的新聞繼續沉底。62Please respect copyright.PENANAgwKMyVSPwE
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某天下午收工,在保母車上,經紀人一邊翻行程表一邊說:「Rina,如果最近行程太滿,妳需要喘口氣的話,記得跟我說。」62Please respect copyright.PENANAFDFImf5Epy
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「目前⋯⋯還可以吧。」星野莉奈點點頭,但語氣裡明明就藏著一點勉強。62Please respect copyright.PENANAjHyoR8jVy7
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她不說,對方也不是沒察覺。小川鈴從鼻樑上摘下黑框眼鏡,語氣少有地嚴肅:「妳應該知道,為什麼我把妳行程排那麼滿吧?」62Please respect copyright.PENANAFdcAUHHRVY
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「不是因為之前Absence的香水代言嗎?上了熱門搜尋,又有歐洲品牌找上來,所以案子就多起來?」62Please respect copyright.PENANAQ3Wrfz50u2
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「不只是這樣。」經紀人輕輕嘆了口氣,語氣像是在提醒、告訴她,風還沒過去。62Please respect copyright.PENANAtpWfMcyk3K
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「——是因為糸師冴回來日本了。」62Please respect copyright.PENANAo2FEk0YGMZ
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「啊?有什麼關係?」62Please respect copyright.PENANAGAs3GjG2Ky
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星野莉奈下意識脫口而出,但那瞬間,連自己都愣了一下——他回來了。她不是一直在等這件事嗎?怎麼會是現在這樣?62Please respect copyright.PENANAnzOF38px9j
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「那篇訪問妳忘了嗎?雖然已經有一段時間了。但只要糸師冴還出現在媒體上,網路風向隨時會被翻出來——那段『他沒回妳告白』的事,還沒完全沉底。」62Please respect copyright.PENANAwruAAC92B8
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「所以⋯⋯」62Please respect copyright.PENANA6XQNrATay8
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「所以我們現在要做的,是讓大家慢慢淡忘那段,把焦點轉回妳的作品上。要讓人記得的,是模特兒星野莉奈Rina——不是八卦新聞裡的誰。」62Please respect copyright.PENANAlTEtKp4pcj
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星野莉奈輕輕吸了口氣,望向窗外閃過的燈火。62Please respect copyright.PENANARKJCxiIObu
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模特兒星野莉奈Rina。62Please respect copyright.PENANAaYLA95EEv7
那個走進棚內就能切換表情的Rina,三秒換好情緒、讓攝影師驚呼「剛剛那張太有戲了」的她。62Please respect copyright.PENANAEYL7iHoVaU
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「小川姐,如果⋯⋯我不管那些輿論八卦呢?」62Please respect copyright.PENANApkawblYb6h
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她低頭望向手機裡模糊的倒影。不是沒怕過那些聲音,只是現在——她怕的,是有一天,自己會開始懷疑自己的堅持。62Please respect copyright.PENANAcToxCytLmY
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記得曾經在冬夜陪人練球的自己、在球場偷聽兩兄弟說話的自己。那個會在訊息框裡敲下「你今天踢得超帥」卻默默收回的自己——62Please respect copyright.PENANA9YqEOrYFZm
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說好他們去當世界第一,她走向伸展台,一起面對鎂光燈的樣子。62Please respect copyright.PENANAEpqPCktKVf
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「那次Absence香水廣告的訪談,如果我那麼在意那些話,就不會說得那麼好了。」62Please respect copyright.PENANA0VOLI2NMD7
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小川鈴沉默了一會兒,只是靜靜看星野莉奈一眼,重新戴上眼鏡,又低頭繼續翻行程表。62Please respect copyright.PENANAOSHqVYyDvv
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「這就是妳要自己想清楚的問題了,Rina。這個行業不是這樣運行的。」小川鈴語氣仍輕,卻有種讓人無法忽視的堅定,62Please respect copyright.PENANAb59xsaVxT5
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「我可以幫妳擋新聞、推通告、穩住品牌——但妳得自己選,鏡頭前站著的那個妳,是誰。」62Please respect copyright.PENANASL91NreGFC
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星野莉奈沒有立刻回應,只是手指慢慢滑開手機螢幕,點進了那個熟悉的對話框——62Please respect copyright.PENANAmwmpVYgNQ5
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糸師冴的名字,靜靜地躺在最上面。沒有新訊息,也沒有已讀。62Please respect copyright.PENANAvRGF32BS6R
她停頓了幾秒,想了很久,卻什麼都沒打。62Please respect copyright.PENANAV35MllMZVB
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「這圈子裡,不會有人等妳釐清自己。觀眾只看得到他們想看的那個形象,媒體也是。」62Please respect copyright.PENANAY34IqibN0M
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小川鈴語氣不急不緩,「妳不說,就會有人幫妳定義——那通常不是我們喜歡的版本。」62Please respect copyright.PENANAY9dnRgFvqV
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彷彿看透星野莉奈,小川鈴輕聲補上一句:62Please respect copyright.PENANAGqeotcJDYT
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「沉默在這個行業裡,不見得站得住腳。」62Please respect copyright.PENANAYi7oosTY1V
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星野莉奈低聲開口,語氣誠懇,甚至帶點愧疚:「可是小川姐,這整件事⋯⋯不就是因為我自己『說出口』、『失言』了嗎?說了,還不是一樣?他們只看想看的,用自己的方式解讀。」62Please respect copyright.PENANAhGRvmauiB9
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「所以才要說得——剛剛好。」62Please respect copyright.PENANARQvSNrODas
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小川鈴語氣不重,但落點極準,「就像在快門前那樣。」62Please respect copyright.PENANA3BUtfvVU2u
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星野莉奈垂下雙肩。她不認為那是相同的東西。62Please respect copyright.PENANADd5RNgd9vt
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「Rina,我其實不想這麼說,因為太像在推著妳往前——但除了妳母親,我沒見過這麼有天份的模特兒。如果妳因此停下了,我會覺得很可惜。」62Please respect copyright.PENANAsWeMfCRHTn
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車子駛過十字路口,紅燈轉綠。62Please respect copyright.PENANA2fRUmvUIba
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星野莉奈垂下眼,沒有再說話。沒有點開訊息框,只是靜靜地握緊手機。62Please respect copyright.PENANAVAQeVj1WxM
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她心裡,有個聲音慢慢浮現:62Please respect copyright.PENANAS5ZLm8f4BR
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——我沒有要放棄。
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