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眨眼間,糸師冴已帶起一陣小小的勁風,左右嗑球從糸師凜身旁切過。56Please respect copyright.PENANAlOhrcsgY9G
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——好快。運球比在日本時俐落太多了。56Please respect copyright.PENANAVhUyh8tgnZ
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哥哥跟在日本時相比,已經是完全不同境界了⋯⋯56Please respect copyright.PENANApojbMZdGU2
但現在不是吃驚的時候。56Please respect copyright.PENANAdaRD1gViUb
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糸師凜一瞬間屏住呼吸,雙腳幾乎是本能地啟動,急切地追了上去。他不容許自己再落後。56Please respect copyright.PENANA90OpLvmUMJ
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——我要擋下來。56Please respect copyright.PENANAOBSJaXUyPd
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他擋在哥哥面前,感覺自己的心跳和寒氣混在一起,像是連體溫都被壓低了幾度。56Please respect copyright.PENANAu9vSGXQZoU
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糸師冴的球輕輕一撥,朝左側切出。56Please respect copyright.PENANAi1CKhqAyvs
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很好。他預判到了!56Please respect copyright.PENANA8XE7ksDDzq
他知道哥哥會從左側過來!那個節奏、那個角度、那個閃避方式——小時候在家門口練球,他就已經記熟了!56Please respect copyright.PENANAiB4R6C2jws
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哥哥從左側切入,腳步外閃內閃,他太熟悉了——從小就記得的節奏。56Please respect copyright.PENANAAAinozHizl
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他預判對了——56Please respect copyright.PENANAPZLGTLkOD1
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但下一秒,他才知道——他錯了,錯得太乾淨了。他連「破綻」的定義都搞錯了。56Please respect copyright.PENANA81pz4CdTYc
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糸師冴的身體微微晃了一下,讓人以為他會外切;下一秒,卻瞬間內閃轉身。56Please respect copyright.PENANA6F3wiAV82b
糸師凜的重心剛好壓在外側,等他想要調整時——已經來不及了。56Please respect copyright.PENANAZbrBFu0w1n
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哥哥那假動作,根本不是用來「騙」的。它只是用來「誘發錯覺」的——就像彈琴的人不需要真的踩下踏板,光是那一瞬的手指佈局,就足以讓你產生旋律已經轉調的錯覺。56Please respect copyright.PENANAjz7nUl94rE
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他根本沒看到哥哥什麼時候轉向的。56Please respect copyright.PENANAX0ygCn5t5y
只有球影一閃,耳邊風聲擦過,被人抽走了他自以為把握住的未來。56Please respect copyright.PENANAXezvpGn4G4
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他的腳還沒踏實,球已經不在眼前。56Please respect copyright.PENANAr33BeV42Zi
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下一秒,他看到哥哥的身影拉遠,像是整片雪地都順著他的步伐。56Please respect copyright.PENANASM46YbSBZP
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——不只是技巧的問題。56Please respect copyright.PENANADPATd8lnYs
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他感覺自己像是站在一條錯的樂譜上,看著一首根本沒學過的交響樂在眼前展開,而他甚至連第一個音符的讀法都還搞不清楚。56Please respect copyright.PENANAhfl7vpO9He
哥哥每一個動作都太流暢,像是經過無數次打磨過的語言,快得像從未停頓的句子。糸師冴沒有一絲遲疑,每個轉身、每次變向,都是提前思考好幾步的連鎖反應。56Please respect copyright.PENANABmpkbO8LI5
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他的本能,在哥哥面前,什麼都不是。56Please respect copyright.PENANAwRseoGgoVy
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他這才明白,他與哥哥之間的差距,不只是球速、不只是技巧——56Please respect copyright.PENANAbGhiS3iH5K
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——哥哥的運球是「從世界那邊帶回來的東西」。56Please respect copyright.PENANAgWwsok0jZT
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於是他慢了。他的所有一切,他的視野根本跟不上。56Please respect copyright.PENANABZ6AfdgoVO
他看似預判成功,但他不明白的是——那只是哥哥「讓」他預判的方向。56Please respect copyright.PENANAmrthzuCv9x
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他什麼都沒擋下。56Please respect copyright.PENANAlbLShS0gpj
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哥哥的球風早已融入世界級比賽的壓迫節奏;而他,無論多努力,都還沒真正踏出過那一步。56Please respect copyright.PENANAwQSuGqIJzk
他還沒有見過那種比賽的「速度」,本身是怎麼毀滅一切判斷的。他從沒參與過那樣的比賽,也沒遇過這樣的對手,所以他的反應永遠只會在「以為自己正確」的那一秒內崩潰。56Please respect copyright.PENANAs9zcaoV5pQ
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糸師冴的鞋底掃過混著雪的草地,乾淨俐落地收住了球,糸師凜連反應都來不及——56Please respect copyright.PENANA4rZuqwX7aM
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他只聽見鞋釘劃過濕草的聲音,還沒抬起腳,那顆球就已經不見了。56Please respect copyright.PENANAtZUMVsU5TJ
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他甚至沒能碰到一根鞋帶。56Please respect copyright.PENANA4awa18LvEd
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——這不是他記憶中的哥哥了。56Please respect copyright.PENANANc6H8yo8AS
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眼前這個人,帶球的時候根本沒在看對手,彷彿視線整場都貼著球道,而所有人只是他節奏中的障礙物——不會讓他改變路線,也不會成為理由。56Please respect copyright.PENANA0q1IfZpr9G
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糸師凜這四年學會的所有技巧,在這場雪裡,都成了毫無重量的紙片。56Please respect copyright.PENANAVVUXLRdVOM
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根本來不及碰到球,糸師冴已用腳背將球收停,轉身的動作快得像一道殘影。56Please respect copyright.PENANA3037GYeVyr
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——這就是現在的哥哥?真正見識過世界的水準⋯⋯56Please respect copyright.PENANAogKAPEUwrF
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哥哥早就超越他很多很多了。他完全沒有反應的空間。幾乎是照著本能,糸師凜再次從後面追著糸師冴跑。56Please respect copyright.PENANA7QQWbvzt79
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「——哥哥!」56Please respect copyright.PENANA1dr0g4WuXz
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距離禁區只差幾尺,糸師冴卻停了下來。56Please respect copyright.PENANAzbYOshziUO
糸師凜追上來,勉強撐住快要跪下的雙腿,慌亂地擋在哥哥面前。與其說是在防守,不如說只是弟弟想找哥哥講話。56Please respect copyright.PENANAUGWQgwi9hZ
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「為什麼、為什麼呀——哥哥!」56Please respect copyright.PENANACDnAY5BQSw
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糸師冴再次啟動。糸師凜下意識撐開身體,試圖封鎖路線。糸師冴蹲低身形,右腳輕勾——56Please respect copyright.PENANAL4NhmwIrkv
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「凜,我不在的這四年期間。」56Please respect copyright.PENANATvVosRYQ6E
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穿襠過人,球從糸師凜的雙腳之間輕盈掠過。56Please respect copyright.PENANAvINdDFb2CG
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聲音輕飄飄地落下時,哥哥早已越過他,直逼禁區。56Please respect copyright.PENANApmpEWwXibZ
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「——你都在日本做了什麼?」56Please respect copyright.PENANAxoAvsBpcCr
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啪——球網震動。56Please respect copyright.PENANABFhPFoXPOb
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贏了。哥哥贏了。56Please respect copyright.PENANA8nQyk0k1T2
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「結束了。」56Please respect copyright.PENANAUi4XJT5xE9
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糸師冴對糸師凜說。回頭時眼神清冷,語氣裡沒有一絲情緒,彷彿這一切只是例行公事。56Please respect copyright.PENANANYIcXI32jY
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糸師凜蹲坐在地上,胸口劇烈起伏。他望著哥哥幾乎沒有停下的背影,過去四年的畫面像是決堤般湧入腦海。56Please respect copyright.PENANACfrcRdOrrX
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——冬天早晨,自己一個人在操場上練體能,指尖凍到失去知覺還不肯停下來。56Please respect copyright.PENANA6OZdrciFfG
——他不參與任何社交。在所有人都離開後,堅持自己練習到夜半。56Please respect copyright.PENANAWSgFT00V6i
——那些日子裡,他一邊補上哥哥留下的空缺,一邊學著咬牙讓自己成為「球隊的支柱」。56Please respect copyright.PENANALXGYrYDZNo
——記者說他是「糸師冴的影子」,也說「即使是影子,也得發光才行」。56Please respect copyright.PENANA3Zbvdowsv5
——他把那些話都吞下去,一個字都沒反駁。他只告訴自己:56Please respect copyright.PENANAd0aaQxjYvi
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「再撐一下,哥哥會看到的——他會知道,我真的追上去了。」56Please respect copyright.PENANAFxYZye7Pem
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他不只一次地幻想過:某場比賽結束後,轉身看見熟悉的少年站在場邊,說一句「踢得不錯嘛,凜」。56Please respect copyright.PENANAiDMnHQMc77
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他以為只要自己夠努力,哥哥會以他為傲。會驕傲地說「不愧是我弟」。他們會並肩站上世界的賽場,一起迎向同一束聚光燈。56Please respect copyright.PENANAL12MheN8MY
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可剛剛發生的那一切,把這些年他撐起來的信念,一腳踩碎。56Please respect copyright.PENANAdhKUxDTB51
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糸師凜勉強地笑了一下,語氣裡卻沒有半點勝負的戲謔。56Please respect copyright.PENANAgpLVzI3KPP
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「哥哥,等一下⋯⋯」56Please respect copyright.PENANA0y4IKN8frd
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聲音輕得幾乎被風雪吞沒。56Please respect copyright.PENANAwkroaNtu1D
輸給哥哥,他沒話說。56Please respect copyright.PENANAiPcpW43U2u
因為他們本來就說好,是哥哥要成為世界第一。他只想——哪怕站在他身邊就好。56Please respect copyright.PENANAp6spvrdsCp
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「哥哥不在的時候,我非常努力。為了成為日本第一,跟哥哥一樣被挖角。」56Please respect copyright.PENANAfZmAczQkG9
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他抬起頭,看向那個他從小就仰望的身影,眼神不再只是崇拜。56Please respect copyright.PENANAEFo6Zik0uV
還多了點什麼。可能是痛,也可能是害怕。56Please respect copyright.PENANANsc6sIQMEs
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「我努力讓自己替代哥哥,為了球隊而戰⋯⋯」56Please respect copyright.PENANA7DrOUKgamt
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他咬著牙,不讓眼淚落下。但鼻音已經壓不住了。56Please respect copyright.PENANAJowe1yu7eb
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「我只是想——當你再回來的時候,我就能跟你說⋯⋯」56Please respect copyright.PENANA0sF48kbdyU
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比起落敗的失落,糸師凜的眼神更像是乞求。56Please respect copyright.PENANAGPIevDcakM
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「按照約定,我都做到了。我成為日本第一了——」56Please respect copyright.PENANA3MofARdkpb
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他慢慢垂下頭,做最後的掙扎。56Please respect copyright.PENANASPQ9OsNa0W
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這四年他很努力。一邊學著被肯定,一邊學著承擔從未有人教他怎麼承擔的東西。他拼命練習、拼命表現,背後卻永遠空著一個缺口。56Please respect copyright.PENANA7maoWJJ7ld
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——所以他拼命變成哥哥的身影。56Please respect copyright.PENANAbSrYNhvU9v
忍受沒有哥哥的球場,忍受那些了無生趣的比賽;他撐過一個人上場、撐過所有人的比較和嘲諷。56Please respect copyright.PENANAjgT6mbuaee
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只為了——和哥哥一起走到世界的球場上。56Please respect copyright.PENANAkbFfl7lrJO
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「我真的很努力啊,哥哥。」56Please respect copyright.PENANAFad1A4HeLj
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說出這句話時,聲音終於破碎了。56Please respect copyright.PENANAOKY8MRDpBW
他像是被時間抽空了一樣,整個人癱坐在雪地裡。56Please respect copyright.PENANA1UlstoyI11
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「我一直、一直都想——跟你一起踢球。如果不能一起的話,我就⋯⋯我就不知道,還有什麼理由繼續踢下去了⋯⋯」56Please respect copyright.PENANAtbJ9N4mUQ2
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頹然地坐在地上,他雙手無力垂放在身前,全身疲軟得像被一場太長的夢掏空了。56Please respect copyright.PENANAlTFiiAOFic
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雪一直落,落得更大了。56Please respect copyright.PENANA6lGkB1Dt8a
落在他肩膀上、落在他指尖上。56Please respect copyright.PENANALjay3TLENo
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「——那就放棄啊。」56Please respect copyright.PENANAScJegHr5aj
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這句話落下時,比雪還冷。56Please respect copyright.PENANAqg1tqqGPr1
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糸師凜猛地抬頭,眼睛瞪大,像是根本不敢相信自己聽見了什麼。56Please respect copyright.PENANAYKl4t6JBuH
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糸師冴站在雪中,沒有動。他的表情平淡得像霜結在眼角,眼神沒有任何光點。56Please respect copyright.PENANA6XWFg6GFiR
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「真無聊。你以為會被安慰嗎——白痴嗎你?」56Please respect copyright.PENANABltDwRa7t6
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起風了。風雪斜斜刮過兩人之間,擋不住哥哥寒風刺骨的表情。56Please respect copyright.PENANAFz4v30Z1mZ
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「什麼日本第一,什麼替代哥哥⋯⋯聽到我想吐。」56Please respect copyright.PENANALNntjTzmai
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語尾輕輕一斷,像是強忍太久的噁心情緒終於洩出來。56Please respect copyright.PENANAmIJWY7Tc3a
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「你只是運氣好,投胎成了我弟——」56Please respect copyright.PENANA59W9jwuzM3
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他像吐出壓抑太久的怨氣,語氣低而冷。56Please respect copyright.PENANADUmq93zg2Z
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「對我來說,你已經是個既礙眼又麻煩的弟弟了。」56Please respect copyright.PENANA8DMQchwf2S
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風雪更大了。56Please respect copyright.PENANACXaiwZQGgj
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「別再把我當你踢球的理由了。」56Please respect copyright.PENANAZeyGiyL3pN
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他經過糸師凜,腳步穩得像是已經計算好每一寸雪地的摩擦力。56Please respect copyright.PENANAGzhDkgQZxG
而他經過的那一刻,沒看弟弟一眼。56Please respect copyright.PENANAZMT91F2lqH
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「踢不好球的你,沒有任何價值。」56Please respect copyright.PENANA25ppFWMaTq
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糸師凜的心跳漏了一拍。56Please respect copyright.PENANAgGclRGFDo4
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「滾吧,凜。」56Please respect copyright.PENANA5DE9Jnh5CH
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那句話砸下去,像是一記釘子,釘在他支撐了四年的夢正中央。56Please respect copyright.PENANAoKtGTLOrmw
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糸師冴走向場邊,停在那只擱置在雪裡的行李箱前。他拉起手把,力道像是在拖動什麼沉重的東西。56Please respect copyright.PENANASFF0WMLJFA
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他站直時,回頭看了一眼。56Please respect copyright.PENANAybJ0tgQZvi
那一眼裡沒有恨,沒有怒,甚至沒有勝利者的快感——56Please respect copyright.PENANAL66fxXQLyK
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只有理智。56Please respect copyright.PENANAdozCXXklfo
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是壓抑過後、乾乾淨淨的理智,把所有遲疑都封死在眼底。56Please respect copyright.PENANA54xsYAot01
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「我的人生已經不需要你了。」56Please respect copyright.PENANArnmJLLw2sA
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那聲音一落下,雪驟然下大。56Please respect copyright.PENANAdG0jJpWdHn
風打在糸師凜的臉上,他卻沒轉身避開。56Please respect copyright.PENANAgIwPYZQd1G
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他努力了四年的夢,在那句話裡崩塌了。56Please respect copyright.PENANAmq6o6gn20y
他努力了四年的自己,被哥哥一句話,放棄了。56Please respect copyright.PENANAytbXwAB7Lo
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雪落進眼睛裡,他沒有擦掉。56Please respect copyright.PENANABvLrSUcMMU
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因為,那個會替他擦掉眼淚的哥哥——已經不在了。